Thank you for your reveiws! heres my update

Remembering

"Explain what?" Seth asked as he held me close to him. I slowly pulled away and looking ashamed. What's wrong with me?! I was with Mark a few days ago. And now I'm falling for Seth! Is this normal…Edward?? Is it?

"Why don't you just tell us what happened," Edward said. I took a deep breath preparing myself

"I went to New York City," I told them, I really wasn't looking for him we just found each other…nothing happened. I told Edward trying to explain myself. "I got a job," I had a lot of nervous energy. I took an unneeded breath after every sentence. "As a waitress," I really didn't mean too really "At a diner, they need people to work…" unneeded breath, "The job was easy. I didn't cause any problems," as I was talking, I was also stepping away from Seth with every unneeded breath "And then there he was….he was sitting at my station," I told them recreating the scene in my mind. "I try to act like he was a normal customer. Acting like I didn't know him, I tried," I never looked up but I could feel there heavy stares and Seth's puzzled looks burning into my chalky skin. "He pleaded forgiveness, I told him I couldn't. He begged, Edward," I took a breath, "He told me to forgive and forget…but you know I couldn't. But he was right…I should," breath. "We became friends, again…only friends," breath, "But he wanted more…even if he didn't say it…I know he did. He asked me to go up north with him," the memories circled in my mind. "I'm sorry, Jacob. I forgot," I quick glance at Jacob then I stared at Edward to make him believe me.

"It's okay," Jacob told me, but I knew it wasn't

"I believe you," Edward told me, "But," then he glanced at Seth, "You said-"

"Yeah I know," I told before he said too much. I know I told him I still loved him, but please not in front of Seth. Edward just rolled his eyes

"Why do you always pick the wrong people?" Edward told me. It made me smile

"I don't know, I like them bad," Seth was very confused but found what said amusing.

"Yeah, that's your problem," Edward said

"Okay, Edward stop playing your mind games and tell us what you guys are talking about," Jacob said, Edward looked at me

"Mark wanted to came here, I told him no and left him. I don't think he will cause any harm," I told them, I left a little relaxed.

"To us maybe," Edward mumbled, I glared at him.

"Well, I'm happy your back Bena," Esme said, ending the hated conversation. I just smiled, because I don't know what else to do.

When Rosalie was done cleaning up the house we destroyed. Everyone helped to repair it. Esme said I didn't have to help if I wasn't up to it. I went hunting, Seth came too. I wasn't really thirsty I just wanted to relax. Seth and I just sat listening. Seth was the first one who broke the silence.

"Bena, can you tell me what happened with you and Mark?" he asked, I was expecting it

"What do you mean?" I said staling

"What happened on the field trip? Why did you get so mad at Rosalie?" I looked away from him. "Jacob told me you killed someone," Seth said quietly, I nodded.

"I went to Italy for a school field trip a year ago," I started, "I went with my social studies class,"

"Was Mark in your social studies class," he asked, I nodded

"Mark was in all my classes," I said in a hush tone, I looked around the forest. "We meet right there," I said pointing to my left, "by that tree. He called me chick and I called him kid," I said recalling the memory. I heard Seth growl. I sighed

"Was Mark-"

"Mark was my boyfriend…then Italy happened," I told him, "I don't like to talk about Italy," I said looking up at him

"Didn't you guys get into a car accident?" Seth asked, Edward did listen, I guess Sara wasn't the only one in the 'accident'.

"No, we go mixed up with some bad vampires. Mark worked for the bad vampires," I told Seth. "He was using me to get Edward and Alice to join them. You know how Edward can read minds and Alice can see the future. Well Mark had a power to influenced people to do stuff he wanted them to do. He would plant an idea in their head and there body would force them to do whatever he asked." I paused.

"He such an as-" I stopped him

"Do not say that!" I got defensive, why? "Do not say that," my voice soften, "You don't know him." I said shaking my head, "you don't,"

"I'm sorry," Seth said moving my hair away from my face, "I'm sorry, Bena,"

"It's okay," I held his hand that was on my face and kissed his palm, " It's okay," I was more trying to reassure myself more then him.

"So what happened after you found out?" Seth asked

"Well when the bad vampires found us. My friend Sara got could in the mix. They wanted her died. And they forced me to kill her." I laughed dryly, "And the girl thanked me."

"Why?"

"Before we went out of the hotel to go on the tour, I made her pretty because she really liked this guy and stuff…..I basically prepared her for her death bed. And she thanked me for it," I said coming to the realization, silent tear rolled down my face. Seth wiped the away and wrapped his warm body around me, trying to squeeze all the pain out of me.

"Bena," he said pulling away, "I love you." And that all he really had to say, it was more then enough for me. I love you too, I thought, but…. I didn't want to think about it. So I just kissed him.