Chapter 19

"Everything is perfect."

"What was Charlie talking about then? You were grounded?" Edward asked, confused.

"Kind of, it's a long story," I sighed.

"Well I have all of eternity, you can explain it."

"I don't have that, I have my short human life," I teased him. Then it hit me. I would grow old in my human body and Edward would stay this gorgeous looking seventeen year old. One day, I would die and Edward would stay in this world, existing without me. Maybe it was selfish, but I didn't want him to be without me, and I sure as hell didn't want to leave him.

I think he realised what a mess this relationship was going to be, as well. The human and the vampire, never truly being able to exist together naturally. This put down my mood, as I stared into Edward's face. He looked in pain.

"What's wrong?" I asked.

"I don't know how I will live without you. Ever."

"There could be a solution." I hesitated. It had played on my mind ever since I knew what Edward was. But would I be able to live without my friends an family. The answer was yes, if it meant spending eternity with Edward.

"You could turn me."

If Edward was human, then all the blood would have drained from his face. He actually looked visibly paler, if that was even possible. He began to shake his head repeatedly.

"No, no, no, that is not something you want, Bella, nobody wants this." He kept shaking his head, as if he couldn't believe that I thought that this was my solution.

"Why not? Are you telling me that you have never thought about what life would be like with me as a vampire? Am I not good enough?"

"Of course you are. It's just that I would never wish this life on my worst enemy, never mind the love of my life." He smiled sadly at me. "And you have no idea how excruciatingly painful the process is, it's the worst feeling you will ever know in your life."

I looked at him, intrigued. "Tell me more about the process."

He realised that he had made a massive mistake by starting to tell me about the process, it had just made me more interested. He sighed and continued.

"Well it's not that fancy, all you need is for a vampire to bite you."

"Is that it?" It sounded so simple. I thought maybe there had to be an elaborate ritual or something. "I think I could take the pain of someone biting me, Edward."

"No, it's not the bite." He looked at me intensely. "It's the vampire venom. It curses through your veins, killing all your cells inside. It burns, Bella, like a furnace inside your body. It burns you from the inside out. You organs roar with pain. Your body convulses like it's trying to put out the fire, but nothing works. Your mind screams in agony, as you slowly die. You die for around two days, the worst two days in your entire existence."

His face was up against mine, and he was breathing heavy, as if it was hard for him to relive the memory.

"I don't want that for you," he whispered in my ear.

I have to admit, the story did scare me a little, but nothing would put me off spending the rest of the time convincing Edward that this is what we should do.

"If two days of absolute pain means that I can spend the rest of the time we will have with you then that is the price I'm willing to pay," I told him reasonably. "It won't be as painful as if I stay human and have to die for real, knowing that I could only see your face for one last time. And what would you do then?" I said smugly. I thought I had managed to win the argument.

"I would kill myself." He said it so simply that it frightened me. The fact he would commit suicide because I wasn't in the world was terrible.

"You can't do that!" I leant back, shocked. "Promise me you will never do that!"

"I can't live without you, so I can't make any promises."

"You wouldn't have to live with out me if you turned me."

"A no is a no, Bella."

I got up and sulked over to the window. I was in a mood, he wasn't seeing the reasonable side of things.

Outside, it was already quite dark. There were no clouds in the sky, which was highly unusual. I could see the stars twinkling in the pitch dark, like a million fireflies flitting around in the air. The moon was huge and full, like the mother of all the stars, watching over everything. It was a really beautiful night. I smiled and lowered my eyes to look at the woods just in front of my window. Something had caught my eye, but I didn't know what it was. Then all of a sudden, I picked out a pair of huge yellow eyes staring at me. I gasped, and then rubbed my eyes, not quite believing what I was seeing. Edward was right over by my shoulder looking out.

"What is it?" He was scanning the woods for some kind of life.

I blinked and looked back at the spot where the eyes had been. They were gone. Maybe I was hallucinating. "I thought I saw… never mind, it couldn't have been."

"What did you see?"

"A pair of huge yellow eyes, like ones of an animal," I explained.

He frowned and looked back into the night. "Well if you did see something, it's gone now."

He continued to look out for a few more minutes, before giving up and looking back to me.

"So how about some sleep then?"

"Edward, it isn't even half eight yet."

"Oh yeah."

We stood there awkwardly. Then Edward broke the silence.

"I was wondering if you wanted to come and meet the family on Saturday. I know they are dieing to meet you. It's all Alice will go on about, how you two will be best friends. And she knows these things, with her being psychic and all."

"Sure, why not! What could be more fun than walking into a house of vampires voluntarily," I joked.

"Maybe it isn't such a good idea then…"

"Stop worrying! Jeez can you not go five minutes without panicking? I would love to meet your family."

We continued to talk for ages until I started to get tired. I told him about my life in Arizona and he told me about his human life that he could remember. I fell asleep in his arms again.

Edward woke me up with a kiss. "Morning, beautiful."

Hearing his voice call me beautiful gave me shivers. "Morning."

"So, I need to go and get my car and such and I will pick you up soon. Have a lovely morning." He leant down and kissed my head.

I quickly spun round and looked at him before he could jump out the window.

"Wait!" He stopped and looked round at me. "I'm not going to school today."

"What? Why not?" he asked, puzzled.

"I'm going to see my Mom in Seattle. Just for the one day though. I'll be back tonight." I smiled.

He wasn't smiling back.

"I can't protect you in Seattle. I should follow you."

"Edward, I don't need protecting all the time. I will be fine one day on my own. And anyway, you shouldn't miss school."

"I have repeated school over and over, one day doesn't matter."

"This is a day for me and my mom, you don't need to be there. I will be perfectly safe," I reassured him.

"If you're sure," he looked uncertain.

"Yes I'm sure. Now scram, I need to get ready for my Mom coming."

"Ok, see you tonight." He came over and kissed me lightly on the lips. "That was because I don't get to see you as soon as I thought."

I giggled as he jumped out the window.

I turned to my closet and raided through my clothes. I wondered what she would want me to wear. I ran for a quick shower as a I was running late. When I came out, I decided on a black pencil skirt and a white blouse. I teamed it with a pair of patterned tights and heels. My hair was put up into a messy bun and light makeup with red lip gloss was applied. I grabbed my purse and shoved in my necessities. I rushed to the stairs then walked carefully on the stairs. There was a honk of a horn and I rushed to the door to see my mom's limo.

"Come on, darling! Times a-ticking!" She laughed at me.

I smiled. I loved my mom.

A/N - Sorry this isn't as long. And I am sorry I haven't updated recently. But here it is, I hope you enjoy. Please read and review!