Disclaimer: I unfortunately don't own the sons of anarchy but like many I wish I did. I do however own the character Danni! And the other characters that you don't recognise.

Chapter 11

After what happened with Greg Danni seemed to retreat into herself that little bit more. She didn't want to, god she didn't want to give them the power to do that to her but she couldn't help it. Having it almost happen once was bad but twice…she was slowly falling apart but trying to keep it together. She knew she should be grateful that she was never actually raped but still every time she closed her eyes she saw Greg or the masked men and so she began to lose sleep making it more obvious to others that she was far from ok.

She didn't feel like herself. She didn't feel confident and free from insecurities. She didn't feel strong and independent. She felt used, broken, unworthy, dirty…she fucking hated that they could make her feel that way. She tried to scrub the dirty feeling off of her, she tried to gain her confidence back but when she looked in the mirror she saw the bruises that were slowly fading away and she couldn't forget it. She could even touch her side now and it wouldn't be painful unless it was hit forcefully but touching and grabbing it wasn't sore anymore. Things should be looking up now…but she couldn't get over it. She wanted to bury it away and never think of it again but the more she avoided it the worse it got.

She didn't understand how her family could stand to look at her after everything that happened and while a part of her screamed that she was being irrational and that her family loved her and that she had to get it together another part of her was yelling worthless, unworthy, broken, dirty, used and she couldn't fucking stop it no matter how much she tried. Another thing was that she had been avoiding Juice again; she couldn't even look at him without feeling disgusted with herself. She had let herself get into the situation where she was almost raped twice and he had to kill a man for her…how was she supposed to look him in the eye after that?

Juice had noticed all of these things of course. He knew she was avoiding him again but he could also read her like an open book and knew it wasn't because of him but because of what she was feeling. He hated how those fuckers made her feel, and he knew she was trying her damn hardest not to let them win but she needed help. He needed to show her that he didn't think she was worthless, unworthy, broken, dirty, used and anything else that she felt. She was fighting these feelings and he was sure as fuck going to help her.

Most days she was left alone to try and work through it and they could all see that she was trying but it wasn't working. Danni wouldn't ask for help and they knew that so Juice was going to help her without her asking him to. He was going to do whatever he could to get their Danni back; his Danni. Most days she was left alone but not today…

When Danni entered the club house Juice watched her from his seat at the bar. She smiled at the guys as she passed them but it was hollow, there was no spark in her eyes, they were empty. Tonight a party was being held and Danni was hoping to get away before it started that much Juice knew so when he saw her head for her room at the club house he got off his seat and quietly followed her slipping into her room behind her.

"Juice, what are you…?" she began but he shook his head.

"Shh…Danni, I can't…Jesus fucking Christ" he muttered, he was trying to get her back but he didn't have a fucking clue what to say. Danni looked at him in her baggy SAMCRO hoody and baggy jeans with trainers that had become customary and she furrowed her brows in confusion.

"Alright, listen to me ok? I can't sit around and watch you destroy yourself anymore, I won't do it. I know Danni, I know that you're fighting with everything in you not to let what happened change you or take over your life but sometimes it's too much to handle on your own and you need help. You won't ask for help, I know that, but I'm helping you anyway. I can see what's happening to you Danni, I can see you. I can see that you're fighting to stay afloat but everything is trying to pull you under and if you can't deal with this it's gonna drag you down and you'll drown. I can't let that happen, I won't do it Danni." He started and he already saw the tears well up in her eyes. She hadn't broken down yet; she hadn't cried and cursed at the whole situation like Gemma did and before he continued trying to pull her back to him she needed to let it out.

"Come here babe…you need to let this out first." He said holding his hand out and she realised that while she never thought he was stupid she never knew just how deep he could be until now. One lone tear leaked from her eye and he sighed "Baby…" and the floodgates opened. She took his hand and he pulled her to him encircling her in his arms and pulling her to the bed so he could sit down with her in his lap as she sobbed into his neck fisting his shirt.

"I can't Juice…I…I don't know how…shit! I'm trying so damn hard not to let them win but…how can I…fuck! They may not have raped me completely but that first guy did violate me and they all made me feel weak and helpless and I…I can't stop their voices, or their faces, or the feel of their hands! I can't scrub off the feeling of dirtiness, unworthiness, weakness, of being broken and used…I just, I'm so fucking broken that I can't…I can't stop them from affecting me even though I fucking hate the power it gives them even though they're dead! God damn it! I killed them, they made me put three more lives to the list of people I've killed…and you…you killed him because of me! Jesus, I don't know how you can look at me…any of you, I'm fucking…god I don't even know what I am! A part of me is screaming that they're wrong…I'm not any of those things but…but another part is repeating it over and over and it's getting ingrained into my head and it won't ever leave…and I can't…" she sobbed before she began mumbling and muttering incoherently while she shook her head. Juice was completely falling apart listening to her, the internal fight she had going on was killing her slowly. All the things she thought of herself were wrong and a part of her knew that but he needed all of her to believe that. He needed his Danni back, the one that had no need for modestly or insecurities. He rubbed her back soothingly trying to comfort her as she started to calm down.

