Well I am glad most of you enjoyed the last chapter. Sadly there are only 2 left. Maaaaaybe 3. We'll see. Thanks again for reading and for those of you that reviewed.
TorontoHoney- Yes yes. You must listen to the song while reading. Ha.
Steph- Yes I know how much you love your Sexy Spence. I have givin you a LOT of S.S. it was time for some Sexy Ashley. Droool!
luvmeh8meucan'tchangeme- Glad you enjoyed. lol. Don't feel bad about not updating. Do it at your own pace. We all know it's a lot of work.
TwittyArg- No worries about not reviewing. It's all good. Sorry I made you cry so much. So how did the plan work with your girl? Sounded like the perfect night. Who could say no to that? lol
Purps- You don't hate me. You love me. I do agree...way better than the couch scene. Sorry S.
Lesbefriends- Glad you enjoyed. Haha. I don't think I could have possibly made it longer or else I would have needed a cold shower. lol. I like the Neyo song too. Skin was just perfect and I think it was better to have a girl singing.
Godlove- Well thank you.
naranga87- ting-a-lishious indeed!
victorial117- Haha..glad you enjoyed!
FFReviews- I think we are all going to expect this for our birthdays. haha. Exactly..why wait?
goshtperfect- Haha..hope your computer didn't overheat. And have a drink or two for me.
ashleynspencer44ever- Lol. Exactly the kind of reaction I was hoping for.
momo0424- Fuckin epic..I love it. One of my fave songs at the moment. Gotta thanks Purps for that.
Ade77- So happy I could render you speechless. Lol. Glad you enjoyed !
YurTeddyBear- Well thank you for not being silent for once and reviewing. I appreciate it immensly. And thank you for the comments. Yes Skin is def. a new sex song... for a lot of us. Haha.
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I own nothing but my imagination.
We stayed in bed until a little after noon. Making love, cuddling, laughing, talking and…massaging. Mmmm. Last night was one of the most amazing nights of my life. Dancing for her had turned me on just as much as it did her. I was more than happy to give her the best birthday she had ever had..and I wasn't done with the surprises.
Room service arrived around 1 o'clock. I had planned on bringing her breakfast in bed but we got a little….distracted. Throwing on a hotel robe I collected the tray and headed back in the room to waken sleeping beauty.
"Hey baby, time to get up."
I set the tray on the side table.
"ughhhhhhhhh." She mumbled with her face in the pillow.
I climbed onto the bed and laid on top of her. My front pressing into her back.
"Come on Spence. I have some more surprises for you." I whispered in her ear.
She turned her face so she could speak.
"I don't think my body can handle any more of your surprises Ash." She said followed by a laugh.
"I was talking about food baby. But if you want more of those kind of surprises you need to get up and eat. You'll need some more energy."
I climbed off of her and she finally turned around. I bit my lip and tried to suppress a moan at the sight of her bare chest. It was amazing how it still affected me so much seeing her naked body.
She blushed of course. Something I could still do in any given moment was make her blush. She truly did not know how beautiful she was.
"So what did you bring me?" She asked, face still beat red.
"Hold on." I walked over to the chair and pulled off my shirt that was draped over it.
"Put this on please." I handed it to her and she laughed.
After pulling it over her head she pulled it to her nose and sniffed it.
"Mmmmmm."
"Spence? Food?" I chuckled.
"Sorry. I'm ready."
I set the tray down on her lap and lifted off the lid on the plate.
Waffles, pancakes, eggs, bacon, sausage, hash browns, a banana nut muffin and fruit.
"Uh, you are going to help me with this right?" She looked up at me with wide eyes.
"Of course I'm going to help you." I lifted a strawberry to my mouth and slowly sucked on it before biting down.
She glared at me.
Then she dipped her finger in the syrup and slid her tongue out to lick it off before sliding it into her mouth and moaning.
Fuck!
I pushed the tray off of her and attacked her mouth. The taste of syrup lingered on her tongue as I sucked it into my mouth.
My phone ringing in the distance was the last thing on my mind. Her hands were wild in my hair, tugging, scaping, pulling me closer to her.
Needless to say we didn't end up leaving the hotel until after 4pm. I had some surprises waiting for her at her house. I hoped the surprises were still there.
