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Chapter Nine
**One Week Later**
When I decided against the vacation time and went back to work a couple of days later Happy wasn't too thrilled with it in the beginning but he never said anything to me about it. There really was no point in it with the club business taking up a lot of Happy's time. Things have been going good for us and the club. Happy and I are still trying to adjust to life together. So much has changed between us in the two years I was gone plus the fourteen months he was locked up. His involvement in the club was more demanding than I was use to and the residency at St. Thomas has kept me very busy but we have promised each other that we were not going to let that shit affect us this time.
Happy came into bed pretty late last night so I decided to not wake him when I got up. I had work this afternoon so I got dress in what Lyla likes to call my "HAPPY" scrubs as an inside joke she brought me a set of scrubs the bottoms were all black but the top was white with smiley faces all over it. I went to the kitchen to make a pot of coffee Tara was coming over in little while to remove my stitches I was happy to finally get them out. As I went to sit down the doorbell rang I walked to the door quickly hoping to get to it before it rang again not wanting to wake Happy up.
"Hey Tara. Come in the kitchen." I said as I opened the door for her to enter.
"Hey Jess. Love the scrubs." She said with a huge grin on her face. "Let's get some coffee and remove those damn stitches already I know your dying to get them out."
I pour her a cup of coffee and sat it down on the table as I sat next to her. We drank our coffee and talked for a little bit first. As I was washing our cups Happy came in the kitchen in just his jeans and boots.
"Hey Tara what's up?" He said to her as he walked over to me and kiss my neck before pouring himself a cup of coffee.
"Not much just came over to remove Jess's stitches before she goes to work." She replied to him as she got out her supplies.
"Why ain't you doing it at the hospital?" he turned to me to say.
"Because I don't want to. Tara is more than capably to do it herself. I could have done it myself but she wanted to do it. I think she enjoys torturing me." I said with a smile on my face and she winked at him.
Happy leaned against the counter with his coffee to watch as I sat down in front of Tara so she can get started. When she finished and put some ointment on the healing cut she got up to leave. "I'll see you at the hospital. Bye Hap." She said to us as she walked out the door.
"How long you working today?" He asked me as I walked to the sink to wash my hands.
"If everything goes smooth I should be out at eight. I think Clay is sending Phil over at elven to escort me to work."
"Nah, I'll call Clay and let him know that I'm taking you in today. I want you to come to the clubhouse after work. Jax wants to discuss things tonight so you're going to ride with me and either me or one of the prospects will pick you up."
"Ok. Let me get my things together I should be ready to go in about thirty minutes. Oh yeah I wanted to talk about may be going to New York next month to visit my grandmother." I said as I went to walk by him but he stuck out his leg to stop me.
"I don't want you going to New York until I can go with. Let's just talk about it later. Take extra clothes with you to work to change into. We're going to be there late tonight." He said as he put his leg down and leaned forward to kiss me.
An hour later we were pulling into the parking lot of the hospital. He shut off the bike as I climbed off "Call me at least twenty minutes before you get off so someone could be here for you ok." He said as he pulled me closer and placed his knee between my legs. "And wait inside until you see your ride."
"Hap I know. I can't wait until this is over cause I am really getting tired of this shit. Soon enough you're going to have me checking in every time I take a piss." I said to him sarcastically.
He squeezed me closer to him and kissed me hard on the lips when he pulled back he said "Cut the fucking attitude you're getting your fucking wish everybody is ready to set this shit into motion."
"When?" I asked him.
"We'll talk after work now go inside." He said as he kissed me one more time and released my waist from his grip.
**Happy POV**
I watched as she walked into the hospital before starting my bike and taking off to the clubhouse. I needed to find Juice quick this is the first time she has mentioned New York since I've been back home. When I pulled into the lot I noticed quite a few of the bikes were gone.
I walked into the clubhouse and saw Juice sitting in his tech corner. "Juice we need to talk. Jess is talking about New York again."
"Fuck! We don't have time for that shit with everything that's going down around here." He said to me.
"Don't you think I fucking know that! I ain't fucking letting her go there we can't run the chance of shit going bad and knowing neither of us could go with her. What if your family starts to put shit in her head?" I asked him remembering what he said to me that day we were leaving the visiting room.
