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Chapter 9

**Inu Pov**

I was staring at the floor trying to collect my thoughts and memories. Kagome was just waiting for me to say something. We were still at the restaurant that I took her to. Last night, she was crying so much that my shirt was stained of her tears. I hated myself for making her go through that. I never wanted to hurt her. I thought I was protecting her by not saying anything about my disease, but instead I made it worse. I thought that if I brought her to a restaurant that she would have forgot what I said to her the other night . . . but it just made her more curious than intended. Now I don't really have a choice. I need to tell her. I should have listened to Rin.

"I guess I should start from where I left." I could feel Kagome's eyes on me now. Those eyes were piercing me, so I didn't bother to take my eyes off the ground. "After I left, things were pretty terrible. I got into fights and went from gang to gang. I felt like I was lost. I had a few friends, but none of them really, uh, stayed. I couldn't really trust anybody, but myself. My whole world was crashing down. I thought it couldn't get any worse, then one day my life changed . . .

~Flashback~

Inuyasha walked into the house with a school bag slung on his shoulder. He could smell the sweet aromas of the food that Rin was cooking. "How was school?"

Inuyasha dumped the bag and himself on the couch and grabbed a magazine in his hand. As he was flipping through the pages he said, "Same as always. Hell."

Rin was still cutting food in the kitchen. "Don't be like that. I'm sure that things will work out eventually." Inuyasha just grunted. "Well, anyway, Sesshomaru should be home soon."

"Right, your boyfriend. I still don't understand why you are with him. I mean he's him."

"Some parts are better than others. Trust me Sesshomaru is nice when he comes around. Besides he's the only family you've got now."

"Yeah, don't remind me."

"Dinner will be ready soon." Inuyasha kept flipping through his magazine until he felt this pain inside his chest. Every moment his heart was pounding, it was hurting more and more. With each pound came a new pain. He fell off the couch and onto the ground. He was holding his chest trying to ease the pain, but it wouldn't work. It just kept coming and coming. "Inuyasha!" Inuyasha heard Rin screaming from across the room, then he felt her arms around him. "We need an ambulance now! Hold on Inuyasha!" Then the world became blurry and his body began to shut down. His heart was failing him.

There were sirens coming through the door. Rin sprinted to get the door open. Already people with a gurney came and entered the house. They quickly assembled to where Inuyasha was. With three people, they lifted him onto the gurney and took him outside. When they reached vehicle, they rolled him into the car. Rin went in after and the people closed the door behind her.

They arrived at the hospital. They raced the gurney into the building to try and fix whatever was wrong with him. They rushed into a room and set up tubes on him. They injected him with all kinds of medicine to try and slow his heart rate down. After a few hours, Inuyasha was stable again.

~End of Flashback~

"After that first heart attack, I started to have more and more as the days went by. I didn't really think much about it because I didn't think it would be much of a problem. But one day, I overheard the conversations of two doctors that said I wasn't going to live that long of a life."

"Ho-how long?"

I didn't want to tell her that I knew. I knew that it would be a problem and that she would probably never stop thinking about it. "I don't know. I'm pretty sure that it's later in life. After that . . . I'm pretty sure that you can guess the rest."

I looked up from the ground and looked at her face. I wanted to know what she was thinking. I could see shock in her eyes and sadness as well. I didn't want to hear what she was going to say next, so instead I said, "Let's go to the library now." I held out my hand and waited for Kagome to take it. It took her a moment, but when she finally placed her hand in mine, I quickly pulled her up and headed toward the entrance. Once we were out, I led her to my motorcycle.

She didn't say anything and instead put on a black helmet. I grinned as I watched her try to get on the big motorcycle. I lifted her knowing that she would never get on the thing by herself. I got on myself and put my helmet on. "You ready."

"Not more than before." I started the engine and made it so the front of the motorcycle lifted up. I smirked when I felt her arms squeezing tighter and tighter around me. Then I sped off headed to the library.

**Kag Pov**

We arrived at the library with a couple of hours before it closed. After Inuyasha parked his motocycle we headed in. When I walked in, I smelled a musky aroma coming from the old books. "Okay, I think what we're looking for is that way." I point to my left.

