Chapter 15
Pasadena yawned and sighed as she woke up from her sleep. Taking a look around, she saw that she was in the living room. She was a bit confused at first until she looked at the "bed" she slept on. The possum smiled as she saw Crash, who was still asleep. She kissed her lover and slowly moved off of the bandicoot as to not disturb him. Crash only stirred a bit, but he was still asleep. Pasadena looked around for a clock, and was shocked to see that it was 5 in the morning. Deciding to stay awake, the racer left to fetch some new clothes to change into after her shower.
After her bath, Pasadena walked into the kitchen and made herself a sandwich to eat. After her meal, she walked into the backyard. Seeing as how night was still hanging onto the sky, the possum walked to a hammock that was in between two trees. She sat and looked at the stars that shined in the sky. She tried to not think about the hero, but somehow Crash got into her mind. The racer shook her head as she kept thinking about Crash. She couldn't help but wonder as to why he had not said anything about her going away. Pasadena didn't want to leave, but deep down she felt as if the bandicoot wanted her to leave. Otherwise, wouldn't he had said something by now?
Pasadena sighed as she tried to fight back her tears. Seeing as how she was leaving, the possum let her tears drop. Why hasn't he said anything? There's just today, and that's it. I don't have a choice to decide when I'll leave, but...Damn it, Crash, why haven't you said anything? Anything! Does...does he even love me? I love him, but I feel that he just said it to...No, Crash wouldn't just say that without meaning it. Right?
She was scared. What if Crash had really said "I love you" just to have sex with her? She denied it, after all he said those three words after they made love. Yet, Pasadena was still scared to know if sex was his only desire of her. She felt betrayed, but the possum knew she couldn't assume without at least some sort of evidence. Her only pieces of proof were the memories of their time spent with each other. The racer still loved the hero. She began to wonder and think about what Crash would do if she left right now. Would he look for her? Would he not?
As the tears kept dropping, Pasadena dried her eyes with her hands and walked back into the house. In the living room, she saw that Crash was still asleep. She sat next to him, looking at him and she petted his head. The hero responded to her by rubbing his face to her hand. Slowly waking up, he raised his hand to touch hers. Opening his eyes, he looked to see his love sitting next to him. With a chuckle, he said, "Hi." She said hello back to him, but she turned her head as she did. Crash looked a bit harder and saw that her eyes looked like she had been crying.
Two jumps in a week, I bet you think that's pretty clever don't you boy
Flyin' on your motorcycle, watching all the ground beneath you drop
"Pas, what's wrong?"
"Nothing. I'm fine."
"You've been crying. Please, tell me what's wrong."
"It doesn't matter."
"Pasadena, please. I can't help you if you don't tell me."
"Nothing is wrong. I'm completely fine."
"You're lying, I can tell. Please just-"
"I'm not okay, alright! Is that what you want to hear?"
"Pas, why are you angry?"
"You want to know why I'm mad? Fine! I'm leaving tomorrow, but you haven't said anything about it! Do you want me to leave? I'll leave as soon as my car gets here!"
As she finished her sentence, Pasadena stormed off to Coco's room. She had a feeling that even if she locked it, Crash would have a key to get in. At this point, she didn't care. The possum wanted to be alone.
You'd kill yourself for recognition, kill yourself to never ever stop
You broke another mirror, you're turning into something you are not
"Pas, wait! I don't know why you're upset, but at least talk to me," Crash had said as he got up to try to talk to Pasadena. He'd never seen her this mad, and now he was afraid that if he said something or done something that made her mad. Based on what she said, Crash hated himself for not talking to Pasadena about her leaving.
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
The possum shut the door which made a loud slam as it closed. She walked over to the bed and laid down, resting her head against a pink pillow. She reached for her bag and looked for her headphones. Music was always one thing she could rely on for comfort. However, deep down in her heart without admitting it, she knew she would rather be comforted by the guy she left in the living room. Pasadena didn't care what song came on as she hit the Play button on her own iPod. All she wanted was silence.
Drying up in conversation, you will be the one who cannot talk
All your insides fall to pieces, you just sit there wishing you could still make love
Crash ran after her but he stopped as he heard the door slam. She hates me, he thought. Ironically, he didn't have a key, and there really wasn't a spare to his sister's room. Thinking about what to say, Crash knocked on the door. "Pas, please let me in. I wanna talk." He leaned his head into the door, and heard nothing in reply to his response. He sighed and knocked again. He didn't care how long it would take, but as long as she would let him in, it would be worth it.
They're the ones who'll hate you when you think you've got the world
all sussed out
They're the ones who'll spit at you, you will be the one screaming out
Despite how loud the music was, the possum heard Crash's knock, but not his words. She ignored him, and she looked out the window. The sun began to make its ascent into the sky and as it did, the stars began to disappear. The racer sighed as she kept hearing the bandicoot's knocks against the door. Pasadena clenched her fist, thinking that Crash would break down the door or that he would begin yelling. But he didn't. He just continued to knock. Hearing his constant three knocks, Pasadena began to silently weep.
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Crash fought back his own tears as the girl he loved did not open the door. "Pasadena, please. Please open the door. Please..." His strength to hold back his tears was beginning to fail, and within seconds, the tears began to fall from his emerald eyes. He still continued to knock before coming to his own conclusion.
"I understand that you're mad. To be honest, the reason I didn't say anything is because I am scared of what to say. Pasadena, I'm...I'm afraid to let you go, but I'm also scared about you staying. There is nothing more I want than for you to be happy. And whether being happy means you being here or not here, it doesn't matter as long as you're happy. That's all I want for you. These past few days have been the best days because I got to spend every minute with you. I meant every word I said to you, Pas. I love you. But if you don't feel the same way, I...I understand. Just know that I will always love you, and that no matter what happens, I will and want to be there for you. I'm sorry if I hurt you. I don't know how, but just know that I'm sorry. Out of all the great things that has happened to me, you're the best one."
As he finished his statement, Crash walked away and let more of his tears drop. It's my fault...I lost her, he thought one more time as he left.
Oh, it's the best thing that you've ever had
The best thing that you've ever, ever had
It's the best thing that you've ever had
The best thing you've had has gone away
Luckily, the music ended as Crash began his statement. Pasadena listened to every word he said. And as he finished, Pasadena felt incredibly guilty. She got up from the bed and ran to the door. "Crash," she called as she opened the door. He wasn't there. She began to worry and looked for the bandicoot. Pasadena began to blame herself as she could not find him. When she still couldn't find him, she became more scared. If anything happened to him, the possum would blame herself. "Crash," she called out again. "I'm sorry! Crash, please, where are you," Pasadena said. She kept calling for him, and her search seemed hopeless as she couldn't find him anywhere. Where could he be? After what seemed like hours but actually only a few minutes, she still couldn't find him.
So don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Don't leave me high, don't leave me dry
Pasadena was about to give up until she saw that the front door was open. She ran out, only to see an orange figure in the distance heading towards the beach. "Crash!" He didn't turn around as the possum shouted for him. Hesitating at first because she didn't have her shoes on, Pasadena decided to hell with it and ran after the bandicoot. Tears flowed down her cheeks as she ran to catch the hero. Crash, please wait. I'm sorry, she thought. She wanted to apologize and hold the hero in her arms and the racer hoped that he would forgive her and hold her as well. Pasadena knew know that Crash did love her, and that he did care. Her feet felt the pain of the rocks and dirt that collided with each step, but it would be worth it if it meant that Crash would forgive her.
Don't leave me high
Don't leave me high
Don't leave me dry
Finally, she stopped and look to see the bandicoot within a few more meters. He was sitting, staring straight towards the ocean. She ran and slowed down as she got closer to the hero. Crash was breathing slowly, but he was patient as the sun was still getting up. He felt her presence and as she got closer, Crash turned his head. Pasadena shivered a bit. The sand felt a bit cold, and not to mention the wind was blowing as well. She sat down next to Crash and looked at him. Both looked into each other's eyes and they leaned their heads towards each other. They nuzzled for a bit until Pasadena spoke. "Crash, I'm sorry. Please forgive me. I understand if you don't want to but-" The possum was cut off as Crash kissed her. She was suprised at first, but she gave in and kissed the bandicoot back. The marsupials wrapped their arms around each other, and their bodies felt the other's warmth once more.
Pasadena pulled away, and just before she could say anything, Crash spoke. "I do forgive you. I want you to know that I'm scared for both of us." Pasadena then said, "Crash, I'm scared, too. Look, I'm sorry for earlier, but it's just that when you didn't say anything, I was afraid that you didn't love me." Feeling a bit hurt at her words, the bandicoot felt a bit angry, but he knew that it was both their faults, not just one of them. "Pas, I do love you. I'm sorry that you felt that way because I wasn't sure how to tell you how I feel about you leaving." The marsupials kissed again and embraced each other in a tight hug.
When they pulled away, Crash saw that Pasadena was crying. He leaned in again, but this time, he kissed her tears away. Pasadena rested her head against his chest and listed to his beating heart. Hearing the sounds the heart made as it kept beating seemed to comfort her. The bandicoot raised his hand and caressed her cheek as he leaned his head onto the possum's head. They both let out a shaking breath, but as they did, they snuggled against the other. "Crash, what's gonna happen to us?"
"I don't know. What I do know, is that we only have a couple of hours. And I want to spend each second with you as the clock keeps ticking." Looking back at the hero, she said, "Then let's not waste anymore time."
We'll do it all
Everything
On our own
We don't need
Anything
Or anyone
Both lovers rose up from the sand, held each other's hand, and began to walk down the beach. As the sun continued to rise, the love both marsupials had for each other began to rise as well.
All they needed and wanted was each other. That's how both marsupials felt about the other. Crash felt like he was about to die of a diesease, and he decided that he wanted to spend his last few hours with someone he not only cared about, but loved as well. Pasadena still felt guilty about what she did earlier, but the bandicoot helped her feel better as he wrapped his arm around her shoulder.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Having the other around seemed to make the world less frightening than what it used to be. With each other, the lovers felt safe, warm, and cared for. Deep down, they never wanted this day to stop. They both wished time would stand still, only to spend each single second with each other.
I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel
Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough
When he couldn't speak, the hero seemed to believe actions spoke louder than words. As the thought left his mind, he stopped walking causing his companion to stop as well. Pasadena looked at Crash, who in turn looked back. He moved closer and hugged her. The possum hugged back as well. It seemed a bit endless as they stayed in each other's arms for a while. Just as the racer was about to pull away, the bandicoot picked her up and spun her, earning her delicate laugh as a reward for his actions. She smiled as her love set her down, and she kissed him. After pulling away, they continued to walk.
Pasadena looked at Crash as they continued to walk. He looked straight foward as if he was on a mission, but he turned to look back at her. Staring into the other's green eyes, they couldn't help but smile. The hero gave his angel a quick peck on the cheek, and she responded with the same actions. Still walking, they both nuzzled against each other, feeling the smooth fur of each other.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Other than the waves of the ocean crashing into the shore and retreating back to its origin, the beach was completely silent. However, the silence seemed to be very peaceful and welcoming. It felt like paradise for the two marsupials.
Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads
I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own
For the bandicoot, he felt as if he found something he had lost long ago. It took him two weeks and one person to help him find what he lost. The love he once shared was back again, and this time, he felt determined to show every bit of passion he had for the possum. The racer discovered what it was like for someone to love and care about her. Even though there was the love she received from her parents, she felt as if it wasn't what she was looking for. But now, she found it, and the female marsupial felt as if it would be the only one she could ever find. What they both needed, what they both wanted, was walking next to them.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life
Walking for a mile, both marsupials felt tired and decided to sit down to enjoy each other's company, as well as the sound of the waves crashing and the sun rising. The world seemed to vanish, and they felt like they were the only ones in the entire galaxy.
All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see
I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all
Crash felt as if Pasadena had saved him. He wasn't sure what she had saved him from, but the hero felt as if she just rescued him from something terrifying. As for the possum, she felt as if she had found the one man she wanted to spend the rest of her life with. They thought of the other as pure perfection. They felt lucky to even be with each other in the first place. Lying down, Crash focused his gaze on the sky above him. Pasadena did the same, but she rested her head on his chest. The racer let out a sigh and closed her eyes as she felt the cold wind blowing again. Yet, the hero's arms seemed to protect her from the chilly gust. She snuggled against her love, and Crash moved his head to kiss her head. Letting out his own sigh, except it was one of relief, the hero felt as if finally, every second counted.
Both were unsure of the future that awaited them, but they both knew it was time to start living in the present. Getting up, Pasadena stood and helped the bandicoot by an offering of the hand. Both stood up, but they did not let go of each other's hand. They moved foward to where their chests touched each other, and they leaned their heads into each marsupials closed their eyes, and kissed each other once more before looking to see the sun still rising towards the blue sky. Crash and Pasadena held each other, looking toward the ocean. After a few minutes, Crash began to walk home, but he still held on to Pasadena's hand. She followed the bandicoot and kept close as they walked back to the Bandicoot home.
If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?
Author's Note: Well, there's another one. The songs used in this chapter are "High and Dry" by Radiohead and "Chasing Cars" by Snow Patrol.
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