"You can't fly being on parole and I doubt she wants to ride there. California to New York is to fucking long. I don't know what to say." He said to me.
"Why won't you go? I know you're on parole but something tells me there's more to it." I asked him because I noticed he never mentioned him going. "What's going on out there?"
"Look my family and I never got along. My sister is the only one I love and because of that I had to let her go when she left I realized it was better for her. She did need a better life." He said as he looked away from me. "Hap she's better than this life she was right you know the things she said the night we fought."
I was little a stunned because I had no idea where this conversation came from. I asked him why he wouldn't go to New York and now he's talking about letting her go.
"What the fuck you trying to say?" I said to him stepping up in his face. "If you're trying to tell me to let her go I'm telling you now it ain't gonna happen."
"Come Hap. Look at everything I have been through I went to jail got shivved twice, got my ass whooped I don't even know how many times, shot at more times then I can count and sat in the can for fourteen months. Let's not even start with everything you gone through and have done." He said to me as he started to step back when he saw my hands in tight fist at my side.
"Don't fucking try and guilt trip me into shit! I already told you I ain't backing off!" I growled at him as I took a step forward. "Jessica is the only person outside this club other than my ma and aunt that does not judge me for the shit I have done. I love your sister."
"If you love her give her a shot at a normal life. I have been thinking maybe New York would be good for her. She can start ove….." I cut him off when my fist hit his jaw and he fell over his chair that was behind him.
"This is her life now." I yelled at him as I lunged towards him landing another shot on his eye. Then I felt a pair of arms go around my waist yanking me away and Jax jumping in between us pushing on my chest.
"What the fuck is going on here?" Clay yelled as Tig held me back and Chibs helped Juice up off the floor.
"That prick over there is fucked in the head thinking he can talk shit to me." I growled.
"Man doll face is going to flip when she sees what you did to Juice." Tig said as he smirked at me.
"What the hell you talking about?" Jax said as he let me go and looked at Juice. "Juice what you say to him?"
"I told him he should let my sister go to New York." Juice replied to him. That's when I lunged at him again but got stopped by Tig.
"Come on brother as much as I would love to see a good beat down. You can't. Think about your old lady she might try and use your own nine mil. on you for fucking her brother up." Tig said to me trying to hold back his laughter.
I took a couple of steps back. "Why don't you tell 'em everything you said? You don't want her to visit New York you want her to stay there." I said to him in a menacing voice.
"What the hell Juicy boy? Ya can't step on a brotha like dat. I know lass is ya sista but she's Hap's old lady now." Chibs said to him as he shook his head.
"Jax you feel the same way about Tara. This has already affected my sister. Come on look at what we are planning right now she doesn't need this. She's not built for this life." Juice said looking at everyone.
I took a step forward and bumped into Tig's shoulder when he blocked me. "You don't know her as well as you think you do. Wasn't it just a week ago you were all in on using her for bait?" I snapped at him. "This is her fucking life even if you don't like it."
"Juice it's not the same Tara is my old lady and Jessica is Hap's old lady. I know how you feel. I hate to say this to you but it's not your call. Even if Hap pushed her away do you honestly think she would leave? I've tried many times to push Tara and she is still here. If Jess is anything like my ma and Tara she ain't going anywhere any time soon." Jax said to him.
"Hap let's get a beer." Clay said pulling on my arm. "Ya need to bring this shit down a few notches."
"Nah. I need to get some air." I said as I walked away knowing if I didn't get out of there I would hit his ass again.
**Jessica POV**
My shift at St. Thomas's ER today has sucked and I'm only half way through my day. There have barely been any real emergencies most people love it slow but not me the day goes by to slow. I paged Tara down to the ER when I found out she had no surgeries on the board today. We have been sitting in the nurse's pod bullshitting for the past hour.
"We need to go out some time soon." I said swinging my chair around to look at her. "I'm in need of a girl's night."
"How does Hap feel about that?" She said with a smirk.
"I'll get him to give in somehow." I said rolling my eyes. "Hey I was thinking of going to New York soon. Do you think Jax will let you come with?"
"New York! What are you going there for?" She asked me with a raised eye brow.
"Juice and I grew up there. I want to go see my grandmother and may be go see how my ma is doing."
"I forgot you guys were from New York I think Juice has only mentioned it a few times before I met you. At first he thought you went back there when you left. I remember Jax telling me about it when I had asked Juice if he had family." She said to me.
