Disclaimer: What's up with you?
Bella: *On floor holding stomach* My tummy hurts.
Disclaimer: Well, duh! That's what happens when you get vampire cramps! And it's your fault for wanting the goddamn baby!
Bella: I do want the baby I just don't want the cramps.
Disclaimer: Don't worry. I have something magic that makes it go away.
Bella: Oh, you do?
Disclaimer: Yeah but you have to say the line.
Bella: Oh yeah. I forgot about the line. She owns nothing. Now make it go away!
Disclaimer: Not yet. But it will be gone by the end of the chapter.
Bella: I'm not sure whether I'm happy or sad now ...
My god! I just realized this is the last chapter! I'm gonna do an epilogue but I'm not going to do a sequel. Tehe yay! Sorry though. I don't want this to end either :'( all though you lot probably do ;)
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Chapter 10
Bella's point of view:
I was lying on the bed with Edward when I remembered the other thing the girl had thought.
'Edward? Do we have any sugar?' He looked at me like I was crazy.
'If this is one of your crazy mood swing things then no. We do not have any sugar,' I sighed impatiently.
'No, it's not one of my crazy mood swing things. The girl who I got the power off of said - well, thought really - that sugar gets rid of vampire cramps. Do we have any sugar?' I asked again and Edward went off into the kitchen, returning a second later with a bag of sugar.
'Ummm, how much sugar? And what are you going to do with it?' He asked me. I rolled my eyes as if it were the most basic thing in the world.
'I only need a tiny bit and I have to eat it,' he looked at me like I was crazy.
'You know we don't eat human food Bella,' he said slowly as if explaining to a five year old. My patience was getting thinner for no reason at all.
'I know Edward. I'm not stupid,' I snapped and he looked hurt. 'Oh crap! I'm sorry! Mood swings!' His face relaxed and he handed me the bag of sugar. I opened it and poured a little bit on my tongue. It tasted like dirt. I swallowed quickly and could already feel the cramps dissolving slightly. 'Well, crap! It actually works!' I stood up and the pain disappeared totally. I looked at Edward and his nose was wrinkled. 'What?'
'Nothing. It's just ... Your blood is as strong when you were human,' I looked at him.
'Oh. I can leave if it makes things any easier,' Edward looked slightly horrified.
'No!' He cried then regained his composure. 'I mean, no. You don't have to leave. I can enjoy the scent now because first - it isn't actually blood so much, second - your scent is mixed with your vampire scent so much it doesn't appeal to me in that way, and third - I can't hurt you.'
'Oh. Okay,' Edward sat back down on the bed and I walked around it until I was facing him, my mood changed quick as anything. I pounced on him, pushing him back on the bed, straddling his lap. I kissed him and he smiled at me, the rest of the day dissolving into pleasure.
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I'd stopped bleeding yesterday and I'd asked if we could go to the beach today seeing as the past few days I'd been going through violent mood swings. I was lying on a sun bed on one of the amazing beaches on the island in a very small red bikini. I had sunglasses on, even though I didn't need them, and my skin was sparkling brilliantly. Edward was doing press up's in front of me in knee-length swimming trunks and every time he pushed up his arm muscles rippled, making me swoon. I was holding a book in front of me, pretending to read, but I kept staring at Edward when I thought he wasn't looking at me. Edward looked up at me and grinned when he caught me looking at him.
'You know the rest of the family are showing up in an hour or so. I thought we would have a few days on our own and then have a family holiday together. And don't worry we won't be sharing the cottage with them, there are several others dotted around,' I smiled.
'Sounds like fun. Especially as I know Rosalie wants me to use my power thingy on her,' Edward smiled at me and stood up, walking over to my sun bed. He perched on the edge and I swung my legs out the way so he could sit next to me properly. He lent forward to kiss me and I lent forward as well when something hit the back of Edward's head. He cursed and stood up. A soccer ball was lying in the sand next to my feet. I looked over to the harbour and the Cullens were all clambering off a boat at the harbour, Emmett was already off, standing with a few suitcases in his hand, staring at us and waving mischievously. I was about to shout something at him when I realized that I only had a tiny red bikini on and, thanks to my depression before I was changed, my ribs and hip bones were sticking out my body at awkward angles. I suddenly felt very self conscious.
