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I own nothing but my imagination. Miranda and Gram are mine as well.

It felt incredible yet weird waking up with Spencer in my bed. Incredible for obvious reasons. Weird because I never thought it would happen. My bedroom reminded me a lot of the old Ashley and I was clearly not her anymore.

We had breakfast with her family and then I snuck Spencer away. We drove out to Santa Monica beach. I missed being near the ocean after spending all summer there. We walked along the water holding hands in silence. Being with her was so easy and comfortable. Often words weren't needed.

I needed to tell her about the tour. I tried to several times but I didn't want to ruin what was becoming a perfect day. Even though I was sure Spencer would support me, I knew she would be sad too. We walked about a mile before we turned around and headed back towards the car. Once we got to the car I leaned onto the hood and pulled her to me. Kissing her softly with my hands on her hips and hers in my hair.

"What's going on Ash?" She asked pulling back.

"What makes you think there's something going on?" We had finally gotten to that point where we could read each other's minds. I didn't like it as much as I thought I would.

"You've been quiet and as much as I have enjoyed the comfortable silence I can't help but feel like there is a reason for it. Is there something you want to talk about?"

Her hands that were in my hair were now on my face. She pulled my face upwards so she could look into my eyes.

"Talk to me Ash."

I pulled her hands off my face and held them in my lap before looking down at them.

"I have been offered another spot on a tour. It starts in December and I'd be gone for 6 months." I couldn't look up at her.

She sighed and lifted my face to her once again.

"And what did you say?"

"Nothing yet. I was waiting to talk to you."

She smiled and pulled me off the car. We walked back onto the beach and sat down face to face.

"Do you want to go?" Her voice was neutral but there was a hint of sadness in the tone.

I looked down before answering. "Yes. I want to go."

"You've thought a lot about this haven't you?"

"I have and as much as I would miss you Spence, I have to go. I need to go." I looked into her crystal blue eyes that matched the ocean directly behind her. How I would miss those eyes.

"I know you do." She said before standing up and walking towards the water. She crossed her arms in front of her.

She was upset.

I stood up and walked behind her sliding my arms around her waist and resting my chin on her shoulder.

A tear slid down her cheek and she quickly wiped it away.

"Tell me not to go and I won't…Nothing means as much to me as you Spence. I won't go if you don't want me to."

She turned quickly in my arms.

"No Ashley. I want you to do this, I do." She ran a hand through my hair and then kissed me softly. Her forehead rested on mine and she sighed.

"I'm just going to miss you." She whispered.

"I'm gonna miss you like crazy too baby."

We sat back down in the sand and I told her all of the details. She was excited for me and the opportunities going on a tour could open up for me.

Later that night we talked with her family over dinner. They were excited for me as well and it was a nice feeling for me to have the support from Spencer's family.

Miranda and I washed up the dishes and cleaned up the kitchen and afterwards I walked out to the back porch. I needed to call my dad and let him know what I had decided. I reached into my back pocket for my phone just as the door creaked open. It was Gram.

"Hey Gram."

"Trying to escape the in-laws already?"

"Haha..no. I was just gonna make a phone call." She pulled me down the steps and we sat down on a bench.

"So. What's troubling you my dear?" Gram was a smart woman and she saw EVERYTHING so I wasn't surprised she sensed something was off with me.

"I'm worried about the distance me being on tour will create. It's 6 months Gram." There was no use in hiding how I was feeling.

"So you're worried that you and Spence won't survive the 6mths?" It scared me that she was so right on.

"Yeah I guess." I hung my head and ran my hands through my hair. I was ashamed of doubting us but it was the way I felt.

"Pumpkin you have every right to be worried. But….you don't need to be." She placed her hand on my back and rubbed it.

"I know my Spencer. I know how much she loves you. I see it. I see it in everything she does and everything she says. You mean everything to her."

"I know." I really did know. I hated that I was so worried about our relationship.

"Is it Spencer you are worried about? Or is it yourself?"

I straightened up and looked her directly in the eyes.

"No. I love her with everything I am too. I have no doubts in my mind that she is the only one for me. I hardly even 'see' other women and when I do I am always comparing them to Spencer. In the end they are no match. I know how lucky I am. I am not worried about me being faithful to her if that is what you mean."

"So what is then? You can talk to me dear. I may be a crazy old woman but I am smart as a whip and in my 75 years I have experienced things that would put a Days of Our Lives episode to shame."

I laughed and she gave me a big smile.

"It's true. So tell Grammy what's going on in that head of yours."

"Just me being a pessimist. It happens when you grow up with someone constantly telling you how horrible you are and how you're always gonna fail."

"So are the days of our lives." Gram said into the air before turning to me and cradling my face in her hands.

"You my dear are one of the most amazing young women I have ever met. You may not see it or feel it but you are strong and smart and you have an absolutely beautiful heart and an old soul. Forget that heartless wench and the nonsense she spat at you. You are better than that and you are better than her. You know how I know all this? Because I see you through Spencer's eyes. My granddaughter is quite the catch ya know? She's an incredible woman. And she loves you."

