Jane was out of the precinct in a matter of minutes after seeing the scene unfold in the morgue. She now sat in her car, unwanted tears streaming down her face. Fuck this. Fuck Maura. Fuck god damn Castle. She drove blindly and wasn't surprised to find herself at the Merch. She laughed, despite her red tinted eyes. This was the place she had gone undercover as a lesbian (yeah, that was SO hard) to find a killer. That night was the night she had told Maura about her feelings. She smiled when she remembered the honey blonde ME dressed as the slutty waitress.

She rested her head on the steering wheel. Maybe I should've waited until Castle left to talk to her. Why am I even here? She determinedly walked out of her car and into the lesbian bar, and ordered a drink. The blonde bartender saw her and recognized her almost immediately. When Jane was last here, she had expressed her interest in the detective, but Jane had eyes only for Maura that night. Now, it seemed Maura had eyes for someone else, why couldn't Jane?

"Detective Rizzoli!" Sam smiled at the brunette; she was very happy that Jane was here.

Jane took another swig of beer. "Just call me Jane."

"Alright," Sam moved closer and leaned across the bar. "Are we here to get adventurous?"

Jane laughed a deep throaty laugh. "I s'pose you could say that."

Sam's hand found Jane's. "I get off in five minutes."

When the bartender got off, she led Jane to the bathroom where the detective pushed her against the door. Jane moved Sam so she was sitting on the counter with Jane's hands resting on her thighs. Their lips collided and Jane's was hungrily snaking her tongue in the other woman's mouth. Jane's mouth found the blonde's neck, causing her to moan.

Sam's hands fumbled at Jane's belt buckle. Jane's hands were up the other woman's shirt, expertly unhooking her bra. A shrill beeping noise started, sending both women on high alert.

"Shit. My phone."

Sam hissed, forgetting the belt and sliding her hand into Jane's pants. "Forget it."

"Can't," Jane pulled her phone out, and removed Sam's hand. "Rizzoli," she breathed.

"Janie? Where are you? Reynolds left five minutes ago!" Her enraged brother's voice filtered through the receiver and Jane swore under her breath.

"Shit. Yeah, I'll be there in a second." Jane looked at Sam apologetically. "I'm sorry… Work emergency." She looked down at Sam's lips and enclosed them in a kiss once again.

"Call me, Jane."

Jane turned around on her way out the door. "I will." The detective rushed out of the bar, and into her cruiser. She sighed when she had to redo her belt. She thought about Maura on her way to the Byrne household to take up her shift with her little brother. She was grateful that her bother had called, though she would never tell him that. Before, she had had the intention of telling Maura, to hurt her. But she just couldn't do that. She couldn't do that to the ME who had stolen her heart. She didn't deny that if there hadn't been an interruption, she could've gone all the way with Sam, but she didn't want to admit that either.

She parked behind her brother and knocked on his passenger window. When the locks clicked she climbed in.

"Don't you look wonderful," Frankie scoffed.

Jane groaned. "Nice to see you too."

"Why do you look like you haven't slept in a week?" He laughed, sipping his coffee. It was about six o'clock and he still had five hours to go. Then, it was Frost's turn for surveillance duty.

Jane fidgeted in her seat and settled for looking out the window rather than at her brother. "Because I haven't."

"Why? Is it because of Doc?"

"No. And what happens between me and Maura is not your business." Jane could almost hear Maura now. Maura and I, Jane.

Frankie sighed. "I know it's about her. C'mon Janie, it was only a kiss." Jane crumpled inside. Maura had only kissed Castle, and yet Jane had gone to a bar with the intention of getting some. This was why she didn't deserve Maura. She could never hurt her, and if she ever found out about what Jane did, she'd be crushed. Jane couldn't do that to her.

"Jane?"

Jane put her face in her hands. "I screwed up little bro."

"How so?" Frankie's voice was doubtful.

"I cheated, too…" She let him process what she had just said. "Today. Actually, right before my shift. That's why I was late."

"Damn… Why?"

"I don't know! It was just a make out kind of thing. I was just lonely." Thoughts of Maura seeped into her mind. When didn't they? Secretly, Jane's mind thought Maura was only attracted to Jane, because as the doctor had put it, Jane was the 'perfect specimen'. That night, when Jane had told the doctor her feelings, Jane had come onto her, and now, she was worried that the doctor was only reciprocating because she didn't want to hurt Jane. Bottom line, Jane thought that the doc didn't really love her. And Castle in the picture didn't really help her thoughts.

Frankie rubbed the bridge of his nose. "If you were lonely, then you should've gone to Maura."

Jane smacked her hand on the dashboard. "I know that! I didn't want to have to talk about my feelings… I just wanted something physical."

"Hey! I don't want to hear about my sister getting laid."

"You asked."

"Actually, I didn't."

Jane leaned back into the seat and sighed. This was going to be a long shift.

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