A/N: Song 6 – I Will Remember You by Sarah McLachlan
Liam Finnigan never really knew why he'd left Lily Potter like that. He couldn't remember whether he'd been thinking clearly at the time. He didn't think that he had, because a few months after she and his best friend, Tom Goldstien, started dating, he realized something rather frightening.
He still had feelings for her.
He knew that she didn't feel the same way. Even if she once had, his idiotic act of letting her go had ensured that she didn't like him at all anymore. And yet every time that he saw the two at Diagon Alley or Hogsmeade, he couldn't help but glance her way and wonder if she would notice him, maybe spare a smile for somebody who had been such a big part of her past life.
Of course he was happy for Lily and Tom. He knew that they were a perfect match, much better than he and Lily had ever been. A twinge of jealousy now and then didn't mean that he wasn't happy for them.
Except that it was more than a twinge. And it was more often than now and then.
He remembered all of the fantastic times that they'd had together. He remembered the way that the sun would shine off of her red hair, and the way that she'd smile that would make him fall in love all over again. And maybe that was the problem – he was too stuck in the past, a past that was full of happy memories that weren't going to be in the present or future…but he knew that he could never leave those memories behind.
Someday, he would be like Lily – he would get over it and find somebody better. He knew that, and he had known it from the moment that she started dating Tom.
But for now, he would have to deal with the fact that they were apart.
And that everything was his fault.