I still dream about Jacob, I don't think that will ever change. Mostly about him packing his bags by himself, trying to get away as quick as possible. Before I could stop him from leaving. Stuffing his bags with the contents of his drawers. Him silently slipping out his front door. A hooded figure in the darkness of the night. That's what I woke up to this morning. His haunting image. I had trained myself not to scream now. I just silently cry, trying not to disturb Edward's slumber.

Edward is to quick though. He doesn't miss a beat, just sits up and quietly wraps his pale arms around me. I let myself lean into his embrace and finish my morning routine. This was normal, almost everyday. It all ended the same as well, Edward would wipe away my tears and kiss my cheeks and then we continue with our day, trying to ignore my pain. Of course he made me happy, but that didn't seem to be enough for my constant brain that would seem to let me give Jacob up. We walked down the stairs together, and there on the beautiful white sofa sat Esme and Alice, balls deep in wedding planning. Excuse the metaphor but it was the only one that best explained the moment.

"Good morning. " They both cooed to us.

We mumbled our replies and Edward headed to the kitchen. I went to take a seat next to them. They were looking at decoration magazines, comparing opinions.

"Bella, what do you think would be good colors, pink and yellow, or brown and blue ? " Alice confided.

To tell you the truth I didn't have a clue. This wedding stuff was all crazy for me. I would just be happy with going to a court house. What's the point of thousands of dollars and months of planning for 4 hours of fun ?

"I don't know Alice, what does Esme think ? " I asked

"I think she should just do black and white, to match her dress. Maybe throw in some zebra print ? " Esme said.

That was actually a bright idea. God, she was talented.

"Well, that doesn't matter right now, cause today is all about you Bella. I have decided we are going on a shopping trip in Port Angelas . And then you and Edward will have dinner date after ward." Alice said brilliantly.

"Do I even have a say in the matter ? " I glared.

She replied with a simple "nope" and moved to help me up and for a pixie like her, that was quite the challenge. Esme had to help as well.

"You know Bella for almost 5 months, I don't recall being this big. " Esme said.

"Me niece or nephew is just a fast grower" Alice said smiling at me.

Apparently Edward was already in on this little plan of Alice's. So I was rushed to go start getting ready. Is already getting hard to bend over, I almost couldn't turn on the shower. I wanted to cry, I was a fat cow and it was only going to get worse. I stripped my stretched out cloths off and quickly jumped in the shower to avoid the cold. The hot water relaxed my muscles. Normally, I take my time in the shower but after 5 minutes in Alice was screaming through the shut door. I hated being rushed. In my hurry to be enveloped in the hot water of a shower I forgot to get a towel. Alice's bathroom was huge, meaning the towels were on the opposite side of the shower. Great ! I said to myself, as I hopped out of the shower and tip toed my way to the shower.

"Alright, alright, Emmett, I'm getting you TP. Calm down. " I heard through the now opening door.

I began to panic as Edward's shirtless figure appeared. He was beyond explaining gorgeous. He froze for a moment taking my sight in. I felt repulsive, already 28 pounds more that my original weight. His eyes didn't show even a hint of disgust as he took me in. I was halfway to feeling sexy. He inched forward, closer and closer. He stopped inches away from me, if it wasn't for my belly we'd be chest to chest. I wanted to put my hands all over him.

Slowly, he lowered his face to mine, pausing just before my lips. I tasted his warm breath. Like me, he took in my scent and moaned the tiniest bit. Then he planted a very chased kiss on my lips, pulling back after wards. Without taking his eyes off me now, he reach inside the cabinet and pulled out a towel. Gingerly, he wrapped it around my still wet body. He also grabbed a role of toilet paper. With that he smiled and exited the room. What had come over me, why in this cruel world would I think Edward would ever consider being intimate with me ? I was a fat cow. Repulsive.

While getting dressed and drying my hair this is what my thoughts consisted of. I could really beat myself up when I wanted to. No wonder Jake didn't want to be with me. I had questioned it before ? I was stupid. My baby growled at me, I hadn't eaten today. I didn't want to, it would just make me fatter.

Almost like she read my mind Alice came in the bedroom with a plate of food. French toast and bacon. It smelt wonderful. Only because my baby needed it, I scarfed down my fat girl sized breakfast.

"Kay, I'll be down in the car, Alice said pulling on her coat. Hurry up and say your goodbyes. " she smiled and headed down the stairs. I could hear Emmett down the hall playing his video games. He was a very avid player. Just as I had expected, Edward stood at his brother's doorway, smiling in. I was almost ashamed seeing him. Would it be awkward or something ? As he saw me approaching his face lit up and he pushed off the door frame. I gave a wiry smile.

"You look excited. "he commented.

"A whole day of trying on cloths that don't fit. Ecstatic."

He pulled me into him chuckling. Again, my baby bump got in the way of us. I hid my face in his bare chest.

"I'm sorry about earlier," I whispered, " if I would have known you didn't want to.." I trailed off.

He chuckled again. "You thought I didn't want to ? " he pulled away to look at me.

"Of course, I'd would have loved to make you shake with pleasure, but it wasn't the right time to think about that. " he smiled seductively.

I was shaking now. The thought of it had me melting into a cloud of happiness and Edward knew it. He kissed jaw and descended to the corner of my lips. He plated a kiss there as well.

"Have a good day, I'll see you at 6 " he whispered against my lips.

And the whole ride to Port Angelas, I was lost in very deep thoughts of Edward and I...

A/N

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