/A/N HI~ im back!

romano:took you long enough

i had violen lessons~and school and other stuff~

romano:why is this chapter so depressing?

Because i was listening to gakupos verision of lillium also gakukos! while writing this...it fits so well :D

warnings:character death,cursing,a bit of blood,sadness, and incest~

romano:hetaliapasta90 does not own hetalia and what was that about incest!

hahahah you'll seeeee now to the sadness! i mean story!

Chapter One

A man with dark brown hair and with a curl to the right of his head slumped* down next to a tree in the rain. 'How did I get here again?' he wondered. He had been lost in the forest for about an hour. He knew it was a bad idea to go in there but he could not resist…not after all that had happen to him. Not after all he had lost.

He began to think about what had happened over the last few days.

Lovino Vargas had been walking down to the library where he worked. He lived alone with his sister, Alicia, who was blind and wasn't able to walk. She had a horrible disease when she was just 8 years old; it had left her blind and unable to walk. Their parents had died in a house fire when he was 4 and Alicia was 2. After that they went to live with their grandfather, till 10 years later he had to go to war, He died 9 months after. Lovino and Alicia started to live alone from there. Lovino worked hard to try to keep his sister alive. He was the only family he had left. He then moved some where else in Southern Italy with his sister; there he befriended a person named Toni Carriedo. He was from Spain and moved there for a better life.

Lovino arrived at the library. He worked there because he loved reading the books there, he thought they where all so interesting. Toni worked with him also, although he did partially annoy him, he was grateful he was there.

"Hey Lovi~, I'm going to go get some tomatoes~, do you want to come?" Toni asked.

"No…And don't call me lovi tomato bastard!" Lovino yelled.

"Hahaha ok Lovi~" Toni said walking outside.

"Bastard" lovino muttered under his breath.

Five minuets later he heard a gunshot and a yell.

"I wonder what the fuck was that," lovino said walking out of the library.

What he saw out the door was something he did not expect to see. He saw a dead body in front of the door. He realized who it was, it was Toni. He had been shot in the head by a mad man. All Lovino could do was stare until he called for help.

"Some one! Help! Some one has been shot!"

A few days later he went to the funeral with his sister Alicia. Soon they returned to their hidden house behind the trees.

"Ve~ lovino are you ok?" Alicia asked worried.

"What? Oh….yes I am okay Alicia" he said.

She then reached for his face and wiped off the tears below his eyes.

"Your crying.." she said.

He could not help but cry. Toni was like his big brother, not that he would ever say that, and he missed him a bit.

" I am okay Alicia, just get to sleep he said putting the covers over her and sitting down next to her on the bed.

"ve….okay if lovino if fine, then I'm fine" she said drifting to sleep.

At least he still had Alicia, he thought. As long as he still had her, everything was going to be fine, he thought before drifting to sleep.

The next day Lovino took the day off and spent the whole day with his sister. He wished he could take away the sickness and give his sister everything she wanted.

"Ve~… lovino I don't want anything, as long as you're here, you're all I need" she said

The next day he went to the library, a few hours later it started raining.

'Great' he thought,' just fucking great'.

An old lady had walked through the door coughing, Lovino started to help her inside. But she kept yelling about some sickness and death. Then she collapsed on the ground.

" Are you okay?" he asked

The old lady grabbed him by the arms and yelled,

"Your sister, it is her time, GO TO HER!" she yelled.

He was confused until he finally got what she meant. Alicia. He got someone to help the lady and started running to his house

When he opened the door, he heard a crashing sound.

"No…." he said worried.

He looked everywhere, until he found his sister on the ground bleeding from her forehead. Her hair was loose and she still had the small curl on the left of her head. She had on her usual white strapless dress, which was now covered in blood.

"No,no,no,no….sorella!" he yelled as he ran to her side, holding her in his arms.

"Lovino?" she said hoarsely.

"Don't worry sorella, I am going to help you, I am not going to let you die," he said through the tears on his face. He was not going to let his only family die. He was goingn to save her.

"Lovino.." she said again.

"Si, sorella?" he said.

"Ti…." She said but her coughing cut her off.

"What is it?" he said.

"Ti…"

"Ti?" he said

"Ti…..amo…..fratello" she said before falling into eternal sleep.

"No…Alicia, wake up! Wake up! Please! Fuck, this isn't funny!" he said yelling through the tears in his eyes. His sister couldn't be dead. She just couldn't be. He checked her pulse and her heart. Her heart had stopped and she had no pulse. She was dead.

"Ti amo troppo…sorella" he whispred to his sister.

Lovino could not believe she was really dead, so he just sat there crying with his dead sister lying in his arms until he finally stood up and went to go get help. Two days later he had gone to his sisters' funeral, he said nothing the whole time. After he returned back to his house he went to sleep on his bed for four hours. Then after deciding he wanted to go on a walk, he went to the woods. Soon it started raining.

Soon, before lovino knew it, he started crying again over his sisters' death. Everyone was gone, he thought as he lay against the tree.

"Why…why did you have to die sorella," he said.

As he tried to stand up, he ended up on his knees.

"Why? Why didn't I get there earlier?" he yelled.

He felt as he where one the ground for hours until he felt a sharp pain on the back of his head, making him faint.

"That ought of keep him asleep for a while," said a cloaked figure above him. The figure took lovino, and dragged him to a large mansion.

yayyy~ cliffy~~

romano:who the fuck was that?

well~~ its not france so be grateful,spain is dead,prussia is in this story but not till later chapters and japan wont be here till later chapters also! :D

romano: at least its not france

veneziano:romano~*glomps*

romano:what the fuck!*tries to get out of glomp*

*takes pictures* yaoi! i mean "sweet brotherly love" ;D

romano:*glares at me*

eheheh vene please do the disclaimer~ as i run

veneziano:hetaliapasta90 does not own hetalia nor lillium.

review! and you get sparkles and for romano not to kill me! D: