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Chapter Eleven
"FUCK YOU!" I screamed at him.
Happy then kicked the chair that was next to him into the wall. I was still against the table when he stepped forward and back handed me across the face. The force of the hit caused me to fall sideways into a chair then the floor. I brought my hand up to my face feeling a sting and felt the blood that was coming out of two slashes along my cheek from his rings. After that everything happened so fast.
Juice lunged at Happy catching him off guard and they both hit the floor I saw my brother hit Happy one time in the face. Then the doors to the chapel swung open and Jax grabbed Juice in a bear hug and forced him into the wall as Opie and Tig held on to Happy. Chibs crouched down next to me and lifted me off the floor and held me to him as he glared at Happy.
"What the fuck did ya do to 'er." Chibs snapped at Happy.
"What are you fucking her to?" Happy growled out.
"I'M NOT FUCKING ANYONE BUT YOU!" I screamed at him. He tried to step forward but Tig and Opie held him back.
"Brotha no Son other than ya has fucked 'er." Chibs snapped at him and he just glared back. "Ya made a mistake putting ya hand on 'er."
"Everyone needs to calm the fuck down now!" Clay yelled as he stepped in the middle of everyone. "This shit is getting out of hand."
"That's my fucking sister he just fucking smacked." Juice screamed as he tried to get out of Jax's grip.
"Keep the fucking bitch away from me!" Happy yelled at my brother. Then he pushed Tig and Opie off of him. "Get the fuck of me. I need to get the fuck up out of here now." He growled. "I'll fucking be back later!" he then walked out not even looking at me.
I stood quiet as I watched him leave I was still in shock from the hit. "Lass do ya want me ta call Tara to look at your face?" Chibs asked me. I just shook my head no. I didn't want to talk out of fear that once I open my mouth I would start crying and I was trying not to cry and was starting to lose that battle. "Can I take a look at it than?" he asked as I realize I still had my hand up to my cheek. I removed my hand and looked up at him. He sucked in a deep breath before turning to Opie. "Brotha can ya get me da first aid kit." Opie nodded his head and walked out as Chibs sat me in a chair.
Tig walked over to me and placed a hand on my shoulder and looked down at me as I looked up at him. "Doll face I'm sorry." He said then he walked out. I did not have any idea why he apologized and he didn't stay long enough for me to ask him.
Juice pushed Jax off of him and walked over to me. "Jess please tell me ya didn't do any of it and you can explain all the pictures right?" he said as crouched down in from of me and placed his hands on my knees. "There's nothing going on between you and Kozik please say no."
I looked up from Juice's face to Jax and Clay to see that they were waiting for me to answer him. So I looked down at Juice and answered. "No I never slept or even attempted to do anything with Kozik. I love Happy I would never do that and Kozik would never do that to Happy either. We are just friends I can explain every one of those pictures to all of you." I said as the tears started to roll down my cheeks.
Clay pulled a chair over to sit down on as Jax just stood off to the side. "Go head baby girl." Clay said to me. "You have all of my attention. Explain."
"Prez can dis wait until I clean up 'er face?" Chibs asked as Opie walked in with the first aid kit and handed it to him.
"No Chibs let me tell them and get it out of the way then you can take care of my cuts." I said as I looked up at him with pleading eyes.
"Aye. But be quick lass." He said as he handed me a cloth to hold to the cuts.
It took me an hour to explain every shot in the envelope to them. The tears just wouldn't stop coming down my face. I had to stop several times to pull myself back together before I could start talking again. Chibs wanted me to stop and relax but I continued and gave them every detail I could knowing that it would be the only way they would believe me. By the time I was done they all had the look of remorse on their faces. But I also knew that no matter what any of them said Happy was not going to believe any of it he was too stubborn and I knew things had definitely change between us. It felt like I had just been shot in the heart.
Opie walked over to stand on the side of me because Juice was still crouched down in front of me and he kissed my forehead and then said. "I'm gonna call Lyla and have her come over here ok." I just nodded at him and he walked away. Maybe having Lyla here would help and he knew that because Lyla and I had become real close friends because I didn't judge for the line of work she did and she seemed to understand me more than everyone else did.
"I'm gonna try and fix this baby girl." Was all Clay could say to me as he got up and walked out.
"Jess I'm so sorry for doubting you. I shouldn't have assumed anything just by what I saw." Juice said as he looked down at his feet.
"Juan Carlos" he winced when I said that but I continued anyways "this is not your fault." I leaned forward and hugged him. He brought his arms around my waist and pulled me in tighter.
"I'm still sorry." He whispered in my ear as I laid my head on his shoulder and I just squeezed him a little tighter. "A'ight." He said as he stood up. "I'm gonna get a drink let Chibs patch ya up." As I watched him walk out Chibs stepped in front of me and sat down. He took the towel from my hand and started to wipe up the blood.
That's when I noticed that Jax was still standing there he ran his hand across his face and through his beard before he spoke. "Darlin' look I didn't want to believe it but Haps my brother. I had to have his side. I wish this shit didn't happen but I want to be the first to tell ya I will find out why the fuck this happen and who the fuck did it." Before I could say anything he walked out just leaving me and Chibs sitting there.
"Lass ya gonna need stitches on these just let me get Tara here to do it." He said to me as he sat back in his chair. "She's better at da stitches then I am."
"Just put butterfly stitches on it." I said to him. "I don't want everyone knowing about this right now."
"Dat a leave scars lass. Hap would not want dat." He said as he sat up straight.
"I'm sorry Chibs but I don't care what Happy would want right now." I said as grabbed the first aid kit from his lap. My hands were shaking so bad I tried to stop them. "I can do it myself."
He snatched the kit back from my hands. "I'll do it just sit back." He said as he shook his head me. "Lass we will figure dis out." Chibs worked slowly at putting the butterfly stitches on. My guess he was trying to make them perfect because he never worked so slow before. When he was finally done he held my face between his hands as he spoke. "I neva believed dat about ya and Kozy. I think dis Jimmy guy is da one doin' dis ta ya. I tried ta tell 'em but Hap didn't wanna listen. I want ya to know dat I believe ya and neva doubted ya. You're a good girl lass."
Then he pulled me towards him and placed a soft kiss on my forehead. "Thank you Chibs." I said as I felt the tears start to fall again. As he wiped my tears away Lyla walked in to the chapel. Chibs got up and patted her on the shoulder as he walked out. Lyla walked over to me and pulled me into a hug, Opie must have filled her in on what was going on. I felt myself fall apart once her arms were around me. That's when everything that has happened in this very room finally hit me and I was able to let it go. She just held me as I cried never saying a word just letting me get it all out. After about a half hour she finally spoke.
"What do you want me to do? I'll do anything." She said as she held me back from her at arm's length.
"Take me home please. I don't want to be here anymore." She nodded her head at me and we walked out of the chapel and started towards the door when I heard Juice speak.
"Where are you two going?" he asked.
"I want to go home." I said to him as I continued to walk.
"You can't go home you have to stay here!" he told me.
"NO!" I snapped at him. "I am going home. I am not staying here." I said as I yanked the door open.
I heard him yelling about something but I continued to walk to Lyla's car and climbed in as she got in the driver's seat. The ride to my house was quiet. When we pulled up I saw Happy's bike parked in the driveway.
"Do you want me to wait out here?" she asked me.
"No come in. I highly doubt he has anything to say to me so we can just sit in the kitchen until he leaves. Which I'm sure will be once we come in there." I said as we climbed out of the car. I didn't want to go in there alone with him there.
We walked slowly to the door. When I opened it and walked in Happy was coming down the stairs with a duffle bag in his hands. He stopped on the last step and glared at me when he saw us standing there.
"I'll be in the kitchen." Lyla said to me as she looked at him then me. I nodded to her and she walked away.
"What the fuck are ya doin' here?" He snapped as he still stood on the last step and glared at me.
I didn't say anything to him I just looked at him then started to walk towards the kitchen when I felt his hand grab my arm roughly to stop me from going any further. "Let go of me now!" I snapped at him as I tried to pull my arm from his grasp.
His grip got tighter, he dropped his bag to the floor and he pulled me hard towards him causing me to slam into his chest. He took a hold of my chin and forced me to look up at him. "Ya better watch how ya fucking talk to me." he growled.
"Why what are you going to do bitch slap me again." I growled back at him. For a brief second I saw the hurt in his eyes before they went cold on me again. "LET. ME. GO." Both of his hands released me and I stepped back a few feet away from him and he ran his hand over his face before he spoke again.
"Ya need to take your ass back to the fucking clubhouse now." He growled.
"I'm not going back there. I am going to take control of my own life now. Plus this is my way of keeping the bitch away from you." I snapped at him.
"What are you trying to fucking get yourself killed?" He snapped. "Get in the fucking cage and go now!"
"Whatever I try to do is none of your business anymore." I said as I walked away and went into the kitchen. Lyla gave me a sympathetic look as I sat in the chair across from her. I just smile weakly as we heard the front door slam shut.
