I own over 50 eyeliners, liquid and pencil, in varying colours. They're very awesome. I even have one which changes colour as you sharpen it and a glow in the dark one. I've had some fun with that one - drawing on peoples faces at sleepovers and waiting till we turned the lights out for everyone to see my geniusnous. What I haven't had fun with is the rights to Twilight. Because I don't own them and I don't own this.
I found my pendrive! (obviously)
Warning: this chapter contains things that may offend (I'm not going to say what or it'll ruin it) sorry if it upsets you or whatever.
Bella's point of view:
I sat on a swing in the beaten up park on the rough side of town. I knew none of the family liked me coming here but it was the only place I could truly think. I heard the rattle of chains as someone sat on the swing next to me and looked across, expecting to see a very pissed off Edward. I gasped when I realized who it was.
'Miss me?' Jamie asked, a sneer on his face. I recovered myself and replied with out thinking.
'Now tell me, why the hell would I miss that ugly face of yours?' I asked. I saw his rage grow.
'I think you're being exceptionally rude B. I asked you out nicely and you just spat it back in my face. Not to mention you knocked me out twice, broke my jaw, knocked a few teeth out and god knows what else,' he said angrily.
'I told you I didn't like you in that way. How is that spitting it back in your face? What would you rather I did? Go on one date with you then break it off?' I asked him.
'No. You should have accepted my date then kept your mouth shut like any good girlfriend would,' he said and I snorted, sexist bastard.
'I'm sorry but I'm not one for controlling relationships,' I laughed. He stood up off his seat suddenly and grabbed my face.
'Shut up. You'll be quiet and submissive like a good girlfriend as well,' he told me and threw me on the floor. He pinned my arms to the ground and straddled me so I couldn't move. He took one of his hands away, holding both my wrists in his left hand and ripped my clothes from me. Soon I was lying underneath him in my underwear and his eyes were alight with lust. I struggled against his hold but he slapped my face and I spat in his face. He slapped me again before removing my underwear and his clothes. Then he pushed himself into me. I screamed in a mixture of horror and pain and he shoved his hand in my mouth to silence me. He thrust in and out a few more times, his eyes glazing over in pleasure. I bit into his hand as hard as I could, retching at the taste of his blood. He cried out in shock and hit me in the face. I ignored the pain and used the fact he had taken his hand away from my mouth as an opportunity.
'Somebody help! He's raping me! Somebody please!' I screeched as loud as I could. I heard running and then he was pulled away from me. I wrapped my cardigan around myself and looked up at my saviour. There was a guy in jeans and a t-shirt holding Jamie back and another guy looking at me, worried.
'Are you okay miss?' He asked, his voice full of concern. I pulled my underwear on quickly and nodded.
'Yeah. Thank you. So much. I don't know what else he would have done if you hadn't pulled him away,' I said, my voice full of gratitude. Jamie started yelling at me.
'Why the fuck did you scream, bitch?' He screamed at me. I winced at the malice in his voice. I pulled my shorts and vest on as well and walked over to him as calmly as I could.
'Because when I said no yesterday I meant no. And you better get yourself a good lawyer because I'm pressing charges,' I told him, my voice full of venom. I looked at the guy holding him down and smiled. 'Thank you. I'm so grateful.' I turned to the other guy. 'Of both of you. I don't know many people that would actually help,' I said. They smiled at me.
'No problem. We couldn't just stand by, now could we?' The guy that had helped me said with a slight smile.
'Bella!' I heard and I looked up. Edward and Emmett were sprinting over to me as fast as they could. Emmett went to the guy holding Jamie down and Edward came to me. He took my face in his hands. 'Are you okay? What did he do?' Edward demanded. I shook his hands of my face so I could speak.
'He... He...' I stumbled over my words, unsure of what to say. 'Lets put it this way, I'm not exactly a virgin anymore,' I told him and Emmett looked up at me.
