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Chapter Three
I walked across the clubhouse to the apartments they had there. I could feel everyone staring at me. I looked at Jax and he gave me a weak smile. He knew what I was walking into so I just smile back and kept walking. When I turned into the hall I noticed only one door open so I assumed that was where he went. I was silently thanking god his room was all the way at the end of the hall this way not everyone can hear the yelling I knew was going to happen.
"Damn it! Why don't you move a little fucking faster?" I heard his raspy voice say from inside the room.
I walked in and saw him sitting on the bed so I leaned against the door and looked down at my feet. We stood like that for a few moments then he got up and in two long strides he was standing toe to toe looking down at me but I kept my head down looking at the floor. He grabbed my arm in the same spot from earlier and I winced in pain.
He let go of my arm and grabbed the zipper to my sweater and started to pull it down. I went to stop him but he took a hold of my wrist to stop me. He removed my sweater and saw that my arms already had bruises on them from earlier.
He placed his thumb and forefinger on my chin lifted my head to look me in the eyes and in a soft raspy whisper he said. "I'm sorry. I should have never held you like that. My anger just took over are you a'ight?" Without noticing what he was doing the rest of his fingers were tenderly rubbing my cheek.
"I'll be fine don't worry about it." I answered. Between his raspy voice and the soft touch I knew my will power would melt if I didn't move away from his hand so I took a step to the side. He let his arm fall to his side and walked around me to shut the door, and then I heard the lock click.
I turned to him "Why did you lock the door?" The sound of my voice came out nervous and weak.
"Don't worry! I just don't want anybody walking in here while we are talking. OK?" Happy told me.
"I'm not worried. So how have you been?" I asked him.
"We are not going to do this small talk bullshit I want answers?" He growled at me.
I walked over to the chair in the corner of the room and sat down. He stood by the dresser leaning his back on it with his arms crossed over his chest. "Ok how do you want to start this?" I said to him. Then all of sudden my phone rang. So I took it out of my pocket.
"Don't answer that!" He barked out at me.
"I'm not! I was going to shut it off!" I yelled at him. He raised his eye brow at me when I yelled back at him. I looked back at my phone and shut it off.
"I see you still have my tat on you. Is the other one still there?" He said with a smirk firmly in place on his face. Of all things to start with he had to ask that.
I thought about the other tattoo that he did. It said "Always Mine" with a smiley face next to it. At the time I thought it was cute so I let him do it.
I smirked at him. "I had no choice it cost too much to remove it so for now it's still there." I lied the thought of removing it never crossed my mind. I guess I hit his button with that because he grunt a low "Fuck you" to me.
He moved on to his next question. "Why did you not tell me about Juice?"
"There are a few reasons I didn't tell you about him. First Juice and I were in a bad place at the time; today was the first time I saw him in eight years. I also did not want him to know where I was and as one of his brothers you would have felt obligated to tell him. You would have wanted to know why we didn't talk and if I told you, you would have got mad."
"How do you know I would have got mad? You didn't give me a chance."
"Because the fight was about him joining the club!" I said to him.
What the fuck did the club have to do with it that you felt you had to leave your family for eight fucking years with no contact?" He yelled back at me.
"See! I told you that you would get mad. At the time I didn't know much about the club. I thought that it was trouble and nothing good can come from it. But I didn't leave because he joined I left because of what he said to me. When I first left I went with the intentions of doing better for myself to show him that there is more out there for us but I met you."
"What do you mean by but you met me?" He asked.
"That didn't come out the way I wanted it to. What I meant by that is when I met you I was still scared of this life but you showed me there was more to it. I never gave him that chance.
"And how do you feel about the club now?" He said as he raised his eye brow at me.
"That's a tricky question to answer." I took a moment to figure out how I was going to answer him. "Look Hap the club its self is not all bad. They care about their family and like any family they have their ups and downs. But there are some things I just can't get pass like all the whores that throw themselves at you. You probably FUCKED every one of them here." I said sarcastically.
"Just the blonds." He replied with a smirk on his face.
"Asshole! Like I needed to know that!" I yelled at him. "Look I have a bad habit of running away from my problems for me it was easier than facing them. I left New York because I thought I couldn't survive without Juan Carlos my mom was never around, I never knew my dad. I left Charming because of Juan Carlos. I tried to stick it out in Tacoma but all that did was hurt me so I did what I do best I ran. What else do you want to know? I don't want to talk about that anymore." Admitting my flaws was hard for me but I knew I had to.