"So you think I am an amazing young women because Spencer loves me?"

"Yes..and also because I am a wise old woman. Smart as a whip remember?"

I don't know why but I had a sudden urge to cry. I felt choked up and my eyes watered. As I lowered my head a tear fell from my eye and landed on my leg.

Yes I was cocky. Yes I believed that no-one could resist me. I was all that and a bag of chips. But that was always about sex. Never about love. Yes I could charm, woo, seduce and make it worth their time. I never had to worry about anything else. I never had to worry about keeping them. Making them want to stay.

I knew Spencer loved me. But I had doubts that she would continue to love me. I would be away for 6 months. Would she still love me when I returned? She could find someone else in those 6 months. She could find a tall, dark and handsome man who she could walk down the street with without hearing the snide remarks and the harsh whispers. She could have a normal relationship again. She could have the perfect life. The American dream. She could..

"Will you stop that already?" I am snapped out of my stupid thoughts by Gram smacking the back of my head.

"Ouch!" Damn that hurt.

"Are you done now? Because I can do it again."

"Uh."

"Stop it. Stop with all of the thinking and go talk to her. I can promise you this dear. What's going on in your head is probably going on in hers too. Except the opposite. Go talk to her. Now. Don't wait another minute."

She was right.

"Thanks Gram." I leaned over and hugged her. "You're pretty amazing too." I kissed her cheek and stood up. Time to find Spence.

Everyone was at the kitchen table playing that 'Screw your neighbor' game again. I wanted to join and steal all of their money again but I had more important things to do. Speaking of Spencer, she wasn't at the table. She wasn't in the living room or her office either so she must have been upstairs.

I found her in her room putting some clothes in her dresser.

"Hey." She said when she saw me. "Did you talk to your dad?"

I forgot all about calling my dad.

"Uh no actually I didn't. I talked to Gram though."

"Oh yeah. What kind of craziness is she talking about now?"

I took the clothes from her hands and set them down.

"We need to talk Spence."

She looked worried.

"No. It's nothing bad. I just need to talk to you about some things."

"Oookay." She sat down on the bed. I started pacing.

I told her everything that was going on in my head. She looked shocked and a little hurt.

"Ashley I know that your mother made you feel like you were worthless and not loveable but she couldn't have been more wrong. I thought you were done thinking about all the crap your mother said to you. Didn't you tell me just last night that I needed to stop thinking about the past, that you didn't anymore?"

I finally stopped pacing and leaned up against the wall.

"I'm sorry Spence. I just can't help the way I feel sometimes. I know I'm not worthless. I know I am lovable. I know you love me. But something in me just tells me that you could have better, that you could want better."

She stood up and walked towards me.

"Look at me." Her hand found mine as my eyes found hers.

"There isn't anyone better out there for me. I want you. Only you. I had the perfect guy, thoughts of living in the perfect house, with the perfect job, having the perfect life. And who knows, maybe I would have some of that today if Aiden hadn't died. But he did, and I miss him. But as much as I loved being with him Ash …he never made me feel the way you do. He never made me as happy as you do. I have never felt so beautiful and sexy and…wanted. I have never felt so depended on, so needed. You make me feel things I don't …no I know no-one could ever make me feel. You Ash, that's all you. So stop with the doubts and the bad feelings because I don't want anyone else."

Her hands were now on my face wiping my tears.

"I'm sorry Spence. I don't know why I get like this. I know you love me. I'm just an idiot sometimes."

She kissed me softly and when she pulled back her lips turned into a smile.

"Yes but you're my idiot and I love you."

"Well gee thanks." I laughed.

"I mean jeez, I have told you twice that I would marry you what more do I have to do?"

"That's true, you have."

"And I would say yes again, even if you actually meant it."

"Sooo if I asked you again right now…you would say yes?"

"I would. But don't. Wait a couple years and give me a real proposal."

"I can do that." As much as I wanted her to be my wife, I wasn't ready to get married. I knew she was the only one for me and I didn't need some stupid paper to prove that. Not only that but she got married in a court house the first time around. I wanted more for her than that. I knew she wanted more than that. I would wait. I would wait until I could give her all of my attention and I would give her the wedding of her dreams. Ugh..I hated weddings. But for her…for her I would do just about anything.

"Ash….we have a lot of time to plan everything. Don't worry about it now." She giggled.

"What is with you and Gram? You two could open up a physic network." They both had no trouble reading me and it wasn't fair.

She giggled again. "Sorry baby. You're like an open book now."

I quickly flipped us and now she was up against the wall.

"Oh yeah? What is it I am thinking now?" I ran my hands up her thighs and around to her ass and pulled her into me.

"I think that it's pretty obvious." She said followed by a moan as I pressed my center into hers.

"I want to hear you say it. What am I thinking right now?" I said softly, almost at a whisper. I was inches from her lips.