"Better?" he asked softly.

Danni took a deep breath and let it out slowly "A little. God, I'm sorry. I'm such a mess right now" she said as she started to get off his lap. When she stood she ran a hand over her face wiping all her tears away and taking a few deep breaths.

Juice stood shaking his head "No, don't be sorry I was glad to be here for you. You're not a mess Danni, you're one of the strongest people I know and the fact that you held it together long enough to help your mom was amazing…but it's your turn now" he told her.

"Thanks Juice but…" she started shaking her head.

"No buts Danni. Listen to me alright…you are amazing. What you did protecting Tara and your nephew and then protecting your mother knowing what could happen is amazing. Your strength is amazing. Your ability to love is amazing. You loyalty to the club and your family is amazing. You fierce need to protect the ones you love is amazing. Your bitchiness is amazing. Your confidence is amazing. Your beauty is amazing. Your ability to love me…even if only a little is a fucking miracle." He paused as she looked down a few more tears escaping and he went to stand in front of her "Look at me Danni…please" he pleaded with her gripping her chin gently so that she had to look at him. "Those voices that you hear in your head are wrong. You are more than worthy for me, for this club, for this family, for this life. You are not weak, what you did for your mom, taking what should have happened to her and then helping her afterwards…that's the strongest thing I have known anyone to have done. You don't need to scrub your beautiful body anymore because you are not dirty, you are not used, you are not broken…you're perfect. You can fight this and I'm gonna help you. You said you voiced and addressed your mom's fears and that's what brought her back to her normal self, well that's what I just did. Those men they're gone Danni, they're never coming back. I killed Greg because I couldn't stand to see you hurt, I did that Danni, me. You didn't force me too and it sure as hell wasn't your fault. You killed those men to survive and to save you mom, don't let that guilt eat at you because we would have killed them anyway. You can stop being afraid of loud noises, you can stop flinching when a man gets close and you can chuck the baggy clothes Danni because they're not you and we all love you for exactly who you are. I love you Danielle Teller Morrow and I wouldn't change a thing about you" Juice finished quietly and Danni had a steady stream of tears sliding down her face and she let her head fall forward onto his chest and hugged him as tight as she could.

"Thank you" she whispered into his chest and he rested his head on hers.

"For what?" he asked.

"Those voices? They're fading into the background. My skin stopped crawling half way through your speech. I stopped hating myself as soon as you said you loved me. Your words have completely blown everything I thought away. I don't feel unworthy anymore, or used and broken. I didn't think I could get better this fast but it's you Juice. If Jax, or dad, or mom or any of the guys or girls had said that to me I'm not sure how big of an impact it would have made but you…you mean everything to me. Your opinion means the most to me…you mean more to me than I mean to myself and so your words outweigh mine. I feel like me again, not some beat down little girl who was constantly being kicked" she said "So thank you" she finished and he grinned making her smile back and he saw the spark.

He cupped her face resting his head against hers before cupping the back of her neck and pulling her into a hug. They clung to each other for a few moments before Danni sighed and turned her head to the right looking at herself in the mirror and for the first time in a long time she didn't feel disgusted. She tilted her head to the side as she examined herself and then she looked down at her clothes scrunching her nose up and Juice grinned widely "What the hell? Those trainers have got to go until it's time for jogging" she muttered and he laughed.

Danni grinned up at him stretching her arms above her head and shaking out her legs before rolling her head trying to get back into the feel of her body. Juice watched her smiling goofily and then he put his hands on her hips resting his head against hers again "God, I love you" he sighed.

"Hmm…I love you" she replied softly and he pulled his head back to look into her eyes as a huge shit eating grin spread across his face making her smile. That was the first time she said that since he got back all those months ago.

"Say it again" he whispered and she grinned.

"I love you Juice" she repeated confidently.

He gripped the back of her neck and pulled her towards him planting a kiss directly on her lips. Her hands grabbed his waist as she opened her mouth to let his tongue enter and then they tangled and danced together. It was a leisurely kiss and they swayed slightly on the spot while they "Hmm" into each others mouth. Juice remembered that she only just got better and reluctantly pulled back kissing her again and then once more before resting his head against hers.

"I should let you get ready for the party" he said quietly and pecked her on the lips again before turning slowly for the door although he desperately wanted to continue but it had to be her choice.

