Alright, so I've decided to go ahead and continue this story with all of the babies first moments…first word, first steps, etc. You can thank the reviewer dusko, for giving me the idea! I meant to post this up earlier but my weekend ended up getting really busy, I had to work extra hours Sunday and then I got to go to Disney World yesterday, so I haven't even been online since like Friday! Haha. Anyway, enjoy and let me know what you think!

A few weeks later Meredith and Derek were allowed to take baby Olivianna Grace Shepard home. Everyone had taken to calling her Olivia and Lucy had deemed both her and Meredith healthy to go home. The new parents were looking forward to spending their first night at home with their daughter. When Alex had moved into the trailer in front of the hospital he had told Meredith and Derek to turn his room into the nursery until they could get their new house built. While Meredith was on bed rest Derek had painted the nursery, with Alex's help. The walls were now light pink and the room had everything a baby could need. Now Meredith and Derek were placing their daughter in the new car seat. As per hospital policy Alex pushed Meredith out in a wheel chair while Derek carried the car seat. Derek made sure the seat was strapped in tightly before helping Meredith into the car. She chose to sit in back with the baby rather than the front. Alex walked back into the hospital as Derek pulled out of the parking lot. Derek pulled slowly into traffic and Meredith noticed he was driving well under the speed limit,

"Derek?"

"Yeah?"

"Is there a reason you're going twenty miles per hour on a forty miles per hour road?" she asked, sounding amused.

"I don't want to hurt Olivia," he said, concerned. Meredith chuckled a little,

"That's really sweet hon, but a five minute drive to the house shouldn't take us twenty minutes." Derek rolled his eyes and sped up to thirty mph.

"Better?" he asked.

"A little," She would have said something else but she thought better of it. Soon enough they pulled into the driveway. Meredith unbuckled the car seat and got out of the car, "Here we go Olivia, time to see your new home." They walked into the house and Meredith set the seat down, picking the baby up. She started walking through each room, "This is the living room, we'll let you play in here sometimes if your Aunt Lexie isn't making out with Jackson on the couch. And this is the kitchen; this is where you're going to eat,"

Derek watched lovingly as Meredith showed their daughter each room of her new home. He followed them upstairs,

"And this is mommy and daddy's room. And your room is right across the hall. I think you'll like it, even though it's pink. Mommy doesn't like pink, but you might like it. And daddy painted it for you." She walked into the nursery, still talking to Olivia who had fallen asleep by now. She stood in the middle of the room looking around; Derek came and stood next to her,

"What are you thinking about?" he asked, looking at his sleeping child, then his wife. She smiled at him,

"Just how blessed we are to have this baby. And how happy I am that this happened," She said, reaching up and kissing him on the cheek.

For the rest of the day the baby was held by either Meredith or Derek. Neither parent seemed to want to let go of the baby. Around midnight Derek walked into the nursery to find Meredith sitting in the rocking chair, watching Olivia sleep in her crib. He walked in quietly and put his hand on her shoulder,

"You should come to bed. You're exhausted," he told her.

"I know. I will. I'm just scared that something will happen if I'm not here with her," Meredith said.

"Everything will be fine. We've got the baby monitor. Come to bed." He said, starting to leave the room.

"Derek," Meredith said in a whisper.

"Yeah?" he walked over to her.

"What if I'm a bad mom?" she said. Ever since she had found out she was pregnant she had had that thought in the back of her mind. "I mean, it's not like I had the greatest role model growing up. I don't want to be the kind of mom that just forgets about her kid to focus on her career. But I don't know how to not do that. What if I'm a terrible mother and Olivia grows up to hate me?" Derek looked at his wife who looked like she was about to cry. He knelt down in front of her so he was looking into her eyes,

"You are going to be an amazing mom. You love Olivia more than anything and I know that she is going to love you. Growing up with your mom showed you everything that you shouldn't do or be. You are going to be an excellent mom. You already are."

"I just don't want to hurt her," Meredith said, looking longingly at Olivia and thinking about her own childhood, "I want her to feel loved and wanted her whole life. No matter what."

"I don't think that's going to be a problem. She might actually feel over loved at some point. She's got us, then Lexie and Christina. She'll have Callie and Arizona too, because you have all already planned that our kids are going to be best friends. So she'll have Sofia and Mark. And you know everyone else loves her too. I don't think she will ever feel unloved or unwanted."

"You're right," she said with a sigh, "I'm just being silly. Let's go to bed." She stood up and took Derek's hand. They looked at Olivia one last time and then went to bed.

It seemed to be only seconds after she closed her eyes that she was woken up by the baby's cries. She quickly shot out of bed and into the nursery. She picked up her daughter and held her close. After changing a diaper and rocking Olivia back to sleep she went back to bed. That was only one of many times that night that Meredith or Derek were in the nursery trying to get Olivia back to sleep. By the time the sun rose they were exhausted. They lay in bed together as long as they could until Olivia began to fuss again.

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