Why!
Chapter One
Bella's Pov
"How could he just leave me like this" I said as the tears begun to fall harder.
"We are so sorry Bella, we didn't no." Alice said defending her brother.
How the hell can she lie to my face like this I thought we were all friends I'm obviously wrong.
"You all knew didn't you? How stupid do you think I am" I shouted.
"No I swear Bella we didn't." She said defeated. LAIR. I mentally shouted.
"So you're telling me you never saw this coming Alice, because you never miss anything Alice so don't you dare fucking lie to me." I shouted as the tears fell down harder.
"We're sorry Bella." Alice said.
"Save it. I thought we were friends but obviously not I can actually understand because you're all perfect and I'm just plain weak human Bella. You know what I'm done Just get out none of you are true friends, I don't want to see any of you again." I said falling to the floor crying.
"Please Bella." Emmett said brokenly.
"Just go." I shouted.
They finally just left and I spent the rest of the night curled into a ball crying, how could he just leave me and especially now I need him more than anything.
Days passed and Charlie became more and more worried about me.
I was like a walking zombie only answering direct questions with people. My friends at school stopped talking to me and I just ignored the looks of worry the Cullen's kept looking at me with. I just keep the hope that he will come back to me but like why would he I'm nothing special, just plain old Bella.
"Bella. Just stop it okay just stop it."Charlie suddenly shouted.
"Stop what?" I asked totally confused.
"It's been three months Bella, he isn't going to come back. Three god damn months and you done nothing but hope and walk around like a zombie only answering to a direct question. I've had enough, I think it would be better if you went to stay with Renee in Jacksonville." He said sadly.
"You don't want me either." I whispered as tears fell down.
"Bella I didn't mean..."
"Shut up, you don't want me and you want me to stay with mum. You don't want me." I said sadly as more tears fell.
"Fine, I'll leave but I'm not going to Jacksonville." I said as I ran up to my room.
I slammed the door shut and started to pack what little I owned. Half an hour later I was finished packing and brought all my stuff to my car.
"Come on Bells you know I never meant it like that." Charlie said.
"You said you wanted me to go to Jacksonville, you want rid of me just like him, like Edward you want me out of your life just like he wanted me out of his, I can't believe this, don't you think I'm hurt enough, all this is killing me and I'm sick of you both treating me like I don't get a say in what happens because I fucking do I do get a say in what happens in my life because all this is affecting my life no one else's." I shouted, tears started to fall as I turned back to my car I caught Esme, Carlise, Rose, Emmett, Alice and Jasper's worried expressions.
"Enjoying the fucking show are you?" I shouted as I got into my car.
I didn't look back as I drove off. I kept on driving and I didn't stop or slow down until I reached Port Angles. I was lucky I kept saving all that money Charlie and Renee give to me each month because I am basically rich with all that I have saved and they will keep putting money in so I never will have to worry. I drove passed a couple of motels until I found one that looked quite nice.
After I checked in I unpacked most of my stuff and then took a long hot shower to relax me. Once I got out I put on my black faded skinny jean and my band t- shirt with a waist coat over the top. Once I put my red converse on I locked up and left the motel room.
Arr stupid phone hasn't stopped ringing. As I was looking who was calling, I wasn't looking where I was going and bumped into a group of friends.
"Oh god I'm so sorry, I wasn't looking where I was going." I rattled on.
"Na it's okay. I'm Jason."He said holding his hand out.
"Bella." I said shaking his hand.
"Well Bella, this is Jake, Ashley, Josh and Tom." He said pointing to the three guys and girl.
"Nice to meet you all." I said.
"You new round here, haven't seen you before." He asked.
"Yes."
"Oh cool, where do you and your family live." He asked.
"Well I'm staying at the motel just round the corner. As for my Dad Charlie he lives in Forks and my Mom Renee lives in Jacksonville with my stepdad Phil." I said as a few tears fell.
"Oh, how comes you're on your own." He asked.
"I'm starving so how about we get something to eat and I'll tell you about it." I said.