We pulled up to the bungalow around 4:30 and I couldn't wait to see the look on Spencer's face when she saw her next surprise.
Before we got to the door I pulled her by the arm and into a kiss. Holding her face I deepened the kiss and she grabbed onto my hips and pulled me even closer.
We were both nearly out of breath but neither one of us was willing to let go.
The door ripped open and we were practically attacked by an excited Miranda.
"Finally. Geez. We've been waiting for-ev-er." She whined as she held us both in her tight grasp.
"We've?" Spencer asked confused.
"Yes, we've." Miranda let go of me and pulled Spencer into the house.
Sitting on her couch and very close I might add were her parents. Glen sat on the floor with little Jack and Gram in the lazy-boy reading a book.
Her eyes went wide and she covered her mouth.
"Happy birthday Spence." Her dad was the first to say. He stood up and walked over to us, wrapping her in a warm hug. Her mother followed and did the same.
"Happy Birthday Spencer. We needed some time away and figured why not visit the sunshine state and of course our lovely daughter?"
"I can't believe you guys are here. And Gram, should you even be traveling already?"
Gram finally made her way over to us and Spencer pulled her into a hug as well.
"Oh I am fine pumpkin. Doc says I'm as healthy as a horse." Gram looked just as happy to see Spencer as she did to see her. I was so excited that she could make the trip. I couldn't wait to see her too.
"And you my dear. Come here." Gram gave me a surprisingly tight hug and when she pulled back she grabbed my hand and gave it a squeeze.
"I see you're still making my Spencer happy." She said and then looked to Spence.
"She is." My amazing girlfriend replied with her glassy eyes lingering on mine.
"Good. Now when are we going to eat because I am famished."
Spencer smiled wide and then leaned over to kiss me on the cheek.
"Thank you." She said while caressing my cheek softly.
After sharing some pleasentries with everyone we all sat down for an early dinner. Mr. Carlin prepared it of course. Ravioli's again. He remembered how much I loved them. They had all brought some gifts for Spencer and you could see how overwhelmed and excited she was with all of this. She did not expect it at all. I gave my gift to her last. It was in a small envelope and she looked at it curiously before finally opening it.
"Oh Ash. Really?" She looked like she was about to cry.
She jumped out of her seat and threw herself into me.
"Thank you so much baby. For everything." She kissed me softly.
"I love you so much." It was me who kissed her this time. Soft and slow and passionate. We didn't care that we were not alone.
"Well aren't you too just disgustingly sweet?"
We ignored Glen and gave each other another kiss before finally pulling away.
"So are you going to come with me?" She asked looking down at her tickets.
"Of course I am baby. But Belle better be as hot in this play as she was in the movie." I gave her a big cheesy smile which of course got me a shake of the head and a roll of the eyes.
Spencer and her mom got dessert ready while Mr. C, Miranda and Glen played Wii bowling. Gram had fallen asleep in the chair and Jack, well Jack had found something really interesting to play with…Me. I got down on the floor and he crawled over to me. To say I was surprised was an understatement. I looked over at Glen with amazement but he was too engrossed in whipping his dad's butt.
"Hey Jacky." I picked him up and sat him on my lap and he immediately grabbed my nose.
"Ouch." I cried and he laughed. There was nothing more heartwarming then hearing a baby laugh. Of course he continued to do it again and again.
I stood up taking Jack with me and walked into Spencer's office. Setting Jack down on the floor I walked over to the corner and grabbed a guitar that I had left here.
"You want me to sing you a song Jacky?" I don't know if he understood me but he started clapping. I think he recognized the guitar and remembered that music comes from it because as soon as I put it in place he started swaying. Too cute for words. I sat down on the floor in front of him and he jumped excitingly.
I remembered how much he loved Old McDonald and really that was one of the only kids songs I knew so I started off with that.
It was difficult to sing the song and play the guitar considering Jack wanted to play the guitar too and kept trying to grab it from me but I got through the entire ,nearly never ending song and was surprised at the applause I received.
Everyone and I mean everyone was standing behind me clapping. I felt a little embarrassed.
"Ashley that was wonderful. You have an amazing voice."
