Heeeyyy! Um, thank you so much for your comments. It really gets me up! So um, I ave this ba habit of constantly updating already published work, so, I have just lengthened chapter 4, do read the last bits at the bottom, especially the part from when she is still in the hospital. I am really sorry for the inconvenience. Thank you!

Chapter 5

Sasuke POV

It had been three months since she had left. She had just left them like that. No note, no message, no nothing! On top of that, she had taken the forbidden and important scrolls from the hokage. They even found a lot of old scrolls on chakra and spiritual chakra.

He missed her, he missed her alot. He didn't realise why, he couldn't understand, but he still missed her. He had felt a bit, upset... when he realised that she had been keeping things from him, and the rest of the time. Tsunade-sama seemed to have an idea of what had happened. But she wouldn't tell them.

Flahback

They rushed into the office only to see a sober and very awake Tsunade looking at a rather empty unlocked cabinet. When she turned to them, she just gave them a sad smile.

"Sakura's gone eh?" She had mumbled, her eyes had become very, very sad, "let her go boys, sh-she needs this.."

"NANI!" Naruto had cried out.

"Naruto, she needs this, sh-she needs this space..."

"DATTE! DATTE DATTE DATTE! Why can't she have this space with us?"

Naruto was jumping all over the place. Tsunade's head raised to look at them.

"We can't help her Naruto, the space she needs, she has to get through it herself, although i don't like it, I can't do anything, as long as she comes back, it will do."

What- she knew what was going on, and yet she would not tell them.

"Tsunade-sama tell u-" Kakashi started

She raised her hand to stop him,

"As I said, she needs to get through this on her own, it is her privacy, I cannot, and will not say anymore, as of now, Sakura is on an extended mission of an indefinite time limit, if any of you were to speak of this, you will be tortured!"

And with that, they were finished and left with their own thoughts.

Somewhere in a forest near Ame, a bloody and ragged girl was on the floor. Her once shiny pink hair was now muddied and no longer shone. But there was a smile on her face. A chilling smile that gave of the feeling of victoriusness.

She understood, she finally understood. She was no longer afraid. No one could harm her in that way, because during those three months, she had commited every scroll to memory and then burned them. She had hardened her soul. She had turned her soul into a death lover. How?

It was simple, she had allowed herself to be raped over and over, only to realise that it no longer hurt. In fact, she had even learned to love it. She no longer felt dirty. In fact, she rather deserved the pleasure after that awful thing that she had gone through. After having sex with the ninja, or 'rape', she would kill them and while they were paralyzed and dying, she would crush their sex organs and cut it off, torturing and hurting them to empower herself.

Her last rape had been just over an hour ago, she had blanked hersself out, practicing pulling herself into her subconcious while still being aware of what was going on, a bit like watching a video really, or a dream. She could see and smell but she couldn't feel. After that, she pulled herself back to reality and realising that she enjoyed her rape, she smiled, and soon after, killed them off.

Her heart's subconcious seemed to realise that nothing of that sort could harm them anymore. In fact, it was rather enjoyable.

Now, she was strong, for she had gotten over her weakness.

However, it wasn't enough, in order for her to become more powerful... she needed help! First she would have to kill someone important enough to gain their attention...

Little did she know, she pretty much already had.

They had just beencoming back from an assasination. The whole lot of them, Deidara, Sasori, Hidan, Kakuzu, Itachi, Kisame and Zetsu had met up on the way back to Amegakure. So with their chakra nearly completely masked, they were about to leave when they heard groans and suddenly silence. There was also a very murderous and icy chakra nearby. It wasn't alot, but it's iciness caught their attention.

Curious, they went to take a look. They were rather surprised to find the user of the chakra was a fragile looking girl being raped. That wasn't what was strange, what was strange was that her eyes seemed blank although her body responded in kind to the rape. They thought it was rape because her hands were tied and her head was turned to the side. Suddenly her eyes flashed and she looked lost, and then she seemed to realise something, and she smiled, a cold, pleased chilling smile. Then she turned her head toward the man owho was on top of her, pulled her wrists from the rope and placed them around the man.

They even heard her say "come one mister, do your best!"

Once the man was spent, shTaijutsu, paralyzed him and tortured him in the cruelest way imaginable. With genjutsu and a taijutsu technique : Mountain Crushing Step on him and his balls, she crushed him, his organ and then cut it off. Then she walked away, but not before looking backwards and smiling at the man.

