Burning Desire
By: Liv-x-Lex4Ever & E. Scribbles
Chapter 10: Forbidden
Casey slept most of the night, and was still groggy the next morning when Cragen and Donnelly appeared outside the hotel room, requesting to speak to the Casey. When Olivia stayed in the room, Cragen gave a slight shake of his head.
"Alone, Olivia. You and Alex can go into the room next door. They've freed it up for any officers who don't want to go home between guarding shifts."
Olivia nodded, giving Casey's shoulder a gentle squeeze before she and Alex walked out.
"I hope they don't give her their full fangs."
"If I remember Donnelly as well I think I do...I'm pretty sure she's going to skin her alive." Alex answered softly, sitting on the bed in the other hotel room. "I guess if we're going to be stuck in there together, for a while, we should make some rules like Alex gets to sleep on the comfortable bed and not the lumpy couch at least once."
Olivia nodded. "Sounds fair. Says the cop with the injured shoulder."
"Oh! Yeah, play the sympathy card. Poor little Olivia with her poor little shoulder. Do you want me to get you a cup of coffee? Yeah? Alex, will get you a cup of coffee? You just sit right there and rest up." Alex ruffled her hair.
Olivia shoved her playfully backwards, not counting on Alex pulling her with her. "Hey!"
"Did I forget to mention I took self defense classes while I was away? I could easily kick your butt these days."
She laughed, laying her head on her shoulder. "Hey, I have a question...while Casey's in the other room. Why were you checking me out after I stepped out of the shower this morning? I thought you said you didn't feel that way." Suddenly, her body hit the bed hard as Alex, without warning, stood up.
In the other room, Casey was sitting with her arms tightly crossed, now fully awake as her two superiors sat in front of her. Cragen had finished a long tirade about with-holding evidence when Liz's surprisingly gentle voice broke in. "Do we know everything, Casey?"
"Everything concerning which case? Mine or Alex's?" she asked.
"They're one and the same to some people, Casey. You withheld evidence that could have brought her home safely, you...There are too many things for me to even name. If you want our help, we need to know that we have all the information you have."
"Am I going to be disbarred? Suspended? Jailed?"
Cragen and Donnelly exchanged glances before Cragen spoke. "If you thought keeping the information secret was protecting people...Casey, we need to know. Have you told us everything?"
She took a breath. "No, but I didn't know when I would get a chance to," she took another breath, "so here it goes..." she recounted everything she'd told Olivia about her uncle, trying not to cringe too badly when the rooftop came up. "But that's only the half that strictly pertains to the case. There's...there's more, I just, I mean that was why they kidnapped me, to get that book, but..."
"But, what?" Donnelly asked, her hand reaching to touch Casey's in another surprising gesture.
In the other room, Alex was folding her arms protectively. "I lied. About having another person. I just…thought it would be easier for you."
"So that I would want Casey as much as you saw she wanted me?" Olivia asked, sitting up. "Alex, that's...very noble of you, but why do it? Besides the fact that you were going away?"
"...I loved you. I still do. I want you to be happy. That's all I want."
She nodded. "I love you too, but I love Casey so much more. She took a chance opened herself to me, opened myself. I never thought...after you..."
Alex nodded. "I know. I can see it. I just...sometimes, when I see you hug her, I was want to be there, in your arms. I want to be the one you're hugging."
Olivia stood, shrugging off the sling and walking over. "You can be, but I just can't betray her. Her foundation is shaky with you here. You understand that, right?"
Alex gave a nod.
By the time an officer came to knock and tell them they could go back to the other room, they had been standing with their arms wrapped around each other, silently, for over ten minutes.
"We'll be there in a minute," Olivia said, listening him walk away. "Lex," she whispered, brushing her hair from her face. "...What's...one b-between friends? I-I know I shouldn't even..."
A small smile appeared on Alex's face, but even as Olivia moved her closer, the image of Casey played in her mind, the smell of her perfume, the taste of her lips.
She sighed. "I can't do it. I can't do that to her...get her out of my mind." She let her arms fall. "I'm sorry Alex. And I know this may be horrible to say and hear, but friends?"
