Disclaimer: I unfortunately don't own the sons of anarchy but like many I wish I did. I do however own the character Danni! And the other characters that you don't recognise.

On with the show…

Chapter 15

It was a little over a month later and Danni's wound had healed up very nicely not hurting all that much anymore and Juice's wound was healing up nicely too, not as good as Danni's yet but it wasn't nearly as bad as it was before. Danni was still working on dealing with her fear of losing Juice and he was patiently waiting for her to get there. But still she needed something that could open her eyes and make her really see that she needed to give herself to him completely like he had to her. And today she'd get just what she needed.

Jax came into the clubhouse looking worse for wear with no Tara in tow. He made a bee line for the bar and once he got his drink he went back outside to one of the benches without a word to anyone. Danni shared a look with her mother before she kissed Juice on the lips and made her way outside and hopped up onto the bench beside her brother.

"What's up Jax?" she questioned.

Jax sighed as he took a sip of his beer and he was silent for a long time before he turned to her "Tara" was all he said and Danni immediately worried.

"Tara? What's wrong with her? Is she ok? Is she hurt?" she fired at him and he shook his head quickly.

"No, no she's not hurt, don't worry" he calmed her and she released a breath.

"Well then, what's wrong with her?" she asked.

Jax looked at her for a long moment before he spoke "Everything that's been happening lately is getting to her. She's worrying all the time now and it's taking its toll on her. She kinda said today that it was too much for her and that she couldn't wait around for me to get shot next time and she didn't want to lose me like you thought you'd lost Juice" he said and Danni looked away remembering the pain of that "Everything that's happened to you and the fact that you and Juice got shot last month…well it's not exactly reassuring" he stopped there but Danni waited knowing he needed to say something else.

"I think she's gonna leave me Danni" he finally said in a quiet broken voice that reminded her of the teenage boy who lost her years ago. Danni silently wrapped her arms around her brother and he hugged her back tightly, he wouldn't cry because of the possibility of Tara leaving but if she did Danni knew that it'd destroy her brother. Tara was the love of his life and she along with his children and this club, this family, were everything to him.

"Hey, I don't think she'd leave you so easily Jax" Danni said knowing that while Tara was everything to Jax the same could be said for her friend.

"Danni I don't know what to do. I can't tell her that I'll never get hurt or possibly killed; I can't lie to her like that. How do you do it Danni?" Jax asked her and she couldn't say anything because she didn't do it. She didn't deal with it, she instead kept a part of herself from Juice and she didn't want Tara to have to do that to Jax.

"I…let me talk to her Jax" Danni said gently.

"Will you?" he asked her.

"Yeah" she replied and her brother kissed her cheek and squeezed her tightly again.

"Thank you" he said to her.

"You're welcome, now get so I can call her" she said teasingly and it seemed to bring his spirits a little as he chuckled raising his hands in mock surrender and then he left.

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Not long after her conversation with Jax Danni found herself outside on the bench again but this time she was with Tara. She was pretty sure that the club knew what the problem was and she could see many of them trying to discretely watch what was happening.

"Hey" she said softly to Tara.

"Hey" Tara replied weakly and Danni could see that it was wearing on her.

"Go on then, let me have it. What's going on?" she questioned and Tara looked at her for a moment before she sighed.

"I dunno Danni I just…I worry you know? I've always worried but now, everything that's happening and that has already happened…it's terrifying. Anything could happen to anyone of us, you would know that the best since most of this is happening to you. But Jax could walk out the door and that could be the last time I see him…I don't want to lose my husband Danni. I don't think I'd survive it if he died" Tara confided tears shining in her eyes.

Danni sighed trying to find words knowing that this was her dilemma also. She loved Juice more that her own life but she couldn't stand the thought of him dying. "Well, we're in the same boat there Tara" she informed the older woman.

"What? But you seem so…" Tara trailed off.

"So sure? So confident about the whole thing? That's just it Tara I seem that way but I'm not really. Juice notices it, he knows that I'm terrified of losing him, I thought I lost him once and I couldn't go through that again but…" she paused trying to find words. She looked to the right and saw Jax who was standing with Gemma glancing at them constantly, hopefully and then her eyes wandered to Juice who looked back at her probably knowing that she was trying to help a situation that was exactly like theirs. He was probably waiting to see if she could help herself while she helped Tara and looking into his eyes the words came to her.