"No I haven't been back there since we stepped foot in Charming. I plan on talking to Happy about it tonight. I don't know how he is going to feel about it because I don't think he will be able to come with me." I said as played with the charts in front of me. "I know Juice was pissed the first time I mentioned it."
"Shit I gotta take this give me a minute." She said when her pager went off. "I'll talk to Jax about it." She said as she walked away.
"Dr. Ortiz there is a call for you on line three." A nurse said as she walked into the nurse's pod.
"Thanks Debbie." I said to her as I picked up the phone. "This is Dr. Ortiz how may I help you?"
"Oh it's so lovely to hear your voice Dr. Ortiz." I heard the voice say and I froze as Tara walked back in. "I saw you get off Happy's bike this afternoon. I told you that you should have never gone back to him. But I'm not worried about him because he will be out of your life soon."
"Jess what's the mat…." Tara began to say when I covered her mouth with my shaky hand and mouth "Jimmy is on the phone." Her eyes went wide.
"Jimmy why are you calling me at work?" I asked him as I held the phone in place with my shoulder so I can feel around my pockets for my pre-paid and came up empty only finding my cell. "And what do you mean he will be out of my life soon."
"Well Jessie baby you seem to always be busy with him and I haven't been able to see you so we can finish our talk. So I need him out of my way I already have plans all worked out. But don't worry I will be seeing you soon tell your doctor friend I said hi. You know its bad manners to cover a person's mouth like that." And he hung up as I looked around and drop my hand from her mouth.
"What's going on Jess?" Tara asked me looking panicked as my eyes keep scanning the ER. "You're freaking me out."
"I think he is here he saw me covering your mouth." I said with a shaky voice. "He said he will be seeing me soon. I need to call Happy. Shit I left my damn pre-paid at the house."
"Here use mine. I don't have Happy's number but you can call Jax." Tara said as she shoved her pre-paid in my hand. "It's ringing already."
I put the phone to my ear as he answered. "Hey baby what's up?" I heard him say.
"Jax it's me Jess. Is Happy around you?" I said to him trying not to sound too freaked out.
"He's somewhere here on the lot. What's going on? You sound scared." He said to me.
"Jax Jimmy's at the hospital. I don't know where but he called me and he mentioned that he could see me and Tara together."
"FUCK!" he yelled. "Stay where everybody can see you guys don't separate. I'm gonna get Hap and some of the guys. We're on our way."
"OK. We are in the ER." I said as I hung up the phone when he started to yell for Happy. "Jax wants us to stay together where people can see us." I told Tara. "They should be here soon."
"Ok. Let's just stay here we'll be good here. Jess don't worry." She said as she hugged me and then picked up the phone. "I'm going to call Margret Murphy and see if I can get us both off really soon."
Just then a patient was brought in by ambulance. I ran to the doors to assist the paramedics and Tara was right on my heels after she finished her call. We worked together on the patient not wanting to be separated at any time. Once we had everything under control I sent the nurse Debbie out to get the labs for me.
I was checking the chart when Debbie stuck her head back in the room. "Um Dr. Ortiz there is a group of men here for you and Dr. Knowles." I nodded my head at her and we followed her out.
As we round the corner Happy, Jax, Tig, Opie and Kozik were standing there. Tara ran straight into Jax's arms and hugged him. Happy took three quick strides and was in front of me holding my face in his hands.
"You a'ight?" He said and I nodded as he placed a kiss on my lips. "We need to go like now." Then he let my face go.
"He didn't come near you did he?" Kozik asked as walked closer to where we were standing and placed a hand on my shoulder. Happy glared at him and he dropped his hand.
I was about to answer him when Margret walked up to us. "Um excuse me Dr. Knowles, Dr. Ortiz." We both turn to look at her. "Tara you may leave seeing as you have nothing on the board today. But Dr. Ortiz I need you to stay for a while longer." She said to us.
I saw the angry in Happy's eyes when he heard what she said. I knew I had to do something before he snapped I needed my job here. But before I could say anything Tig spoke first.
"If Doc has to stay then me and this tall angry bastard here," he said as he walked over to smack Happy on the shoulder, "will be staying with her. How do you think I would look in green scrubs?" He said with a huge smile across his face the smile scared me so I could imagine what it did to her.