"Thanks Paula." I leaned the guitar up against the desk and scooped Jack up.
"She's right. That was pretty amazing." Mr. C added.
"Thanks, I think Jack liked it." I smiled at Jack and he grabbed my nose again. What is it with babies and grabbing noses?
"Well maybe you can sing for all of us. I would love to hear another song." How could I say no to the dragon lady? I didn't want to piss her off. It was hard enough for her to get over the fact that I was a girl. The fact that I am only 18, I believe still bothered her. She seemed a bit unsure of us still.
"Sure. Um, what do you want me to sing?" I handed Jack to Glen and was a little surprised when he was reluctant to let me go.
"Sing us something you wrote for Spencer." Her mom replied. Maybe she wasn't as bothered by our relationship as I thought.
"I can do that." I had more than enough songs that I had written for my girlfriend. Some of them she hadn't even heard yet.
We all walked into the living room and everyone had a seat.
"Okay well this is a song that I just recently wrote and I wrote it as a piano song so bear with me for a minute."
I tuned the guitar and played a few strings trying to get it right. I was a little nervous with her parents and Gram there but I didn't plan on looking at them. The song was for Spencer and she had never heard it. I would just focus on her. That wouldn't be hard at all.
I started off slowly strumming the guitar trying to get the right rhthym. When it finally came I started the first line.
It's undeniable that we should be together,
It's unbelievable how I used to say that I'd fall never,
The basis is need to know if you don't know just how I feel,
Then let me show you now that I'm for real,
If all things in time, time will reveal, yeah
One, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Three, girl, it's plain to see,
That you're the only one for me,
And four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done,
Then I'll start back at one, yeah yeah
Spencer leaned forward with her elbows on her knees and rested her chin on her hands. Her smile was half hidden by her hands but her eyes…her azure eyes were oh so alluring. Uh.
I cleared my throat and continued.
It's so incredible, the way things work themselves out,
And all emotional once you know what it's all about, hey
And undesirable for us to be apart,
I never would've made it very far,
'Cause you know you got the keys to my heart,
'Cause, one, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Three, girl, it's plain to see,
That you're the only one for me,
And four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done,
Then I'll start back at one,
Say farewell to the dark of night, I see the coming of the sun,
I feel like a little child whose life has just begun,
You came and breathed new life into this lonely heart of mine,
You threw out the lifeline just in the nick of time,
One, you're like a dream come true,
Two, just wanna be with you,
Three, girl, it's plain to see,
That you're the only one for me,
And four, repeat steps one through three,
Five, make you fall in love with me,
If ever I believe my work is done,
Then I'll start back at one.
Before I even had a chance to put the guitar down Spencer was wrapping her arms around me. Her family was clapping around us and I finally felt like maybe we were completley accepted. Not just by words but by actions. Especially her mom's actions. She was crying through a smile. Tears of happiness.
"I'll never get used to that." Spencer said as we sat on her porch later that night. It was a bit chilly and I wrapped my arms around her when I felt her shiver.
"Used to what?"
"You singing to me."
"Good. I don't want you to get used to it." I leaned forward and kissed her cheek.
"I want you to feel like it's the first time every time I sing to you. I want you to feel special and loved and …like you're the only woman in the world for me."
She turned slightly in my arms and kissed me. Just a sweet, soft and short kiss. I lifted my hand to her cheek and caressed it.
"Because you are you know." She really was. I had no doubt in my mind about that.
"I do know. And I know how lucky that makes me."
"Well duh!"
She chuckled and shook her head at me.
"Now that is something I am rather used to."
"What?"
"Your cockiness."
"Well sorry but you only have yourself to blame for that."
"Really? Me? And why is that?"
"Because you fell for me. Spencer Marie Carlin, the most beautiful, loving, sexy, smart, funny, sexy, beautiful woman... She's with me. Of course I am cocky."
"Thanks baby, but you were cocky before you were with me. It's okay. I think your cockiness is ador.." Uh no.
"Stop right there." I covered her mouth with my hand and she laughed.
The door creaked open and we turned to see Miranda.
"Sorry for interrupting…again. Your mom and dad are getting ready to leave but they don't want to wake Gram. I said it was okay for her to stay."
"Of course she can stay. They can all stay. We have enough room."
