Hey guys. This was originally the ending of chapter 13. I thought the chapter was too long so I cut it into two.

Thank you for the reviews. I love hearing your thoughts and suggestions. And I do take them into consideration.

alana0906- Lol. The chapter actually was longer. Here is the rest of it.

lolo06- You will get your answer about Spencer below. You wanted another chapter. Your wish is my command.:)

tbplrbear1- Hallelujah is such a beautiful song. I've always loved it. Ashley's time with Alyssa is such an important part of my story. Yes,Ash took a chance and it backfired but I do promise good things ahead.

dazedlvr07- Ashley is letting her walls down but Spencer not so much. Not yet anyway :)

momo0424- Exactly. Life is short. Take chances. Even if they backfire..badly. She did tell Spencer she wouldn't be happy. Glad you enjoyed the chapter.

noodles307- Sorry I disappointed with the first kiss. The whole interaction with Alyssa prompted it. And you will get your wish with Ashley. She will finally backoff. Glad you enjoyed to the the Alyssa/Ashley part. :)

itswhatever- Thank you so much. I didn't want this story to be anything like the other Teacher/Student stories. Glad you are enjoying.

Here ya go. Hope you all enjoy.

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"Spence?" I move cautiously towards her.

"Don't Ashley. Stay where you are." She puts her hand out signaling for me to stop.

"I'm sorry I upset you." I dropped my head slightly.

She laughed through her tears. "You're sorry? Don't say things you don't mean Ashley."

"I'm sorry that I upset you. I am not sorry that I kissed you."

"You kissing me is why I am upset. You can't be sorry about one and not the other." She sighed. "Can you just go? I'll be out in a minute."

"Can I ask you something first?"

"What Ashley?" She was clearly annoyed with me.

"If I weren't your student. If I were older. Would you be so upset right now?"

"Yes I would." She said calmly and without hesitation.

"Why? There's something between us. Don't try to pretend there isn't." She started shaking her head. "I know we can't be together Spence. But I thought I knew the reasons." I was so confused.

"Ashley. You just don't get it. Nobody has made me blush the way you do since my husband. Nobody has made my heart race the way you do since my husband. Nobody has looked at me the way you do since my husband. Nobody has touched my heart this way since my husband. I have not let anyone kiss me except you since my husband. So I won't sit here and deny that there is nothing between us. But I can't let this go on Ashley. I won't let this go on. Even if you weren't my student. Even if you were my age. Do you know why Ashley? Because it still hurts .The pain in my heart is still there. I loved my husband Ashley. I still do. I'm not ready to let someone in. I can't. And even if I was ready. It wouldn't be with my 17 year old student who has a crush on me and oh yeah, just so happens to be a girl."

Wow. I had to replay her words in my head. I had no idea what to say. Right or wrong. I was at a loss for words.

"I don't even know how to respond to that." Tears were starting to form behind my eyes.

"You don't have to. Just go."

"Spencer. This isn't just a crush. You have to know that." Don't you dare come out tears.

"Doesn't matter what it is. Forget about it. Forget about me. Let me go." She walked passed me and towards the door. I grabbed her arm on instinct.

"I couldn't forget you if I wanted to and I don't want to let you go. But…. I will." I could feel my eyes well up with those damn tears.

"You have to Ashley. If you care about me at all. Walk away…right now." A lone tear trickled down her cheek about the same time as mine. I let go of her arm and reached up to wipe it away. In that moment I knew without a doubt that I was in fact in love with her. I dropped my hand from her warm , tear soaked cheek and walked out the door.

I walked straight through the lobby and right out the front door. I got in my car and drove. I drove for over an hour. Nowhere in particular. I just drove.

I was in love for the first time in my life. I cared about Spencer more than myself . I would do anything for her. So here I was with my heart breaking. Because of course Ashley Davies 'Royal Fuck Up" has to fall in love with someone she can't have.

