Hope everyone had a wonderful Christmas and New Years.
I own nothing but my crazy imagination and if you don't know by now that Alyssa and Miranda are mine too then you haven't been paying attention :)
This chapter is Rated M.
As I stood there watching the light show in the sky I felt a pair of warm arms wrap around my waist. I took in the familiar scent of the gorgeous blonde I was so madly in love with.
"Miss me baby?" Was whispered into my ear.
This great day had just gotten even better.
I turned around slowly and was faced with an instant smile. A beautiful, radiant, stunning, full mouth, ear to ear smile belonging to my gorgeous girlfriend.
I didn't say anything, I just leaned in and touched her perfect lips with mine. The fireworks lit up the sky once again as the grand finale took place. I suddenly had no interest. I just wanted to kiss my girlfriend and never stop.
Everyone started clapping as the show ended and I pulled away from Spencer.
"So was that a yes?"
"What?"
"You missed me?"
"Maybe just a little bit." I held my thumb and inch away from my pointer finger to show her how much.
She smiled and shook her head. Everyone soon noticed her sudden appearance and welcomed her home. After sharing pleasantries and talking briefly about her grandmother she asked me to take a walk. I accepted and as we started to walk away I looked over at Alyssa and she winked at me. I could only grin back at her.
We walked down to the boat docks and back, talking along the way about Gram, Alyssa and the tour that almost was. By the time we got back to the house it was nearly midnight.
We stood in the moonlight just staring at each other.
"I missed you so much Spence." I whined into her mouth before pulling her into a deep kiss.
"I missed you too. I'm sorry I haven't been here for you." She rested her forehead against mine and wrapped her arms around me.
"You have been there for me. Trust me. But I am sooo happy you are finally, actually here. I need to feel you Spence. I need to feel this." Her simple touch created so much warmth and comfort.
"I'm here baby. I'm not going anywhere."
We shared another long and passionate kiss and I couldn't pull my lips away. I didn't care that I needed to breathe. I would be happy to die kissing her.
Our tongues danced like they had been partners for years, so comfortable and in sync. Our hands roaming and remembering every feeling, touch and reaction.
We both finally pulled away, hanging on desperately to our last breaths. After a quick breather I pulled her back in again. This time the kiss was sweeter, gentler, slower but with the same amount of passion.
"I love you." She whispered as she pulled away.
"I love you too Spence. So much, and I can't take being away from you anymore. I need you with me. Especially right now."
I got a bit choked up and she grabbed a hold of me and held me tight. I knew it was a matter of time before I finally let go.
Before I finally broke down.
I had been strong for far too long. Spencer was exactly what I needed right now.
"I'm here baby." She whispered over and over again in my ear.
At this point we were sitting in the sand. I had practically collapsed in her arms. All of the emotions I had been holding in were pouring out of me uncontrollably.
The damn had broken, the walls had crumbled.
I wasn't worried.
I had Spencer to help put me back together.
I don't know how long we sat there. I just knew that I had never felt more loved and at ease than right then being held tight in her arms.
She started stroking my hair and was still whispering words of comfort. It didn't matter what she said. Just the sound of her voice soothed me like nothing else ever had.
I lifted my head to look at her and she cradled my face and kissed my tears…and then my lips. It was gentle peck. Just enough to tell me everything I needed to hear without saying it.
"Thank you, I needed that."
"I know and I'm sorry."
She suddenly got up and walked towards the ocean.
"Where you going Spence?"
She didn't answer. She just stood there staring at me with a look I still couldn't figure out.
She surprised me when she grabbed the hem of her shirt and slowly pulled it up and over her head. Then before I had a chance to remember how to breath she was bending down to pull down her shorts.
Whoa!
"Uh, not that I mind because I sure as hell don't but.. What are you doing?"
Damn she looked good in the moonlight….well in any light.
"Trying to get your minds off of things…if only for tonight."
Uhhhhh….okay. I am soooo down with that.
And before I could lift my jaw completely off the ground from her strip tease, she was undoing her bra and sliding her panties off.
What's that saying? Slack-jawed. Yeah…quite the understatement here.
"You just going to sit there staring at me like a 15 year old boy or are you going to join me?"
She gave me a questioning look followed by a smirk, then turned around and ran into the water, not hesitating before plunging in.
And why am I still sitting here?
I threw my clothes off so fast it could be entered into the Guinness Book of World Records.
Of course once my feet hit the water I froze. Shit!
"Come on ya big baby." Spencer teased. "Not used to the cold huh?"
She was already shoulder deep and I glared at her.
"Come hold my hand and help me in." I begged.
"Nope. If you want me….come get me."
The tone of her voice and the look in her eyes pulled me in.
