Be Careful what you wish for
Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight. I repeat I do not own Twilight.
Okay so I've decided that this chapter will be Bella's POV once more while she's in the Solitary Chambers. I warn you there will be some admittance for her semi-love for Edward. Then I decided that it will switch to Jacob's POV. If you don't like it you can tell me. Oh and also be warned, Bella will be quiet delusional in the Solitary Chambers. Please, if you don't like it you can tell me, I guess I'll accept some form of harshness from this. Remember to R&R!
-Killermimi =)
Chapter 6: Solitary Confinement/ Who cares?
BPOV
I was alone, all alone. I needed a friend, I needed someone; I couldn't stand it. I sat scrunched up in a ball wishing I had some companionship, but in here I don't think I would have any. Marcus had already left me alone because I told him that I didn't want him watching me. But I now regret saying that because now I needed him more than ever. I couldn't stand this, this emptiness. It was gut-retching.
Being alone in here made me think of him. Though I didn't want to I found myself thinking of him, every inch of him. His perfections, his flaws; everything. Though I couldn't admit it out loud, I needed him, no wanted him to come and save me. I hated how Jane and Heidi were right; I hated them so much for being right. Though he cheated on me and broke my heart, I still wanted him, but not as much anymore now.
I sobbed alone. I needed to hear his voice so bad. So, so badly.
Bella? It was Edward
Edward?
Yeah Bella it's me.
Edward, no! No! You can't be here! I don't love you anymore, Aro has helped me get over you and I shall do just that!
Stop that right now Isabella. Stop denying it; you want to come back don't you? You don't like the thought of leaving me or Charlie.
SHUT UP! You don't know who I am anymore! You'd rather spend your time screwing other girls! You wouldn't even have sex with me no matter how much I begged. You're so sick I can't stand you.
He laughed his appealing laugh, So you really believe that don't you? You actually believe that? Yeah I may have had sex with those girls, but I've always loved you.
LIES! You don't love me, you never loved me, and if you did then you wouldn't have continuously slept with women you horrid pervert. You make me want to puck.
So you don't want me anymore?
Damn right I don't. I don't want to see you anymore, just leave me alone Edward Cullen.
Shut the hell up Isabella Marie Swan.
W-what? What did you just say to me?
I said shut up. You're just putting up this little front like you still don't want me, but in actuality you want me to fuck you brains out.
Shut up. I don't want you touching me anymore!
Oh so you'd rather be Aro's little fuck whore like Jane?
Shut up! You're such a dickhead Edward, why don't you go and screw some other woman?
Oh, so you can have rights to fuck Aro or Alec or someone else in the guard. No I'm coming back for you.
This Edward was pissing me off, No! Don't you dare come here! If you do I'll-
You'll what? Just admit it Bella; you want me. You dream about me, fantasize about me.
"SHUT UP!!!"
My eyes snapped open and I realized I was still alone. I wiped the tears from my eyes. I can't believe I was actually fooling myself, I don't want nor do I need Edward. For the entire fuck I cared he could rot. I began rubbing my aching temples; I needed peace and quiet to think. I needed to plan. I looked around at my surroundings. Not bad for a Solitary Confinement room. The walls were an elegant green color and they had windows that let in a good bit of light; this helped my calming process.
Just as I felt totally calm there was an irritating knock at the door.
"What?" I yelled.
"Are you calm Ms. Swan?" it was Marcus.
"Yeah, I guess you can come in."
Marcus walked in hesitantly with Aro at his side. I frowned I was in no mood to see him either.
"Bella, my princess, are you feeling alright. I'm sorry that Jane and Heidi did that to you. I currently have a few of my guard fixing up your room."
"Thanks." Surprisingly I didn't hiss. "Look it's nice and all for you to let me stay here, but I made it clear that I didn't want to be bothered by anyone."
"Oh, I am so sorry about that, Heidi and Jane were just very jealous that they were no longer my centers of attention."
"Oh great, wonderful. Now can you please explain to them that next time they ever so choose to bother me again, they'll be walking around with a foot up their whorish asses?"
"Oh, I've already dealt with them; they'll no longer be a bother to you Bella."
"Thanks." I replied looking away. I was guessing that this was Aro's way of apologizing for Jane and Heidi's behavior.
"Huh? Ms. Isabella Swan is thanking me, again. Where is the harshness? The cruel wit? Come now Bella I believe that you can do better than that."
"Look, don't get an ego about it. I'm only nice because you helped me out with those two. And I guess I-I…" I couldn't get the word out.
