Miss Rose:

This day so far has been one of the most disturbing and troubling since you left. You'll never believe all that happened!

First, we landed on a spaceship that was 42 minutes away from crashing into a sun, immediately we were cut off from the TARDIS, the engines on the ship were failing, and to top it all off, beings from the living sun were infecting the crew and killing them off, one by one.

At first I thought the infection was just a virus, that the crew were changing from a parasite. Because Capt. McDonnell swore she did nothing, I did not suspect anything more. We had to work quickly to find a way to stop the ship from crashing.

One of the crewmen who had been infected, Ashton, he jettisoned a pod that Martha and a man named Riley had taken refuge in. I was forced to go outside the ship in order to re-magnetize the pod back to the ship.

But as I gazed into the rays of the sun, something had gone wrong. I realized with horror that it was the sun that was alive! And before I could do anything about it, I too had been infected. There was this indescribable fire within my chest that burned me to the core. I felt a torrent of anger and fury that wasn't from me.

Through the living sun I learned why it was taking over the crew. McDonnell and the crew had been mining the sun for fuel. It was screaming because they were scooping out its heart.

It was agonizing, the fire that burned through my eyes. The sun was living in me, and I was slowly being destroyed from the inside out. I'm not sure if I could've regenerated or not. Thankfully I was able to last longer than the others had because I'm a Time Lord. I calculated that I could withstand the stasis chamber in freezing temperatures, so the living sun could be frozen out of me.

Every single second I wanted to give up, the wave of fire was just too excruciating. But I was horrified at the thought that I could be the harbinger of death to the whole crew, including Martha. So I held on. I was so scared, more scared than I had ever been in my life. I'm so glad Martha was there, she helped me hold on long enough to enter the stasis chamber.

Oh it was so cold! Suddenly the temperature had dropped so quickly that it would've instantly killed any human. But the living sun was communicating with the others outside the medical bay, and the energy was cut off from the stasis chamber. At that moment I knew I couldn't keep Martha close to me any more. I figured, in a one in a million chance, if the fuel was vented from the engines, if the crew gave back what they had stolen, maybe everything would turn right again. She didn't want to leave, but I made her.

It felt like the last time I had regenerated, when I absorbed the Time Vortex from you, except, this time, a million times stronger. I still don't know if you remember all that happened, but, even though I died that day, you saved me, more than you'll ever know. I desperately wished you were there at that moment, just as you were when I regenerated. You would've made the pain more bearable.

I was finally ready to give up. But I needed to tell Martha. I told her one last time to give back what had been taken. Then it was begun. I gave myself up to the sun. The light burned through my eyes and the sound that came from my mouth sounded like a monster. The monster within me said

"Burn with me, burn with me Martha!" I had lost control, letting the angry fire and passion consume my entire soul. I still shiver over the thought.

But, as suddenly as it began, it was over. That instant relief of the heat leaving my body was refreshing. I actually thought for a second that I had regenerated, but I was very glad to realize that I hadn't. The intercom said "Impact averted, impact averted" and I realized Martha had saved the day. She saved all of us. It felt so good to be normal again.

But the experience had damaged me, both my body and my mind. I still feel a bit feverish right now, but I'm sure it'll pass. My mind will take much longer to heal though.

This has been my longest letter yet! I better end it soon, or else Martha will burst in here demanding to know where we're going next.

-Remembering you-

Your Doctor