Alex's smile turned sad, but she nodded, taking Olivia's hand and squeezing it. "Friends."
Then, just for her sake, Olivia stepped back up and hugged her tightly and kissed her cheek. She smiled. "Just like I remember."
Her smile brightened and she gave Olivia a gentle shove before leading the way from the room.
"That's the smile I wanted," she said as they exited the room.
In the other room, Cragen and Donnelly had left and Casey was curled up, as much as possible, in one of the armchairs, looking vacantly out the window.
Olivia walked in and over to the chair as Alex closed the door. She sat on her knees in front of it, stroking Casey's face. "Casey? What happened?"
She chewed her bottom lip for a moment before asking quietly, "Can I have a hug?"
She nodded, holding her arms out as Casey fell into them, hugging her tightly. "Love you," she said, running her fingers through her hair as Alex placed her sling on the coffee table.
Neither of them noticed Alex quietly leave the room, closing the bedroom door.
"I told them...everything."
"Everything? What's everything?" she asked gently.
"Everything I've told you. What happened in the warehouse, why I had the book, Everything. They think my job will be safe."
"Well, that's good, right? So why were you sitting like this?"
"I just had a strange feeling. Like...you were drifting away from me. I just couldn't...feel you anymore. I don't know. Probably just the pain meds."
Olivia picked her up and sat with her in the chair, wondering if she knew what had happened. "I wasn't. I'm right here. Just like always."
Casey studied her face, and just when Olivia thought she was about to ask her if anything had happened, she just smiled. "What would I do without you?"
She hugged her tighter. "Probably be a muddled mass of crying, shakiness by now, never talking or willing to love ever again."
"Well, you have mighty high opinions of yourself don't you, Benson?" Casey smiled, dropping a kiss to her hair before wrinkling her nose. "You smell…different."
"Oh, Alex was feeling kinda bad, so I hugged her. That's all. Nothing wrong with that, right?"
"No. Except, her perfume doesn't suit you. Your smell is so much hotter." Casey dropped a kiss to the tip of her ear.
Olivia moaned softly, then smiled. "You remember earlier when you made a comment about openly masturbating and Alex walked in beet red?"
Casey gave a soft laugh, "If only she realized I was having to tone down my comments while she was around."
"Really? That was toned down? 'Cause damn I kinda wouldn't mind walking in with you sprawled out, moaning my name..."
"The amount of time I have to spend sitting down at a desk, detective, I don't need to sprawl out or make any noise whatsoever to have an orgasm if I so choose."
She smiled. "True, but then I can't see it!"
"Do you remember once, you came into my office, and I asked you to get me some water because I wasn't feeling well? And you said it sounded like I had a cold coming because my voice was deeper. Well, something was coming then, and it sure as hell wasn't a cold."
"You could've just told me and I would've left you alone."
"Oh yeah, excuse me detective, but go away, I was just having the most amazing daydream about having sex with you on the desk and I'm trying to get off right now, can you come back in ten? I may be weird, but not that weird. Actually no, I probably am."
Olivia smiled. "I love you and all your sexy weirdness," she said, kissing her gently on the lips. She went to pull away, but Casey put her hand on the back of her head.
Casey deepened the kiss, her other hand moving under the layers of Olivia's top to rest on her skin, her cool hand sending shivers over Olivia's body.
She moaned into her lips and moved one hand to the front of Casey's body to lift up her shirt as well as her own. She felt Casey jump when skin collided as well as her grip tighten. Olivia's tongue explored every inch of her mouth, feeling Casey shiver.
Casey murmured Olivia's name against her lips, her hand leaving her hair to slide down her neck, her fingers fumbling to undo Olivia's shirt buttons. Once undone, Olivia gasped for breath as Casey's mouth left hers to leave a trail of kisses down her neck.
Olivia's hands trailed her back a bit before, pulling her shirt over her head. She saw a desire in her eyes she'd never seen before. She kissed from her jaw to just above her bra, feeling Casey tremble. Just as she was about to moan, Olivia went up and captured her lips.
As Casey's hand fumbled with her bra clasp, there was a loud knock on the door.