As he walked away Danni caught his hand with hers and tugged him back towards her, he knocked into her a little but gripped her waist and easily steadied her looking a little confused before she pressed her lips against his again and he offered no resistance. He let her have the choice and she chose and good god was he happy with her decision. She clasped her hands at the back of his neck moaning into his mouth and running her hands down his chest slowly as he cupped her neck and tilted her head so that he controlled the kiss. He was treading carefully so as to not scare her but she didn't seem to like the slow careful pace.

"Stop treating me like I'll shatter" she mumbled against his lips and he grinned before turning them and backing her into the wall making her arch towards him while he delved his tongue deep into her mouth. She pushed herself closer to him as he pinned her hips to the wall by his own and gripped her waist tightly in his hands. Their tongues tangled and their mouths pushed and pulled at a frantic pace as she gripped his neck and fisted his shirt to pull him closer and he lifted one of her legs over his hip. Their hips bucked forward instinctually and they simultaneously moaned into each others mouths. Danni pulled back slightly to breathe but their mouths were still brushing against each other as they continued to grind into each other.

Juice gripped the thigh wrapped around him with one hand and used it to lift her from the ground as his other hand went to her ass. Danni wrapped her free leg around his calf loosely to make sure she didn't fall. He walked them the few steps to the small table in the room and sat her down before stepping between her legs and crushing his lips to hers again. He pulled her SAMCRO hoody from her and let it fall to the table as she bit his lip and sucked his tongue into her mouth. She grabbed the edge of the table as he leaned down to her neck and began to suck on it hard, nipping every now and then making her jerk slightly. She threw her head back when he sucked on her pulse point and then he kissed up her throat, over her chin and nipped at her lips before he kissed her again.

She tugged his cut off of his shoulders and then pulled his shirt up over his head making him stop kissing her for a fraction of a second and his mouth was back on hers before his shirt had left her hands. Their lips, tongues and teeth clashed together in their passion and they were officially oblivious to the world around them. Juice kicked his shoes off as he ran his hands up Danni's denim clad thighs, stopping as he reached the button of her jeans. Danni undid the belt and button on his jeans before he was lifting her again off of the table and over to the double bed in the room.

Juice undid the button and zipper on Danni's jeans and tugged them off of her along with her trainers throwing them to the side. He splayed out his hands on her ribs as he kissed down her throat and between the valley of her breasts. Danni's head went back into the mattress as he trailed one hand around to the clasp of her bra and then it was off in a second his hands back on her ribs holding her to the bed as she arched her back. He took one nipple into his mouth and swirled his tongue around it lightly before sucking it hard and nipping it. The opposite sensations had Danni moaning loudly and he switched breasts to give each the same treatment. Danni, realising that Juice still had his jeans on, dragged them down his legs by her feet and scratched at his back as his fingers hooked into her panties.

He slowly dragged her panties down her legs while kissing down her body, wet open mouthed kisses paying extra attention to her crow tattoo and scars. When he reached her feet he pulled the panties off completely before moving his hands back up her legs with his lips following the path. He kissed up her inner thigh and passed over where she wanted him most making her groan.

"Juice…" she breathed as her nails dug into his shoulder a little more.

He worked his way back up her body to her mouth tangling their tongues together again. She brought her feet up to the waistband of his boxers and dragged them downwards taking his boxers with them. She reached between them and grabbed his erect cock and gently ran her nails along the underside.

"Fuck" Juice groaned as he bucked his hips "Danni…"

Danni pumped him a few times and as his thrusts grew quicker she swiped her finger over the tip catching some pre come and brought it up to her lips sucking it off and moaned "Mmm".

"Jesus baby" Juice gasped at the sight of her.

He fisted her hair and kissed her aggressively as he positioned himself at her entrance. He lifted her left leg to the crook in his elbow to open her further, locked eyes with her and then pushed into her. Danni threw her head back while dragging her nails down his back as he sucked and bit on her neck.

"Fuck." they both gasped, groaning at the feel of him inside of her; the feel of them becoming one as they joined themselves together.

He growled low in his throat. "So…tight" he gritted, she could hear the grinding of his teeth.

He pulled back so that only the head of his length was inside of her and then pushed forward fast. Her walls quivered and pulsed around him. He settled into a fast, hard pace. He thrust forward and brought her hips up at the same time, allowing him to go real deep.

The room was filled with the smacking sound of flesh-on-flesh and the deep, reverberating groans and moans. He said her name over and over again as she said many words, most of them beginning with F and ending with me.

Juice grabbed the back of her neck and pulled her into a kiss tangling their tongues together. Danni rolled them over while not breaking the kiss and slowly pulled away sitting up. She ground her pelvis against his slowly to torture him as his fingers dug into her hips in desperation. She lifted herself off of him and then lowered herself slowly inch by painful inch and she had him begging after only a few moments. She lowered herself onto him again hard this time, their hips crashing together. She did it again and then Juice began to pull her back onto him harder and faster.

