When You Need Me I Will Be There

Chapter 2

As Rory entered her bedroom thoughts were still bouncing around in her head about how to deal with her feelings about Nathan. All she wanted was to have some happiness in her life. But falling in love with Nathan was the last thing on her mind. But that's what was going on and she didn't know how to deal with this.

She didn't want to hurt Lucas, but she also wanted to follow her heart. She wished her mother were alive, so she could talk to her about what to do. Yes, her father and her were close, but she didn't think he would understand. He was a guy. She needed a woman's point of view, but she couldn't go to Haley, as she wouldn't understand. Plus Rory thought Haley liked Nathan as well, but she would never act on those feeling because of her loyalty to Lucas.

But since she had nowhere to turn, she went to the next best thing her journal. The key to every personal thought she'd ever had. It also was a tie to her mother. Her father had told her once that that her mother had kept a journal that no one knew about and he didn't know in until he was cleaning out her bedroom after her death. He had given it to Rory for her birthday in May.

This gave Rory insight into her mother and what she was thinking right before she was born the last entry was right before Rory was born. So Rory got her journal out of her hiding place and began to write.

Dear Journal,

Tell me what to do I'm so confused on how to deal with this; I think I love Nathan Scott. No scrap that I know I love Nathan. But I'm so torn on what to do. Do I stay away from him because of my friendship with Lucas or do I follow my heart and find happiness?

But if I follow my heart I may lose my best friends forever. Boy, do I wish mom was here then maybe this wouldn't be so hard. I just wish I could turn off my feeling like a light switch it would be so much easier than deal with it, but I guess I have to.

Well it's getting late and I need to sleep, I'll deal with all this tomorrow.

Good Night,

Rory

As Rory was getting ready for bed, Christopher knocked. Chris came over to where Rory was sitting on the bed. He put his arm around her and Rory rested her head on his shoulder.

"Hey honey, how was your day?"

"Confusing, but good."

"What's going on? Anything I can help with you know I'll help in anyway possible."

"I don't know I kind of need a women point of view, but I can't go to Haley, she just wouldn't understand this problem. I wish Mom was here."

"So do I sweetheart. So do I, but why don't you try your old man; I may be able to help."

"Okay… I guess. Dad, I don't know what to do. You know I'm tutoring Nathan right?"

"Of course… of course I do."

"Well things have been going well, but I feel like I'm betraying Lucas just by helping him and today after we were done with our session, he kissed me. He also said told me he loves me."

"Okay".

"The problem is I have feelings for him too, but I don't want to hurt Lucas. So, do I follow my heart or not? Help me, Daddy, I'm so lost here."

"Sweetheart, I wish I answer for you. All I can tell you is if you really want to be with Nathan, Lucas may not understand at first, but eventually he will accept it if he sees that you're happy with Nathan."

"But, he doesn't know how I feel about Nathan."

"You'll figure out away to tell him, I trust you."

"Thanks Dad, I appreciate it."

"Anytime Princess, you know that, goodnight".

"Goodnight, dad."

With that, Christopher left the room and Rory fell asleep with her decision made.

The next day, Rory woke up with a weight lifted off her shoulders. She had made the decision to go after her own happiness for once. She knew how Lucas would react, but she could no longer deny her heart, what it desired, but first she needed to talk to Nathan and tell him she was willing to try a relationship with him.

As she entered Tree Hill High, she bumped into Peyton Sawyer. She was one of Nathan's ex-girlfriends and best friends with Brooke Davis, who was the head cheerleader. She herself was a cheerleader, but you would never know it, she was an artist type. She always had a drawing pad with her. She wasn't a brainless cheerleader. They didn't hate each other, they just ran in different circles; they were pleasant to each other and they just didn't hang out often.

"Sorry Peyton."

"Oh Rory, it's fine what's up?"

"Not to much. Actually I need your help."

"Anything."

"Have you seen Nathan?"

"I saw him and Lucas headed to the gym. Why?

"Oh no reason, I just wanted to see how his math test went yesterday."

"If say so, see you around Rory."

"See ya."

That was close Rory thought. Hopefully he'll talk to me after yesterday. Rory entered the gym and scanned the basketball court for Nathan. She spotted him just as he was making a half court shot. As he turned he saw her and their eyes connected for a moment. Then he turned back and began to play once again.

Rory was heartbroken; she thought maybe it all was just talk, maybe he never actually had feeling for her. So she ran out of the gym and headed to the nearest bathroom stall to cry.