(a/n)OMG I know this is inexcusablylate but I had SUCH BAD writers block I'm so sorry! I'll try make it as long as possible Xx
PS My fave Mamma mia song is in this chapter ;)
Stephanie Meyer Owns twilight
Chapter 13. Slipping through my fingers
NPOV
I stalked around the courtyard, barking out instructions. I wasn't in the best of moods. Suddenly, I felt cold hands grasp my shoulders and shake me lightly.
"Hey, hey, hey! Nessie!" Mum cried. She tried to capture my gaze but I refused to return her stare. But eventually, like always, she won my glare.
"What? What do you want?" I snapped.
"Are you ok? What happened last night?" She asked softly. I sobbed and collapsed into her ready arms.
"I don't know what to do." I whispered.
"I see. I get it. You don't have to do anything." She soothed. What?
"You do?" I snuffled.
"Of course. If it's what you want. It's not too late too call off the wedding…"
"No! No!" Sudden realisation streamed through my mind. I saw complete red. "No! That's what you want!" I shook my head in disgust.
"No darling…no!" Mum protested weakly.
"Yes! That's all you wanted all along. Oh my god! How did I not realise! You wanted me stay here my whole life and have a child, who spends her whole life not knowing who dad is! That's not me mum! That's you!" I almost screamed. I could see mum lose her temper, it was obvious from the blaring pools of fire in her eyes.
"Why? Why do you need a father! I'm not trying to prevent you doing anything!" She yelled. I shook my head once again and stomped away. How could she?
I stormed down the harbour and stopped short at our honey-moon boat where Jake and some friends were decorating the boat with flowers.
"Hey Ness, what's up…" He trailed off seeing my expression.
"I need to talk to you!" I cried, and I ran away. He followed briskly shouting;
"Nessie? Ness! What's the matter?" We reached the top of the hill where trees shaded us from the blaring sun.
"Jake! I'm in such a mess! I've invited three of my fathers to my wedding and everyone's mad at me and I've asked them all to give me away and they all think they are my real dad when I really don't know!" I shrieked.
"Hold up, Hold up. Nessie? You invited your dad to our wedding, and you didn't tell me?"
"Yes! Please don't be mad!"
"I'm not mad! I'm disappointed. And I thought we discussed this! You said none of this mattered. Just us! I was travelling, and I put everything on hold, just for you!"
"I'm sorry, I'm sorry Jake! I just couldn't live anymore without knowing who my dad was!" I exclaimed.
"Wait, wait. Renesmee? Was that what this whole big white wedding was about? Just to find your dad! We could've easily had a box office wedding but you insisted on this! Just for your dad!" He made a sickened sound. My stomach twisted in remorse.
"I'm sorry Jake! I regret it I really do. I'm so sorry!" I cried. He looked at me with a hard stare before walking away.
"Wait! Do you still love me?" I called.
"Of course I still love youI'm just disappointed." He replied coldly, before continuing on his away. Edward suddenly appeared from no where, sweating and panting. The climb seemed to have been a struggle for him. Jake stopped in his path, glaring at Edward for a long time. Edward looked back, sympathetically. Eventually Jacob ran off, and Edward joined me. I felt a tiny tear tumble down my cheek. Edward wiped it away with a swish of his little finger.
"Nessie…" He began.
"Don't. Say. Anything." I interrupted before running away from him. He was the last person I wanted to be with right now.
BPOV
It'd been about an hour since mine and Nessie's argument, and the remorse completely had me now. I sat on one of the many wicker chairs where Nessie's reception was supposed to be. Suddenly out of nowhere, Nessie was standing in front of me panting. I sprang out of my seat.
"Hey! Hey! Aren't you supposed to be getting ready? I thought Bree and Jane where going to help you." I murmured. She sighed.
"Will you help me?" She whispered.
"Me? O… Ok." I mumbled. She sped away. I chuckled slightly under my breath.
"Wait! Wait. We have time." I murmured.
I went into her room. She was looking in the mirror playing with her hair. I looked at her fondly.
Slipping through my fingers
Bella:Schoolbaginhand,
She leaves home
In the early morning
Waving goodbye,
With an absent minded smile.
I watch her go
With a surge
Of that well known sadness
And I have to sit down for a while
The feeling that I'm losing her forever
And without really entering her world
I'm glad whenever I can share her laughter
That funny little girl
Slipping through my fingers
All the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers
All the time
Do I really see what's in her mind?
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers
All the time
Sleep in our eyes
Her and me at the breakfast table
Barely awake
I let the precious time go by
Then when she's gone
There's that odd
Melancholy feeling
And a sense of guilt I can't deny
What happened to the wonderful adventures?
The places I had planned for us to go
Well, some of that we did
But most we didn't
And why I just don't know.
Slipping through my fingers
All the time
I try to capture every minute
The feeling in it
Slipping through my fingers
All the time
Do I really see what's in her mind?
Each time I think I'm close to knowing
She keeps on growing
Slipping through my fingers
All the time
Nessie: Do you think I'm letting you down?
Bella: Why would you even think that?
Nessie: Oh, Because of what you've done! I mean the Dynamos, Raising a kid, and running a business! All on your own!
Bella: Well honey, I didn't have a choice. I couldn't go home! You know? When I got pregnant, my mother told me not to bother coming back. And I wouldn't of had it any other way, my god look what we've had!
Nessie: Will you give me away?
Bella: …Y…yeah. Ok.
Bella/Nessie:
Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture
And save it from the funny tricks of time
Slipping through my fingers
(a/n) Love it, Love it, LOVE IT! Lol, I hoped you like it and I'm sorry again for such a LATE update, I will try to pick up the pace now, also it's half term this week so I should hopefully be able to update at some point, so until then…Laters ;) Xx
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