"Sure." He said.
We were walking for about ten minutes before we stop at this rock café. After we all ordered, I filled them in on Ed- him and everything that happened, well apart from that they are vampires because I'm pretty sure they will get me locked up if I told them that. We chatted for ages, I was glad I had met them they are all so nice towards me and I could see me and Ashley becoming great friends.
"We're going to this awesome party later you want to come with us?" Ashley asked excitedly. "Erm sure, it's not as if I have anything else to do." I said.
"Cool, you can come to mine along the way to get ready, I have an outfit that will look totally hot on you." She giggled.
A while later and we were on our way to Ashley's house, as soon as we got there the guys stayed outside while she basically dragged me to her room.
"Right, put this on." She said coming out of her walk-in closet. She handed me a baby blue strapless dress that came above mid-thigh and a pair of baby blue heels.
"Ready." I said as I walked out of her bathroom.
"W-O-W. You look hot Bells." She said.
"Thanks, You too." I said. She had a purple strapless dress that came just above mid-thigh with matching purple heels.
"Lets go." She said excitedly.
"WOW. You both look stunning." Jason said.
We all carried on walking and chatting about ten minutes later we were finally here.
As soon as we got inside Jason and the others went to get me and Ashley a drink.
"Hey you want some." Ashley said pulling out some weed to smoke.
Do I? Will it take away all this pain I am feeling?
"O-okay." I stumbled out.
"Don't worry Bella, this here will take away all your pain, I promise." She said lighting her fag up.
She handed me the lighter and I followed what she did, I breathed in and started to cough.
"Like this." She said showing me to inhale it properly.
"Lady's." Jason said handing our drinks to us.
"Thanks." I said feeling lighter already.
Once we finished most of the weed Ashley brought, Jason got out something stronger. I was already wasted from smoking so much but it was helping it was taking all my pain away and I never wanted it to come back.
"What's that?" I slurred.
"Coke." He said handing some to everyone. "You want some?" he questioned when he got to me.
"Okay." I slurred.
I'm completely free from all pain possible, the alcohol, weed and cocaine where all working. I felt nothing and I was happy and carefree, for once I was enjoying myself. Since Ed-him I thought I would never be the carefree person I am now and you know what I love it.
The rest of the night passed with more alcohol and drugs.
"Arrrr. My head." I moaned as I sat up in bed looking at Ashley. The guys where all still asleep on her floor. I don't even remember getting here.
"Morning." She sang sounding a lot like Alice, which brought a new round of pain crushing down on me.
The pain was getting worse by the minute I needed something to take the pain away and fast.
"Have you got any weed left?" I asked Ashley.
"Yeah, top draw." She said.
I got up feeling slightly dizzy but ignored it and walked to her desk and opened the top draw finding a massive stash of weed.
I got one out and walked over to her balcony and lit up my fag and took a long drag. After a couple of minutes the pain started to fade.
"Where's Bella?" I heard Jason say.
Ashley told him where I was and he came out to see me.
"How you feeling." He asked.
"Much better now." I said handing him the fag.
"Thanks. You're starting early." He laughed.
"It helps take the pain away from everything that has happened." I said.
"Oh, that's good then." He said.
"Will you be able to get me some weed and coke?" I asked straight forward.
"Erm Bella I don't know if all this is the answer." He said.
"I know it's just for when the pain gets to bad I promise." I lied.
Two months have passed and I was always partying and drugged up, never really sober anymore, I was always smoking weed and every other day I would take coke. My friends started to get worried at how I was always taking other drugs as well. I stopped eating because the drugs had stopped my apatite which made them worry even more.
"Bella, my parents want to move to Forks and the guys have asked and they are coming to stay with me and my family until after graduation and we want you to come to. It will be so much fun. Bella please." She begged.
After I left Forks I made a promise to myself I would never go back but I don't want to lose my friends. Just brave up Bella, you can do this, you still have the drugs if it gets to hard.
"Okay. When do we leave?" I asked.
"In two days." She said happily.
I just hope they are not still there.