~Chapter 1~
Remember Me

Adam stood with Joe at the airport, he had his head almost touching Joe's it was very solemn.

"You come back to me you hear?"

"I will I promise…" Joe whispered.

"I love you…you must come back you can't leave me here alone…I'll dream of you every night…write, call, Skype, let me know your okay. Promise?"

"I promise." Joe kissed him deeply right there in the airport."

"Military Flight 628 boarding now." A person over the loud speaker spoke.

"That's you baby." Adam said tears coming to his eyes, as his voice broke.

"I know…I'll come back. Don't worry."

"I'm going to worry so much you know that."

"I know, now I better go that plane waits for no one."

"I love you.." Adam said to him.

Joe walked back wards towards the elevator; Adam smiled right back tears escaping his eyes. That was the last time he saw his husband.

x"I'll be waiting for you." He whispered as the doors closed.

Another flashback, he had been having too many of those lately he missed Joe so much. He hadn't been eating or drinking. He hadn't been out of the house in over a week. This was the worst thing that had ever happened to him. Joe was his world and now he was gone. They hadn't even been married for more than 2 years yet. He was supposed to be on tour but that wasn't going to happen as long as he wa3s a mess.

"Adam you have to come out of there, you've been in there for almost a week now!"

"NO! I don't want to!" Adam shouted back at his brother Neil. He had been staying with him while Adam was in his depressed state, making sure he didn't go too extreme during this state.

"Get out of there right now and eat something, I know your upset but you will not stay in here your whole life and mope around, I'm not saying you must get back into the music this instant but you will be back in the business soon. Now get up!"

Adam groaned and stretched, he just wanted to curl up in a ball and disappear, life was worthless, and it had no meaning anymore without Joe. But he knew how persistent Neil could be and he wasn't in the mood for someone nagging him about it all day. So he steadied himself against the nightstand and pushed himself out of bed, not even bothering to look at himself, he knew his hair was beyond greasy and gross, but he could care less, as he already said. Without Joe, nothing was worth looking nice for anymore.

"There you are! Now eat that," A sandwich was lied out on the table. Adam shook his head he hadn't eaten much all week and a sandwich was too much right now.

"No, eat it!"

"I'm not hungry." He said quietly. Neil rose from his chair in the living room and walked over to his big brother, who looked like hell, hair was matted, makeup was running, his eyes were red and blood shot. Neil had never seen Adam this messed up before not even the night that he came crying to his house because his boyfriend had cheated on him and he walked in on Drake and another guy fucking. Neil sighed.

"Look at me…" Adam looked up his glazed marble looking eyes bore into his brothers, they were dull, and red, all the sparkle had disappeared.

"Adam I know that your upset, I know that you feel like no one cares, I can understand if your upset anyone would be after a tragic even as this one. But you have to take care of yourself; Joe wouldn't want this…Would he?"

Adam shook his head without saying anything.

"He promised me… He promised me he would come back… he promised me more than once! He promised, he promised! He swore he would come back he promised! He never breaks his promises, Joe's still alive, he just can't be dead…he promised." Adam said getting himself all worked up tears fell from his eyes. Neil pulled his brother down to his chest, kissing his forehead and rubbing his back as he cried into his shoulder, it hurt him to see his brother this broken, and this disoriented. Adam had always been the strong one; Adam was the one, who never cried, but now this happened and nothing would be the same again.

"Adam you know he's gone, don't torture yourself."

"They never found his body, so he might still be alive!" Adam said a glint of hope shined in his eyes, Neil didn't want him to get his hopes up, but he couldn't help think that Adam could be right.

"Don't get your hopes up…" Neil told Adam.

"What if he's not dead?" Neil hated to be the one to bring his hopes down but he had to.

"What if he is?"

"DON'T TALK LIKE THAT!" Adam said furiously.

"Please don't get your hopes up."

"But there's a chance." Adam said sadly.

"Maybe…but most likely they are correct… He's gone so don't get your hopes up yet." Neil said to his brother trying to keep things in perspective.

They were far from correct though, for laying on the hard, dusty ground tied to a pole sat Joe, his face a mess, and his helmet squeezing his already splitting head, he whispered 'I'll come back to you Addie…' before blacking out for the second time that day.