Fine's POV

I sat up from my bed. Finally... another restless night has past. I looked outside after I changed into more exercisable clothes. It's still cold and dark outside, when will spring come? I looked to Rein, who was sound asleep. I'll just say that I woke up too late to go run. She needs to relax, she's been trying too hard lately. I started to run as hard as I could, not caring if my body was going to collapse at this second.

I don't care what happens to me. This is the only way that I can get out some of the hurt. If I can feel better in my soul, then I don't care if my body completely shuts down. And then maybe I'll become a ghost and do whatever I want. Yeah, that sounds good. I hit myself. I shouldn't be thinking like that. It must be because I'm dehydrated. I finally stopped, completely drained. I'm getting weaker. I should be able to last longer by now, but instead I'm just getting weaker?

I walked back to my room. It was still too early to wake Rein up. Maybe... I should just go somewhere. I don't know, I just don't want to be here. Hot honey milk does sound good right about now through. I quickly dressed into my uniform and let my feet lead me to the sweets shop that I loved so much. "Hot milk with honey," I said putting money on the counter.

I sat at a table as I waited for my order. A huge strawberry cake appeared in front of me. "I didn't order this."

"I know," Cross said. "It's just that I heard that you haven't been eating well lately. Free of charge." I just looked at him. "Come on Fine, eat. It's your favorite. It's not good for you if you don't eat. Just one bite."

I slowly picked up my fork full of cake. I shakingly put it into my mouth. Then I felt sick all the way down to my stomach. Like I wanted to throw up. What's going on? I blacked out.

Next thing I know my eyes open to see a room painted black and white. This isn't my room. Where am I? "Oh good, you're awake." I just stared at the white haired girl as she walked towards me with a tray. "You fainted after you threw up and Cross brought you here."

"I'm sorry for causing you trouble, Headmistress," I said looking for my clothes. I was changed into a nightgown somehow.

"I'm used to fixing up messes. Everyone else is in classes now and Tanba Rin-sensei and Rein wanted to make sure you're alright. I told them that you would have the day off to rest." She set the tray down on the bedside table. It had food on it which made me feel worse.

"Um, where are we right now?"

"My room." Huh, this is simpler than I imagined. I thought since she was always wearing black dresses and big ribbons around her neck, she would want a more fancier room. "Fine, do you want to rest?"

"No, I've been sleeping too much." And I still feel kind of sick. "Do you know why I threw up and fainted today?"

"Lack of nutrition, too much exercise, basically you're looking like an anorexic." I used to eat so much, Rein would say that I might become overweight if I didn't run. How could I be underweight anyways? "You haven't been eating sweets, or meals. You're too thin."

"What can I do to become normal again?"

"First we need to get you comfortable with eating food again, so let's start small."

She handed me a cup full if something warm. This smell... it's hot strawberry milk. Just like how Mother used to make. I remember one time where Rein and I were arguing and to have up make up, Mother made hot milk for both of us. Mine was strawberry and Rein had blueberry. I drank it to the last sip. "It's warm and really delicious." The milk warmed up my body and the strawberries were really sweet.

"That's good. Have some more," she said pouring some out for me. "But you do know there's another reason why I wanted to talk to you." It was something that I was avoiding. "Exactly what happened to you?"

I didn't want to say anything, but there was no one else I could talk to about this. "Shade, I guess. He didn't show up and I was waiting in the rain for hours. My trust in him broke and I couldn't face Milky. I'm such an idiot. Even through I knew it was probably just a misunderstanding I... lost sight of who I was going to trust."

"No, it's normal. Not everyone knows who they can trust. I'll tell you a story." I looked at her. "It started when I was about six, but I should go earlier than that. When I was five, I was sent here as a Headmistress. I cried, because I had thought that my parents had wanted to get me out of their hairs." I wanted to ask, but it looked like she didn't want to say.

"My tears had dried up when I turned six, I had already started to wear black. I just got a present from my parents. It was a pair of earrings and a pink dress."

"So you were happy?" I asked not knowing.

"Not at all. I thought that they were trying to buy my trust for them back. Nothing changed, but by the time I was 8 I met a boy. I didn't know if I should trust him or not, but I did, and he turned out to be my best friend. Trust is needed in order to believe in someone. Listening is needed for there not to be distrust."