"Yes…" Aro pushed.
"I appreciate the fact that… oh never mind this shit! You get my point!"
"I'm glad it took you long enough to say it Ms. Swan. Now would you like to come out?"
"That would be much appreciated, yes."
"Very well than, Marcus." Marcus slid out the way so I could walk out. But right before I left the room I turned back to Aro.
"Just because I said that doesn't mean that I like you any more or hate you any less."
"Oh, of course. You are excused now." With that I turned on my heel and left the Solitary Chambers.
When I had finally left the Castle I found myself out in a town square. The overcast clouds gave Italy a sort of darkness to it. One that I could only define as vampire haven. I watched as families walked by, a few of the children stopping and staring at me. A few even whispered to their parents claiming that I was a vampire. I just blew it off, I didn't want no little kids disrupting any free time I still had.
While on my walk I bumped into a little girl. She had tears in her eyes and a few bruises on her arms, legs, and face. Though I could've left the little girl to whine and cry I didn't think it was the right thing to do. I bent down and touched her on the face.
"Little girl why are you crying?" She went into full Italian-speaking mode. I couldn't understand a single word she spoke, the only ones I could make out was papa and lost. "Okay, okay, I need you to speak English, do you understand me? English."
She nodded clearly understanding what I said. "I… uh… am how you say… lost. I got…uh…separated from my father and I desperately want to find him."
I thought this over and decided that I would help her. Even I couldn't be that cruel to a girl who had lost her father. "Fine I'll help you."
She clapped and smiled at my response. "Thank you, thank you so much uh…um?"
"Isabella, but you can call me Bella."
"Isabella? Funny, my name's Isabelle."
"Ironic." It kind of was, meeting a girl with a similar name to yours. But neither the less I had to help her out. "Okay take me to the last place you remember seeing your dad." She nodded and we were off.
While we were walking I began to notice that me and this Isabelle girl had a lot in common. She had long brunette hair like mine and she was slightly on the pale side which made her bruises look more severe than they should have been. The only difference between me and her was that she had light bluish-green eyes while mine were milk chocolate. My eyes once again lingered on the bruises that were on her body, there were more on the legs than the arms.
"Hey Isabelle, why are you so bruised up?" I watched her go wide eyed; she then began rubbing her bruised arms as if trying to conceal the pain.
"W-well some men, they tried to hurt me. When I had gotten lost from my papa they came up from behind me and grabbed me. They took me into an alleyway and said they were going to do stuff. I tried to scream for help, but they said no one would hear me. But someone did, I didn't get a good look at him since he wore a dark cloak, but he saved me from the men, he even pulled them off for me. And when he spoke he had the most heavenly voice. It was like sweet bells in my ears, I had never heard such a musical voice. Though I wanted him to help me find my father he told me to leave because he didn't want me to see what he was going to do to the bad men." When I heard this I knew it had most definitely had to be one of the Voultori Guard, but I wanted to know which one of them had enough heart to save a human. I ruled Jane and Heidi out.
"Hmm… Well that's nice at least he got you out of there safely." Suddenly Isabelle stopped.
"Here!" She yelled. "This is the last place I saw him." She began looking around frantically and even shouted her father's name, but all she got was strange looks and whispers from other families. She started running around shouting her father's name and I followed after looking around to see if anyone was looking for her, but I could see none that were.
Isabelle finally stopped and sat at a fountain and began crying in her hands.
"Oh it's hopeless, we'll never find him. Oh what I'd do to see my father or Governess again."
"Governess?"
"Yes, she was with father as well, but she left early because she said she needed to go somewhere. I never truly liked her, but I wouldn't mind seeing her again. Just to see her scornful face would make my day."
"Hey don't you have a mother?"
"Uh, no, my mother divorced my father long ago when I was too young to remember, and when she died I went to live with father and his housekeeper, Governess Lauren. When I moved in that's when she became my Nanny and Governess. I really didn't like her and I even made fun of her behind her back with my friends, but seeing as I'm no longer with her I wouldn't mind seeing her again, even if she's mad at me."
I stared at this girl, she was all alone now and if she went as low as to accept her Governess' company than she was desperate to see anyone she knew. Just as we were about to give up hope on finding the father, I heard someone calling out Isabelle's name.
"Isabelle! Isabelle! Where are you dear?"
I looked up to see a man and woman running around not too far from where we were sitting, they both shouted out Isabelle's name. I jabbed Isabelle in the arm and pointed towards the running couple.