The seven of them winced and then left.

What a strange girl, poor Zetsu winced again, she was raped, maybe, but when she could have easily killed him, she enjoyed the sex, and only after that, she killed him. And in an extremely cruel way too... Why?

She read through a particularly interesting scroll on chakra that she hadn't burned yet. She hadn't burned the forbidden jutsu's or the S-ranked genjutsu scroll either.

Here, it said, that each of them had a subconcious. It carried the base of energy in the world. Chakra wasn't just chakra, it was a form of energy that few could manipulate. It was because of their partly awakened subconcious that shinobi could use chakra. If their subconcious was fully awakened and was truly a part of them, manipulating all energy in the world was easy. They could sap the energy from wherever they wished, they could turn air into ice, a wooden table back to its raw form, they could control electricity, the earth, and with enough skill, they could push half of themselves into anothers mind if their subconcious were strong enough. But no one had succeeded before. They had only come half-close. The closest being an old retired ninja who had done a lifetime of researching and experimenting. He had only succeeded with moving the earth benathhim without using his chakra. It wasn't true, what chakra being energy and tat without chakra, they would die. No, chakra was like a bridge, a bridge between their physical energy and their spiritual energy that connected to their subconcious that intertwined them. To untangle the two energy pathways, one had to be an expert on whichever energy type they used, then they had to try to absorb and give their chakra to their subconcious to try an awaken the rest of the energy.

With enough practice, one would be able to control the world. An endless supply of energy, countless ways to kill someone, everything that they wished for would be at their disposal. They would be able to go back through time, ride the air, fly, see the past while staying in the future.

Then she noticed something, most shizoprenic people have 'three' selves, that would be even easier to base their energies and be able to pull energy from around them. This is because their, 'other self' is not real, it is made from the purest, rawest form of energy within them and creates a universe like power within them. Tuning them into the word as they wished. But no one had ever been able to transform themselves into that pure energy. Many of tried, but none have succeeded. It would help if one had a doujutsu, but that would be akin to cheating. That person will only be able to use their bodies as they wish, and even then, they cannot use it so well, they may appear in other dimensions, other places, move their body parts to different places, stay alive forever, that is only because they have awakened the second raw energy. It is not the rawest or purest, it needs to be both. They can move body parts to another dimension or place, but not for long, if they can hold it there for long, that would mean that that person has had much practice. Now, when moving body parts to another place, let's say, an arm, they are turning the energy in that part into purity or rawness and that body part would be exchanged with our natural energy, therefore becoming the matterless energy and it would not be seen, or touchable. The person cannot keep this up forever. They are only able to change their bodies into the raw energy. To change themselves and their subconcious, they must change the very roots of their energy into the rawest, purest form of energy. If they can't, they will not be able to keep the natural energy in that area for long. Another thing that only few doujutsu users can do is to live very long, this is because they can change the time on their bodies. They cannot change time for anything else, but they can send their bodies back in time while they were still in the real world. It was just a matter of changing their now old physical enrgy that kept their bodies going back to their young energy.

Certain people are naturally partly awakened. Sometimes their physical energies just keep turning back the clock and keep their hearts beating, some of them can naturally use another's heart's energy to sustain themselves. Some of them just delude themselves with a god and are infact utilising the energy to keep themselves alive when they sutain life-taking injuries or even a severed head. However, a side effect of that is that that person cannot feel pain, pain becomes their pleasure, even age would be different. Some of these gifted ones can live for a very long time. Twenty years could be mere days, weeks or months. Some of these people would be able to 'bomb' or place timed explosions on proportioned energied items. Such as clay, it was all just a matter of energy.

But, this cannot be taught. One must figure out the way themselves.

Say... she could try... she was shizoprenic and she was on pretty good terms with her heart's subconcious...

She had nothing to lose. But she still had to get their attention! She needed someone to train her in taijutsu and genjutsu if this didn't work out. Anyway, she needed a quiet place to train for this. A place no one could find her... Like in Akatsuki. Now, she could try to kill someone who was on pretty bad terms with the akatsuki...

Now, all she had to do was to find an akatsuki member, hopefully defeat him, and hav him take her to their leader.

So... ah! She could try to get inner to sense them... she had after all connected to Sasuke's sharingan via chakra, er energy...

