A/N: Song 9 – Wide Awake by Katy Perry. This is another James II/Lexi fic, so if you haven't read Chapter 3, you should probably read that first. This takes place BEFORE Chapter 3. BEFORE.
Alexandra Wood couldn't believe how blind she'd been. She'd promised herself a long time ago that the most important things in her life were and would always be Quidditch and school studies, in that order. She hadn't calculated anything or anyone else into that equation, especially not a certain Beater from her Quidditch team named James Sirius Potter.
She shouldn't have fallen for him – she knew that she shouldn't have. And yet, with the same certainty, she knew that she couldn't have helped it, even if she'd tried. She couldn't deny that those months that they'd been dating were some of the best that she could remember. She couldn't forget those months, and she certainly couldn't regret them.
She now spent time distancing herself from him as much as was physically possible, considering that not only were they in the same house and the same year, they were also on the same Quidditch team, and as the team captain, she couldn't exactly avoid talking to him forever. She left the Gryffindor Common Room whenever he arrived, opting to go to the library or an empty classroom instead.
She was awake now, not in the dream that the past few months had been. It had been one of those good dreams that turned into a nightmare, making the dreamer bolt upright in bed, wide awake, shivering in a cold sweat. She wouldn't go back to sleep, back to the dream…and yet sometimes, she couldn't help remembering and smiling.
She didn't want to talk to him, or at least that's what she kept telling herself. Maybe part of her did, but she wasn't going to listen to that part. She didn't want to be hurt again. She was awake now. She knew better.