"Isabelle do you know those people?"
She smiled, she knew those two. "I-It's Governess! And Papa!" She jumped up with excitement and almost fell in the fountain in the process, but I held her steady. "Bella, please take me to them!"
I sighed and put the girl on my back. I ran despite the aching weight she added on me. The afternoon sun was doing me no justice either. We finally made it close enough to her father and Governess that she was able to jump off and run to them.
"Governess Lauren! Papa!"
They turned towards the girl and ran at her with full speed. They attacked her with love and hugs.
"L'OH, la mia figlia il mio Isabelle dolce e dolce.Oh, my daughter my sweet, sweet Isabelle."
"Oh dear Belle, thank god you're safe. What happened to you dear?"
"Oh I can explain that later, but daddy you really must thank Bella."
"Bella, Bella who?"
I had already disappeared from sight when they looked up. I hid behind a thick tree that had a very large shrubbery to keep me hidden in the shadows.
"But… She was just there when she let me off her back."
"Come now sweetheart, you can tell us when we get you back home; right now you need a good cleaning."
"Yes Governess, and Governess, I promise to act like a good little girl and not a spoiled one."
Her governess smiled at her words and took Isabelle's hand. I watched as they walked off. I sighed and slid down the tree until I was in sitting position.
Well at least she's with the ones she loves. Me; I'm stuck here with a bunch of crazy-ass vampires.
"I saw your little heroism spectacle. I never knew a heartless princess could do such a thing." I looked up to see Felix leaning on a tree across from me looking like a heavenly angel from a painting. "Ironically that's the same little girl I saved earlier."
My eyebrows shot up at this. Felix had a heart for a little girl, and he acted surprised at what I did.
"Don't think I did it as a charity fund for the kid, I was just really hungry and I needed to feed and I guess I couldn't stand what those sickos were going to do to the girl. So I took them off of her and told her to run along and then I drank their blood. It may have not been the meal of the century, I was just glad I ate or otherwise I would have gone on a killin' spree. And let's not worry about me. What about you dark princess, in just one day you go from crazy psycho bitch to little Ms. Helpful. What's up for that?"
"I guess I got a heart for a little girl with a sob story. What of it?"
"I'm thinkin' that a certain someone might still have a soft spot for her one-and-only."
I scoffed at this. "I haven't grown that much of a soft spot. He is the last one I'd grow any spot for. And besides, I'm not his one-and-only, nor is he mine."
"Oh, so Ms. Dark Princess has another preference. May ask whom for?"
"No, no you may not. I'd like to keep my personal matters, personal."
"Oh, it's a little too late for that now Bella." I looked him in his crimson eyes.
"What do you mean?"
"I mean that everyone wants to know about you know, you're the latest attraction here in the Voultori Castle and it all due to that little scat between you, Heidi, and Jane."
I was mad now, because of those sluts I was now the main attraction, now the spotlight was on me and everyone wanted in. Damn it, damn it all to hell.
"When I get turned those two are the first ones I'm comin' after." I growled.
"That's the spirit. Now come on Aro's been waiting on you, he says it's important that he speak to you."
"Fine, whatever."
Before I left with Felix I turned back to see Isabelle and her family leave. She turned back to see if I was still there and when she caught my eye she smiled at me and mouthed 'Thank you Isabella'. I nodded and turned my back on her thinking, that maybe, just maybe under all this hurt and hate, I had some form of a heart.
JPOV (Jacob's Point of View)
I was cleaning my Ford F-50 when my dad came to me with the news of Bella's departure. But all I did was shrug. If she wanted to leave than she could.
Who cares? Not me, I didn't give a damn what that slut did with her leech of a boyfriend. I clearly didn't want anything to do with her. But dad said that this was serious. He said that Charlie wasn't giving explanations, just excuses. But like I said I didn't care. Though I liked Charlie, I wasn't gonna bother him about her. She had already snapped my heart in two to be with the Cullens, so I made fun of her. Yeah you heard me, I would mock her. It was funny, but she never seemed to be affected by it. She just rolled her eyes and said I was an idiot and laughed along with the joke. Be she was the idiot, laughing at a joke pointed at her.
I went in the house to eat when the phone rang. It was Seth.
'Hey Jake did you hear?'
"Yeah, yeah, Bella's gone."
'No not just that, she's in Italy. When I went talk to Edward that's what he told me.'
This perked my interest. "She's in Italy? Why?"
'Well Edward wouldn't tell me, he just got all depressed and shit when I asked why.'
