My Golden Angel:

It is with heavy hearts that I start this letter. Again, so much has happened these past few hours.

Martha was just about to take her leave and say goodbye when the doors to the TARDIS shut and we were thrown into the vortex. Martha yelled for me to take her back, but I had lost control of the TARDIS. Finally we stopped. It looked like we had landed in an underground in war. Before we knew what was going on, soldiers came and forced my arm into a tissue sampler/extrapolator. Very painful by the way.

A young woman stepped out of the device. My daughter to be exact. Makes me laugh now, she had your hair color! Amazing how they made her. Using Progenation, which is reproduction from a single organism, you only need one for the biological mother and father. You see, you take a sample of diploid cells, split them into haploids, then recombine them in a different arrangement and grow a new organism. Oh blimey I promised I wouldn't go into technical terms when writing to you. Oh well.

I was surprised at how quick the rate of growth was. But I was more surprised on how this woman was a born and bred soldier who knew how to fight. But before I had time to think on that, there was gunfire everywhere as a race called the Hath invaded the area. Donna and I were separated from Martha and she was taken captive. Then my daughter activated a detonating device and sealed off the tunnel. We were cut off from Martha. I set off to find her but instead we were taken in by the humans for questioning.

I was automatically repelled by this war-born creature. A generated anomaly with military facts bored into her brain. That's how Donna named her. Jenny. She encouraged me to play the role of 'Dad' but I told her there was nothing there. I wish I had now.

We discovered we had landed on the planet Messaline, and they had been at war for years, or so they thought. We know now it was just a miscalculation in the facts and they had only been fighting for a week. It's hard to explain but they were all generated anomalies, with misconstrued facts and memories poured into their heads.

Donna was the one who eventually put the pieces together by discovering the date lines on the corridors.

But before that we were thrown in a jail cell to keep from warning the Hath about the invasion and the "source" which both the humans and Hath believed were a source of great power. "Whoever holds the source holds the destiny of the planet." The humans wanted the source so they could erase every Hath on the planet. I couldn't stand by while they committed genocide.

Inside the cell Jenny accused me of being a proper soldier with the means to stop the fighting. But I didn't listen to her and instead contacted Martha using Donna's phone. She said the Hath were also moving towards the source, which could mean trouble.

Donna wanted to prove to me that Jenny was my daughter and I should care for her by asking for my stethoscope and discovering she had two hearts. Donna said she was a Time Lord, but I couldn't accept that. I didn't want her to be connected to the Time Lords with a shared knowledge and suffering, who were all gone. She said this war wasn't any different than the Time War.

So, we escaped from that jail cell, with Jenny's help, but soon we realized the soldiers were after us. Jenny made the decision to stay behind and fight them off to give us time. I told her not to go, but she was a soldier who had to do her duty.

Oh but you should've seen her fly through those energy lasers! She was brilliant! It was then that I realized she was something so much more than just a generated anomaly. She was my daughter.

Donna inferred that she should come with us, and I couldn't turn her down. She was so happy and excited to see new worlds. I guess I was happy too. For the first time I was glad I had a daughter. But it still didn't change the facts that it hurt so much to even look at her.

When Donna asked me, I told her I had a family, before the war, and how they were all dead. Every time I looked at Jenny I saw my family, all my loved ones whom I had lost. It hurt so much.

But just when I realized I had been given a second chance with Jenny, she was cruelly taken away from me. A bullet and a revenge filled ape took my daughter away from me!

I held her as she slowly died. My mind thought of everything, regenerating, healing powers, anything that could save her. But her two heartbeats stopped, and there was nothing I could do. Jenny was dead. All those things I had planned to do with her, all the places I wanted to show her, were crushed in the dust.

I was so angry at that moment, I wanted to bring Cobb the pain that was in my heart, the heartbreaking, shattering pain.

But Messaline was at a new beginning, a place of life and peace. I couldn't take another life when one had just been taken. So I left.

Sorry, I had to take a break and come back to this. Just let me tie up the few loose ends to answer the questions you may have.

The source was a terra-forming device, made to produce life. A planet intended for bringing life had become a place of war.

Jenny was the reason the TARDIS was brought to Messaline in the first place. Through a paradox we actually created her through her own actions.

We were able to take Martha back home. She said that just when I finally had something to live for, I lost it. But there's always someone to live for. Always a name worth fighting for.

Thankfully Donna understood my need for some alone time, that's why I had the chance to write this long of a letter. Donna suggested we find a new world next, in remembrance of Jenny. Perhaps I will.

-Still Yours-

Your Doctor