A.N: I know it's short but that's because I've started writing my first book and all my attention is going to that and my studies. This doesn't mean I'm stopping with this fic though, I'm not stopping until it's finished. Anyway thank you for reading and please review? :)
Ashley's POV.:
I woke up early this morning but I stayed in bed too lazy to get up. Kyla was still sound asleep just like probably the rest of the house. Maybe Kate was up but I'm not in the mood to strike up a conversation with her right now. I'll just stay in bed until Kyla wakes up.
In about two weeks were heading back home. Up to a week ago I guess I would have been happy to go back to L.A. But I mean Glen and even Aiden, I'll miss them. And let's not even begin about Spencer. I don't want to leave her behind. Especially not now that I know about this whole Carmen situation.
I wonder if she'll want to visit me, I sure hope she will. I get distracted by my phone signaling me I have a text.
Pick-nick under the tree where you got lost in 3 hours? S.
Yes, please. See you there A.
I type back smiling. Three hours, I've got plenty of time to get ready.
Spence and I have been dating for a week now. We're taking it slow just like we said we would. We've been hanging around at her house mostly and just taking walks together.
We're not going public with our relationship because Spencer's not out yet, to anyone except Aiden I guess and well no one here knows about me either.
Spencer and I haven't spoken about what will happen after my departure. I'm slightly worried that she doesn't really care, I try not to believe that but sometimes even I get insecure.
Kyla starts stirring which I take as my cue to get up and get ready for my lunch date with Spencer.
I'm a bit early but knowing Spencer, she'll be early too. She's probably already there waiting for me.
I reach the tree close to her house, yes the one where I got lost and just as I though Spencer is already there sitting on a blanket waiting for me. She looks up and smiles at me, my stomach does a flip and I grin back at her.
She gets up and walks over to me. "Hey." She smiles before pecking my lips. "Hey." I reply smiling. We both sit down on the blanket and Spencer gets some sandwiches out of the pick-nick basket.
"So, I haven't seen you in two days. What have you been up to?" She asks taking a bite out of her sandwich.
"Family stuff, it's the last two weeks so they want to spend as much time as possible together with us." I answer hoping this will start a conversation about my departure and what we're going to do about us after I leave.
Unfortunately it doesn't, she just nods ans keeps on eating. I sigh and do the same thing.
After we finished lunch we both lay down, me with my head on Spencer's shoulder. I hug her tight and close my eyes. I really don't want to leave her.
We have to speak about this. "Spence?" I try. Spencer hmm's with her eyes still closed. "What about when I leave?" I ask.
She opens her eyes and sits up straight, making me sit up too.
"I knew this would be coming one of these days." She says sighing. Her attitude towards this makes me mad. "Do you even care that I'm leaving?" I question her mad.
She looks genuinely surprised . "Of course I do Ashley, do you have any idea of what you mean to me? She says raising her voice a little.
Oh no, she has no right to be mad at me. "Honest? I don't because you refuse to speak about it." I tell her.
Spencer looks at me with her mouth open for an instant. Then she closes it and takes a moment to wet her lips.
"I know and I'm sorry." She says looking me in the eyes. Normally it freaks me out when people do that but with Spencer it's different.
"After Carmen died I honestly thought I could never care about anyone ever again but then you came." She says smiling at me.
"I care about you a lot Ashley, more than you could ever imagine." She continues. " And I don't want you to leave but I know you can't stay either and I don't know what to do and it freaks me out. That's why I didn't want to talk about it. I never talk about important these things until the moment comes that I just have to." She tells me.
What she said moved me, she moves me. I lean in and kiss her. "I care a lot about you too."
We're not ready to share I love you's yet. Besides that it's so early there's her grieving about Carmen. I don't even know if she'll ever be able to love me, care about me yes but love, I really don't know. For now I'm enjoying what we have.
"Maybe you could come and visit me in L.A., see if there's some universities you're interested in?" I ask her hopefully.
She seems to ponder the question then she turns to me and smiles. "I'd love to." She answers before leaning in but before our lips touch I remember something. "Kyla wants to meet you." I tell her. Spencer leans back and looks confused.
"We've already met." She says slowly, probably wondering if she missed something and I laugh.
"Yes, she met you like Spencer Carlin, family friend. Now she wants to meet you as Spencer Carlin, my girlfriend." I tell her smiling but then I remember we never discussed the girlfriend thing with Spencer. What if this is too fast, what if she runs away from me now.
I look at her but she's smiling. "I'd love to meet my girlfriend's sister." She says putting the emphasis on girlfriend. Is she making fun of me or...
"I love the sound of that, Ashley David's girlfriend." She smiles and then she places her arm around me and leans in to place another soft kiss on my lips.