Words cannot describe how much I loved him, how much I still love him. He was everything to me, he is everything to me. But it seems like now I have to focus on the past, because I lost him for good and I can never get him back, to be honest I don't know where to start.
It's the type of love that is so strong, and so overwhelming, that you can't help but want to smother yourself in it, and live there forever until you die. And even in death you'll still have each other.
But I ruined it. I ruined everything.
And now I have nothing.
"Cullen!" My head snapped up, staring into the face of my boss as my eyes adjusted to the darkness.
"Huh?" I mumbled.
"You've been sitting here for hours Edward. It's 11pm."
I sighed, shaking my head slightly and running my fingers through my hair.
"Is that all you wanted? I'm just getting to the interesting bit." I sighed, my voice more harsh than I'd intended as I flicked on the office light.
"Well… Don't stay too long." He took me in, "Okay?"
I nodded, just wanting him to leave so I could keep reading, "Okay."
I watched him walk away, before turning to the next chapter.