"You and I both knew what we were getting in to when we got involved with our men" she started moving her eyes back to Tara "We knew it'd be hard and scary but we took the plunge anyway, and we did it for them. We're always gonna worry about them Tara, Gemma worries about Clay, I worry about Juice, Cherry worries about Half-Sack, Donna worries about Opie and you're gonna worry about Jax. At the same time we're worrying about our brothers, children, parents…we all worry about each other and that's never gonna change. Juice has realised that I haven't given myself to him completely since he got back and that's because I'm afraid of losing him but…the more time I waste worrying the less time I have with him completely whether he dies in a week from a bullet or years from now from old age." She stated.

"Gemma has probably told you a million times that if you love the man you learn to love the club. It's true and I can tell that you love those idiots just like I do. They all love each other and when they're out there they've got each others backs, they're brothers and they'd die for each other. Sure, there's still the chance that they could be killed but its low with the system that they have, the trust that they have in each other, the fact that they'll always be looking out for each other means that the chance of one of them being killed is really low. I get how hard it is to sit at home and wait for them wondering if they'll ever come home but if we love 'em enough we'll endure it for them" she continued and she paused for a moment as Tara cried silent tears and she let her eyes drift to Juice again who was still watching her and then her eyes were back on Tara.

"Our men need a constant Tara and we've gotta be their constant. I'm the rock for this club as I've been told many times, and I know that when I fall apart so does the club. When I lost myself after the almost rape, no one knew what to do and they weren't as strong because of it. It's the same with our guys. You've gotta be constant and strong because if you're not sure about your relationship or the club then neither will they and that gets them distracted and the chances of them being killed rises. I know it's a lot to ask of us women but we do it because we love those fuckers more than our own lives and we'd do anything for them. If you let yourself, the worry that you feel will eat at you until you're ill or you resent Jax for it. I've seen how you guys are Tara, you're both so incredibly in love with the other, I mean, you were together as teenagers and I know you've had a bumpy ride but you're together now after all these years and I know that there's nowhere you'd rather be" she continued.

When Danni stopped talking Tara cleared her throat against the lump that was forming and she said "But you're so strong Danni, you can do all those things but what if…what if I'm just not cut out for this life?" she asked shaking her head.

Danni looked at her unbelievably "Are you serious? Tara you've proven yourself to belong here more times than I can count. You went head to head with my mother for Christ sakes so I know that you're cut out for this life. What you've been through with Abel being taken, you being kidnapped, thinking that I was killed right in front of you, thinking that you and your unborn child would die and still coming out on top…Tara, trust me you are more than cut out for this life and you more that deserve to be here. You're feeling scared and worried and I get that…hell, my mother gets that, but you can't let it drag you down. It's never gonna go away, I won't lie, but if you learn to control it and put it to better use like protecting your family or spend more time with your kids then maybe while Jax is gone you won't have enough time to worry. I know it's not like you're not gonna worry at all but it won't be as bad. I'm literally just getting this into my head as I say it to you Tara but you and I, we've gotta get it together because whether we like it or not we knew what we were getting into and we love our men so now we gotta suck it up and deal. Don't let your feelings eat at you ok? Talk to Jax about them and try to tame them but don't let them ruin the best thing in your life." She finished gently and Tara had more tears again but she nodded.

Danni reached over and grasped Tara's hand "Trust me Tara, you are definitely cut out for this life and you more than deserve to be here. This is your family Tara and you are every one of theirs. We take care of our own and your one of us so if these feelings creep up while Jax is unavailable come and find one of us. You're gonna be fine Tara, I know it. You belong here, remember that" she said and she smiled to which Tara grinned back and sighed.

"Thank you Danni" she said sincerely and Danni nodded with a smile before she hopped off of the bench and began to walk away.

Jax stepped towards her as she neared him and she hugged him tightly "She's gonna be fine. I think that she just let a lot of feelings get bottled up and when they all came crashing down she couldn't deal. She's worried, scared and not sure if she's cut out for this life. I set her straight on it all but just make sure that she doesn't bottle it up from now on alright?" she asked.

Jax squeezed her "Yeah Danni, thank you" he said sincerely and she shrugged.

"No problem…well, what're you waiting for?" she questioned and gestured to Tara. Jax chuckled a little at his sister and kissed her head before he made his way towards his wife.

Sighing Danni turned again and caught her mother's eye and she winked at her with a smile and Danni smiled back nodding her head as if to say that everything was going to be ok. Then she turned and walked over to Juice who still had his eyes glued to her. He had been sitting on a different bench so when she reached him he reached out and pulled her forward by the waist and she ended up straddling him.