"Well all of their things are at my house so they'll probably just want to stay there again." I interrupted.
"They were here last night? They stayed at your place?" She asked looking at me.
"They got here around the same time I did. I offered them my place because it's close and no-one's living there."
"How did you know they were here?" She was so cute when she was all confused.
"I asked them to come. For your birthday. They said yes right away because they were planning a small vacation any way. I met them at the airport and took them to my place."
"They've been here since yesterday afternoon and I just found out about it tonight. I wish I would've known. I feel bad Ash."
"Spence, they were fine with it. They knew all about my plans and were happy to wait until today. In fact they helped with the plans. Where do you think that amazing meal came from last night?"
She shook her head while smiling.
"I knew that it tasted all too much like my father's. Just thought it was a coincidence."
"Not a coincidence. He told me how much you loved it so I asked him to make it. I wanted your birthday to be the best ever." I took her hand and held it in mine.
"I wanted you to know how much you mean to me. I want to make you feel the way you make me feel." I lifted her hands to my lips and kissed the top of both.
"I can't even begin to describe in words the way you make me feel Spence. So I am just going to show you. Every day… for the rest of my life."
Her eyes went wide. Oops.
"Don't worry Spence. I'm not asking you to marry me." I laughed.
"Good." She sighed. "Because I would have no other choice but to say yes."
I gave her my nose crinkling smile and leaned in to kiss her. The moment my lips touched hers I moaned and I deepened the kiss instantly.
"Ahem. Hello?" I could vaguely hear Miranda say. We ignored her and she said it again.
Spencer pulled away and I looked up at Miranda with a glare.
"Yep, still here." Smartass.
"I am going to go talk to my parents. Thank them. Are you going to stay here tonight?"
I nodded. "Of course."
"Good." She smiled again and then headed inside.
Miranda sat down next to me.
"How are you Ash?"
"I'm happy. Spence makes me ..incredibly happy."
"I know she does. But how are you with everything else?"
I looked over at her and her concerned eyes bored into mine.
"I'm..okay. I still think about her a lot. But I don't think that's ever going to change. I miss her…so much." I looked down and played with the rings on my fingers.
I felt her arm slide around my back and her head rest on my shoulder.
"I think about her a lot too. I'm here Ash. Ya know….if you ever want to just talk. About anything. About Alyssa."
"Thanks Miranda. I plan to take you up on that. Often."
"Good. So what about right now? What's going on? Besides the obvious infatuation with Spence. We don't need to talk about that. I get to see that first hand. Waaayy too much." She laughed.
"Sorry about that. We can't help it."
"I know. It's sweet but annoying." She rolled her eyes and I playfully shoved her off of me.
"So speaking of sweet but annoying, how are you and Chris?" We hadn't really talked about him a lot lately. I felt like a bad friend.
"We are great but you're changing the subject."
"I can't ask about my best friend and her boyfriend?"
"You can, but later. I am asking about you right now."
We sat in silence for a minute until I finally spoke up.
"I have another opportunity to go on tour." I looked over at her and she smiled.
"That's great Ash. So are you going to go?"
I sighed and ran a hand through my hair.
"I don't know. It's a great opportunity. One I might never get again. I want to, I really do. I just don't know if I can do it."
"Because of Spence?" She knew me too well.
"Yeah. It's a six month tour Miranda. I could barely get through three weeks away from her. How am I going to do six months?"
"Like you said, it's a great opportunity. One you may never get again. You have to do it. For you. If you don't you may regret it one day. And Spence, she loves you and you love her. You can get through this."
I knew we could get through it. We could get through just about anything. We had already been through so much. I was just weak. Weak and in love. Weak for Spencer's touch. I knew I couldn't go six months without it.
"When are you going to talk about this with her? We don't want what happened last time happening again."
No we don't. That was disastourous.
"Tomorrow. And I haven't said yes yet. I learned my lesson and I know that I have to think about Spence when I make decisions this big."
"Wow. You've come a long way Ash. I think it's safe to say that badass Ashley who slept around and never EVER cuddled is loooong gone."
We both laughed.
"Yeah. It's hard to remember that Ashley. I definitely don't miss her." I almost forgot what it was like to be lonely and feel unloved.