"It's me, partner. I've got lunch and some DVDs." Elliot's voice rang out.
"Shit!" Olivia cursed under her breath, handing Casey her shirt and buttoning her own. "Go garb Alex, will you?" she asked Casey. "Just a minute!"
Instead of getting Alex, when Olivia stood, Casey flopped back into the chair with a groan, her shirt still half unbuttoned.
Olivia sighed. "At least button up. We don't want Elliot joking with the guys, do we?"
"Give me a sec, I'm just having an orgasm." Casey opened one eye, then grinned at the expression on Olivia's face before reaching up to button her shirt.
Olivia reached down and kissed her deeply, grabbing between her legs for a second before leaving, feeling her own arousal tighten as Casey shivered. She smiled. "Better?"
As Elliot walked in, he handed Olivia a bag. "I got Chinese. And a few different kinds of DVDs. Wasn't sure what to...Is Casey okay? She looks kinda..."
"Yeah, she's fi—So, how's everything going?" she asked, knocking on the bedroom door. "Alex, Elliot's here with lunch!"
Casey sat very still in her seat, eyes closed.
Alex walked out of the bedroom and glanced towards her before sitting down.
"Fine. Boring."
"Have you closed it yet or are we still stuck here?" she asked, sitting beside Casey who leaned against her.
"Captain thinks you'll be here about a week. He said he told Casey." He glanced towards her, but somehow felt uncomfortable and took a seat next to Alex.
Olivia looked at Casey. "Do you want food or bed?"
When Casey opened her eyes, Olivia saw a mischievous sparkle in them. When she spoke, saying she'd have something to eat, her voice was lower than usual, prompting Elliot to say she sounded like she had a cold coming.
Thinking quickly, Olivia jumped in. "Yeah, it must've just come on suddenly," she said, handing her a carton.
"Yep, those nasty little things just come when you least expect them to." Casey said, taking the carton from Olivia with a wink.
"Really sucks! Anyway, where are you guys with getting them?"
Elliot shrugged. "Don't know. Still not allowed anything to do with the case. I've been, lucky me, working out a parking offence for someone."
"Ugh! Glad I'm not there," Olivia commented. "I'd go crazy!"
At that moment, Casey stretched out, reaching her arms in the air and making a small squeak,
Olivia raised a brow. "Something you have to say?"
"Ah, no. Just stretching. It's hot in here, isn't it? Are we going to watch one of those DVDs you brought, Elliot?"
He shrugged, setting them on the table. "Actually, I need to get back."
Alex stood. "I'll ah, see you out. There's a few things I'd like you to get for me, if you don't mind, that is."
He nodded. "Bye guys!"
Olivia looked at Casey. "So that's all you had to say?"
"What?"
"Oh, I just thought you were going to make a dirty comment about my hand between your legs, but..."
"Hey, I have some class, you know. Not much, but some."
She kissed her ear. "You really did orgasm, didn't you? You were so wet when I did that. Sexy."
Casey stretched back, leaving a lingering kiss on her lips before saying softly, "No comment."
She smiled, wrapping an arm around her. "I know you did," she said, by her ear, "I felt it. And I loved the look in your eyes."
Alex walked back into the room, a yawn pulling at her mouth. "Elliot is going to try and sort it out so we can get another room with two bedrooms. He said he'll be back later tonight with dinner. Something about the fact that this hotel only serves Indian, and he doesn't want three women with one bathroom having Indian."
Olivia smiled. "Is that supposed to be a sexual innuendo?"
"I think it was a nod to the fact Indian can give you the runs, Liv. Mind out of the gutter, please."
Casey gave her a smile.
"Sorry. So now what do we do?"
"I can think of a few things I'd LIKE to do," Casey spoke the words softly as Alex sat on the couch and answered.
"We could watch one of the movies he brought? They look...interesting?"
Olivia sighed. "Pick one."
Alex pulled the one from the top and put it on, sitting back with her lunch as the movie started. Casey rested her head on Olivia's side.
Olivia rested her feet up on the coffee table, slouching on the couch and wrapping an arm around Casey and kissing her cheek.
As the movie started, Casey's hand snuck around Olvia's back, sliding under her shirt to caress her skin on her back.