"Wait a minute, Bella left without her leech of a boyfriend?"
"Yeah, all the Cullens are still here except the parent figures, you know they're still traveling the world."
"Yeah, yeah, but this is odd, why would Bella leave without him? Or the blonde, or pixie chick?"
'I don't know, but when I asked, they still wouldn't tell me anything, they just said it was none of my business.'
"Did you try asking Charlie?"
'He wouldn't talk to me either. He just said she left for the best. Something about wanting to be free, away from… crap can't remember the rest.'
"Whatever, look I'll go check it out with Charlie myself? I want to see what you're telling me is true, because that's got to be the most impossible crap you've ever told me, there is no way in hell that Bella would go anywhere without that parasite or his parasitic family."
'Fine, I want to come with you.'
"Sure kid, just don't fuck around. I want to get in and out in less than ten minutes."
'Roger that captain.' He hung up.
I hung up as well wondering why in the world Bella would just leave without that leech. When I asked her why she wouldn't go out with me, she told me that she never wanted to leave him, ever. And if she were to ever leave Forks she would take him with her.
I hopped in my truck with a quick goodbye from to my dad, and then drove down the road to the Swan residence. When I got there I saw Seth was already waiting on me. His Mercedes Benzes was parked next to Charlie's police cruiser. He was in the car listening to heavy metal when I tapped on the passenger window. His head snapped up at me and he smiled. He turned off the metal and got out the car.
"What's up Jake?"
"You ready?"
"Yeah, I just had to tell Sam, he freaked out when you didn't report."
"Whatever, I'll apologize later, right now I wanna find out why Bella left without one of the Cullens glued to her hip."
"Got it." Seth and I walked up to the door and Seth knocked twice. We heard the springs on the couch as Charlie got up to answer the door. When he did we saw an astounding change in Charlie over the years. The crinkles that formed on his eyes when he smiled became permanent. He began getting gray hairs and he looked excessively tired as if he took too many shifts at the police station. Not like we had too many crimes here in Forks.
He frowned at our presences; normally Charlie would've liked us coming over.
"What is it boys. I've already answered enough questions for one day and I would not like to repeat myself."
"Look Charlie," I retaliated, "we're just here to find out why Bella left without Edward or his freakish family."
"I've already told Seth this and would not like to repeat myself again. Bella left to be free. To be away from Edward and his lies. She wanted freedom and I let her have it. Now I have explained enough, leave me." Charlie was about to slam the door in our faces when I stopped him by shoving my foot in the doorway.
"Wait, what lies? What are you talking about Charlie?"
"Don't ask me," he hissed, "ask that leech Edward and his family, they can explain it better than I can, but please, don't push any further into my Bella's personal business, she left with secrets and she probably wants it to stay that way." When I removed my foot from the doorway Charlie slammed the door in our faces. I heard as he sat down grumbling and as he flipped through channels until he found the sports channel.
"That's what Charlie told me! Now I remember! Wow, I need to think Charlie for that one later."
"Dude, by the way he just slammed the door in our faces, I don't think we'll be able to talk to him for some time."
"I wonder what's got his pants in a twist. He's never called Edward a leech before, maybe Edward or his siblings did something to Bella."
"Yeah, maybe, he said the only way to find out is to ask them ourselves. So let's ask them."
Seth got in his car and I got in my truck and we headed off to the Cullen house. When I got there I had to scrunch up my nose to keep out the sickly sweet smell that emitted from the inside and out. Seth simply got out of his car and knocked on the door, I decided to stay my distance; I was situated a few feet away from the house.
The blonde male answered the door. He looked tired as usual and hungry. I saw as he scrunched up his nose at Seth and my presence.
"Seth, we told you that we can't tell you anything else because Edward won't let us."
"Yeah, well," I barked from far off, "we need to know why because Charlie said that Edward was the only one with the answers."
"Well we're sorry, but Edward's busy." Suddenly a high pitched scream that yelled out Edward's name reverberated against the trees and woods. Seth and I looked at Jasper with quizzical looks. He only scoffed and slammed the door in Seth's face.
The second time today, I thought.
Seth bounded down the steps with a huge grin on his face.
"Sounds like Edward's gettin' bus-say! And that girl sounds nothing like Bella."
He was right that girl wasn't Bella, so now that Bella was gone he had taken to screwing other women?
"Come on Seth we have a lot to report to Sam."