"I have one more question about it. Is that why you pushed yourself so damn hard in school, were you trying to prove something?" He asked.
"That's not why I pushed myself in school. I did that for myself."
"Apparently you were trying to fucking prove something! What the fuck was it because all you fucking did was slowly killed our life together!" He yelled.
He pushed himself off the dresser to walk closer towering over me while I was still sitting in the chair. I had to sit back further to look up at him. "Did you get a joy out of fucking shit up between us? Was it all a fucking game to you?" He said to me.
"Don't give me that bullshit!" I screamed at him. I stood up in the little space between him and the chair. "I busted my ass to have the life I have." I pushed him back away from me. He stumbled a little, not expecting me to do that.
"I did not fuck shit up between us that was all on you!" I screamed. I stalked towards him trying push him again but he didn't move this time.
"You couldn't keep your fucking DICK in your pants." The tears I was trying to hold back start to flow down my face. I went to punch his chest with my hands this time. He grabbed both my wrist and try to pull me into him. I pushed off him breaking his hold.
"I wanted to work things out. That's why I came to the clubhouse that fateful night. But seeing you sitting there with her mouth where it should have not been ripped my damn heart out." I said while moving forward as I started to hit him in the chest with both of my fist.
He grabbed my arms making sure not touch the bruises he then swung us around and start to walk me backwards until I hit the wall behind me. I was pinned between the wall and him. We were chest to chest. He released my arms and placed both of his arms on the wall next my head. Successfully trapping me there. We stood like that for a few moments not saying a word.
My tears slowed a little but they were still there. My heart was beating fast and I knew he could feel it. He stepped back a little and placed two of his fingers under my chin to lift my head to look at him. With his other hand he wiped my tears away.
"Jessica I have no good excuse for what happen two years ago. I can't even remember what I was mad about that night. All I know is that for me it felt like you wanted out of this shit. I was not going to let you hurt me."
"So instead you wanted to hurt me?" I asked.
"You weren't supposed to be there that night. You told me you had shit to do as always." He replied.
"Is that supposed to make it better because it doesn't? You screwed up. How was I going to trust you again? I felt like an idiot for trusting you in the first place."
"Damn it Jess I was never one for having an old lady. Then you go and get under my skin. I don't fucking know what to do. This whole feeling bullshit is killing me all I do know is that I gotta have you in my life. I'm not letting you walk away this time.
As I looked in his eyes I felt my resolve melting away. Between his raspy voice and those damn eyes it was hard not to give in. "I don't know if I could be with you again." I said in a soft whisper.
**Happy POV**
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. "Why can't you be with me? Are you fucking someone else?" I growled at her. She tried to turn her head away from me but I grabbed her by the chin and forced her to stay looking at me. "Don't fucking turn your head on me just answer the fucking question!" I said in a menacing whisper.
"What the fuck did you expect me to stay alone? If I'm fucking someone else that is not any of your business anymore." She yelled at me.
I punched the wall next to her head and grabbed her by the back of the neck yanking her face close to mine. She tried to push back on my chest but I didn't budge an inch. In a low threatening voice I said "When someone touches my shit it is my business."
That's when there was a knock on the door. I let her neck go and stalked over to the door. "What the fuck do you want?" I said while yanking the door open.
Jax was standing there. "Hey Killer I just wanted to make sure everything was a'ight. You guys have been in there for about an hour now. Juice has been pretty worried."
"Look tell Juice to calm the fuck down we'll be out in a few." I said slamming the door shut. I turned back to Jess to see her wiping the tears from her face. Damn even when she's fucking cries she is so damn sexy.
"Hap there is no other man in my life right now, But I'm not going to lie to you I have dated since I left." She said to me while walking to my bed to sit down. "The reason I said I didn't know if I could was because I'm afraid of getting hurt again." I went to say something but she stopped me by lifting her hand up. But this time I was not letting her get her way with that shit.
"No. You listen to me." I said walking to her to stand in front of her. "I should have not let you walk out of that door let alone my life two years ago. I can't promise this is going to be easy. But damn it we gotta try."