Olivia smiled, suppressing a moan as she readjusted herself against her. "Risk-taker," she whispered.
Casey smiled and continued to eat her lunch, eyes trained on the television.
Olivia retracted her arm from Casey, leaned forward and grabbed her lunch from the coffee table then rested back against the couch. Popping a couple anti-inflammatory meds, she took gulp of water before beginning to eat.
Halfway through the movie, it was paused, and Alex and Casey were arguing over the court room scene, both of them with their own ideas of how accurate it was.
Olivia sighed and rubbed her temples. "Guys, are you going to do this for another hour? It's a movie! If so, I could go into the bedroom and nap," she replied, placing the empty wrappers on the table in front of her.
"But Liv, LOOK! The judge was asleep for most of it, the jury isn't even paying attention and the detectives haven't even found any proper evidence yet!" Alex sat forward to look at her.
Casey also moved forward to turn and look at her. "But, LIV, the detectives needed to arrest the guy to get him of the streets because of the aliens!"
She laughed. "Okay, fine, there's arguable...evidence on both sides. Just like when you two prosecute. And how much do we really know about anything at this point? Alex, hit 'PLAY' so we can solve this debate, please," she said, though she was only half paying attention to the movie with the earlier hot interlude with Casey on her mind,
Both women huffed, annoyed that she hadn't sided with either of them, and both sat back as Alex pressed play once more.
"I can't win either way," she defended. "Both of you pointed out good snags, but getting either one of you mad - while I basically only have use of one arm no less - it's not something I want to do, okay?"
Neither replied, crossing their arms in exactly the same way as they concentrated on the movie, trying to find something to prove their point.
Olivia sighed, letting her eyes drift closed even over the screams of civilians and gunshots. She didn't wake until she felt someone sitting in her lap.
Cracking a lid, she saw Casey grinning wildly. "What?" she said groggily. "Casey-Casey, just...no. Let me sleep!"
"Come on. We're alone." Casey smiled, kissing her, hard. Her hands ran up around Olivia's neck and tangled in her hair.
Olivia moaned, letting her hands run up and down her back and go under her shirt. She smiled, feeling Casey's heart rate increase. "You want more?" she asked. pulling away. "Like when my hand copped between your legs earlier, Casey? How-how I felt you give out...?"
"I want that, but I want to do it to you first." A smile tugged at Casey's lips as her hand slid between them.
"God, I wish you would," she said, spreading ler legs and moaning at the friction on the outside of her jeans. "I know you can go harder than that. Or at least I dream you can."
Her smile widening, Casey's other hand reached down and began unbuttoning Olivia's jeans, sliding her hand inside.
"Mhm, damn it! Please!" she moaned, hips bucking in anticipation. "Please, I know you can finish me off! I'm dying! And your fingers are just the perfect size!"
"Liv. Olivia. Oh God, Olivia." Somehow, Casey's voice didn't sound quite right. It sounded more freaked out than turned on.
"Wh-what? What's wrong?" she asked, slightly afraid of the answer. "Am I hurting you?"
"WAKE UP!"
The noise woke her with a start. Eyes popping open, she sat straighter. "Oh, God I'm sorry!" she said, blushing deeply. "I, uh, well I must've been... Um...yeah."
Alex and Casey stared at her with wide eyes, Casey with a dark blush covering her face, and Alex looking paler than normal.
"Oh good God! What did I-" she began, but Casey covered her mouth. She pulled it away. "Well, judging by how red all three of us are...it must've been very vivid..."
"Can we just all agree not to ever discuss this again?" Casey asked.
Olivia nodded. "Please tell me I'm still dressed!"
"Yes. I umm...I'm going for a bath." Casey stood, and Alex stood also.
"And I might..go and read a book or something. In another room."
They both left the room quickly, leaving Olivia alone.
She sighed, laying flat on the couch. "Oh well, now I might actually be able to sleep for a bit," she said before dozing off.
Author's Note: What do you think?
I know, especially now, we've crossed many lines with this story concerning the sexual aspects, but if you guys are still reading then maybe you have the same personality we do and that makes me smile. :-)
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