'What did you say?' He boomed then looked back at Jamie who was cowering on the ground. 'I told you yesterday not to touch her again. You barged into our house and attacked Bella, no consideration or respect whatsoever and today you raped her!?! You're lucky you're still alive!' He yelled, grabbing Jamie's shirt and pulling him up roughly. Edward wrapped his arms around me.
'I'm sorry. I'm sorry we took so long getting here. We would've been faster if we knew you were in trouble,' he said sincerely. I smiled at him.
'It's okay. These guys pulled him off of me,' I said gesturing to the two guys who were standing back slightly. Edward looked up then shook their hands.
'Thank you. I couldn't forgive myself if Bella got seriously hurt. I owe you. Is there anything we can do for you?' Edward asked. The guys laughed.
'Well, now you mention it, we could do with a new house- no I'm just kidding! We're happy to help. We couldn't just ignore her screaming,' the guy reached in his pocket and pulled out a piece of paper. 'Here. My numbers on there. If you take this guy to court and need any witnesses or whatever just give us a call,' he smiled, passing the paper to Edward. 'We'll be on our way now. I hope you're okay,' the guy said to me with a slight smile then they wandered off in whatever direction they came from. Edward and Emmett switched from the laidback front they'd been putting on to pure rage. Emmett looked up at me.
'What are we doing with him Bells?' He asked, his fist raised slightly. Edward put his arm around my shoulder and pulled me close to him.
'You can beat the bastard to a bloody pulp for all I care as long as I get one hit in first,' I told him and Emmett chuckled.
'That's my girl,' he said then gestured for me to continue. Jamie trembled slightly as I walked forward but I placed my hands on his shoulders comfortingly.
'Jamie...' I sighed in a sweet innocent girly voice. Jamie looked at me confused.
'What is it B?' He asked suspiciously. I brought my knee straight up between his legs as hard as I could and heard a very satisfying crunch. Jamie screamed and dropped to the floor, writhing in agony.
'That's for treating me like I was dirt,' then I kicked him hard in the stomach. He vomited. 'And that's for raping me,' I growled. Jamie was whimpering in pain and I turned and walked away in my very cute purple wedges. Emmett cheered.
'Bells! Did you hear the crunch when you kneed him?' He asked excitedly. I nodded with a strange sure-he's-not-crazy smile on my face. 'That means he's never gonna be able to have kids!' He said excitedly and I laughed. Edward put his arm around me and led me to the Volvo which was on the side of the pavement. Emmett followed us, leaving Jamie on the floor, crippled. Edward said I got shotgun so I climbed into the front, Emmett sliding in the back and Edward getting in the drivers seat. Edward kissed my forehead, then started up the engine, taking us home.
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It was exactly three weeks since Jamie had raped me and everyone except Alice had gone for a hunting trip. I woke up and groaned. I had missed my period so I would probably be on this week and I really couldn't be bothered. Then I jumped up and ran into the bathroom, bringing up everything I had eaten recently. Alice knocked on the bathroom door then wandered in. She held my hair out my face and rubbed my back until I was finished being sick. Then she went rigid with a vision. I stood up and rinsed my mouth out with mouthwash, eyeing her carefully until she started to move again. Her head swung to me and she stared at me open mouthed.
'Oh my god, Bella,' she darted out the room and returned with a pair of jeans. I had a baggy white hoodie on that I had slept in last night and I pulled on the jeans she had handed my, confused. 'Bella. Find whatever shoes you can put on quickest and get in the Porsche,' she whispered and I slipped on some black flats. She picked me up in her arms and rushed me downstairs into her Porsche before I could say anything. Before I really knew what had happened we were at the Wal-mart. Alice pulled me straight inside and picked up a random box not letting me see anything. Then she was paying for it and shoving me into one of the cubicles in the local girls bathrooms. She threw the box at me and I caught it looking down. The box read in clear, bold letters: HOME PREGNANCY TEST.