She took one look at Happy's pissed off face and started to stutter. "Um let me Um see what I can do. Give me a minute."
"You ain't stayin' so she better hope she figures shit out quick." Happy growled at me.
"Hap do you think we should take a look around really quick before we leave? We need to make sure he's not here still." Kozik asked him.
"Yeah brother. Jax you good with the ladies while we do a quick run through?" Happy said.
"Go ahead brother I got things here. That'll give miss high and mighty time to figure her shit out." He replied to Happy.
"Finish what you need to finish and keep Jax in eye sight at all times I shouldn't be too long." Happy said to me as he placed a kiss on my forehead and walked away.
"I've never seen Hap all twisted up over a lady like this before. It'll kill him if you were to leave again." Jax said to me as I turned to face him.
I was thrown off by his words. "I don't understand where this coming from Jax but I have no intentions of leaving him again. I know for some that's hard to believe considering my track record on running but I love him and the one regret I have is leaving him the first time I won't do that again."
"Darlin' I can see you guys are in this deep I don't doubt that. I want to let you know that earlier today we had an incident at the clubhouse between Hap and Juice. It's not easy on us to have brothers fighting we ain't got time for it, they both love you but they want different things for you." He said to me as Tara and I look at him a little stunned at the way this conversation was going.
"Jax I don't know what the hell is going on here and I'm pretty sure you're going to tell me to talk with Happy about it." I said and he nodded his head to confirm what I said was true. "But like I said I'm not leaving if that's what Juice wants I can't do it. I love my brother and I would do anything for him but leaving Happy would never happen."
"That's all I wanted to hear. Go finish up so we can get out of here by time they get back." I nodded at him and went to the nurse's pod to finish my chart on the last patient I saw.
As we waited for Happy and the guys to get back I finished things up with my patient and Margret came back to let me know things were worked out and I could go ahead and leave. So Jax walked with us to the lockers so we could get our stuff and get the hell out of there. As we walked back to the ER Happy and the guys came back and we all left. I noticed as we walked to the bikes Happy had a tight grip on my hand and all of their eyes kept roaming around the lot and surrounding area. Jax made Tara leave her car behind and said he would have the prospects come pick it up. As we drove onto the lot the rest of the guys and Gemma were all standing around waiting for us to arrive.
"What took so damn long?" Clay asked once all the bikes were off.
"Kinda ran into a problem getting Jess out of work." Jax answered.
I glanced over at Juice and noticed the bruising on his face and he had a black eye. "What the hell happen to you?" I said as I pulled my hand out of Happy's and walked over to him and grabbed his face.
"Nothing." He snapped as he pulled his head away from me and eyed Happy. "I'll be fine."
"Why the hell do all you guys say that? It's not nothing you got a fucking black eye." I snapped at him then turn around to glare at Happy. "Did you do this?"
"Just drop it Jess!" Happy growled at me. "You don't need to fucking worry about that."
"I'm not letting this go. Either one of you talk to me now or don't fucking bother talking to me at all." I snapped looking between the both of them.
"We don't have time for this shit. This shit with Jimmy needs to be taken care of first." Happy snapped at me and Juice just looked away from me.
"Both of you can go to hell then." I said walking towards the office doors. As I walked pass Jax I looked at him and said. "When you guys figure things out about what we need to do about Jimmy can YOU please let me know. I'll be in the office."
As I started to open the door I heard Happy yelling behind me "Get your fucking ass back here." I pulled the door open walked inside and slammed it behind me. I didn't want to fight with them but I also didn't need them fighting each other.
I sat in the chair next to the door and rested my head back against the wall and closed my eyes trying to will the headache I felt coming on to go away. I heard the door open slowly and someone come in. I didn't bother opening my eyes.
"Please Gemma I'm not in the mood for the whole old lady talk again." I said thinking it was her.
"Jess it's not Gemma." Kozik said to me. "Hey look at me. We need to talk."
I opened my eyes and look at him. "Did you guys already figure out how we are going to bait Jimmy?"
"Yeah but that's not why I'm here. We need to talk about Hap and Juice." He said taking a seat on the desk in front of me. "Juice wants you to go to New York."
"Ok I want to go to New York. Why is that a problem I told Hap I wanted too?" I said looking at him.