"You're thinking about how badly I want you to fuck me right now." I smirked at her admittance and wasted no time unbuttoning her pants and pulling her zipper down before sliding my hand into her panties.

It was the second night in a row we had sex with her parents under the same roof and it was the second night in a row she had to be quiet.

Loud, talkative Spencer turned me on. But watching her try so hard to keep control of herself was even more of a turn on. This time she had nuzzled her face into my chest to muffle her moans. I wanted so bad to laugh but I just smirked.

As we lied in bed later that night I remembered what Gram had said. Was Spencer worried about me being faithful?

"Spence?" I whispered. If she was asleep I didn't want to wake her.

"Hmm?" Her face was smashed into the back of my head. Her body so close. It was amazing how well we fit together.

"You know that you don't have to worry about me right? I'm never going to want anyone else."

"I know Ash. And you don't have to explain. I kind of overheard you talking to Gram about me."

"Spen-cer! You were eavesdropping?" I flipped around so I was facing her.

"No, well yeah kind of. I went outside to find you and I heard my name and I was curious. Sorry baby."

"Don't even worry about it." I kissed her gently and then laid my head on her chest.

I fell asleep easy after that. All of my doubts and concern were no more. A huge weight had been lifted off my shoulders. Spence and I would be fine. I slept like a rock that night.

Spencer's P.O.V.

For the next few weeks Ashley and I had spent nearly every waking second together. The only time we spent apart was when I had to teach, when she went out with her friends from school and when she visited with Alyssa's mother.

It felt great to finally do things as a couple.

Like going to the Santa Monica Pier. We walked hand in hand through the crowds of people not having a care in the world. If we got any glares or harsh comments we would never have known. We were off in our own little world.

Our little Spashley world.

The best part of our time at the pier was watching Ashley try to win me a stuffed animal. She was incredibly horrible at every game but determined to win me a prize. Finally she won me a tiny stuffed penguin on the last game and she jumped up and down like a little kid.

It was oh so adorable.

Don't tell her I said that.

Then she took me fishing. This surprised me because I once remember her telling me that she would rather 'sit and watch Mr. Goodman pick meat out of his teeth for an hour' than go fishing. So the fact that here she was sitting in her boat with me holding a fishing pole was amazing to me. We sat for hours waiting for her to catch a fish. I had already caught several which of course I had thrown back.

"We're not leaving til I catch a damn fish."

"Come on fishy fishies, doesn't my hook look nice and shiny and ooh look at Mr. Wormy..He's all yours. Come and get em'."

Once again..so freakin' adorable.

She never did catch a fish and I had to bribe her with sex so we could finally leave.

Then there was the play. We both wore dresses. Mine was knee length and dark purple and her was knee length and black. We looked absolutely gorgeous and when we walked into the theatre I was so proud to have her by my side. The play was entertaining but the best part was watching her mouth the words to nearly every word and song. And she said made fun of me for my love of Disney movies. Ha!

Every moment I spent with Ashley was another moment I would never forget. Every moment I spent with Ashley she proved to me how much she loved me. From playing stupid carnival games to baiting a worm on a hook, it never seized to amaze me the lengths she would go to make me feel loved. I was going to miss her when she went away. I was going to miss her like crazy.

We went shopping for some clothes for the tour and while I helped her put them in her suitcases I couldn't help but lose it. I tried to hide it but she was by my side in seconds wiping the tears away.

"I'll call you every day, 3 times a day." At least I would still get to hear her sexy voice whenever I wanted.

"We can Skype, maybe have a little phone sex." She wiggled her eye brows and I laughed.

"Maybe." She gave me her 'please like you could resist me' look.

"Okay, definitely." I wasn't going to deny it. I couldn't resist her. How the hell was I going to make it? Not being able to touch Ashley's body whenever I wanted was like not being able to have my morning coffee. Oh man. I was going to be such a Bitch.

"Spence I'm gonna try to come home as much as I can. I don't know how much or for how long but I'm gonna try. Even if it's only for an hour I'll do it. And I'm sure we will have a break."

"Try baby. But if you can't I understand and the break can't come soon enough. I already miss you."

She cradled my face in her hands and kissed me gently.

"I'm still here."

"Yes you are." I could let her leave without being with her. I started unbuttoning her shirt.

"What are you doing Spence? I've got to finish packing. We're leaving in an hour."

I finished with the buttons and pushed her shirt off of her then went straight to the button on her jeans.

"Spence?" I know she wanted it too. Screw packing.

I pushed her on the bed and straddled her.

"Okay…I guess you can fed-ex my clothes." Finally she gave in. Pulling me down to her and kissing me passionately.

Miranda and I drove her to the private air field where her dad and his private jet waited.

We said quick good byes hoping it would make it easier. It didn't. By the time the plane was flying away from us I had already used up a handful of tissues. My cries had become almost sobs. I so wasn't prepared for this.

Miranda put an arm around me and pulled me into her. "Come on. Let's go get a giant tub of ice cream."

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