'Please tell me this isn't what you had a vision of,' I whispered dumbly. Alice just nodded and closed the door. I did what I had to then walked out the cubicle, leaving the stick to work it out. I washed my hands and after five minutes I picked it up. The little pink cross was etched clearly into the screen and my hand flew up to my mouth. A tear leaked from the corner of my eye and Alice pulled me into her cold embrace.
'It's okay, Bella. We'll work through this as a family. You aren't on your own, okay?' She asked and I nodded, the tears flowing freely now. 'Come on, lets get you home,' she said leading me back to the car. I threw the stupid test in the trash and wiped my face with my fingertips, trying to calm myself down. Alice started the engine and drove home as fast as she could. She carried me into my room and put me on my bed. I pulled my knees up to my chest and rocked myself back and forth while Alice held me, on the phone to Carlisle at the same time. She said good-bye and hung up. Neither of us spoke for a few minutes.
'What do we do now Alice?' I asked her and she soothed me.
'I can see three options right now. You can keep it and we'll all help you look after the baby and raise it. You can give birth and give it up for adoption. Or you can get a ... an ...' Alice couldn't bring herself to say the last word but I knew what she meant. Abortion.
'I don't know what to do but I'll have the baby. Whether I keep it or not after that I'm not sure,' I whispered. Alice nodded.
'Everyone will be back in ten minutes. You need to tell them,' she said and I buried my head in my knees.
'They'll be angry at me. They'll think I'm a slut or something,' I cried and Alice soothed me again.
'No they won't. It's not your fault that Jamie raped you. If it's anyone's fault it's mine for not seeing him rape you in the first place,' her voice was heavy and I realized just how hard she was being on herself.
'Alice. It. Is. Not. Your. Fault. It's all Jamie's fault. Not yours okay?' I told her sternly and she nodded. I smiled slightly then I heard the front door open and close.
'Alice? Bella? Where are you? You said you needed to talk,' Carlisle shouted, for my benefit more than anyone else's. They could hear even if he whispered.
'We're in Bella's room. Can you bring everybody up?' She asked and a second later everyone was in my room. 'Go on Bella,' Alice encouraged gently. I opened my mouth to speak then broke down again.
'I can't Alice. Will you tell them please?' I asked, drying my eyes on my jeans. Alice nodded and gave me a hug.
'I had a vision this morning and it shocked me. Bella and I went straight to the Wal-mart to check it out. It turns out that ummm ... Well, Jamie got Bella pregnant,' she said quietly and everyone looked at me for a second. Then they all seemed to come back to life at the exact same time.
'What!?! Alice tell me it isn't true!' Edward roared. Esme covered her mouth with her hand and shook her head. Jasper and Emmett started to snarl and Rosalie came over and hugged me. Only Carlisle kept his calm and he came and sat in front of me.
'Bella,' he said quietly, lifting my hands in his. 'We need to make sure this is true. I'm assuming the test said positive,' he said quietly and I nodded dumbly into my legs. 'Okay. And when was your last period?' He asked me.
'Five weeks ago,' I mumbled. Rosalie hugged me tighter.
'And have you been feeling weird at all? Getting sick? Having cravings?' He asked and I nodded. 'Okay, you need to tell me what,' he said softly and I lifted my head up to look him in the eyes.
'I've been feeling weird for the past week and I was sick this morning,' I told him and he nodded.
'I'd say you're pregnant,' he told me and I looked at him, my eyes welling with tears slightly.
'I'm sorry! I'm really, really sorry! I didn't mean for it to happen or anything!' I cried, a few of the tears spilling over the edge of my eyelids.
'It's okay sweetie. You couldn't help it,' he said and I nodded. 'Do you know what you're going to do?' He asked and I shook my head.
'I'm not sure but I'm not getting an abortion,' I told him firmly. He smiled.
'I didn't think you would,' he said with a slight smile. Rosalie and Alice continued to comfort me and Edward, Emmett and Jasper continued to try and subdue their anger. I glanced at the clock. It was five am. Wait, what? I looked closer and it said Friday. I groaned and stood up.
'Okay, everyone out. I need to get ready for school now,' I said and they all hurried out.