Without hesitation I moved as quickly as the water would let me and pulled her into my arms. Our lips quickly met in a searing, hard and wet kiss. I easily lifted her and she wrapped her legs around my waste and her arms around my neck. The water was freezing but I was on fire. Her warm lips found my neck and then my shoulder. She bit down gently and pulled her center into me. . She moaned loudly into the dark summer night and I hoped they couldn't hear her from the house. I didn't want anything interrupting this night.
I covered her moans with my mouth and we continued to kiss with so much passion and fire that I was sure the water surrounding us would start to boil. It had gotten to the point where it wasn't enough. I needed more.
"I need to feel you Spence." I somehow managed to get out through my panting.
She slid off of me and pulled me towards shore. I admired the skin on her backside as it glistened in the moonlight.
We found a couple blankets left out from the party and laid one out. She pulled me down with her and her lips found mine in and instant along with a hand on my breast. She kneaded a hard nipple slowly and then rolled it between her fingers. Her lips left mine and trailed down my neck, to my bare shoulder, to my chest and then my wet breasts. After paying much attention to both she laid down and pulled me on top of her.
I could stare into her eyes forever and never get tired of what I saw.
Is it possible to be this much in love with someone?
It has to be. Because I am.
"You're so beautiful Spence."
Without taking my eyes off of hers I lowered my hand slowly down her torso, past her abs and directly to where we both needed me to be. I wasn't in the mood for teasing tonight and neither was she. I quickly found her slick entrance and slid two fingers in. She gasped but never looked away.
"Oh God baby." She groaned.
I kissed her forehead lightly, then her cheek and finally her lips.
The slow and steady rhythm that I had started was soon interrupted when I felt her fingers dancing over my own center. Suddenly she was inside of me and we were both moving slowly in and out of one another. Every one of my thrusts was met with one of hers. Slow but then fast, soft but then hard. My mouth was hot on hers but we weren't kissing, just breathing and panting and moaning into each other's mouths.
She came first. She tried to keep her eyes on mine but her they squeezed shut as she threw her head back and hoarsely screamed out my name. It was so fucking hot. I followed soon after. The waves of pleasure rippling through me over and over and over again until I collapsed on top of her.
Tears streamed down my cheeks. Every time Spencer and I had made love it was so intense and beautiful. I was already an emotional wreck so it didn't take much for me to break down again.
And once again, she held me. This time no words, just warmth.
I woke to the sun shining in my face and the sound of seagulls flying above us. I was still cuddled up to Spencer and somehow fully clothed and covered with a thick blanket.
It must have been early because it was still quiet and there were only a few boats out on the water. So I curled up behind sleeping beauty and quickly fell back asleep.
Spencer's P.O.V.
I looked down at her, she was still asleep and looked so peaceful. I didn't want to wake her. My heart literally hurt for her. I know there is no way I can take away the pain she is feeling right now but I can at least try to make it a little easier. Even if only for a short time. I hope that is what I did for her last night.
I couldn't not touch her so I stroked her gorgeous brown curls and kissed her forehead. She stirred but then snuggled back into my chest. I smiled, thankful that I could be of some comfort to her.
"Can we lie here all day Spence?" She mumbled quietly into my shirt.
"Morning baby and… no." I laughed quietly.
"Pleeeeeeeeeease." She begged.
"We can't baby. I'm starving and I heard your tummy growling not too long ago."
She looked up at me with an eyebrow raised and her signature sexy smirk.
"I'm sure we can help each other out with that without actually having to get up."
I shook my head at her thoughts and sat up on the blanket.
"It's nearly after noon baby. Everyone is already up and about. Time to get up." I pulled the blanket off of her and grabbed her arms to pull her up.
Suddenly I was on my back and she was nestled in between my legs. Her mouth inches from mine.
My breath hitched and I let out a small moan as she grinded in to me.
"Ashhhh." I bit down hard on my lip as I looked up at her, her eyes so full of want and need.
"Not heeeere." I groaned out. God the things this girl did to me.
"Where?" She whispered in my ear before biting down on the lobe and then taking it in her warm mouth.
"Take me out on the water. Take me for a boat ride."
"Now?"
"Let's go eat first and see what's going on and then you can take me." Her mouth found my neck and left light kisses all over, which sent shivers all over.
"Oh I'm going to take you. Over and over again until you can't take anymore."
Oh God, I had to get up before I let her take me right there.
I reluctantly pushed her off of me and she whined.
"Spenceeeer, you're not fair."
"Come on baby. Let's go eat and then I'm all yours."
I pulled her up off of the blanket and we walked hand in hand up the stairs to the house.
Before we got to the door she leaned over and whispered. "You better eat up baby. You're going to need the energy."
Of course Raife was cooking when we entered the house. It was past noon but he was still cooking pancakes, waffles and every other breakfast food you could possibly imagine. I wondered what it would be like to have him and my dad in the kitchen together.
"You two have a good sleep?" He asked.
"Oh yeah. I slept great." She replied. I slept great too. It felt so good to be back in her arms and vice versa.