She stood up and grabbed my cut in her hands. "I'm willing to try but if you hurt me again I will be done with you. Both of these tats will come off my body even if I have to burn them off myself. OK!"
**Jessica POV**
Happy looked into my eyes then down to my lips before he said. "Nothing is coming of that body other then your clothes." Before I knew what was happening his lips were on mine. I have missed him so much the feel of his lips on mine, the feel of his body against mine. I pulled on his cut to bring him closer to me deepening the kiss. His right hand went around my waist while the other hand slowly moved up my body to the back of my neck. He slowly laid me down on the bed climbing on top of me our lips never coming apart. He pulled back from my lips just enough were they still grazed each other and said "I have been wanting to taste this damn body again since the day you walked out." Then his lips crashed down on to mine again. He slowly started to kiss and nibble his way along my jaw to my neck when I let out a low moan. He growled into the crook of my neck then bit me hard enough to leave a mark. I smacked him on his back. I felt him smile into my neck. His hands started to roam along my body when I moan again there was another knock at the door. Hap lifted his head from my neck and turning it towards the door. "Where fucking busy get the fuck away from the door!" he yelled at the door.
"Aye brotha sorry for disturbin' ya but Clay wanna talk ta ya. He said ya got two minutes ta come out or he is gonna come in there. Ya hear me brother." Chibs said.
"A'ight. I'll be there in a minute." Happy said to him while he was climbing off of me." Sorry girl but I gotta see what he wants."
I started to sit up to adjust my clothes when Chibs said. "Aye Killa, bring the little lass with ya Clay wanna talk ta both of ya."
I looked up at Happy a little nervous. "Hey relax everything is gonna be a'ight. I'll make sure of it. A'ight." He said to me as held out his hand for mine.
When I stood up he pulled me to him and kissed my lips one more time then whispered in my ear. "We ain't done with this here." As he grinded himself into me to prove his point.
"I have no problem finishing what we started." I said as I grabbed his member through his pants. He raised his eye brow at me with a smirk on his face.
As we walked out of the room Chibs was standing there. "Is the lass's arms alright?" He said while pointing at the bruises.
"Yeah brother. I didn't realize how hard I was holdin' her." Happy replied.
"They are fine Happy. I tend to bruise easy." I said to them. "Let me grab my sweater." I said as I walked back into the room. Happy came in the room behind me.
Happy rub his hand across his head and looked at me. "Jess I really am sorry I should have not done that shit."
"Just let it go you already said sorry for it I will be fine. Let's go see what Clay wants Ok." He just nodded at me. I got my sweater and put it back on so I wouldn't have to answer any questions about the bruises anymore. We all walk back into the bar when I saw the relief on Jax and Juice's face.
Happy grabbed my hand I looked up at him and he nodded his head towards a set of doors on the side of the room. "We gotta go in there ok. Clay is waiting for us."
"OK." I said as we walk towards the doors. I then noticed that Juice and Jax followed us into the room.
"Shut the door behind you Juice everyone take a seat. You baby girl sit down here." Clay said pointing at the chair next him on the right. "Hap you can sit next to her."
I sat down in the chair I looked around at everybody's face but no one was showing any emotions I start to get nervous. But Happy put his hand on my thigh and squeezed it a little to let me know it was going to be ok.
"Ok. Let me get this straight now. You are Juice's little sister right." Clay said to me. I nodded yes to him. "But you are also Happy's old lady. You know Hap it would have been nice to know you had one." I nodded yes again to his question. "Ok now that the nodding is out of the way now I want some worded answers. Juice and Jax here gave me the basic run down on what happened here. Don't be offended but I had you brother pull all the Intel he can find on you also." He said.
Happy looked pissed he didn't let Tacoma run one because he said I was his life outside the club and no one need to know his business so I said to Clay. "I understand. The club needs to know what they are dealing with." I squeeze the hand Happy had on my thigh. "I am not here to cause any trouble. I'm doing my residency at St. Thomas hospital. I knew I was going to run into juice eventually….
Then Jax cut me off "What? You're going to be working at St. Thomas?" He asked.
Before I could answer Clay did. "It looks like another old lady… It is safe to say she is your old lady right." Clay said looking at Happy. He just nodded yes with a grunt. "Hap's old lady here is going to be a doc just like Tara." Clay said to Jax with a smile. There goes that damn smile again Bobby had one now Clay. I knew there was something behind it. "Juice said everything between you two is all cleared up. How about between you and Hap?"