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Edward dropped me off and I kissed his cheek as always.
'If anything happens give me a ring okay? I don't care how small it is, even if you just get a craving for something okay?' He said and I nodded. He kissed my forehead. 'Okay then. Be a brave girl. Bye,' he said and pulled out the parking lot. I walked into school and was swarmed by Charlie, Lilly, Rob and Richard.
'Bella! Are you okay!?! You ran off and then you haven't been in school for like, a month!' They all cried and I laughed.
'Yeah, I'm fine. I have to tell you all something at lunch but where's Jamie?' I asked nervously.
'We haven't spoken to him since you ran off. He had no right to treat you like that!' Charlie said and I looked around. I couldn't see Jamie anywhere and I sighed in relief.
'Okay. Shall we go?' I asked and we all linked arms like normal and walked in.
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We were all sat at your normal lunch table talking and laughing. Everyone had picked up lunch except for me because I just couldn't bring myself to eat it. Charlie looked at me.
'What were you going to tell us?' She asked kindly and I sighed.
'Okay, so this is kinda a long-ish story so bear with me,' I said and they all nodded. 'Okay so I went home and after school Jamie came round to my house. He burst in with no consideration for the fact it was my house and hit me in the face really hard. My cheek split open and I had to get stitches. But don't worry 'cause I punched him back, knocked him out, broke his jaw, knocked a load of teeth out and nearly snapped his neck,' I said and they all chuckled slightly. 'Anyhoo, so some other bits happened that don't really matter ATM and I went down to that little park - you know the one I mean? on the rough side? - to think. Jamie turns up and starts having a go at me then he...' I sobbed and covered my face with my hands. Charlie and Lilly both slid across to rub my back and make sure I was okay.
'It's okay. You don't have to tell us if you don't want to,' Lilly told me and I smiled.
'I kinda need too y'know,' they all smiled at me. 'He... Oh god, why can't I just do an Alice and say it? Okay, I'm just going to come right out and say it ... He,' I scrunched my eyes shut for a second and took a deep breath. 'He raped me,' I told them and they all gasped.
'B, honey, it's okay we're here for you,' Charlie said and her and Lilly gave me a hug.
'I'm going to beat his brains in next time I see him,' Rob swore, trembling slightly.
'I'm with you on that, bro. I'll kick his fucking teeth in,' Richard swore and I looked down at my hands.
'That's not it ... He-' I started but was interrupted.
'B, you're back. I thought I told you that you couldn't sit here,' Jamie said in a I'm-so-happy-you're-here-not tone. I stood up and so did everyone else.
'Jamie, how's your dick? Able to have kids still?' I asked him sweetly and he winced.
'I'm going to kill you for that. Thanks to you I'm not able to have children any more and I won't be able to have sex for the next five years,' he told me and I laughed.
'Serves you right,' I told him and realized everyone else was looking at me. 'Oh, yeah. See, these random guys pulled him off me then Edward and Emmett arrived. The guys left and Emmett was all for beating him to a bloody pulp but I said I'd rather do it. I kicked him very hard downstairs and accidentally disabled his reproductive shizzle,' I told them and they laughed then Rob and Richard walked forward, standing by my side.
'That's great, B, but you still can't sit here. I banned you remember?' He asked and everyone else looked shocked.
'And since when did you have the right to ban me from sitting anywhere? This isn't a democracy and you're not a leader. I think it's more of a group decision don't you?' I asked and everyone around me nodded. 'In which case that would make it Jamie or Bella. I'm not going to force you to choose but if you four want to feel free,' I told them and they all instantly joined me.
'We're all on B's side. What you did was wrong, all of it. Now fuck off before we give you something more than seating arrangements to worry about,' Rob snarled and Jamie turned away, walking off calmly for whatever reason. Everyone sat down and turned to me. 'So, B, what were you saying?' He asked and I hesitated.
'He got me pregnant,' I whispered. Everyone's jaw dropped.