She pulled Juice into a sitting position as he continued to help lift her up and pull her back down before he dipped his head and took her nipple into his mouth. Danni tugged his ear between her teeth and bit down on it as she began to need more that what they could do in their position. As though reading her mind Juice flipped her over so he was on top of her again and lifted her right leg over his shoulder as she wrapped her left leg around his waist.

She lifted her hips and circled them, their pelvises grinding together. He gave a jerky thrust and fell forward, bracing himself on his hands either side of her face.

It wasn't long before she felt that telltale coiling feeling deep down inside of her and she was lifting her hips with every thrust he gave. His groans were getting louder as were her whimpers and breathy moans so she knew he was close.

"Yes, baby. Ah, fuck, I'm gonna come." he rested his forehead against the bed right next to her ear. The sound of his harsh breathing sent her pulse into overdrive.

"Mmm, I'm so…close." she bit out as he plunged deep.

"Come…with me, baby." he grunted erotically, he lifted his forehead and she saw the light sheen of perspiration and the tightness of his jaw. He looked into her eyes and flashed her a loving smile.

Three more hard thrusts and he was shifted to the right a little and she couldn't hold it anymore. She screamed out his name as her climax rocketed through her, bringing on his own release. He growled loudly and bit down on her shoulder as her body wrung every last drop from his.

Not wanting to crush her he rolled over taking her with him so she was laying half on top of him while he was still inside her. His fingertips traced circles onto her thigh and the other hand was buried in her hair, which was a little damp from sweat.

"Wow babe" he breathed.

"Hm…that was…" she trailed off her chest heaving.

"Amazing…it had been way too long baby" he said quietly stroking her tat softly.

"Yeah, lets never wait that long again" she chuckled and he laughed.

"Amen to that" he replied "Sleep for a couples of hours Danni. Then you can get ready for the party nice and refreshed" he suggested.

"Hm, ok" she sighed snuggling in deeper. She couldn't wait to go to the party as herself again.

"Love you baby" he whispered.

"Love you too" she replied just as quietly.

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"Geez Danni, are you ready yet?" Juice asked through the bathroom door as he heard the party from down the stairs.

"No…almost. Baby why don't you go on ahead and I'll meet you down there ok?" she asked him and he grinned goofily when she called him baby.

"You sure?" he asked.

"Yeah I'll be fine" she replied with a smile in her voice.

"OK, don't be to long babe" he said.

"Alright…love you" she smiled at her words.

Juice grinned "Love you more" he replied before leaving the room and heading down the stairs into the party.

Juice went in search of any SAMCRO members that he could find and luckily found them all around the pool table. They were probably waiting for an update on Danni so he walked over to them and stopped beside them as they all looked up.

"Well, how is she?" Gemma asked him and he grinned.

"What the hell are you smiling about?" Tig asked.

"Danni's doing great" Juice said happily.

"How great is great?" Jax asked with a smile.

"Hm, great as in she feels like herself again. Great as in she decided we should be together again. Great as in she chose to have sex with me because she's ready. Great as in she lost the baggy clothes. Great as in…" he trailed off and pointed towards the stairs with a huge smile.

They all turned and their eyes popped out with smiles when they saw Danni; their Danni. She was walking down the stairs turning heads with every step she took. She was wearing a silver dress that hugged her curves snugly, stopped mid thigh and had spaghetti straps. Her hair was curled and she had on blood red shiny lipstick with smoky eyes and silver heels. When she reached the bottom step she searched for them and smiled when she saw them and they noticed that it was a real smile.

"What the hell did you say to her? Or are you that good in bed?" Bobby teased.

"It was probably both" Gemma commented sounding like it came from experience and Jax cringed.

"Hi" Danni greeted brightly stopping by Juice's side and kissing him smack on the lips making him grin down at her.

"Hi" they all chorused a little in shock.

"You look amazing" Tara commented with a smile.

"I know" she sighed wistfully and they all grinned widely.

"You're not modest are you?" Opie asked with a smile like he did months before.

"Nope, modesty is for people with insecurities and I don't need to have any" she repeated from months prior and she got a few chuckles.

"God dove, I'm so glad you're ok" Gemma smiled.

"Me too" she sighed.

Jax hugged his sister tightly and asked "What brought you back?" and she looked up at Juice with a smile.

"He did" she simply replied not elaborating and Juice grinned.

Clay raised an eyebrow with a smile "Well then thanks" he chuckled kissing Danni on the head.

"Any time" Juice said sincerely tucking Danni into his side before leaning down to kiss her.

"Oh come on! This isn't gonna start again is it?" Clay protested and Danni pulled away laughing.

"I have no idea what you're talking about father" she said before walking away, grabbing Juice's hand and pulling him behind her both of them grinning.

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