"He doesn't want you to go for a visit. He thinks you should stay out there." I opened my mouth to say something but he stopped me. "Jess he thinks you're not ready for this kind of life."
"How can I not be ready for this life Kozik? I was in this with Happy for five years." I said to him leaning forward on my chair. "I already told Jax I'm not leaving. How many of you damn guys do I have to tell this to? I love Happy." I snapped at him.
"Jess I know you love him I never questioned that. You just need to remember the guys here don't know you and Hap like the few of us from Samtac and that includes your brother. So don't get too pissed at Juice for thinking he was helping you." He said as stood up from the desk and pulled me into a hug. "And Happy he just can't control his anger when it comes to you we all know that. So go easy on him for hitting Juice."
I hugged him back and said "Thanks Kozy. I don't know why they feel a need to keep this from me but I'll talk to Juice and Happy."
"What the hell is going on in here?" Happy snapped when he open the door and saw Kozik and me hugging.
"It's not what you think Hap. We were just talking." Kozik said to him backing away from me and putting his hands up in defense.
"Talking has nothing to do with you having your arms around my old lady." Happy growled at him.
"Happy you can't do this every time one of the guys talk or hug me ok. Kozik was just here to see if I was ok." I said as walked closer to him.
"I'll let you guys talk." Kozik said as he walked to the door. "When you guys are done we need to get this Jimmy shit moving."
"Thanks again Koz." I said as he walked out and shut the door behind him.
Happy sat in the chair I was just sitting in and rubbed his hands across his bald head. I walked over to stand in front of him and he grabbed the back of my thighs and pulled onto his lap. "Jess look I didn't tell…." He started to say but I stopped him when I kissed his lips.
"Kozik told me what happen with you and Juice. Yeah I'm mad you felt a need to rearrange my brother's face but I'm only going to say this one more time because I feel like a broken record having to repeat myself over and over." I grabbed his face so I can look him in the eyes. "I'm not fucking going to leave you. If New York is an issue for you then I will wait until you can come with me or my abuela can come here to see me." I said as I kissed his lips.
"He deserved the shot to the jaw the eye might have been a bit much but I ain't sorry for it. So don't expect me to apologize for shit." He said as he ran his hands up and down my back.
"That thought never crossed my mind." I said as I placed a kiss on his jaw. "Next time just try and aim your rage at the punching bag rather than his face."
"I still have a little rage in me but I know of a better way to get out." He said in low growl as he pulled my body closer to him and started to kiss his way down my neck.
I let out a low moan and tried to pull back. "Hap we can't do this here." His hands slowly made their way down my back to my ass.
"Let's go to my old room then I still got the key." He said as he continued to kiss my neck this time making his way up to my Jaw.
I grabbed his face and pulled him back. "No we came here for a reason we need to deal with that and I need to talk to Juice then we can go home and take care of your rage."
"Fine let's go get this shit over with." He said as he pushed me off his lap and stood up.
We walked out of the office and made our way to the clubhouse a few of the guys were sitting at the picnic table. Happy nodded his head to the clubhouse and they got up to follow us in. when we walked in all the guys got up from their seats and start to head to the chapel dropping their phones in the box as they passed it. I dropped mine in and followed Happy. He led me to his chair and told me to sit in it while he stood behind me. Everyone seemed a little bit more relaxed than the last time I was in here. Jax was the first to speak this time.
"Ok this is how things are going to go. Jess you're going to go to work like you always do with an escort we don't want shit to go down somewhere we can't control." He said as he leaned back on his chair. "When you get out one of the prospects will follow you home but he will get a call on his pre-paid that will cause him to tell you he has to run somewhere and he will be back soon leaving you alone."
"Will I be alone?" I asked him sounding nervous about it.
"No! I told you I was not going to leave your side." Happy said to me as I turned to look up at him. "I will leave the house but the prospect will bring me back in the van and pull in to the garage so I can get out where no will see me. It will look like he is alone then he will stay for twenty minutes and then leave."
"Oh ok." I said as I looked back at the guys. "So it's going to be just Happy and me doing this?"
"In the house it will be just the two of you doll. The rest of us will not be too far. There won't be any bikes in sight we will use the van or a couple of cages. On the outside it will be Jax, Juice, Kozik, Opie and I waiting for word that he is there." Tig said to me.