I ended up in Malibu so I stopped by our summer home. It was a spacious glass house right off the ocean. I went in the house briefly for a bottle of water then walked down to the beach. I removed my shoes and socks and rolled up my pants. I walked up and down the beach for over an hour. Just thinking.

When I got back to the house I grabbed a notebook and a pen and went back to the beach. I sat down in the sand and I wrote. I wrote about love. I wrote about heartache. I wrote about Spencer. I wrote 4 songs. It's amazing how inspiring getting your heart broken can be. I had the lyrics. Now I just needed the music. Then I could record a new album and name it. "My life fucking sucks."

I decided to stay for the night. Didn't want to go back to my mother's big, empty, lonely house. It was peaceful here. The sound of the waves rolling over always had a way of calming me.

My phone was still in my purse on silent. I dreaded looking at the messages I knew would be there. I just left. Miranda was probably worried.

I had a couple missed calls from Miranda. Three from Casey and one from Chelsea. Two voicemail messages and a text message.

Voicemail- Miranda.. Ashley where are you? Please call me. I need to know that you're okay. Spencer said you two got into an argument. Just call me back okay.

Voicemail- Casey.. I know you're probably still pissed at me. I'm sorry. It was wrong of me to say what I said. You were right. I am your best friend. I should always be on your side. I am so sorry Ash. You can keep ignoring my calls but I won't give up. Okay? I love you Ashley.

Text message- Chelsea.. Hey girl. Call me later if you want to hang out. I am so bored I am watching my paint dry. LOL. CALL ME J

I knew Miranda would be worried. We just started this friendship and I was already fucking up. Casey could kiss my ass I wasn't forgiving her that easy. I'll let her sweat a little longer. Chelsea actually made me smile…thank you Chelsea. I needed that.

I texted Chelsea back and told her I was busy but would hang out with her tomorrow if she wasn't busy. Okay cool. She responded.

I didn't bother to call Casey back. I already had enough drama today.

I dialed Miranda's number and she picked up right away.

"Hey, sorry I just left like that. I was upset." And I didn't want you to see me crying.

"It's okay. I was just worried. What happened?" She didn't know?

"Spencer didn't say anything?"

"No. Just that you two had a disagreement." A disagreement huh?

"I would actually rather talk to you about it in person. So can it wait until tomorrow or Monday?"

"Yeah Ash. It's no problem. I understand. Are you okay?" Nope.

"Not really. But I will be."

"Ash tell me where you are and I will come to you. You shouldn't be alone." She's such a good friend.

"I'm used to being alone. I'll be alright." Story of my life.

"Used to it or not. You shouldn't have to be and you don't have to be. Where are you?"

"Malibu"

"You're in Malibu?"

"Yeah. Spur of the moment thing ya know. But really..I'll be fine. Don't worry."

"I always worry. I'm a compulsive worrier. It's what I do." She laughed.

"Well how about tonight you worry about the math test you have on Monday? I-WILL-BE-FINE. Promise."

"Okay. You had me at 'math test'. But call me okay. If you need anything. Anything."

"I will. Now go study."

"K. Bye."

While I laid in bed I thought about what I was going to do. I had to forget about Spencer. I actually considered skipping first period for the rest of the year but I was pretty sure that would make her even more upset with me. I had no fucking clue what I was going to do. I didn't want to forget about Spencer. Even though I was completely miserable being in love with her I didn't want to not be in love with her. Loving her made me feel alive. It awakened something inside me that I didn't even know was there. How am I supposed to ignore that? How am I supposed to walk away from something when all I want to do is run full speed towards it? But what I want doesn't matter. Spencer was hurting. I was hurting her. She has feelings for me but is still in love with her husband. The last thing I want to do is make her cry. So I have no choice. I am going to have to tough it out. Act like I don't love her. Act like she doesn't mean the world to me. Act like I will be okay. I have to do that for her. Only one problem. I am a shitty actress.

Sorry it was short. Review please :)