'No,' Charlie said, I nodded my head. 'That bastard. What are you going to do?' She asked and I shrugged.
'I don't know. I'm going to keep it definitely. I couldn't have an abortion. But what I do when it's born... I don't know,' I sighed. Then I grinned. 'You's lot have never seen my house have you?' I asked. They shook their heads and I smiled. 'Do you want to come over later? I could do with all the support I could get right now and you can meet my family, it'll be fun,' I said and they all nodded. 'Cool, I'll ring Edward and ask if you can come over,' I said and they all smiled. I whipped my iPhone out and rang Edward.
'Bella? Are you okay?' He asked. He must have checked speed dial - for once.
'Chill, Edward. JW and the like but can I bring some friends over later?' I asked. I heard everyone's laughs, it was their lunch time to so they were all obviously sitting together. 'Hey guys!' I called and heard them laugh louder.
'Tell Bella that if junior doesn't come back alive I'll kill her,' Emmett called and I laughed.
'Don't worry, juniors cool,' I said and they laughed. 'So, back to the point of the phone call, can I bring my friends over later?' I asked.
'Sure. Just a sec,' Edward said. 'Em, we're swapping cars later. You can take the Volvo, I'll pick Bella up in the jeep okay?' He asked and Emmett cursed.
'I don't want to drive the crappy Volvo,' he whined and I laughed.
'Aw, please Em? Just for me?' I whined down the phone. Everyone laughed and you could see Emmett melting to my persuasion. 'If you won't do it for me do it for junior,' I pouted and everyone laughed.
'Fine, Bells,' he said and I laughed.
'Score! Thanks, Em! I'll see y'alls later then,' I said. I got a chorus of "bye Bells" and a "bye junior and junior carrier" from Emmett. That made me laugh. I turned back to everyone. 'Okay, y'alls can come round, Edward will pick us up in the jeep,' I told them and they grinned.
'Yay!' They squealed and Charlie and Lilly gave me a hug.
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We stood outside school in the parking lot, waiting for Edward to turn up. I saw the jeep pulling up and smiled when my friends gasped. The tires on the jeep were about as high as my waist and the lights on the roll bar looked really intimidating. Edward parked in front of us and Charlie and Lilly whispered "swoon" in my ear when they saw him. I laughed and swung the door open.
'Who's going shotgun?' I asked and when no one answered I smiled. 'Looks like I am then,' I said and jumped in. There were only three seats in the back but they were massive so all four of them easily fit across.
'Have a good day?' Edward asked me and I nodded.
'Jamie tried to tell me I couldn't eat lunch with my friends so we had an interesting discussion about how he can't have kids anymore. Hospital approved,' I told him and he burst out laughing.
'You have to tell Em that. He'll worship you forever and you might redeem your normal name,' he laughed and I groaned.
'Oh god. Please tell me I'm not officially known as junior carrier now,' I said and Edward looked slightly shocked.
'Do they know?' He asked and I nodded.
'They're good friends. I thought I'd tell them rather than let them find out on their own,' I said and he nodded.
'Anyway yes. You are officially known as junior carrier by Emmett,' I groaned.
'That's evil! It's worse than when he left his shoe at the top of the stairs so I could fall down them!' I said and he laughed. I turned around to everyone who looked decidedly confused. 'Emmett is one of my adopted brothers. He's Edward's real brother though,' I told them and they nodded. We pulled up outside the house and they gasped.
'Jesus! Is this were you live!? It's an effing mansion!' Rob cried, saying effing so he didn't swear. Edward and I laughed.
'Yeah, this is were I live. But you need a big house when there are eight of you,' I said and they all nodded. I jumped out the car and Edward came round to my side. Everyone got out as well and I smiled at them. 'Come on,' I said and Charlie and Lilly linked arms with me. We walked up to the door but before I could get there the door opened and Emmett ran out at human speed. Charlie and Lilly screamed and hid behind Richard and Rob.