"Well I am sure I would have still liked that Ashley. But I loooove this one."
She pulled me into one of her bone crushing hugs and kissed my cheek.
We stood up as everyone came outside ready to go.
"Hey Ash do you think it would be okay if we all stayed at the house tonight?" Spencer had a bag with her as well. It would be weird but I would do it if that's what she wanted.
"Yeah sure. What about Gram?"
"I'm staying here. I'll keep an eye on her."
"Thanks Miranda." Spencer gave Miranda a hug. "I'll see you in the morning."
Miranda nodded, waved and walked back into the house.
We all got setteled in at the house. Spencer's parents shared a guest room and we didn't miss how close they had seemed. It made Spencer so giddy to see them like that. I hoped that they were reconciling because it would break her heart if they didn't. Glen and little Jack stayed in another guest room and I asked to tuck him in. I walked over to the portable crib and looked down at him. He was sucking on a pacifier and had his blanket held up to his cheek. It was amazing how much I had taken a liking to this baby. I never liked babies before. I leaned into the crib and pulled the other blanket he had up to his chest and then smoothed the hair on his head. He reached his hand up and I held it in between my fingers.
"Night Jacky. Sleep well."
I said goodnight to Glen and walked back to my room.
I opened the door to see Spence sitting on the end of the bed wearing her sleep pants and a tank top. She looked like she was contemplating laying down.
"Hey beautiful." Closing the door behind me I walked towards her.
"Hey." I pulled her up off the bed and into me.
"What's wrong? Not tired?"
"I'm exhausted. It's just.."
"What?"
"I've never slept in your bed before."
"No you haven't. Do you not want to?"
"Of course I do. It would be like being surrounded…by you. But.. I don't know. I just think of before we got together and how lonely you must have been, even with all of the girls that slept in this bed with you."
"Spence." I sighed.
"The only girls who have slept in this bed with me were Casey and Miranda and I don't want you to be sad thinking about how lonely I was back then. I don't. I don't waste my time thinking about the past. I have you now and the only thing I ever think about is now and how happy you make me."
She held my face in her hands and kissed me gently.
"I love you Ashley."
"And I love you. Now come on. You're not going to make me sleep in this big bed alone again are ya?"
"No. Never."
We got in bed and I held her as she laid on my chest.
"Ash?"
"Yeah baby."
"As much as I want to right now it's probably not a good idea that we have sex with my parents two doors down."
"I know baby. It's okay. We'll just sleep."
"You don't want to have sex with me?" She looked up at me with a sort of confused look.
I laughed. "Of course I do Spence. But you just said we probably shouldn't."
"I know what I said but that doesn't mean you were supposed to agree."
Ugh..Women are complicated.
"Spence, do you want to have sex with me right now?"
"Well now I don't. You ruined the mood."
See what I mean.
"Okay. Well I am perfectly fine with just laying here and holding you all night."
"Really?" She said in a surprised tone. Why was that such a shocker?
"Alright then. Goodnight Ash." She laid her head back down and nestled into me.
Who was I kidding? I wanted to make love to her the instant I opened the door and saw her sitting on my bed with her pajamas on.
Fuck!
"Uh Spence?"
"Hmmm?"
"How quiet do you think you can be?"
She laughed.
I had had sex in many places before where there was a chance we would get caught. The idea of that was exciting and turned me on. But never like this. The way she pursed her lips together or held her hand over her mouth. Oh God. How she covered my mouth with hers to take in my moans.
As I held her afterwards I replayed those images in my head one after another. I thought about the tour. Those images would be all I would have. I know I could still talk to her on the phone. We could skype each other. But it wouldn't be the same as the feeling I had right now. Holding her in my arms.
Should I do it? Probably.
Could I do it? I don't know.
Was I going to try? I had to.
The good thing was that I had Spencer to help me make the final decision. I already knew what she would say. So I already knew what the answer was. I just had to hope that we could survive six months away from each other.
In my heart I knew that we would.
We would make it.
We would be okay.
We loved each other.
But in my head, well I think it's best I not listen to my head.
Review if you wish. I could use the inspiration.
Song:
Back At One- Brian McKnight (ah..takes me back, way back)