294 without all this...i was wrong.
i was also wrong. you get 4. the next chapter, after 8 (so, to put it simply, 9) will be 3077 words. :D so, there ya go. they get longer. promise. these just have to be short.
i feel really bad, but it's necessary.
i was wrong. you get one more. ;)
07. Going Under: Evanescence
September . . . .
Once again, more lies.
Bella got mad at me, a lot. She said I was just wasting my life away over a piece of shit vampire who was doing me a favor. Of course, she didn't understand that her theory was only half of what was wrong with me.
She just didn't get it.
Note to, well, you. Don't fall into the trap of pretending everything's fine when you know it isn't, because sometimes, it hurts more to smile in front of everyone than to cry all alone.
Wanna know the worst part about September? I started dating Jared. Why? I wanted to verify that Edward and I were meant to be. I wanted to see if it was possible to move on. I wanted to try and find someone to be there for me when no one else was.
Wanna know what happened next? That's right, ladies and gentlemen. Just when he promised to always be there for me, the bastard imprinted.
Guess where that left me. All alone, again. Not only was I alone, but I was alone and guilty. I had cared for Jared before meeting Edward, but I never really acknowledged it. Now, in a way, I cheated on Edward. Of course, he could and would never get mad about it, but I did. Not only that, I found that moving on was literally impossible.
It just wasn't right.
Oh, then, there was even more tearing away at the mess of microscopic pieces in my chest I had left to call my heart.
Is there a place farther than the place farther than hell? Because it seems to me that I just keep going farther and farther away from the light . . . .