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Chapter Fifteen

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BPOV

I had listened to my husband, my family all talk of their bloodlust in the years before becoming a 'vegetarian' as we liked to call it. I had came across the humans when I went out for my very first hunt and had been able to stop it so fast that I had not only impressed Edward, which for some reason I easily did even as a human, but I had impressed my entire family. I had even caused Jasper to question himself because of the amount of control I had shown. But this time was different for me. I had drank human donor blood during my pregnancy with Masen, I had craved it, but my instincts had never set in on me to retrieve it any other way than from a donor bag that Carlisle had managed to supply me. When Edward had told us we had to leave the cafeteria, I never questioned it, neither did Emmett and Rosalie. I had almost made it out of there and then I smelled it. The fresh flow of hot, human blood. I had never smelled anything so appealing. It wasn't so much the scent or the sweetness of the blood, but the warmth. I had never drank warm human blood. Not once. I had killed not one human. Besides the donor blood, my record was close to that of Carlisle's and Rosalie's. I froze and quit breathing but I could feel the snarl about to leave my lips, I could feel my lips pull back and exposing my teeth.

I wanted to cringe but at the same time I wanted to feed. I would never hurt a human. That had been my vow and my want from day one and I had succeeded. I knew that my family, my Edward, wouldn't let me hurt anyone but my mind had given over to instinct and I was scared. It was more about what if they hadn't been there than that they had been there. I of course did not try to fight when Emmett and Rosalie took a hold of me. I was glad they had as I didn't know if Edward would be able to stop me. He would never harm me and that is what it would have probably had taken if I hadn't gotten out of there when I did.

I couldn't speak on our way home. I was shocked and in despair about the course my actions almost took. It would have devastated Carlisle and Esme if I had slipped. I knew Edward and our siblings would forgive me. I knew that Jasper would make me feel better and would have plenty of words of wisdom to give me. It would have devastated my children, my son-in-law. When we arrived home, I could not bare to tell our parents what I had almost done. I was so embarrassed that my self control had falter so much. Of course I had Edward do it and they reassured me all was fine and that was primarily what we were, but I had not given in and I was going to be fine. I knew that was what they would say. Edward later reassured me their thoughts showed they meant it and were proud of me for being able to move forward and leave that cafeteria.

When Alice and Jasper reappeared, I was in such a shape, I hadn't even noticed. If Rosalie hadn't begun to berate our sister, I may would have never noticed. My thoughts were elsewhere. I had tuned everyone out and was not listening. Only Edward was able to break the barrier. My Edward who was so sure of me. I felt as if I had let him down. The one thing he had said he didn't want for me was to be a monster and I came so close to breaking him down. I could tell that he was hurt. I never would hurt my Edward. He was my reason for existing.

Alice explained her reasoning behind leaving us out of her plan of action. The woman had come back and Alice had seen a vision of her killing me. Alice assured us that the woman's course changed as I was not there. But why me? Why did I always attract the sadist immortals? I wouldn't know. It was my burden but it became my family's.

Edward insisted we move forward, insisted on going to school the next day. He and I joined our parents in the forest to hunt. I had to hunt before going to school again. I hadn't been all that thirsty when I had went to school that morning, we had just hunted recently. But after smelling the human blood, I needed relief. My throat had never stopped burning. I satiated myself with most of the first herd of deer we saw, my husband and parents stepping aside so that I could be sure that I was full. I knew that I had myself under control and would be able to return without putting everyone at risk before we had went into the forest, but I wasn't about to take any chances.

We pulled into what had become our usual parking space. Alice leaned across the seat and lightly brought her hand down on my forearm, "All will be fine today, Bella," Alice smiled. "I've seen it. Though, be prepared for Andrew. He is going to be above and beyond today."

I returned Alice's smile as we made our way to the school. The first few classes went by quickly. There was a lot of talk of the poor girl who had almost became my lunch. Jennifer was her name and she had ended up with nine stitches. She had done more than prick her finger as I had when Jasper nearly attacked me on my eighteenth birthday. Hearing her name sent me into more grief. For me, if I had a name with the face, the person became more real, more human to me. Edward noticed my weariness and brought his hand around my shoulders. He smiled at me the smile that always left my heart fluttering when I was a human. His reassurance always made things better.