His hands were still on her waist but she moved hers to hold the sides of his face as her head rested against his. Their eyes locked together and they just stayed like that for a few minutes and she was sure that he could read her eyes and tell what she was thinking and feeling. After a few minutes she smiled softly and he began to grin back and she nodded her head "I get it now. I'm ready" she said and he grinned fully now making her smile bigger.

"Yeah?" he asked her like a kid on Christmas and she giggled a little.

She nodded "Yeah" she repeated. Wasting no time at all and not caring that they were still in the middle of the garage outside, Juice leaned forward and closed the gap between them capturing her lips with his own. His tongue darted out between her lips and when her mouth began to open he delved deep into her mouth and his tongue immediately tangled with hers. Her hands slid around to the back of his neck and head as his travelled downwards until he was caressing her bare thighs not covered by her shorts. Never missing out he gave her ass a quick squeeze before his hands were in her hair as he kissed her harder and her hands fisted his shirt to keep him close.

"Alright, alright, break it up you two!" Clay called to them and Danni pulled back with a sigh as Juice gave out a low groan in protest.

Danni turned to retort to her dad but instead a car pulled in and out stepped Agent Sanders. He looked way too smug for Danni's liking and she realised that no one else had met him yet. When he sauntered towards her she climbed out of Juice's lap and stood up straight.

"Danielle" he greeted her with a smug air about him that made them all edgy.

"Agent Sanders" she greeted back.

"And you must be SAMCRO" he said gesturing to the bikers surrounding them.

"That's right" Clay confirmed.

"Hm, well, I'd love to stay and chat but I'm afraid that I must take Danielle here down to the station" he said with a slight smirk.

"What for?" Juice demanded.

"We found evidence" he stated and pulled out his cuffs "Danielle Teller Morrow you are under arrest on the suspicion of the murder of Greg Winters, you have the right to remain silent yada yada you know the drill I'm sure. Let's go" he said as he cuffed her hands behind her back and she sighed. When the guys looked like they were about to argue she shook her head and they stopped.

"I'll see you all later" he said to them happily and he basically shoved her towards the car and Juice only stayed in place because of Tig and Chibs each placing a hand on his shoulder.

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Danni found herself once again sitting on the uncomfortable chair in front of the metal table with the two way mirror on the wall. She was getting sick of this, the ATF agents always sniffing about places where they have no business. But still she sat and played her part because she had too.

"Right then Danielle" Agent Sanders started as he sat down across from her he didn't mention the mirror this time so she assumed that it wasn't empty this time.

"This was found in your apartment when we were there last time. This piece of wood is from a table in your home and on it is both your and Greg's blood" he stated as he slid the wood in a plastic bag across the table smugly "Would you like to explain why?" he questioned thinking she couldn't get out of it.

She spoke without missing a beat "Well, as I have previously mentioned Greg got aggressive with me and I had to fight back. We both drew blood from each other during that encounter and that would be the only reason why our blood is on there" she said.

Agent Sanders face dropped, he obviously hadn't thought of that "So this is from when he hit you and you fought back?" he asked her again.

"Yes, that's the only thing it could be. Look, I know you think I killed Greg as you've said before but I didn't. I'm not upset that he's out of my life because he was an abusive asshole but I never killed the guy" she told him honestly.

He looked like he was about to snap but then he gave a side glance to the mirror and sighed "Then I guess you can leave…for now anyway" he said through clenched teeth and she simply smiled as she stood.

"I'll see you then Agent Sanders" she replied before she walked out of the room. When she got out the front Juice was sitting on his bike waiting for her and when he saw her he got off of his bike and immediately pulled her into his arms.

"Everything ok?" he asked her.

"Yeah, everything's fine for now" she replied and he nodded kissing her quickly before helping her onto his bike after him. When they entered the club house everyone was waiting again and Danni sighed hating that there was always problems for her family.

"Well, what did he have?" Bobby asked her.

She sat down with Juice before she replied "He found a piece of wood off of a table at my place that had both mine and Greg's blood on it" she informed them.

"How did we miss that?" Piney asked shaking his head.

"How'd you get outta that one?" Opie asked her.

She shrugged "I came to me really quickly actually, I didn't miss a beat. I had already told him that when Greg got aggressive that I fought back so I just said that it must have been from that encounter."

They nodded clearly impressed "Nice, good thinking" Jax said.

"I know" she replied and they chuckled as she grinned.

"We're ok then" Clay said and then as he looked at his daughter he realised that it was probably far from over "For now" he added.

"For now" Danni repeated leaning back into Juice.

Well it's been a while. But what did you think?