~Chapter 6~
Please Explain…

Tommy walked Joe inside and brought out to cans of Mountain Dew he cracked his open and Joe did the same sitting across from him he got to the point.

"What happened…?"

"Were?"

"What happened with Adam?"

"Oh…"

"Yeah oh…"

"Um well I don't know that's why I came here. I didn't know what was going on… I came back to the house and I went upstairs to surprise him, I heard voices but I assumed it was the T.V. or a video chat of some sort. I found him in our room… in our bed…with- with-…"

"Sauli?"

"That guy I think…who is he? And why were they making love when I walked in like, it wasn't even rough! Why! Why were they doing it?"

"Joe… Sauli is Adam's boyfriend he meant him in Finland two months after they said you had died."

"What? How did he move on so fast?"

"He didn't he would cry to Sauli every night about you… he missed you so badly."

"How come he moved on now?"

"I don't know if he has… you coming back probably confused him and made him feel guilty…so I don't know what he's feeling."

"I love him still…how could he? I mean he's never looked at me that way before when we had sex, and he's never been so loving and passionate, not even with my first time… what if he loves Sauli more than me?"

"Aw… Joe please don't do this to yourself… Adam loves you…" Joe shook his head and put his hands over his face and sobbed into them. He cried so hard that he felt dizzy… Tommy stayed with him all night; he sent texts out to everyone about Joe's return.

"I love him!" Joe kept muttering through his tears, the poor guy was obviously broken… from his horrible homecoming, to whatever kept him away for 6 months.

The next day he got a text from Leila about Joe, she was ecstatic, and wanted to see him ASAP but Tommy told her about what had happened and she said she would look into things with Adam for him. Tommy was grateful, now he could focus on Joe.

Adam was so confused from the night before, Sauli had been sitting with him all day, being supportive, as bad as Joe felt for going back and making love to Sauli after the incident he couldn't help but feel okay with it because well he loved Sauli, and as he said he wouldn't leave Sauli for anything but what about Joe? After all he had married him, and he made a promise, but what if he didn't want to keep that promise anymore? What if he didn't love Joe as much as he loved Sauli? How could he let Joe down easy? Was that even possible? Adam could see how in love with him Joe was and he didn't want to crush his heart. He knew how it felt to be in love with someone so deeply and not receive the same love back. It hurts a lot; it's one of the worst pains you can go through that involves love. He really didn't want to do this to Joe but honestly he had no choice. He loved Sauli with all his heart and soul and he knew Sauli loved him equally with Joe he was never too sure how he felt, especially after hearing that he wasn't going to see him again, Joe had already put him through a lot of pain and he really didn't want to go through that again.

His thoughts were broken when his phone rang it was his mom… he rolled his eyes, but answered.

"Hey honey…" She said.

"Hi mom."

"Um well Tommy texted me at like midnight about Joe, apparently he picked him up after an incident at your place, do you want to elaborate?"

Adam sighed and went on explaining about how Joe had walked in on Sauli and himself that night then how he went off on him while he tried to explain.

"Wow… well what are your feelings on this?"

"What do you mean?"

"I mean what do you think of this, do you still love him? Or do you love Sauli more now that you've been with him for 4 months, and he's helped you through this."

"Honestly mom… I love Sauli more…I just don't know how to tell him this because I mean I married him… I should love him more. And I can see the genuine love in his eyes, and the way he got so mad at me last night, I could tell he loved me so much. I just don't want to hurt him. I mean one of the worst things you can experience in a relationship is when you love someone but they don't love you back, when you love them with all your heart and soul, but they don't show you the equal love that you do back. I know trust me… and I have never hurt so much in those situations. I don't want to put Joe threw it!"

"You know if you drag this out then it will only get worse."

"I know and I don't want to see him hurt."

"Baby he's already hurt…Tommy said he cried himself sick literally numerous times last night you need to end this before he is in too deep.

"I will… today… at 4:00 Sauli and Joe are both coming over I'm going to explain it to Joe gently and then I'll get him to sign the divorce papers, then I'll propose to Sauli! But not when he's here that would be low."

"He's going to be crushed. " His mom said to him.

"I know… mommy could you come too? Bring Dad if he wants to come…please?"

"Of course, if you need us than yes, of course I'll be there."

"Thanks mom…now I have to pick up Sauli we're going out for lunch!"

"Alright bye honey."

"And pass the info on to Tommy, and could you ask him to tag along with Joe,"

"Yep."

"Thanks! Bye." Adam said before hanging up.

He was really dreading 4:00