"How long are we going to try this for?" I said as I look at Clay. "Do you guys really think this going to work?"
"We only got a few days we can do this. We have a run to Indian hills next week so we won't have enough man power to take it any longer than that." Clay said to me as he lit his cigar. "As for wither or not it will work. We better hope it does."
"We know he is following you because of the phone call. I hacked in to the hospitals phone records to see if I can narrow down the phone numbers to about the time you called Jax. But with all the phone lines St. Thomas has it would take me weeks to even get a possible number and we don't have that much time." Juice said to me.
"When are we going to start this?" I asked looking around the table at everyone.
"Tomorrow after your shift. We will only do it for an hour because he won't buy the fact that we left you alone longer than that." Kozik answered.
"Ok brothers now that this is all cleared up let's have a drink." Clay said as he stood up from his chair.
"Can I have a moment alone with my brother?" I asked looking at Clay and then at Happy.
"Sure thing baby girl take all the time you need." Clay said as he walked out.
The rest of the guys followed behind him. Happy kissed me on the forehead and walked out. Juice just sat there fiddling with the file folder in front of him. I moved from the chair I was in to sit in the chair next to him I place my hand on his arm.
"Right now you're not going to be Juice. I want to talk to my brother Juan Carlos." I said to him and he smiled at me. "Juan Carlos I love you. Your my brother nothing is ever going to change that but I'm in love with Happy."
"Jess I know you love him. I just don't want anything to happen to you." he said as he looked away from me. "I just wanted you away from this."
"No matter how far I go I would never be far enough to keep me safe. This is the safest place for me." I said as I grabbed his face so he would look at me. "I would never go back to New York to live my home is here with YOU and Happy."
"But we can't promise you would never get hurt." He said as he pulled my hands from his face to hold them in his. "You did good for yourself while you were away. Why come back to this life?"
"Juan Carlos while I was away I was in this life with Happy. He is the one that showed me that there is more to it. I didn't leave him because of what he does or because I couldn't handle what could come from them choices."
"Don't get mad at me for saying this." He said as he let one of my hands go to rub at his Mohawk. "I wish you never met him."
"How can you say that to me." I said as I yanked my hand away from him. "Nothing you say is going to change the fact that I love him and I'm not going anywhere." I snapped.
"I know that. That's why I said don't get mad." He said as he grabbed my hands again. "I was just telling you how I felt. I'm not going to ask you to leave because I know you won't do it."
"No I won't. Can we please let this all go now? I don't want to dwell on it anymore." I said I stood up from my seat.
"Yeah." He said as he got up and pulled me into a hug. "I love you."
"I love you too." I said as I hugged him back and he placed a kiss on my forehead. "Let's go have a beer." I said as I pulled back to walk to the door and he followed.
When we walked into the main room I had noticed that everyone had gone about their business and Happy was not in there. I walked over to the bar with my brother and we both got a beer. We sat there quiet for a few minutes drinking when he finally spoke. "Go ahead and find Hap. I know you want to." He said with a smile on his face.
I got up from my stool and gave him a kiss on the cheek and walked out the door. Happy was sitting on top of the picnic table with Chibs. I walked over to them and stopped in front of Happy. He put his hand out for mine and when I placed my hand in his he pulled me forward to stand in between his legs.
"Everything good with you and Juice?" he asked and I nodded yes to him. "Good. Ya never told me what that asshole Jimmy said to ya on the phone."
"He said that he saw you drop me off and was mad because I went back to you again." I said as his body tensed up.
"He was fucking there when I dropped you off!" He growled out.
"Brotha don't worry ya gonna get him soon. All da plans are worked out. A'ight brotha." Chibs said to him.
"Yeah he was there but he said more to me." I said getting his attention back on me. "He told me that you were in the way and that you would be out of my life soon."
"What the fuck did he mean by that?" Happy snapped as he pushed me back so he could stand up. "That mutha fucker is going to die a very slow painful death."
"Happy please calm down." I said as I stepped forward to wrap my arms around his waist. "Let's go home baby."
"Aye brotha go ta da house and get some rest enjoy the night wit da lass." Chibs said as he walked passed us and patted Happy on the shoulder and nodded his head at me.
"Let's go." Happy said to me as leaned down to kiss me.