Chapter 6 – Avoiding A Monster
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It's been a little over twenty four hours since their incident. Izaya had locked himself inside his house, hiding from the world around him. He couldn't bear the thought of running into that blonde headed man. Just thinking about Shizuo made him feel all funny inside; like he was floating from the ground. The brunet felt his face grow hot whenever his mind unconsciously travelled to the ex-bartender and he would mentally cuss himself for thinking about him. Izaya hated this. He hated feeling confused about the simple things in life. But was this really simple? Is love really that simple to him? He thought he knew what it felt like to love; I mean he did love all his beloved humans' right? So why does he feel like his mind was warping itself into a dark hole? (WHY? Why am I feeling this way? IS it possible that I've fallen for such a person? No, it's not! So why am I like this? I can't even think straight anymore without him popping into my head!Dammit….) Pacing at a furious pace around his large bedroom/office, the informant had cancelled all his appointments for the rest of the week. He wasn't going to be seen by anyone for a while, unless it was an emergency. Other than that, he wanted to be left alone. He even gave Namie the rest of the week off so he wouldn't have to see her. She was just in the way anyway. He needed peace and quiet. As he travelled in same, perfect circle he'd been going around for four hours, his cell phone on his desk went off and nearly made the brunet jump out of his skin. Cautiously walking up to the phone like it was some sort of bomb, Izaya let out a sigh of relief when he read the caller ID.
"Shinra! What a pleasant surprise! To what do I owe the pleasure of speaking to you?"
"Hey Izaya! What's up?"
"What do you mean?"
(Does he know? Did that abomination tell him? Shit! He's probably calling to see what I think about that monster!)
"Just asking how you're doing that's all. Celty went out so I'm stuck at home bored out of my mind. I'm surprised that you even picked up. Aren't you working?"
"Ummm, no actually. I canceled all my appointments today so yeah…"
"Really? But you never do that! Is something wrong?"
"No! Nothing's wrong! Why would you say something's wrong?"
"Umm…I was just wondering…."
"Ohh…."
"Izaya…are you ok?"
"Yeah of course…."
"You sure…?"
(I can't tell Shinra about this… What would he think? I don't even know what I'm thinking! Maybe I should tell him… I need someone to talk to, and Shinra is always there to listen….)
"Well actually… I am troubled by something…"
"Wanna talk about it?"
"Yeah…."
"Then I'm all ears."
"Ok…. So do you remember the first day I transferred to Raira Academy?"
"Yeah."
"Well, that day, you introduced me to Shizuo. But the fact is I met him earlier in my life, like 10 years before that. And when I saw him again, I thought we could you know become friends. But he said he hated me and that I pissed him off so I kinda dropped the hope of us becoming friends. Then out of nowhere yesterday, he claimed he remembered our first encounter! The day we met was the day I almost drowned in the ocean. He was the one who came and saved me. And the idiot just NOW remembers? I mean what the hell! And then he went on saying that he "LIKES" me! Yeah, he said that! So now I'm hiding inside the safety of my house, avoiding him as much as possible until he hates me again…. I just don't know what to do…"
"Hmmm, I see your problem. But the truth is Izaya, Shizuo never really hated you."
"What do you mean?"
"He thought he hated you, but I saw that he was actually falling in love with you. He doesn't experience human emotions much so he doesn't know the difference between them. Kinda like you. So I don't think you hiding from him will change anything."
"So you're saying that… nothing will change?"
"That's not what I'm saying. I just think you should confront Shizuo about this."
"No! No no no no no! I am not talking to that monster!"
"Why not?"
"Because… it's embarrassing. After what he said, I don't think I can even bare to look at him anymore…"
"Well why don't you come over to my house and we can talk more about this? It'll be easier than talking on the phone."
"Yeah, that sounds like a plan. I'll head on over then."
"See you in a bit!"
"Yeah. See ya."
{Somewhere on the streets of Ikebukuro…}
"*sigh* where is she….?"
Waiting on a crossing bridge in the middle of the city, the ex-bartender was passing the time smoking a cigarette. He knew they were bad for him, but they were the only things that calmed him down. As he took one last drag, he flicked the cancer stick away and it fell down under the bridge. A loud horse-like sound was heard from behind him as Shizuo turned around to see who it was.
-Hey. Sorry I'm late.-
"No problem, glad you can come."
-So what's up? Why did you need to talk to me?-
"It's the flea…"
-Izaya? What did he do this time?-
"That's the thing. It's what he didn't do that's pissing me off!"
-Ok….What didn't he do exactly?-
"He didn't do or say anything!"
-Wait…I'm lost… Start from the beginning.-
"*sigh*… ok, so I told the flea that I…. I…"
-That you like him.-
"Yeah… and he just…ran away… He's convinced that I hate him, so he won't accept it I guess… I just don't know what to do."
-Confront him about it. Talk to him.-
"Hell no! He would probably try to kill me."
-You guys are so much alike…-
"What?"