'Junior carrier!' He yelled and swung me round, hugging me. I laughed and he put me down. 'So, tell me, how's junior been? I swear to god if you hurt him then you'll know about it,' he threatened and I laughed.
'Emmett, come on. You wouldn't hurt me would you?' I asked and he raised his eyebrows. 'You wouldn't because I'll poke you in the eye with a stick again,' I said and Edward burst out laughing. 'Anyway, you'll never guess what!?' I said excitedly. Emmett started to get excited as well.
'Oh my god, what!? Do we get to play truth and dare!? Please,' he whined and I laughed.
'No. Jamie came up to me this lunch time,' I told him and his expression darkened. 'God, chillax, he didn't touch me. But he can't have kids anymore or have sex for five years,' I told him and he laughed.
'God, Bells, you are a fucking genius!' He cried and I smacked my fist to his.
'Emmett, language!' Esme yelled and she came outside. She saw my friends and smiled kindly.
'This is my adoptive mother, Esme. Mom, Emmett, Edward this is Charlie, Lilly, Rob and Richard,' I said gesturing across to them. Emmett and Edward smacked their knuckles together and I spun to face them. 'Whatever you're planning no,' I said sternly and their faces dropped.
'Oh but Bells. We had a genius plan. It involved a life-size sculpture of something made out of peanut butter,' Emmett whined and I laughed.
'You can do it later or tomorrow,' I told them and pulled everyone inside. Rosalie, Jasper and Alice were all in the lounge and they looked up when I came in. I went and sat down on Jasper's lap, wrapping my arms around his neck. 'Hey honey,' I said and he laughed. My friends were looking at me like "woah". I laughed at them. 'Don't worry guys. I'm not going out with Jasper. Anyway, this is Jasper, Alice and Rosalie. Rosalie and Emmett are going out and so are Alice and Jasper. This is Charlie, Lilly, Rob and Richard,' I gestured to everyone in turn and Alice stood up, pulling me into the kitchen by my hand.
'Get them upstairs because Emmett and Edward are going to start fighting in two minutes. There may be some crashes but just ignore them. Carlisle's in his study,' she said and we walked back out.
'Do you guys wanna go upstairs?' I asked and they grinned. I took them up the stairs and onto the first floor, pointing out rooms as I went.
'Emmett's room, Rosalie's room, Alice's room, Jasper's room, Carlisle's office-' I was cut off by Carlisle.
'Bella? Come in here a second will you?' He called and I turned to everyone.
'Be right back,' I said and they nodded. I slipped inside his office. 'Hey, dad. Ummm ... Can we do this later? My friends are like right outside,' I said nervously and he laughed.
'Just wanted to give my girl a hug,' he said, hugging me tightly. 'Edward and Emmett are fighting in ten seconds,' he whispered and let me out. I smiled to my friends and led them upstairs.
'Guest room, guest room, Edward's room, m-' There was a massive crash downstairs and everyone jumped except me. 'Don't worry, that's Edward and Emmett. They're just fighting. I wouldn't worry about it,' I said and they looked at me.
'Did you hear that crash though B? I swear one of them has gotta be hurt!' Charlie cried and Edward appeared up the stairs, running at a human pace, laughing his head off.
'What did you break this time?' I asked casually, leaning against the wall. Edward laughed.
'I shoved him through the bookcase!' He cried triumphantly. I laughed.
'You know mom will go insane,' I told him and he shook his head.
'Emmett's getting the blame,' he chuckled and I smacked my fist to his.
'Awesome. I'd hide though if I was you,' I said and he grinned.
'Yeah. I'm just going to lock my door,' he laughed. I shook my head and turned back to my friends.
'Yeah ... This is my room,' I said and led them through. They all gasped. Okay, so my room was massive. I'd gone for cream and neon colours. All the walls were cream but they had paint splatters across them in different colours. My bed was a huge and a honey wood that matched my floor. It had cream bed covers and massive fluffy pillows. I had my desk by the window that had my laptop and a load of other stuff on it and I had a chest of drawers near my bed.