Edward had kissed me and tore off in the direction of his next class, leaving me standing by my locker. Just as I was about to turn to walk away, I nearly knocked Andrew Newton to the ground. He was standing inches from me as I had turned, already walking forward. "Oh, I'm sorry," I mumbled and began to make my way around him.

I felt his warm human hand grasp my shoulder. His touch made me shudder in pure disgust. I didn't want anyone's hands touching any part of me other than my Edward. "You have a minute, Bella?" he asked. His lips were trying to form more words and I was trying my best to leave. I tried to pretend I didn't hear him, though if he knew my hearing's capabilities, he wouldn't have believed me. Obviously, he didn't believe me anyway. "I just want to talk to you for just a second."

I glanced down at the watch on my wrist, my last gift from Charlie before he left this world. "Okay," I said. I looked at my wrist once again. "Time's up." I couldn't help but be a bit sarcastic.

Instead of being annoyed with me, he laughed. "You've got quite a sense of humor there, Bella." After he finished laughing, he continued. "Really, I was thinking I could talk to you for just a minute. I promise, I wont make you late."

Well, he took my next excuse from me. I had just been about to tell him I was going to be late. I wished at that moment that I could read minds. "What's on your mind?"

Andrew smiled smugly. He was finally getting his way. "So, you are new to town and I was thinking maybe I could take you around the town sometime and show you the sights."

I could see his nervousness in his approach and I could smell his fear. Fear of being rejected. Well, he should have went with his gut because here I go. "Andrew, you are a nice guy I'm sure, and I'm sure you would make a great tour guide, but I'm with Edward. I'm one hundred percent with Edward."

I watched as Andrew's eyes fell then lit up again as he had obviously thought of something else he wanted to say. "Well, you know, we are young. You sure probably try out hanging with another guy sometime, to you know, make sure you really want to be with him like that. I'd be the perfect gentlemen."

I couldn't help but let my chuckle leave my throat. I wasn't trying to laugh in his face, but he didn't realize that he was having similar conversations with the same woman his grandfather had had the same discussions. "Really, Andrew, I'm sure you would be great, but I'm with Edward. We are very serious. We are getting married after graduation and I have no need or interest in, uh, trying to hang with anyone other than him. Plus, we have already explore Forks."

Andrew was at a loss for words. He didn't know what to say to my reply and I could sense that even though I wasn't a mind reader. Just as he was about to say something else, Edward, my mind reader was there. "Bella, love, is there a problem here?" he questioned me, with a smirk on his face. Even if there had been a problem, I would have been able to handle it alone and he knew it, but Edward had to let this poor human boy know that he was stepping on toes.

I smiled at Edward and then nodded at Andrew, "No problem at all, Edward. Andrew was just leaving."

On my cue, Andrew nodded and went doggedly around us. He had almost made it around Edward when he suddenly turned around. "Oh, by the way, I wanted to apologize again for my grandfather." I looked at Edward who had a bit of a smirk on his face still. He was glaring at Andrew but was about to laugh aloud. Whatever Andrew was thinking, I would have to find out from Edward later. I could tell Andrew was trying to act as if our prior conversation hadn't just occurred and was talking in such a way that he thought Edward wouldn't realize he had been trying to get a date out of his 'girlfriend'. Andrew looked at me and laughed slightly. "Grandfather has went on and on about how you look just like the Bella he once loved. And he even says that you look like her boyfriend back then. He is convinced we are in the twilight zone. Crazy old guy. I do seriously mean it, I'm sorry. Oh, and the funny thing is, he called one of his friends from back in his high school days."

I looked to Edward and Edward's smirk vanished from his face. "He's old, Andrew. Its really okay," he said. "No apologies necessary."

"Thanks," Andrew said, sounding sincerely grateful. "The old man though is convinced. He called his dear friend and upset the old lady. Ms. Angela thinks he is crazy too."

Andrew walked away and I stood there in disbelief. I looked at Edward and his face too was different. "Angela is alive too?" was all the words I could get to leave my mouth. I was in disbelief. Maybe old Mike Newton wasn't too crazy after all.