Broken, Fallen, Risen Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You, a misc. tv shows fanfic

Chapter 10
Didn't You Know How Much I Loved You?

He tried to sleep, but he couldn't he decided to play something, so grabbing the only instrument he still owned he picked it up. His black acoustic guitar was his music obsession, he couldn't live without it anymore, since he had gotten back from the war, he had played whenever he had free time. Plucking around at the guitar strings for a while he got an idea pulling out a notebook from underneath his pillow he began to write.

I remember the way you made love to me
Like I was all you'd ever need
Did you change your mind
Well I didn't change mine
Now here I am trying to make sense of it all
We were best friends now we don't even talk
You broke my heart
Ripped my world apart

Didn't you know how much I loved you
Didn't you know how much I loved you, baby
I gave you everything, every part of me
Didn't you feel it when I touched you
Didn't I rock you when I loved you, baby
Baby, tell me
Didn't you know how much I loved you

I can't get you out of my head
I still feel you in this bed
Left me all alone
You couldn't be more gone
From falling apart to fighting mad
From wanting you back to not giving a damn
I've felt it all
I've been to the wall

One day justice will come and find you
And I'll be right there in your memory to remind you

Joe finished the song, and he had tears streaming down his face just from writing it. He couldn't explain how much this meant to him, it was exactly what he wanted to walk up to Adam and say, even after that night he had just had, he couldn't deny the feelings he still had for Adam. These feelings weren't just going to disappear that easily either, it was going to be a painful drawn out process. He knew it. He placed his hands on the guitar neck and began to play, he felt his emotions pour out through the sound of his soft singing voice and the strings of his guitar. He hadn't even noticed Tommy entering the room to stop and listen. As soon as he finished playing the song he had just written, he broke down in tears, he couldn't hold all of this back anymore, he had cried a lot over the past few days over Adam and he really just wanted to stop. There was still just so much there, so much he hadn't let him think about until now, all the memories they had, all the love they once had, and he would never find again. He was beginning to feel dizzy from crying so much, he felt two strong arms wrap around him, enveloping him and not letting go. Tommy, that was his only thought. He knew Tommy wouldn't mind so he went and buried his face in his shirt. Tommy rubbed his back, like he did every night when Joe was like this.

"That was an amazing song, why are you so upset?"

"Adam…" Joe whimpered.

"Oh…"

"There's just so much we had… and so much I wanted to do… he promised he would always be there for me…and I go away for a year, to fight in the military. While I'm fighting for him, working and running my ass off so that I won't die, so I can come home and see HIM he's fucking some toned, blond elf, no offense…"

"Hey, I'm not toned I'm a pale vampire, so I don't take offense to that…"

"Good…that would be the last thing I wanted to do to you…I'm sorry I'm like this… I mean it's not fair. You invited me into your home without paying rent, and you drive me everywhere, and do everything while I just sit here and cry on your shoulder."

"Hey you do more than that… you cook dinner every night, you do the laundry, I mean really, this place is like 10x more sanitary now that you're here! Your kind of like a wife if you think about it…I mean very emotional, cook, clean, bake, and you sing while you do those things!"

"Oh well that's flattering!"

"Well come on wifey you need to get to bed and so do I it's 12:35 and I have an early morning acoustic interview to do with Mr. Glam so come on!"

"Alright..."