I sat back down on the sun bed and routed through a little bag I had next to me. I found a long blue tank top that was long enough to be worn as a dress and pulled it over my head. Edward sighed next to me.
'What's wrong, honey?' I asked him and he looked into my eyes.
'Well, I was enjoying the view but it's been obscured by a blue t-shirt,' he sighed again and I giggled.
'Sorry. It's just I feel really self conscious. I mean my ribs and hip bones are so obvious that even a human could spot them miles away,' Edward kissed my lips quickly and softly.
'Don't be self-conscious, love. You look gorgeous. And it's amazing because you can kick Emmett's ass even though he's twice your size,' I smiled half-heartedly at him. I looked back at the harbour and everyone was gone. Confused I turned back to Edward.
'Where did everyone go?' I asked him. He took a quick look to the harbour and seeing them gone turned back to me.
'Put their stuff in their cottages. And then Emmett wants a game of soccer which means him, Jasper, Carlisle and me will be playing two-a-side and I dread to think how that will turn out. And Rosalie, Alice and Esme are all getting bikinis on so they can sunbathe as well,' great, Alice would want me to talk wedding with her and Rosalie would want me to use my power on her. Then again, Edward playing soccer topless would be a nice view. Emmett and Rosalie appeared and sat down together on a sun bed next to mine.
'Soccer, Eddie?' Emmett asked and Edward grabbed the ball.
'You're on,' he said and jumped up, running down to the shore. Rosalie and I sat in silence for a minute, staring at the Edward and Emmett playing soccer.
'Bella?' She asked in a quiet, shy tone.
'Yes Rosalie?' I knew what she was going to say but I wanted to hear how she would word it.
'I've not been very nice to you. I know it. And I hate to admit it but it's because I'm really jealous of you. I mean, you're so strong and fast and you have so many powers. And on top of all that you're so gorgeous. I'm really sorry. I'm going to try not to be such a jealous cow to you anymore,' I was stunned. I had been expecting her to ask about my power.
'It's okay, Rosalie. I don't mind,' she smiled at me.
'Friends now?' She asked hopefully. From the corner of my eye I noticed Edward and Emmett were no longer playing soccer but staring intently at us.
'Sure,' I said and I hoped we could be friends. It would be nice.
'And there was another thing as well ...' Would this be about my power? I had no idea.
'Yes?'
'Well ... I was wondering about your power ... If ... Ummm ... You could maybe make me and Emmett able to have kids as well. Please?' I looked at her and her eyes were full of pleading.
'Sure! That's fine,' she looked at me expectantly. 'But we can't do it now. You and Emmett need to be touching when I do it and I need to explain a few bits to you about the changes and the pregnancy and the baby etc,' she looked really excited.
'Oh my god, Bella! Thank you so much! I can't believe it! You're the best sister ever!' She threw herself at me and hugged me tightly. I returned the hug and suddenly there was a third person joining in. we broke apart and looked up. Emmett was standing there and his grin turned upside down - like in a cheesy kids cartoon.
'Oh, sorry. Just thought I'd get in on the moment there y'know,' we both glared at him and Edward started laughing at us.
'Shut up Edward! I can torture you very easily without actually causing you pain and don't think I won't!' I shouted at him. He froze in place and his smile turned horrified as he looked at me. I smirked at him quickly before Alice and Jasper came running in front of us. Alice stopped suddenly and Jasper didn't see, crashing into her sending them both rolling through the sand. Alice jumped up and immediately had a mirror in her hand.
'Jasper! You ruined my hair! You will pay for that!' Jasper looked scared so after muttering that he was sorry he ran straight down to wear Edward was doing keep-me-ups with the soccer ball. Emmett went and joined them a second later while Alice dragged a third sun bed along so she was between me and Rosalie. 'What's up?' She asked, rearranging her hair down in the mirror.
'Ah, you know, the usual. Discussing children, threatening our men, etc,' I said and Rosalie chuckled.
'Okay. Well we should get round to sunbathing now. Bella are you going to take that dress/tee/thing off?' I momentarily panicked and looked to Edward but he was arguing with Emmett and Jasper about teams.