Pooling her chakra and circulating it to her mind, she tried to sense her inner's presence, once finding her, they both tried to absorb the other's energy, it took quite a few hours, now... she pushed her combination of inner's enery and her's out.

Almost immediately, she felt the change in her chakra, it was now mixed with another energy that she cold sort of use. She could sort of feel all the other energies in the plants, now, to tune into the natural energy...

That took her even longer, by the time she had just touched the energy slightly, she was panting and out of breath, her face had also gone white. Pleased with herself, she knew Itachi's chakra signature best, so she would just try one last time...

Taking a deep breath, she touched the natural energy and connected her mixed energy with it, feeling the new part of her chakra mix in, she searched for Itachi's chakra, searching for it by feeling.

She came across a highly chakra covered spot in Ame's already chakra covered place. It led down deep into the Earth, going deeper, and then, there was a huge dome dome of chakra... like a mountain of chakra on a mountain... she ventured in... knowing she wouldn't be detected by this energy, she searched, Ah-HAH! She found his signature.

All she had to do in order to get in was to be able to use this indetectable energy to cover her chakra. Masking chkara was not enough, she could sense it quite easily and they were bound to notice her, chakra or not, so with that added help of concealment, she might be able to get their help and sneak in undetected.

Tired, she pulled herself out but smiled when she realised she was still a part of the natural energy, that already a part of her had been converted and another part was able to tune in at will. When she opened her eyes, she saw that it was afternoon of the next day. Ah! Her chakra had not diminished... In fact, there was now more than Kakashi's. It was at least as large and amount of Sasuke's and Kakashi's put together.

Realising that she had started in the evening the day before... wow... she decided to rest now and find the Akatsuki the next day... perhaps in the morning.

When she awoke and smelled the breezy air, she smiled a little, soon she would be able to be strong, and soon, she would be able to become powerful... maybe she would even return to Konoha. Her happiness part of her jumped a little at the thought of being able to return. She was not completely evil, yet... because all she had done so far was heal her fear of men and rape away, she was still afraid of death...

She bathed quickly in a nearby stream, no longer modest about her body... what for? She had been seen many many times already, no point in hiding. When she had finished, she caught a few fish, cooked them over a fire and ate them.

By the time she was ready to leave, it was already afternoon. She minimized her chakra to that of a civilians and pulled a black coloured wig over her pink hair. Walking into Amegakure, she smiled when the guards did not realise that she was not a civilian. The amount of chakra she had was pretty big, well, now half of it, well, more than half was concelaed and put together with the natural energy. She could take it back and 'unmask' it anytime she wanted.

She sneaked into an inn and cast a gensou (illusion- I'm putting it that way so that you guys will know that it's mixed iwth natural energy and can't be detected.) over the keys and lock and room so that she would not have to pay. She decidd to rest and to go and find the Akatsuki the next day. They had quite a few entrances, but anyhow, this was the nearest... so... who cares?

It was now night time. She sneaked out and removed the gensou and using the Narengi (Natural energy) in place of her chakra, she leapt to the mountains that surrounded Amegakure.

Wow...that leader dude must have a natural gift too... if not for her usage of Narengi, she would have been able to find this place. The chakra used to cast the genjutsu naturally utilised a muddled version of the Narengi and therefore sustained it without chakra drainage, kept people from finding it and was like an alarm. Once crossed over, would alert whoever had gotten this genra (gensou but mixed with muddled Narengi) up. Too bad her use of Narengi in her body was a purer form of energy, so, really, they would not be able to detect her.

When she got past the genra, she saw that the mountain now had many rocky hills and that there were also some muddled Narengi in a certain area. Noticing it came from the side of the mountain, she walked there and saw a huge rock witha seal on it. She smirked, wow... if natural energy kept her from being detected by the Akatsuki... wow... Hmm... pooling her Narengi and chakra, she took a breath and using the wind traveling techique, she got into the base unseen and undetected.

Now... seeing that she had gotten in, she traced the chakras and walked toward where all of them were gathered... now... there are a couple of doors... hmmm... what a well-made place... not damp... oh right... that's where all the chakras are coming from. Walking toward it, she pushed te door open and came face to face with all the Akatsuki, including some dude with orange hair and piercings, a gorgeous blue-haired woman and some stupefied ... er... interesting men.