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I just stared at them smiling blankly. It wasn't until two whole minutes until i finally processed what Zayn had just said.

"Niall, what?" I said, although I fully knew

"He told us about everything. George, Ashley, Jim, everything." Zayn said this with such ease as if it wasn't a big deal. I looked staright at Niall. He smiled to me like smiling would make everything okay. Everything was not okay.

"Niall, what the fuck." was all I said.

"Jana, I-" He started to say but I didn't let him finish. I got up.

"How could you?" I demanded, taking steps closer to him.

"I fucking trusted you! You even said you wouldn't." ,my voice was cracking as I spoke. Niall got up from the couch.

"Im sorry Jana, but-" I pushed him back.

"Don't be sorry!" I screamed. Niall stared at me in shock. I had just noticed Zayn and Liam were on there feet now as well. But I didn't care. I gritted my teeth, I was so bloody pissed, "That say in the car I put all my trust in you. You threw it all away like it never existed!" Tears threatened to fall, but I tried my hardest to keep them in. "I don't think I can ever trust you again." I whispered. The room felt burning and all I wanted to do was cry.

"But I didn't mean-" He said, I didn't want to hear it.

"Just shut up Niall! I don't care what lousy excuse you were going to say!" I didn't want to yell at Niall, because as I did he looked more and more guilty. But I couldn't control myself. "All that matters is you failed to keep what we had and now Ive learned from my mistake to have thought you even would!"

Zayn put his arm on my shoulder.

"Don't blame Niall." He calmly said, "I forced him into telling me." I thew his arm off. I looked back at Niall who definitely looked sorry. I stared around at the three of their faces. They all looked worried.

I bit my lip before yelling, "But you guys don't understand!" I sat on the floor and covered my face with my hands. George was going to kill me, period. Niall leant down and put his arms around me. I pushed him away harder than I intended. "I never should've told you." I muttered. "Zayn wouldn't have forced you into telling him if you never knew. It's all my fault."

"What's your fault?" Zayn asked, making me look up. I couldn't control it any longer. Tear's free fell down my cheeks. Now Zayn was down with his hand massaging my back. "What's your fault Jana?"

"Everything!" I cried, "Every fucking thing!" I sobbed like I haven't for a long time. Letting out all the pain. I buried my head in my knees.

I felt comforting arms wrap around me. I waited for the grip to tighten. I felt secure and I missed that feeling. Looking up, I was surprised by whos they were. Liam had a tear roll down his face.

"Shh." He whispered, "t hurts me when I see you cry." Ive never cried in front of him. It was also the first thing he said at the moment, I didn't even know if he had an idea of what was going on.

"Nothing's your fault." Niall finally said. He and Zayn was sat cross legged in front of me as Liam held me in his arm's. Niall looked at the ground. "It's not your fault your mum died. It's not your fault you got bullied. It's not your fault the manager Jim was a maniac. It's not your fault George got another lady pregnant. It's not your fault George has anger issues. Its not you fault Liam do-"

"Niall, stop." Liam broke in.

I didn't have any of their faces in focus. "Why do you guys even care?" I said, "Just leave me. You guys have a competition to win. Don't waste your time pretending to care about me."

"What are you saying?' Zayn inquired, "We're not pretending to care. I'll drop out of the X Factor if I have to! Your my best friend." It's true, Zayn was my best friend. He would do anything for me. Even if that meant giving up his dreams. "I love you. We need to get this sorted out. You can't just hide and pretend everything's okay!"

"Yes I can, Zayn. I have been ever since!"I protested. I squirmed out of Liam's arms. "Just pretend you never found out about this all and carry on with your fucking lives! Leave me to be in this living hell!" I sighed and ran my fingers threw my hair, frustrated.

"Well, now all we have to do is call the police. They'll sort everything out. "Zayn said to Liam and Niall. They nodded in agreement. My head shot at the,

"What? No way!" I said. Thing's were steering in the wrong direction. I hadn't believed they would tell anyone after this.

"Jana, we've already had this talk." Sighed Niall. "But now it's final." I shook my head furiously.

"You knowing was bad enough! I don't want anymore attention!" I groaned.

Zayn shook his head easily. "We've made our decision."

...

Tears trickled down my face as I made the biggest decision of my life. I looked up at Zayn who looked as if he was trying to hold back tears. "Why didn't you tell me this before?" Asked Zayn.

...

"Why didn't you tell me this before?" Asked Zayn. "We could've gotten help before any of this began to clump. I don't care if you object, but all that's left to do is unravel each of these knots in your life. We can start by telling the authorities." Floods of tears continued to dive down my pale face. "You have to trust that they can help you with more than I could."

I was done with trusting.

Zayn, Liam and Niall knowing was enough for me, telling police would be like giving a gun to George and saying 'shoot me now'. I just couldn't risk it.

"Why wont you listen to me?" I mumbled through sobs. "That'll just fuck things up more."

There was a moment of silence. We all were sitting on the floor thinking. Zayn would've eventually found out about how Dana dies and George. He could read my like a book. But he would've never knew the whole story. Even if he was my best friend, the only friend I ever had, his lief was too cheerful to be rotted with mine. I never was going to tell him anyways, but when George made it clear I don't tell a soul, I accepted never to. I didn't have the exact reason why I spilled out to Niall, probably because he never spoke much and looked trustworthy. I didn't want to believe he wasn't. Niall had that twinkle in his eyes that made me trust him more. It wasn't his fault Zayn is so persuasive. I then thought about what would happen if they did tell the police. They would probably deal with the Jim business, and arrest George. As much as I hated George, I didn't want him to get arrested. It would seem wrong.

"I don't want George to go to jail." I didn't even realize that I had said it a loud.

"What are you talking about?" Questioned Zayn, "Isn't that the whole point?" I stared at the floor.

"Do what I told you before." Niall explained. "Talk to him."

"About what?" I asked. Niall shrugged. Now that was crazy. Were we talking about the same 'George' ?

"George isn't as bad as you describe him." Realized Zayn. "He's not always messed up...right?" I thought about it. The other day he was talkable. But i shook my thoughts. George ws still messed up 80percent of the time.

"I say give him a chance and talk to him." Niall confirmed.

I was thinking about what Niall said until Liam said "Im really sorry for you, Jana. I hope everything sorts and gets back to normal." He leant his face and placed a little kiss on my cheek, "I'm going to wait by the car." He said this as if he was about to cry. "Bye." He got up and had an eye agreement with Zayn and Niall, then slowly made his way to the door. Before stepping out he turned around and looked straight at me, then walked out. When he looked at me he looked guilty. He looked as if seeing my face hurt him. I stared at the door in utter shock.

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