'Your room is massive!' Charlie said and the boys stared in awe.
'What's behind the mirrors?' Lilly asked. I laughed.
'My wardrobe,' I told them and Lilly and Charlie disappeared inside it, squealing as they looked through my clothes. The boys were looking at my 52" plasma screen I had mounted on my wall and I smiled throwing the controls at them. They exchanged a look before sitting on the floor and flicking through the thousands of channels I had. I lay on my bed for a bit until I started to feel really weird. A tiny nudge pressed into my stomach and I gasped. I stood up and ran to the door. 'I'll be right back,' I told them and ran to Edward's room. I knocked on the door and laughed at the clicks. His hair was wet and he was still shirtless so I'm guessing he just got out the shower.
'Yeah?' He asked and I grabbed his hand, pressing it to my stomach which I only noticed now but it was bigger than normal. The baby kicked again and his jaw dropped, eyes growing wide in amazement. He hugged me tightly and I laughed.
'Isn't that awesome?' I asked him and he let go.
'Yeah. That's amazing,' he laughed and the baby kicked again. I blinked and put his hand back on my stomach. He hugged me to his chest and I'm not sure how long we stood there, him holding me, our hands on my stomach but Charlie, Lilly, Rob and Richard appeared out the bedroom door.
'Our ride's here...' Lilly started but she trailed off when she saw how we were holding our hands. She grinned and Charlie noticed as well.
'Is it kicking?' She asked excitedly and I nodded. A car horn beeped outside and they looked at me. I smiled and walked downstairs with them. At the door they hugged me before running out to the old Ford Escort Lilly's dad was driving. I waved goodbye and when they were gone I turned around to face the family. I jumped and stuttered back a few steps. Alice beamed at me then hugged me.
'It's kicking, it's kicking, it's kicking!' She cried dancing around. Then she put her hands on my stomach and laughed delightedly when the baby nudged exactly where she put her hands. She laughed delightedly and suddenly there were five more pairs of hands pressing into my stomach. The baby kicked again and everyone smiled. They were living this through me because the girls couldn't have kids and the guys couldn't produce them. I didn't mind. They deserved to have the chance. I yawned and stretched slightly.
'I'm going to head to bed now, I'm kinda tired,' I said and they all smiled. I walked up the stairs and Edward followed me up. I got into my room and pulled my skirt off, pulling some shorts on but keeping the vest I'd been wearing all day on. I curled up in bed and Edward came in. He kissed my head.
'Night Bella. Night junior,' he said kissing my stomach. I laughed and he turned to leave.
'Wait, Edward. Will you stay with me tonight?' I asked and he nodded. He lay on the bed behind me and pressed his chest into my back. His hand snaked round my waist onto my stomach and I put my hands on top of his. 'Night Edward,' I whispered and drifted off to sleep.
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My alarm went off at five am and I opened my eyes slowly. Edward's arms were still wrapped around me and his hands were still on my stomach. I sat up groggily and smiled. Saturday.
'You can go back to sleep. It's Saturday and you don't have school,' Edward said and I smiled. I lay back down for a second before I felt a twisting in my stomach and I bolted into the bathroom, bringing up everything I had eaten recently. Edward held my hair out my face and rubbed my back for me until I was finished. I flushed the toilet and rinsed my mouth out before picking up the toothbrush and cleaning my teeth. Edward sat on the edge of my bathtub, watching me while I made sure that I was more presentable. I ran a comb through each of my ringlets and then pulled all but four back into a loose ponytail. I splashed some water in my face and stretched.
'So ... What're we doing today?' I asked, perching on the bathroom shelf. Edward looked up at me and shrugged.
'I dunno. What do you want to do?' He asked and I smiled.
'Well, I'm pretty sure you'll say no, but there's a mile run competition in town. First, second and third place gets a prize and you know I could win,' I said with a grin. Edward sighed.
'I know you could win but do you really think you can run in your condition?' He asked and I smiled.
