Okay, so you guys are AMAZING! I didn't think that I would get reviews so soon! Anyway, you guys only gave me four, but I thought that TheAlieVee's review was the sweetest(= and I didn't feel like waiting for one more review to post this chapter! So, here's chapter 2!
P.S.- I just wanted to say, in the last chapter when Clare had to finish the song lyrics to win the tickets those were made up lyrics to a Single-Minded Tragedy song; I forgot to make that clear soooo, I just did ;) && this chapter will start in Eli's POV, Enjoy!
&& on with the story!
Eli
The camera's were practically blinding, but we had been through this many times so I was becoming accustomed to it.
"Elijah, tell us, what is going on between you and Imogen?"
"Did you and your brother really have a fight over his girlfriend of six months, Imogen Moreno after he joined the band?"
I ignored all the questions, but those two caught my attention. My younger brother Jake had joined our band because Adam had to quit when he was offered a role in a movie that was shooting in Vancouver. It was exhausting looking for another bass player and when my brother auditioned I was really surprised; I never knew he could play or play so amazing for that matter. It made me feel bad because I didn't really take time to talk to him about his life and school. I'd just been so busy planning for the tour that I barely knew what was happening in his life.
I was even more surprised when he brought a girl home who was supposedly his girlfriend of four months. Her name is Imogen, which brings us to the matter at hand now.
There were rumors that Imogen had been cheating on my brother with me since she met me. It was really a strain on my brother when he found out. He actually questioned me if it was true and we got into a very big fight. We hadn't been the same since that fight and it's slowly breaking my heart. I love my brother to death and the fact that he didn't trust me hurt my feelings and now that our fight has been making us drift apart, it gives me another thing to worry about. My brother's like my other half. I can't function without him and now our relationship is pretty damaged; I just don't know what to do.
I ignored the reporters as we walked into our beach house. My parents were fine with me and Jake moving out and getting our own place with the band, as long as we agreed to visit.
"Jesus Christ, why can't they just leave us alone for two seconds?" Jake huffed.
"We told you what you were getting yourself into when you joined this band, dude." Drew's voice rang out as we all sat down in the living room.
"But don't worry, you'll get used to it." Fitz chimed in.
All three looked at me while I stayed silent, "What?"
"You were just quiet, usually you'd be the first to talk." Drew pointed out as he bit into the apple he grabbed from the kitchen on the way in.
"Oh." I said dumbly. I was just so out of it and I really didn't know what to say in reply to Drew's statement. I seriously had to clear my head, "Uh, I'm just gonna go take a nap; the exhaustion's really getting to me." I told all three of them. Drew and Fitz nodded in understanding and Jake didn't even glance at me. Ouch.
I walked up the twisting stairs and down to the end of the hallway where my room was. I walked into my room and locked the door behind me before I sat down at my computer desk.
I then took out a blank piece of lined paper and a pencil and started brainstorming.
I needed inspiration; badly.
I just haven't been able to write a song for a long time; the last song I wrote was three months ago. It was for our album.
I just couldn't write anymore after her.
She was my inspiration; my muse.
And now she's gone and I have writer's block.
It's been about two months since that day. The day she left me and died on me. I never thought that I would lose her; ever. I was in love with her and it killed me when she was diagnosed with cancer, I actually thought she would live, but she never thought to tell me it was terminal cancer.
I wasn't even with her the day she passed away; she died on my birthday. I was so upset when she didn't even show up and after my big bash I got a call from her mom and found out she died earlier that night. I was devastated and cried myself to sleep for like a whole month straight.
Ellie Nash was special.
She was different and that's why I loved her. And now she was gone and I was alone with no one.
But I didn't want anyone else.
Then it hit me; a song idea.
I started scribbling word after word after word onto the paper and when I checked the time, an hour and a half had gone by of me crossing out and replacing words and smirking when it satisfied me. I finished it; my first song about Ellie.
(A/N: This song is by Taylor Swift; when I listened to it, I fell in love with it! So, it doesn't exactly sound like something Eli would sing, but just imagine it differently. A different tune and everything, but still as a slow song, ahaha.)
Breathe
I see your face in my mind as I drive away,
Cause none of us thought it was gonna end that way.
People are people and sometimes we change our minds,
But it's killing me to see you go after all this time.
*Humming*
Music starts playing like the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you don't really wanna see.
Cause it's tragedy and it'll only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to be without you around.
And we know it's never simple, never easy,
Never a clean break; no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand,
And I can't, breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
Never wanted this, never wanted to see you hurt.
Every little bump in the road I tried to swerve.
But people are people and sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save us from the fallout.
And we know it's never simple, never easy,
Never a clean break; no one here to save me.
You're the only thing I know like the back of my hand.
And I can't, breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
It's two AM,
Feeling like I just lost a friend,
Hope you know it's not easy,
Easy for me.