"I should've listened to Shade. I shouldn't have just assumed everything," I said to myself. I need to apologize, but who knows if he'll actually trust me?

"Wait here, I know something that's going to cheer you up," she said taking the tray.

I found my uniform on the desk. As I changed I looked around. There was rolls of fabrics in a corner. A desk, a bed, a small table, and a wardrobe was all that was in there along with a book shelf. A window covered tightly with black curtains. Then I noticed a picture faced down. I picked it up. It looks like the Headmistress and two other people. They look so much older than her.

"A pretty picture, isn't it?" She appeared again with something else in the tray.

"Are these two your parents?" I said curiously. She set the tray with strawberry tarts and a slice of chocolate cake with strawberries down. She didn't say anything. "If you don't want to talk about it-"

"That's my sister and her husband, she's my twin by 10 years. The boy next to her was my first love." So that would mean... "Yes, she stole my first love as well as the throne. You know to this day, I never knew why she did that. And now my parents are trying to get me to marry someone that I have some chance in liking to make up for accepting their marriage."

"Do you not like your sister?"

"I loved her. That's why everything was so much harder. You should be able to somewhat relate."

That's right. I wanted to tell Rein everything, but I loved my sister too much to hurt her, so I just kept everything a secret. It all seems so pointless now, because I know now that Rein is the only person that I know that I can absolutely trust with all my heart. "Why is it that you don't cry?" Compare to her pain, mine is nothing.

"I cried myself dried already. Now, eat," she said stuffing a forkful into my mouth. It's good! I started eating at full speed. "Fine, you're able to chose your actions, but you aren't able to chose the consequences."

"What do you mean?" She gave me a look that said, 'you know.' Does she mean... when I was arguing with Milky? I've been so focused on getting Shade off my mind, I completely ignored Milky. I have to- but what can I do at this point? I've been ignoring her for weeks just because I've been so upset at Shade!

"Right now, there's one thing that you have to do though," she said as I was freaking out in my head. "Don't let the past control your present or your future. Now go. Classes are already over."

"Thank you so much for everything," I told her before running out. I have to apologize, that's the only thing that matters right now.

"Fine-" I interrupted Kaori by jumping over her.

"Sorry! But I think that I won't join a sports club after all! I'm fine with being in P.e!" I yelled as I ran to the cooking room. Please be in here, please be in here. I slammed open the sliding door to see Milky and some other girls in shock. "Sorry... I'm sorry, Milky. I was just really upset and-"

I stopped talking and she hugged me. "Where were you Fine? It's almost time for us to start cooking for the party," she said smiling. "I'll explain everything while we bake. Just bake whatever you want for today."

"Okay." I started to mix the ingredients together for a huge chocolate pudding. "So exactly what happened?"

"The thing is there were a lot of weird things happening that day, I even had to end my date with Narlo early." What could have happened? "You see, there was a letter from someone that I don't know. Inside was something that I didn't want to believe was true, but my suspicions..."

"What was in the letter?" I asked as I poured the batter into the mold and placed it in the refrigerator.

"It was that my father had another family and wife, but everything's alright now, because Oni-sama was able to figure out that it wasn't true," she explained as she made Moon cotton candy. "Honestly, Oni-sama was really suspicious, so please ignore what he did."

"I had no idea," was all I could say. I'll be shocked if he forgives me. I said such terrible things to him.

"Hey, don't worry. It was hard on you too right? Don't worry, everything will be alright soon. You two just need to get the confidence to confess your feelings to each other, then everything will- no with you two everything has to be alright," she said cheerfully. "After all you two are my precious brother and friend."

"Milky... Thank you." Those words gave me warmth and comfort. It's been a while since I had this feeling. I took out the pudding. It looks like it settled nicely.

"Thank goodness, now everything's finally ready. Everyone, done?" she asked in a loud voice.

"Yes!"

"Then let's start, our spring sweets party is starting!" Everything became cheerful and then I wished that everything would become all cheerful like this again. I smiled. It'll definitely happen, right?

~~Forgiving is a simply and hard thing to do, remember, do you want to forgive them? Or do you want to lose them~~