'Nope,' I said with a grin and hopped off the counter. 'I don't know what to do then. Any suggestions?' I asked and he shook his head. 'Helpful,' I said with a grin. 'Okay, so, I'm going to jump in the bath now if you don't mind,' I gestured to the door and he thought for a second.
'Are you going to drown yourself?' Edward asked and I grinned.
'Yep. Now mush,' I said jokingly and he laughed, walking out. I ran the bath and climbed inside, relaxing in the hot water. I tilted my head back and stretched out, closing my eyes slightly. Then my stomach cramped and my hands flew down to my stomach. I opened my eyes and the water was red with blood. What the hell? 'Carlisle!' I called. I heard the rush of air and Carlisle knocked on my bathroom door.
'Bella? Are you okay?' He asked and I pulled my knees up to my chest.
'I don't know. Will you come in please?' I asked and he opened the door. He covered his eyes when he saw I was naked and I sighed. 'Open your goddamn eyes Carlisle,' I told him and he took his hand away from his face. He kept his eyes on my face and then he caught sight of the red bathwater.
'Oh god, Bella,' he whispered and dropped down to his knees next to me and pressed his hand to my forehead.
'What is it dad?' I asked and he shook his head sadly.
'Bella ... You've ... You've miscarried,' he said and I gasped.
'Wh-what?' I stumbled, my eyes filling with tears.
'I'm sorry Bella. I'm not sure why but it may have something to do with the trauma you were in when you got pregnant,' he said as tears leaked down my face. I buried my head in my knees, hugging them tightly to my body.
'Why do all the bad things happen to me? I got raped, I got pregnant and then when I was finally happy with that I miscarried. Am I not meant to be happy? Am I really that bad a person?' I asked and Carlisle hugged me.
'It's not your fault Bella. None of it is your fault,' he told me and I wiped my eyes.
'Okay. I'm okay now. I'm going to get showered off and I'll be downstairs in a few minutes,' I said and Carlisle nodded, standing up and walking out the door. I showered quickly then wrapped a fluffy towel around myself. I dried my body then threw on some knee-length sweats and a long sleeved t-shirt. I left my feet bare and wandered downstairs, drifting more than walking. I hesitated slightly when I saw everyone in the lounge but Carlisle appeared behind me and pushed me forward. I sat on an armchair on my own and pulled my knees up to my chest. Everyone looked at me.
'What's wrong Bella?' Alice asked and I shook my head.
'Bella, you need to tell them,' Carlisle told me and I looked up, nodding slightly.
'I ... I lost it. I lost the baby,' I whispered, my voice cracking a few times. Everyone just looked at me and I buried my face in my knees. I felt someone embrace me but I couldn't lift my head to see who. I was breaking to pieces inside but I didn't want to cry in front of them. I would feel awkward.
'Do you want us to pull you out of school?' Alice asked. 'You don't need to answer. I can see you saying yes. I'll sort it out now,' she said and left the room.
'Thanks,' I said, trying to keep my voice as emotionless as possible. I felt myself being picked up and looked up. Edward was carrying me into my room. He placed me on my bed and curled up next to me. I rolled over and put my head on his chest, comforting myself with his smell.
'It's okay Bella. It's not your fault,' he said soothingly. I nodded into his chest and his arms wrapped around me, pulling me closer. 'You know, even when you were a baby I was the only one who could stop you crying,' he said quietly and I lifted my head.
'Really?' I asked almost silently and he nodded his head.
'It didn't matter who we passed you to you didn't stop crying until I held you. Then you would just fall asleep,' he said, chuckling quietly. I smiled as well and buried my face in his chest. He pressed his head onto the top of my head and I slowly fell asleep.
Yay! So a lot happened in that chapter. Bella got raped, pregnant and then lost the baby. I'm really quite evil aren't I? The next chapter shall be Bella starting high school as I can't do anymore with this bit and I'm really excited as to what I've got planned. Like, really really excited! Yay!
I'm in Kenya for the next two weeks so I can't write or update. Sorry!
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