'Ummm ..,' I said nervously.
'Bella. You look amazing. You wear those tank tops all the time and you have such a flat stomach!' Alice cried. She thought I was worried I was too fat. In truth the tank tops did good for me because they went straight down so you couldn't see my bones. I tended to avoid lycra for that reason.
'It has nothing to do with me thinking I'm too fat Alice,' I complained and Alice raised an eyebrow. I sighed again, she wasn't going to give up. I hesitantly lifted up corner of my dress/tee/thing as Alice had put it. She still didn't relent. I gave in and pulled the entire thing off revealing my tiny red bikini and my bones. Alice, Rosalie, Jasper and Emmett (the boys had looked up at mine and Alice's conversation) froze momentarily at my appearance. I sighed for a third time and caught Edward's eye, giving him an I told you so look. He smiled at me and mouthed that he thought I looked sexy. I smiled in thanks and turned back to Alice and Rosalie. They were still staring. 'Okay. I'm used to Edward staring but it's kind of worrying when you two do it as well,' I said and they relaxed with a laugh.
'Sorry, Bella,' Alice muttered. Rosalie didn't let it drop though.
'What happened Bella?' She asked quietly. I looked at Alice and Rosalie. In their bikinis they had perfectly flat stomachs, even Alice's ribs weren't visible.
'I stopped eating,' I replied, and compared to Rosalie my voice was just an echo, I still found it hard to talk about those things. Alice and Rosalie gasped silently. 'I don't mind. You can express your views on it. Edward was very vocal about my body when he saw it, weren't you Edward?' I said, raising my voice to Edward. He looked up from his argument and ran up to my side.
'What was that, love?' He asked.
'When you first saw my body. You expressed your views quite clearly didn't you?' Edward shuffled nervously for a second and I remembered what he had said.
*Flashback*
Edward was sitting on the bathtub, totally still, watching me. I laughed at him. 'Silly Edward,' I shook my head in mock sadness. 'You're meant to turn the shower on like this,' I went over and turned it on quickly. I continued my instructions in a lower, sexier voice. 'And then you're meant to-' He grabbed my arm and pulled me to his chest.
'Take your clothes off,' he finished for me, leaning down and pealing back my shirt. I pulled his long sleeved t-shirt over his head and he pulled my cream shirt off. He gasped slightly as he saw my body. My ribs were sticking out of my chest and my hip bones were clearly visible.
'Bella, what happened?' He asked in a quiet, shocked tone.
'I stopped eating,' I whispered back. Edward frowned at that.
'You stopped eating? What do you mean, Bella?' He was getting angry.
'Well, when you left I refused to eat. And I did a lot of sit ups in my room. I would quite literally sit in my room and do sit ups from when I woke up which was usually about 1am until I passed out at about 11pm. Charlie would bring me food everyday and everyday I would ignore it. So he force-fed me every day. I was always sick afterwards though. I made myself sick. For months Edward. And I was fine for the first week or two. Then I just dropped about ten pounds overnight. That was the turning point. I was losing at least three pounds every night after that. It was disgusting. I was disgusted with myself and that self-loathing just made the bulimia worse. Until I was changed. And now I'm stuck like this forever,' Edward was staring at my body and not in a good way. His eyes were trained on my ribs, cold, hard and assessing.
'Stopped eating. Force-fed. Self-loathing. Bulimia,' Edward kept repeating the four statements for a few minutes. 'Disgusting!' He finally shouted and started looking at me differently. He was looking at me like apiece of meat up for examination rather than the person I would (hopefully) spend forever with. He kneeled down and started poking my bones, feeling where they jutted out. 'I can't believe it got that bad, Bella! That you made yourself like this! It's shocking! Disgusting, like you said!' He was yelling at me and it was upsetting, I mean, wasn't he meant to support me and say I looked beautiful no matter what?
'Well, ouch. That hurt,' Edward looked at me.
'What did? I didn't hurt you did I? Did I press something to hard?' He asked, panicked.
'No. What you said Edward. You're meant to say I look pretty no matter how crap I look!' He nodded and stood back up slowly.
