Seeing Kerry walking towards her eyes open, looking tired and exhausted, before she can even speak "Lawson was taken to theatre again, he has internal bleeding" Seeing her close her eyes and taking deep breathes, she reaches out, for her arm, guiding her towards the lounge, sitting her down, she offers her a cup of coffee, seeing her smiling gratefully at her "I'm fine" shaking her head "No your not, Kerry I'm used to people bull shitting about how they feel, your not fine" seeing the dark lines under her eyes, how tired she is. "when is the last time you got a decent nights sleep" seeing her shrug "its all part of the job, I'll be fine". Seeing her rub her hand across her eyes "You need to look after yourself too, you'll be no good to your team otherwise" getting up off the seat "I'll let you know as soon as I hear anything about Lawson"
Getting out her mobile, Kerry sends Josh a text and Leon. Getting up off the chair a short while later, pacing around.
Looking up a while later, Kerry sees Josh walk in "Josh, your meant to be out on the road" Shaking his head "How's Lawson?, not even looking up at him "Still in theatre" looking around "Where's Stella and Christian" Sitting down next to Kerry "Out on the road, Stel wants to keep busy."
Seeing Kerry look down at her hands "Its not your fault Kerry, you can't control everything"
Hearing footsteps they both look up, seeing Tash sit down next to them "Lawson is out of surgery, he had ruptured his spleen, they have controlled the bleeding, the swelling on his brain is going down too. These are all good signs"
Closing her eyes Kerry takes a deep breath "When can we see him?" Smiling at both of them "he is in recovery now so give it half an hour" Reaching out and touching Josh's arm, Tash sits down "Are you coming home tonight, you need to look after yourself Josh" Looking down at Tash he sees the concern in his eyes "I know"
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Walking towards Shannon's room, before going to Lawson, Kerry hesitantly walks in seeing Shannon sitting up on the bed. Getting a chair she pulls it over to her bed "Your looking better" looking at Kerry, Shannon slightly admires the way she doesn't care what people think of her, even after the way she has treated her, she still comes back to her room. "Might even be out of her in a couple of days"
Nodding Kerry looks at Shannon "Just take it easy, don't overdo it." Giving Kerry a slight smile "It will be a while still before I'm allowed back to work" Nodding at her "Just come back when ever your ready, there's no rush"
Looking at Kerry, her eyes red and tired "How's Lawson going?" Not looking at her "He's just come out of theatre, he had some internal bleeding, Tash said the swelling is going down, and the signs are looking better. But he's still in a bad way" Looking at Kerry who's fiddling with her hands "Is he allowed visitors?" Nodding "for short periods of time at the moment", then getting up off her chair "Just take it easy ok" before walking out.
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Walking into ICU a short time later, Kerry walks over to Lawson's bed, sitting down she reaches for his hand again, stroking his head, if only she had talk him, she loved him, she would go out with him, if they had worked something out, then maybe none of this would of happen, she wouldn't be feeling like she is now. Even she didn't realise how deep her feelings for Lawson were, how much she actually loved him, she couldn't imagine him not in TR or annoying her in her life.
Hearing a noise Kerry looks up seeing Stella walk in, the shock on her face evident, getting up off the chair, Kerry walks out leaving her there.
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Walking into base a while later, Kerry walks up to Leon "where's James" before walking away, seeing James in the makeshift lounge area she stands at the door looking at him, despite him being her son and she would do anything to protect him, the blame is there, she can't help but feel this is James fault.
Hearing a noise James turns around seeing his mum standing there looking at him, he is used to her being a cop first and being a shit mum, still doesn't mean it doesn't hurt that through it all, the past day, his mum hasn't been there for him, but at the hospital, not even seeing how he is, he always known she was a shit mum. Seeing her walk over to him, giving him a short smile, looking at her, she looks tired and older. Sitting down next to him "There found you another safe house, someone will be here soon, to pick you up." Looking at Kerry "Are you going to tell me what happened?"
Glancing down at her hands she wants to tell him a lot, find out what happened "do you have any idea how they found where you are what happened?"
Looking at Kerry he shakes his head "Mum, I'm not a child any more, just tell me what happened. They were after me still, so I'm not safe anywhere?"
Suddenly remembering Kerry looks at James "If your so grown up, you should know what happened. How did you escape, and come back here?"
Giving his mum a brief smile, he wondered how long it would take her to realise "Lawson pulled me inside, when he heard the gunshots, he quickly tried to lock the doors, he didn't even have time to get some back up, he pushed me towards the bedroom, and told me to escape, and to go to base, not back to your place as it wasn't there anymore. I heard the door give in, as I climbed out the side window, and went through the backyards, and continued until I got here. Lawson did everything he could to protect me, he is going to be ok"
Drawing him towards her briefly she closes his eyes "I hope so, did you get a look at them?" Shaking his head "Lawson made sure they didn't see me, I'm not safe anywhere am I mum?"