-N-nothing nothing! Look, all I'm saying is that you can't hide from him forever. Just talk to Izaya and see what happens next. At least after that you can move on with life instead of being stuck where you are now.-
"I guess you're right…"
-I know it's hard, but it'll somehow work out.-
"Let's hope so. Thanks Celty."
-Anytime!-
{Back at Shinra's…}
Ding-Dong
"Izaya! Glad you can come!"
"Hey Shinra."
Opening the door wider for the informant to walk in, the underworld doctor greeted the brunet with that usual grin he always has on his face. Returning a small awkward smile, Izaya stepped into Shinra's home. Taking off his shoes, he walked on over to the couch while Shinra went to get drinks and snacks for them in the kitchen.
"What do you want to drink?"
"Water's fine."
"Alright."
Returning with a tray full of sweets and two glasses of water, Shinra set them down on the coffee table in front of the couch and sat down across from the conflicted brunet.
"So, tell me what's on your mind right now."
"Well… I feel kinda scared."
"Why's that?"
"Well on the way here I had to take the long way to avoid any human contact. But it was mostly to avoid running into Shizu-chan…"
"I see. So you really don't want to see him at all?"
"No…"
"But why?"
"Like I told you before! It would be embarrassing! I don't think I can look at his face without remembering what he said to me. It's still hard to believe…"
"Izaya, did you ever like Shizuo?"
"Yeah, back when I was a kid. He was the one that saved my life."
"No that's not what I meant. I mean LIKE as in more than a friend."
"What? Why would- Why would you ask something like that?"
(How? How did he know? I never told him! I never told anybody! Was it that obvious in the past?)
"Well… there were signs that I picked up during high school…"
"I see… *sigh* yeah I did 'like' Shizu-chan, but that was a long time ago. I'd moved on when I realized that it could never happen…"
"But Izaya! Shizuo just confessed that he likes you! And I just told you that he had a crush on you in high school! He never hated you Izaya! So there's no reason to move on so quickly!"
"Maybe….but…. I don't know… can I really fall in love with a monster like him?"
"Well, you did once before right?"
"True…"
"Why don't you talk to him? It'll settle things between the two of you and if things work out, then cool. But if it doesn't, then at least you tired right?"
"Yeah, you're right. Thanks Shinra."
"Hey, I'm always here for you."
The two males shook hands before they both got up. Walking the info-broker to the door, Shinra smiled and waved good bye to the brunet. But before he left, Izaya asked one more question.
"Shinra. Does Shizu-chan really love me?"
The glasses-wearing male just smiled a sincere smile at the brunet before he answered him.
"Well that's something you would have to find out on your own."
Nodding at the doctor's answer, Izaya thanked him once more before he started for home. As he emerged from the building and stepped into the street, Izaya hesitated before he decided that he would just walk through the city instead of hiding in the alleyways. Strolling through the street, the brunet wondered about what Shinra had said to him. Could he really fall back in love with Shizuo? Can they really live happily ever after? As he focused on the flowing questions in him mind he didn't mind where his feet lead him. He just let loose and allowed the universe to carry him wherever it pleased.
Passing the Russian Sushi shop, Shizuo passed through the crowd of humans coming and going. He wondered where Izaya was right now and if he was at home. (Maybe I should just visit him and try to talk to him… no… He'll just freak out… *sigh* pain in the ass flea…) Making his way down Sunshine Street, the blonde didn't know where his exact destination was for today. Tom had some sort of meeting he needed to attend to out of town so he was left bored for the remainder of the week. With nothing to do or no one to chase around, Shizuo felt lonely. He had so much time on his hand that he didn't know what to do with it. As he walked onward, the blonde realized the he was at the newly renovated Ikebukuro Park. The cherry blossoms that surrounded the park were in full bloom and pink petals danced around in the wind. He smiled at this scene, secretly wishing that he could share it with the informant. He didn't know how close his wish was almost granted.
"Shizu-chan?"
He knew who that was. There was only one person in the city that would ever call him by that nickname. Slowly turning to the direction where the voice came from, the ex-bartender made eye contact with the brunet that was standing about 10 feet away from him. His expression was surprised, because he would've never have guessed he would run into Izaya here of all places.
"Izaya…"
The second the blonde said his name, the brunet's face went bright red. The next thing he knew, he was running full speed out of the park, heading straight to his place. As he ran, he didn't look back; he couldn't. He was too embarrassed to see the blonde, let alone even talk to him. Running as faster than he had ever ran before, Izaya was confused in why he was doing this. Why was he running from Shizuo? Was he scared of him? No. This wasn't fear he was feeling. When he saw the monster, his heart began beating in an abnormal pace, his face felt like it was on fire, and his eyes were beginning to tear up. Fear doesn't do that to you. Love does. And the faster he ran, the more Izaya began to understand how he felt. He loved Shizuo. He never truly gave up on him, never. But if he really did love him, why was he running away? Why was he trying to get as far away as possible from the person he claimed to love?
"Why?"
A/N:
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