'You're right. I'm sorry. But you don't look pretty. You look beautiful, gorgeous, sexy, I could continue with that list. It just surprised me that's all,' I nodded at him. 'Forgive me?' He asked and I kissed him instead, pulling off more of his clothes.
*Flashback over*
'Yes I was. I'm sorry about that. Still,' he said. I looked at him and kissed his cheek.
'Thanks for your agreement. You can go play soccer now if you want,' he kissed my hair.
'What if I don't want to? What if I want to stay here with you?' He asked softly. I laughed.
'Well, sure, if you want. But I think Emmett might drag you away anyway. And you don't mind talking about clothes and make-up and shopping and hair and shoes and stuff do you?' I said and Edward got a horrified look on his face.
'Umm ... Yeah ... Now that you mention it soccer does sound fun,' he said and ran off back down the beach while Alice, Rosalie and I fell apart laughing. Esme and Carlisle turned up and with one look at my body Carlisle huffed and strode off down the beach muttering about "stupid anorexic teenagers". I resisted the urge to flee the beach but I pulled my top back on in a move so quick that not many people would have seen it.
'Bella ...' Alice sighed.
'What!?! Seriously, Alice! I'm not going to sit here with y'all staring and commenting!' Alice sighed again.
'Don't make me rip your top off,' all the guys (apart from Carlisle) looked over at that. I used my telekinesis and shut their eyes.
'Awww. No fair, Bella! We wanna see you two fighting while almost naked!' Emmett yelled. Rosalie ran down the beach, hit him on the head, then reappeared on her sun bed in under a second. 'Ow! Rosie!' He whined. We laughed and I let them open their eyes again. Esme dragged a sun bed over and sat down on it.
'Why's Emmett saying ow? And Carlisle muttering about anorexic teenagers? And, Bella, why are you wearing a top? We're meant to be sunbathing,' Rosalie, Alice and I exchanged a glance.
'Ummm ... Long story. Ask Bella,' Alice said with an evil smirk.
'Ouch, Alice. That's mean,' Rosalie said. Alice shrugged.
'Okay, so I obviously missed something here. Can someone please explain?' Esme whined . Wow, Esme could whine? I didn't realize before.
'Edward,' Alice said.
'Jasper,' I replied, more to Alice than Esme.
'Wow, that leaves me out slightly. Eh, what the hell. Carlisle,' Rosalie said randomly and we all laughed apart from Esme and the boys who were too busy playing football.
'Okay girls. Enough of the jokes. Someone explain or I'll go evil mom on you,' we groaned, none of us wanted evil mom Esme. 'And why are you two sort of fighting?' She asked me and Alice.
'Because I won't take my top off.'
'Because Bella won't take her top off,' we said at the exact time.
'Well then why don't you just take your top off then Bella?' Esme asked me.
'Long story,' I replied.
'The same long story we've been on about for the past while?' Esme asked me.
'Uhuh,' I nodded. She just looked at me. I huffed. 'Fine. I'm wearing a t-shirt because I'm anorexic and Carlisle saw and started muttering so I put my t-shirt on and Alice threatened to rip it off which got everyone except Carlisle's attention and Emmett said "we wanna see you two fighting while almost naked!" so Rosalie hit his head making him say ow. There are your three questions answered in one. Do I still have to take my top off?' I said really quick in one breath. Esme smiled at me kindly.
'Honey. They can all judge you if you want but I'm not going to and seeing as they've already seen then it shouldn't really matter. And if you don't take your top off I think Alice might purposefully make your wedding a disaster,' Alice nodded very seriously and I took my top off slowly. Esme smiled at me. 'See, that wasn't so hard. And you're my beautiful daughter so just ignore everyone else,' I smiled at her. 'But I would like to know. If that's okay,' I smiled at her and Rosalie, Alice and I exchanged another glance.
'Long story,' we all said and fell apart laughing.
*sob* it's finished! *wails* I can't believe it! I didn't want it to end this way! Actually it's a happy ending so I did but still. Epilogue coming soon! Then maybe a sequel if I get enough reviews asking for one. Oh and I will start counting sequel reviews now if you want one ;)
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