My Little Girl
Chapter 5
Meredith left Izzie's room once she drifted off to sleep again. She was trying to wrap her mind around where Alex could be she checked the basement with the extra gurneys and up on the roof, but he was nowhere to be found. She had only one last idea of where she could find him and that was the last real room that she had sat and spoke to him. The on call room she knocked lightly, feeling obviously stupid about knocking on an on call room door before she opened it slightly, finding Alex sitting on the bed.
"Alex" she sighed as she moved towards him, making sure the door closed as she sat down on the bed beside him
"Its not supposed to be this way." He told her. "This isn't how it's supposed to happen."
Meredith sighs; she has no real words of comfort. She just wrapped Alex in a hug and they just let the quite speak for them. At the moment both their hearts were breaking for the women they both considered the love of Alex's life and Meredith's best friend.
"Fate always kicks our asses." Meredith murmurs remembering something Izzie had said a year before. "I think she wants us to take fate into our own hands."
Alex looks up and wipes the few tears from his eyes considering everything that Meredith had just said, and also what she did not say.
"I don't want to be a single parent." Alex murmured.
Meredith sighed as she leaned into him. "You won't have to be. I am in this Alex. I will always be if you are."
"Mer I really love that you and Izzie want me to have a part of her when she's gone, but right now I can't begin to wrap my mind around the fact that she's not going to be with me much longer let alone the fact that she wants me to raise our baby without her. So please I just need some time."
"Alex I understand and really it's your choice there is no rush "
"I know"
Without saying another word, Meredith got up and left the on call room and Alex with his thoughts.
Meredith exits the on call room and see's Derek standing across the room leaning against the wall waiting for her. She smiles at him softly before moving towards him "hey" she opens Derek frowns at her, and Meredith notices this.
"What's up?" she asks.
"I heard about Izzie." He says
Meredith looks up in shock.
"She paged me to her room." Derek advises Meredith.
Meredith does not know what to say to him.
"How can you agree to something like this without discussing it with me Mer? We are supposed to be getting married." He said looking frustrated.
"Derek" Meredith opens, thinking of what she could possibly say to him about this considering she had not even thought of him when she was making the decision.
"It's my body." She follows through.
"And it's our life." He counters
Meredith looks at him in shock
"Derek." She says again.
"We should have talked about this." He says again as he shakes his head, walking away, leaving Meredith confused
"What the hell did I do?" She said to herself as she let out a frustrated sigh