"Yes. Everything between Juice and I is good now." I said smiling at Juice which he in return smiled at me. "Happy and I are doing better. I can't honestly say things are good but I promised him we will try to work everything out."
"Look Prez Jess and I will be good, it will not affect my loyalty to this club or the job I have to do. I don't like my shit out there for every to know so I kept my having an old lady to myself when I came here to Charming. When we were in Tacoma a few of the guys knew her well but not all of 'em. But now I want her on the books." Happy said to Clay. My leg started to shake under the table it was hard not to get nervous sitting here with them but Happy applied a little pressure with his hand to stop me and shook his head no.
Jax must have noticed because he turned to Clay and said. "I think we can see now that she is not going to be a threat so can we end this we got church in a little while and party tonight. I like to get home and spend time with my family."
"That sounds good. But I have one more thing I have to ask sweetheart we came across some things in this file that I need some more info on. I also need to know if you told Hap yet and if not did you plan on telling him?" Clay said. I knew it. Apparently my brother is as good as they say. I'm going to have to tell them everything now. I had no intentions of saying anything but now that Clay and my brother knew they would end up telling Happy.
"What is this about Prez?" Happy asked as he looked at me then at Clay.
I was afraid to tell Happy, I don't want him to snap. But before Clay could answer Happy I said "I do know what this is about. I haven't said anything to Hap yet. I was scared to tell him." I told Clay.
"Well baby girl you're going to have to now. Juice and I only see what's on the reports. There has to be more so fill us all in. Take your time I know this is not going to be easy to say or for them to hear."
I looked at all their faces taking Hap's face in last. He grabbed my hand on top of the table and squeezed it. So I started to tell the story.
"I made the first police report six months ago. This guy name Jimmy was following me everywhere I went for almost a year that I know of. Three months ago I went out with some friends to a night club. I decided I need to get out. Jimmy has had me too scared to leave my house. He has been stalking me openly for three months. He was not happy that I would not go out on a date with him and kept rejecting him. He was really creepy. Saying shit like you are my eternal soul mate, that my womb was meant to create his children and that my life was too valuable to him."
Jax looked at Hap then me and said "Shit! What the fuck was that creep on?"
"There is more to the story. You gotta let me get it all out." I told him and he nodded at me to continue. Juice and Happy looked pissed but stood quiet.
**Flashback**
It was Saturday night I finally got through my finals and wanted to let loose. We went to a new bar that just opened. The night was going good I told the girls I was going to step outside. I was feeling a little light headed and needed some fresh air. I did not know Jimmy was behind me when I walked out. He grabbed me by the waist, I went to scream but he covered my mouth with his hand.
He started to drag me behind the bar I was trying to fight him off. "Jessica you know this is meant to be stop fighting me." He said.
"Jimmy let me go." I muffled behind his hand. "This is not right." I said as I tried to push away from him. He flung me to the floor and sat on top of me. I swung and hit him in the jaw this pissed him off. He punched me right on my cheek bone. It hurt like hell. I brought my hands up to my face that's when he grabbed my arms and pinned them under his knees and pulled out a knife I froze when I saw the blade. He brought it down to my chest and cut off my shirt. I started to beg him to stop. "Please Jimmy don't do this, Please let me go."
He just told me "You are no longer Happy's girl so we need to cut his name off you my love. It'll only hurt for a little while I promise." I start to try and bucked my hips to get him off of me but it didn't work. He flipped me over on to my stomach and scooted down my legs. I felt his lips touch the back of my neck then my right shoulder blade I started crying. All of sudden I felt the cold blade touch the bottom of my shoulder blade I got scared. I pull my arms under me and took all my strength and pushed up throwing my head back. The back of my head hit his nose and broke it but at the same time the blade went into my back and punctured my lung. When he fell over I climb to my feet and reached for the knife in my back and pulled it out. I was having a hard time breathing but I knew I had to run or I was never going to get away. So I gathered as much strength as I could and ran to the front of the bar where I collapsed."
**End Flashback**
**Happy POV**
I couldn't believe what I was hearing. Some sick mutha fucker stalked and stabbed my girl. As I was looking at her she stopped talking I knew she was having a hard time. The tears started to run down her face.