It's two AM,
Feeling like I just lost a friend,
Hope you know this aint easy,
Easy for me.
And we know it's never simple, never easy,
Never a clean break; no one here to save me.
Oh,
I can't, breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to.
Sorry(x7).
I let out a breath and stretched my aching hand after I set my dull pencil down on my desk when a knock on my door startled me.
"Coming." I said as I got up and walked over to my bedroom door and unlocked it to let the person in. Jake awkwardly walked into my room and sat down on my bed before I closed the door and turned to him. We sat in silence for a few minutes.
"Listen, I'm sorry about our f-"
"No, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have jumped to conclusions and I know that you were telling the truth; I just… I don't know why I got so mad. I know you and Imogen would never do that to me."
I smirked at my brother in relief as we finally had made up; finally. He then noticed the paper on my desk and got up, walked over to the desk and grabbed the paper.
I put my hands in my pockets as I waited for him to finish reading, "Wow, Eli. Is this about…?" He trailed off and I nodded.
"You can say her name you know." I whispered. He sighed and set the paper back down on my desk before walking over to me and pulling me into a hug.
"You miss her, don't you?" He asked me as more of a statement than a question.
"Yeah…" I struggled to let the word out as I tried to hold back my tears. Crying in front of my brother over a girl is not something I planned on doing.
He pulled away and patted me on the back, "Time heals everything, my friend. Eventually you won't be so upset and you'll move on and meet someone new."
I shook my head, "No. No, I won't."
If only I realized how false that statement was.
Jake looked at me in defeat, "Eli, everyone loses someone in their life that they loved and you say that now, but eventually you'll find someone else to love. If Ellie was your soul mate she would still be here and you'd be happy, but… she's not… and she's not coming back either. You just have to deal with that." He told me with a shrug.
"I just… I need some time, to think; alone." I muttered to him hoping he would get the point. He took his hands off my shoulders and sighed before leaving my room without another word.
I sat down on the edge of my bed and took off my shoes before crawling under the comforter and resting my head on my black pillow, letting darkness engulf me.
Clare
Dear Diary, I can't believe that in only four days I'm going to a Single-Minded Tragedy concert. It's like a dream come true and I get to meet them! I just hope Katie can go; she's been having problems with her mom ever since her dad left. I feel really horrible, I mean, it's gotten so bad that sometimes she would show up at my door at like three in the morning crying. My mom always let her stay with us. I just… I always wonder what's happening when she's alone in that house with her mom and her mom's boyfriend. She never told me or Alli what they've been doing to her and the second she got a chance to leave for Vancouver to be in a movie she left. We'd been calling and sending each other letters for the past three months since she's been gone.
It's been pretty boring without our third best friend. Ever since Katie left me and Alli have stuck to watching romance movies and stuffing our faces with junk food. Katie was always the thinker and dare devil, getting us to do things we'd never done; it always gets our adrenaline pumping! And without her we haven't done much. I just hope since she's back home from shooting for a few months that we can all go to the concert and have fun. We always praised her determination with trying to become an actress. She'd been interest in acting since she was in seventh grade and she got her first TV role in her favorite show; Degrassi in ninth grade. (A/N: It just made so much sense ;) )
After that she'd started auditioning for a bunch of movies when her character on Degrassi got killed off. Me and Alli loved watching her on Degrassi. Her character, Aubrey was really interesting. When she was killed off me and Alli cried our butts off. I know, weird, huh?
Every time she would bomb an audition and call us crying we'd all stay at my house that night and watch movies together. And this was her first movie role ever. We were so excited for her, but when we realized she had to leave for a few months we were upset the whole last week she was here.
I just hope we can all go to the concert together…
I put down my pen and closed my diary before putting it back in my nightstand. All of a sudden Katie's ring tone was blowing up my phone. I grabbed it and answered with a smile on my face, "Katie!"
"Clare!" She mimicked me.
"I've missed you so much, have you talked to Alli?"
"Yeah, I just got off the phone with her and she said something about Single-Minded Tragedy concert tickets! Am I going to be the fourth to attend Ms. Edwards?" She chirped. I giggled slightly.
"Of course! As long as you can get permission from your mom, it's fine!"
I heard her sigh on the other end and my happy mood was just shot completely to the ground, "Who said she needs to know. I really don't think she has the right to anyway. I'm going and I don't need her stupid permission."
I felt a little uneasy about it, but decided not to argue any further, "Great, then I guess we're all going to the concert!"
"I guess we are, Clare-Bear. I'll talk to you tomorrow about wardrobe and everything, kay?"
"Kay."
I hung up after we said our quick goodbye's and set my iPhone down on my nightstand.
Four more days; only four more days.
I kept repeating the same thing over and over in my head as I fell asleep. I can make it through these four torturous days.
Oh, who am I kidding? This is going to be the hardest four days of my life!
Ugh!
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