"Yes. It was a beautiful night." I answered.
"Well I covered just about everyone's favorite, including biscuits and gravy for my Princess. Dig in."
I grabbed a plate and started filling it. Ashley paused.
"I'm going to go check on Alyssa first. I'll be right back."
I nodded and kissed her cheek.
She walked out of the room and I continued to fill my plate. I was still worried about her but there was nothing I could do. I was so happy that Alyssa had her.
"So where is everyone?" I asked Raife as I sat down with my plate.
"If you're wondering about Miranda, she left a little while ago. Said they were going shopping or something. She should be back soon."
"Oh, okay thanks."
He laughed at my response.
"I don't think you need to worry. He seems like a good kid."
"You think so."
He nodded. "I am a great judge of character."
"Well what happened with my mom then?" Ashley interrupted coming back into the kitchen.
"You're mom wasn't always a bitch." He said without looking up.
"I find that hard to believe." She picked up a piece of bacon off my plate and sat down next to me.
"It's true. Now get some food Princess." I guess he was done talking about her.
She got up and grabbed a plate of food. When she sat back down she gave me a small smile.
"How is she?"
"Sleeping. I guess she had a rough night." She looked away and I grabbed her hand.
"We can stay here today. We don't need to go out." With that she whipped her head around.
"No. We're going out. Just not for the whole day." She lifted my hand to her lips and kissed it.
"I need to be with you today." She whispered so only I could hear.
"Okay." I caressed her cheek with my free hand.
I turned and saw Raife smiling at us. I gave him one back and he went back to cooking.
After eating a huge breakfast we both went and freshened up. When I came back down, Ashley was in Alyssa's room. I could vaguely hear the conversation.
"Go out and ha-ve fun. Don't wo-worry about me. Go!" Alyssa sounded upset.
"I don't want to leave you like this. We can hang out and watch a movie or write something or.."
"I'm ti-tired Ash. D-on't fee-el like it." She was clearly struggling to get her words out.
"Okay. But I am going to stay until you fall asleep. Is that alright?" I just wanted to go in there and hold her.
"Su-re. But th-en…..Spen-cer."
"Okay I got ya."
I walked outside and sat down on the lounger. It was time for another guilt session for myself. I felt bad for Ashley's pain. I felt like I caused it. It was my fault she met Alyssa to begin with. It was my fault she had to go through the pain of losing someone she loved. It was all my fault. I made her go in there that day. I told her she could handle it. I told her she was just what Alyssa needed.
I was right.
It always went back to this, Alyssa needed Ashley. And Ashley in her own way needed her back. What if I didn't send her into that hospital room that day? How would Alyssa being doing today? Would she still be here? Because of me she had Ashley and Ashley made her happy. She was good at that. It was so natural for her.
If I had never done what I had did, would I have fallen in love with Ashley? Would she have kissed me that day in the elevator? Would she have changed for the better?
Would Alyssa have gotten the chance to write her song? Would she be sad and lonely when she passed? Would she be scared?
After all of this it came down to one thing.
Those two needed each other.
I needed to stop these ridiculous thoughts. I did the right thing.
A half hour had passed and Ashley came outside with a small bag.
"Come on. Let's go."
She held her hand out and I took it. We started walking back down to the beach.
"You okay baby?" I stopped and pulled her back.
"I will be, as long as you're here with me."
I cradled her face and kissed her softly.
"I promise you Ashley. I'm not going anywhere."
She closed her eyes and I laid my forehead on hers.
"Where would I go? You're my home Ash and I've been so homesick."
"I've got to spend a total of a week with you in the last 2 months. I can't do it anymore Spence. I can't handle being away from you for another second let alone a day even."
"You don't have to. I'm here."
Her eyes still showed disbelief. She looked down and I pulled her face back up to me.
"Look at me Ashley." She raised her eyes to meet mine.
"I love you. Besides that wonderful week that we got to spend together I have been a complete mess too. I am not going anywhere. I know how much you need me right now Ash."
She did. And it was painfully showing. She was a mess right now. Who could blame her? Watching someone you love slowly die before your eyes has got to be the hardest thing to see.
I just hoped I could be enough for her. She was going to be even more of a wreck when Alyssa passed.
"I'm sorry. Come on. Let's just go get on the boat." She replied showing no emotion.
We had made it about a mile off shore when she suddenly stopped the boat and dropped the anchor. Before I knew it I was in her arms and her lips were on mine.
"I need you so much Spence. I need to feel you, touch you, taste you.. all of you." The need was evident in her kiss and there was no way I could ever say no to her.
She stopped kissing me and looked into my eyes. How could I ever say no to those eyes?
"I need to make love to you."
Her hands left my hips and started unbuttoning my shirt.
I grabbed them both and kissed them before pulling her down to the cabin of the boat.
She needed me and if this was the only way to help her right now, I was going to give her me. All of me.
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