"Kagome, that's the wrong way."

"No it's not. I think I know how the library works."

Inuyasha made a face, "I know that it's this way to the right." He points to the right.

"So are you telling me that you know this place better than I do. Wait 'till everyone hears that the new guy actually has a brain to go to the library."

"Let's . . . let's just go, okay." I put a huge grin on my face and made sure he saw it. He didn't say anything and just brushed past me headed towards the left.

When we entered the section, I said, "We should split up and search for anything we can find." I started looking at the alphabet. When I saw D-F I walked down the row. We were looking for things on Feudal Japan. That's the topic we chose a while back, but it's due tomorrow. Thanks to Inuyasha, but I didn't want him to ruin the project for me.

I saw the F section was really high. I looked around and saw the Inuyasha was no where to be found. He must have been looking in another section. I didn't want to ask for his help because that would just be admitting I'm short, which I am, but I didn't want to admit it.
I saw a stool was nearby, so I grabbed on it and stood on it trying to reach for a couple of books I saw. Even with the stool I still wasn't tall enough. Finally, I went on my tip toes and stretched my arm up. I caught the book between my two figures and tried to get it out. When it I got the book, it fell from my fingers and I started to fall down. I just closed my eyes and waited for it to be over, but instead I felt arms around me.

"Well it looks like miss 'I can do everything' finally needs some help with something." Anger flushed through my face. Then I finally realized I was pressed against him. I could smell him and it made me dizzy. A rush of feelings I had came to the surface. I pushed him away and breathed rapidly trying to get stable again.

"Um . . . thanks."

I flickered my eyes to look at him. I saw his face blush a little and it made me happy. Then I saw him quickly look away from me. "Yeah, well I don't think you should be trying to reach for those high books again. I'll do it." I didn't try to argue because I knew I wouldn't be able to get those books no matter how hard I tried. Inuyasha stepped on the stool and grabbed the books one by one. When he was standing on that stool, I couldn't help but look at him. I ran my eyes up and down. It was like I was in a daze. I could feel my cheeks getting red and hot.

"Kagome, help me with these books. Kagome, Kagome!"

My mind suddenly came back to reality, "Wait, what?"

"I need you to carry some of these books."

"I thought you were stronger than that."

"I am, but just help me."

"You know I could just stand here and watch you try to carry those books on your own."

"Please, Kagome."

His voice was so sincere that I took some books from his hands. "Since you said please."

We carried the books to a table in the center. We set the books down and I took out my notebook to write some notes down. He did the same and I took the book that was in front of me and started reading.

A couple of hours passed and not a word was said. I was kind of relieved and sad at the same time. Relieved because if we did talk, what would I say to him. Sad because I kept wondering if he didn't like talking to me.

I glanced at him and felt sympathy for him. I didn't want to think that he would just disappear from the earth. I wanted to help him get through this.

Inuyasha's motorcycle was roaring down the road. I held on to Inuyasha for my dear life. It felt like if I let go, I would die. Once he rides down my road and slows down, I feel sane again. When he stops, I get off right away.

I walked up the steps and can feel Inuyasha right behind me. When I reach the door, I turn around and face Inuyasha. I look into his eyes to try and figure out what he's thinking. He looks back at me with warm eyes. He moves his face closer and I think he's about to kiss me. I want him to kiss me.

His face comes closer and closer and . . . "Thanks, for today."

I sigh knowing I can't do anything about it. "Yeah, well your welcome. Thanks for the ride."

"I had fun today."

I smiled, "Me too. I'll see you tomorrow."

"I hope so." I'm smiling inside. He turns and heads back to his bike. I wait until I can't see him anymore.

I walk into the door. "So how was your date?" Instead of answering, I go up to my room and shut up the door behind me. I go over to my bed and grab a pillow. I press the pillow against my face trying to contain my smile.

Here's the ninth chapter. I hope you liked this one. Inuyasha and Kagome are getting closer. Everything is right in the world . . . for now. *Smile* Please review, I want to know what you think.

~bluecosmos103~