Looking at James her eyes intense, she wants to say yes, but truth be told, she wonders if anyone is safe now, "They are trying their best, and taking you somewhere else"
Looking around TR even if his mum is super cop, she can't protect him "what if I don't testify mum, this is all because I'm testifying against them, what if I say I won't anymore"
Looking at James wanting to shake him "That won't stop them, you know who they are, how dangerous they are, they will stop at nothing. The charges just can't be dropped" then putting her hand on his shoulders "Listen to me James, I know you're scared, but I'm not going to let anything happen to you. Not testifying your just going to make things much worse for yourself."
Getting up off the chair "they will be here shortly for you" seeing James look at her "I love you mum"
Looking at James quickly, she gives him a quick smile before walking out.
Hearing a car pull up a short time later, Kerry looks up, seeing two officers walking up, she watches at Leon points out. Getting up off her chair she watches as they walk towards her showing there ID to her "Superintendent Vincent" nodding she watches as they close the door, walking towards the desk she looks at them "This is about James?"
Shaking there heads "Partly, but also you" hearing a knock on the door she looks up as David walks in "What's this about?"
Watching them sit down on the chairs before speaking "With the recent events, towards your officers and son, we believe that for your safety and the welfare of your team, we need to get you into a safe house", feeling her mouth open and close "You've got to be joking" seeing the serious look on their face before continuing "A little late," then shaking her head "No, I'm not leaving at the moment"
Seeing the officers look at her "You do realise the severity of the situation Superintendent, we need to get you into a safe house as soon as possible"
Looking at them "one team member is already dead and another in hospital fighting for his life, yeah I think I do, the answer is still no" then getting up "leon, will show you were James is"
Seeing David turn to the others as they leave the room with him staying turning to her "Kerry, stop being so stubborn, what will it take, another attempt on your life, maybe they will succeed next time, your team members are dead, what about Lawson" seeing the defiant look on her face "what about him, he'll be fine" leaning down closer to her "Just think about it please, don't make a decision yet" watching her walk out.
Walking towards the garage, she sees them, putting James in the car, watching him look so vunerable and scared, seeing him look up at her, her feet glued to the spot, watching the door close, as they walk around to hop in, moving quickly "Wait" before opening the door, seeing James get out and walk over to her "I'm so sorry I've put you through this. You lost your partner, and team members all because of this"
Looking at James briefly she gives him a small smile, seeing the sadness, and scared little boy, she pulls him towards her "I'm sorry too James I love you too sweetheart"
Watching him get in the car, her heart heavy, wondering when the next time she would see him, biting her lip.
Walking away from the communications room, Leon sees Kerry standing watching the car pull away, seeing her turn around her eyes filling up with tears as she walks towards her cubicle, opening her drawer, as she gets a bottle of wine out, filling up her glass.
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Walking into the locker room the next day Charlie looks around "Where's Stella", seeing both of them ignoring him "Either of you know where Stella is?" Hearing a noise he looks up seeing Stella walk in "Your late" Shrugging at him "and…you need me here Charlie, unless you want to go out and do some work for a change on the road"
Looking at Stella "Loose the attitude Stel" Not even looking up at him "Get stuffed Charlie"
Trying not to smile at her "big night then" Seeing her look at him "I'm here Charlie, what more do you want, so lay off"
Looking around "Ok Josh and Christian your in TR2" seeing Stella look up "Stel, your with me in TR1" seeing her look at him in surprise "Your joking?" Smiling at her "Didn't you just say I need to get out and do some work, what a better day for it" Shaking her head "I knew it was going to be one of those days, I'd be better off going to bed than coming to work., Give me 5"
Walking towards TR1, Stella looks at Charlie "going to drive too, or is that too much for you", opening the passenger seat "Just drive Stel"
Pulling out of TR, Stella pulls up at the takeaway shop, seeing Charlie look at her "I need a coke and susuage roll" Watching her come back and eat it, concern on his face "You right to work Stella" Rolling his eyes at him "I'm fine Charlie stop worrying and being a nanna". Trying to hide a smile from her words "big night", not even looking at him "always"
Driving around with Stella, Charlie glances at her out of the corner of his eye, something about her, that he wants her in the squad, she is different to any cop he knows, actually nearly any female he knows, spending the day with her, hopefully won't be as bad as no doubt she thinks.
Seeing Charlie glancing at her, every now and then "why did you come out today?", smiling at her "You're the one who said I need to get out and see how TR works, so here I am. It won't be that bad" "Yeah right, for you maybe, but for me it will be"
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Walking into the hospital later that day, Kerry walks into Lawson's room, her eyes and mouth open as she walks into ICU, closing her eyes and opening again to make sure, when she opens her eyes again it is still there.