Jax spoke "Did they catch him? Is he in jail?"
"No. He ran off before anyone knew what happen. I woke up in the hospital. My friends were sitting next to my bed they didn't know who to call no one did. I never told them about Happy or Juice. The police had a warrant for his arrest. I had a police guard outside my hospital room until I got out. I have not seen or heard from him since that night." Jess said.
"Wait a minute that mutha fucker is out there still?" I screamed while jumping up from my chair. "This shit needs to be dealt with NOW!" I slammed my hands on the table making Jess jump.
"Shit! I'm sorry." I said as I pulled her up to hold her in my arms. "No one is ever going to hurt you again I promise you that."
"I am going to find this mutha fucker so we can end this bastard's life." Juice said to Jess.
"Hap. You and Juice have the clubs full support on this." Jax said to me. Clay nodded his ok. "Jess you will have full protection until this is over. You are part of this family in more than one way. You cannot be alone. When you work somebody will follow you to and from St. Thomas." I just nodded my ok to him.
"Ok. With that said I'll see all you guys back here at seven for church we will bring this to the table." Clay said to us. "Baby Girl give your brother any info you got so he can get to work on this. I hope to see you at the party tonight. I think we all need a drink after this and your old man here is going to be in the ring tonight." Clay said to Jess.
"Guys can you give us a moment alone?" I said to my brothers.
They all walked out Juice was last to leave. He looked at Jess and said. "We will help end this sis don't worry anymore." He then shut the door behind him.
"You should have called the clubhouse you know we would have helped. Kozik could have been there quick and he would have kept you safe from that asshole." I said to her.
"I'm sorry Hap. But if I would have called him he would have called you. I didn't think I was ready for that. "She said as she looked down at the floor.
"Hey! Look at me." I told her. "Your pride gets in the way too damn much. Damn it! This would have not gone this fucking far. Are you all healed?" I asked as I rubbed her shoulders.
"I said I was sorry." She snapped at me. "Yeah I'm all healed my doc cleared me before I came down here. Can we drop this now we can't change what happen. I just want to move forward." I raised my eye brow at her she wanted me to drop it. I can't fucking do that.
"I don't want you to stayin' at the hotel. It's not safe for you." I told her. I know how stubborn she is so I was expecting her to fight me on this.
"Hap I'm not going to keep hiding. I refuse to let him do that to me again. If I do he wins. He doesn't know where I'm at." She said.
"How do you know that? Since you been in Charming someone has been with you even at the hotel the prospect was tailing you." I told her.
"You knew about that." She glared at me.
I put my hands up in defense and said. "I didn't know it was you all they told me was that Juice's sister was here to send a prospect to tail her and keep Juice busy. Remember you never told me Juice was your brother and no one here said anything about him having a sister until today."
"Oh. Ok. But I still don't want to hide." Of course she would say that.
"Look damn it we are going to get your shit and you're going to stay here with me. Don't fight with me about it. Give me your keys I'm driving!" I growled at her.
**Jessica POV**
Man I hate this. I gave him my keys and we walked out of the room. Everybody was sitting around the bar drinking or playing pool. Juice was on his laptop at the end of the bar so I walked over to him and told him everything I knew.
He got up and kissed me on my forehead then hugged me and said. "We got this ok." I just thanked him and walked over to Happy. As we walked out of the clubhouse we ran into Jax and his old lady.
"Hey darlin' this is my old lady Tara. I wanted you guys to meet before tonight. This way you got someone to talk to. You can meet the others later." He said.
"Hi Tara. I'm Jessica it's nice to meet you." I said shaking her hand.
"Hey you guys can talk later we need to go get your shit." Happy cut in to say. "Jax I'm having Jess stay here with me I don't want her stayin' at the hotel."
"That will be better for us to keep an eye on things. I'll fill Tara in on everything while you're gone. Take one of the prospects with you guys." Jax told Hap.
"I'll get Miles. We cool brotha! You know with everything going on around here in the next couple of days." Hap said to him.
"Yeah everything is set. We'll let the guys know tonight. I think Tacoma is coming in tonight and some Nomads so we'll have the man power for this. I'll talk with some of 'em about stayin' around while shit is going down." Jax said.
"What's all that about?" I asked him as we walked away from Jax.
"We'll talk about it later lets go." He replied.