"Yeah we sure do." Seth hopped in his car and I was just about to hop in mine. But I stopped cold when I saw something appear in one of the upstairs windows. I looked up to see Edward looking down at both me and Seth. His frown became harsh when I caught his eyes and I gave him a smug smile. He was undressed only wearing sleek black boxer shorts. I saw a woman with strawberry blonde curls wrap her arms around Edward's bare chest. She looked at me and bared her fangs at me. I only stuck my middle finger up at her and Edward and mouthed the word 'bitch'. I got a good laugh at his expression and quickly left before I could start a fight.
We made it back to my house where the rest of the pack were waiting in the shed. Sam of course was the first to greet us.
Where the fuck have you two been! I've been trying to communicate with you especially Jacob Black.
Sorry, mother, keep your panties on. We've got a lot to report.
And do we have a lot! Seth laughed. This caught the others' attentions.
Yo Jake, what is shorty talkin' about? Quil asked.
This has something to do with both Bella and the Cullens.
Ugh, not about the leech lover and her leech of a boyfriend. Leah really wasn't on good terms with Bella or the Cullens.
Well Seth can explain it better than I can… Seth.
Okay! Well, it first started with Jake's dad told my mom about Bella leaving, she told me and I went to ask Charlie about it. He said that Bella wanted to be free so I thought that the Cullen's were with her, but when I saw Edward come over to Charlie's house to talk I became suspicious. So I asked him, and he said she was in Italy.
So far away? Paul pressed.
Yeah, but that's not even the half of it. When I told Jake, he couldn't believe that Bella had left without Edward so we went back to Charlie's house and boy was he pissed and tired. He showed everyone the new Charlie.
Wow, Charlie, looks…old man. It was Embry who spoke up this time.
Yeah, so he told us the same thing, but I had forgot the last part, so he said that Bella wanted to be freed from Edward's lies and the only way to find out what he meant was to go and ask the Cullens. So we went to the Cullen's and Jasper answered. He said that he couldn't tell us because Edward wouldn't let him and then he said that Edward was 'busy'. Then the next thing we heard was a woman screaming his name.
The leech is screwing other women?
Yeah, it's another vampire, but she's none of the siblings, she looks like she comes from another clan.
Hmm. It seems as if Mr. Cullen has some explain to do when his precious vampire lover comes back. Leah sounded pleased at the latest vampire scandal.
But that's the strange thing; I don't think Bella's coming back. The way Charlie said it sounded as if she wanted to leave for good and never come back.
Wait, what? She doesn't want to come back? She's a vampire lover for crying out loud, why would she leave her calling? She always protected those parasites and now she just wants to abandon it all? Something's up, I can tell. The Cullen's did something. I'm pretty sure of it. Leah couldn't accept the fact that Bella had just left the Cullens. It made no sense to me either.
Look, I pressed, I'll try to get more out of Charlie tomorrow, right now he looks like he doesn't want to be bothered.
Yes, I'll come with you this time. I want to hear and see this for myself. I nodded; there was no way of getting out of it, no matter how hard I tried, Sam had say over everything that happened here.
Fine, but, we can't go there pissin' Charlie off, he looks steamed as it is.
Sure. But I ask the questions.
Whatever, I'm hungry. Anyone wanna order pizzas? I looked at Quil when I said this.
Nuh-uh dude, last time I ordered I got the wrong pizzas and Leah nearly ripped my throat out for it.
Damn right, you order the fucking pizzas Jacob.
Fine. Icy she-bitch, I mumbled.
WHAT WAS THAT JACOB BLACK?!
Nothing, nothing your highness. Sheesh!
I left the shed and walked into the house. I stopped at how bad it smelled. A vampire had been here. I covered my nose as I walked into the kitchen, it was stronger in here. I saw that there was a note on the table addressed to me.
It read:
-Jacob, if you wish to find out why Bella left than come and meet me at my house tomorrow at 12 pm. Come alone. I will be waiting.
-Edward Cullen
After I finished reading it I trashed it and sprayed down the entire kitchen to rid the room of the horrid smell. When I was done I ordered up some pizzas. When the pack all met back up the smell was long gone. But while we ate I all I could think of was the letter, I would be one step closer to finding out why Bella left and why I saw Edward with another woman.
End of Chapter! Yes! I finally did it, without a hint of writer's block. I am so awesome. So what did you think of Bella going crazy and believing she was talking to Edward? What did you think of her helping out the little girl with a similar name to hers? Did you like how I did Jake's POV? Please review the chapter after reading this. I am so awesome aren't I? I promise not to get a swelled head over this.
-Killermimi =)