"Are you alright?" she asked as she got up and grabbed two beers from the fridge and handed me one. "You can stay with me and Ope if you want."
"I honestly don't know how I feel right now Lyla." I said as I stood up. "Is he still here? I haven't heard his bike start up."
We both walked out to the living. When I got to the picture window I saw him sitting on his bike talking on the phone. He glanced up and saw me staring at him as he shut his phone. He crossed his arms over his chest and leaned back. I must have been in some kind of trance because at first I didn't hear Lyla call my name.
"Jess are you alright?" I looked at her and nodded. "OK. I gotta go get the kids from school. Do you want to come with me?" I shook my head no. "Do you want me to come back?" she asked me as she grabbed her purse.
"No I'm ok." I said as I walked her to the door. "I'm just going to go to bed." I open the door and she hugged me before walking out.
"Call me if you need to ok." She said as she started to walk away.
I glance over at Happy as Lyla walked pass him. He stopped her to ask her something and she answered him and walked away. I didn't know what was said but he had a pissed off look on his face. I shut the door and went to the couch and laid down. I felt myself starting to doze off when I heard the sound of motorcycles coming down the street. I got up and walked to the window and saw Juice, Jax, Opie and Chibs pull into the driveway. Juice climbed off his bike and stormed pass Happy not saying a word to him. While the rest of the guys stopped to talk to him. Juice walked in the house and I turned towards the door where he was standing and looking at me.
"Jess ya can't stay here alone." He said as he walked further in. "Jimmy is still out there. You can get hurt."
"I have already told you and him I'm not going back there." I said as I sat down on the couch. "I'm not staying in that clubhouse with him."
"Then we are goin' ta be stayin' wit ya lass." Chibs said as he walked in the house and shut the door behind him and locking it. That's when I heard the other bikes start up and leave. "Jax is goin' ta let Clay Know we are here wit lass." Chibs said as he walked up next to Juice.
"I'm going to go to bed. Feel free to watch TV and there is beer in the fridge. Also there are two extra rooms upstairs with beds you guys are welcome to stay in them." I said as I walked over and gave them both a kiss on the cheek. "I'll see you guys in the morning."
I had to get away from them I knew I was going to cry again and I didn't want to do it in front of them. I must look like a big baby to them already because I felt like one with all the crying I was doing. I slowly walked up the stairs as I felt the tears start to pool in my eyes again. When I reached my bedroom door and open it the tears started to fall I walked in and closed the door behind me. I looked around and noticed that some off Happy's things were gone and the picture I had of us on the dresser was now laying picture side down. I walked to the chair and picked up the shirt he had on the last time we were home together. Pulling it to my nose and smelling his cologne on it. I sunk down to the floor and started to cry again. Sometime later as I laid there crying Juice walked into my room. He crouched down next to me and lifted me off the floor bridal style and carried me to my bed. He placed me down and covered me with my blanket. As he started to walk away I reached for his hand to stop him. "Please stay with me." he nodded his head and walked to the other side of the bed and climbed in. Without him knowing he had laid me down on Happy's side of the bed.
I took a deep breath to inhale his scent. "Is it wrong of me to still wish he was here with me?" I asked my brother as I laid on my side to look at him.
"I don't know Jess. He hurt you and wouldn't give you a chance to explain." He answered me as he also laid on his side to look at me.
"I know. But I love him." I said as I wiped tears from my eyes.
"If I could change all this from happening I would just so I didn't have to see the hurt your feeling in your eyes." He said to me.
"I think I know who did this." I said to him. "Jimmy said Happy was going to be out of my life now he is."
"I know Chibs told me the same thing." He said as he held my hand. "We will get through this ok."
"But how do I get pass this? How do we get pass this? I don't know if I can forgive him. But I don't want to lose him. I don't know what to do."
"I wish I had the answers for ya but I don't." he said as he softly laid his hand on my bruised and cut cheek. "Just get some sleep." I nodded my head and closed my eyes. I felt the bed shift then Juice placed a kiss on my forehead before lying back down.
The next morning I woke up alone in the bed. The cuts on my cheek stung a little more today than they did yesterday. I got out of bed and walked into my bathroom I stood in front of the mirror staring at the large bruise that took up most of my left cheek and the two slashes that stretched across about two inches. This was the first time I was getting a look at it. I turned away and jumped in the shower. When I got out I got dressed in a pair of denim capris with a red tank and my white Nikes and pulling my hair into a ponytail.
Today I told myself that I did enough crying yesterday now it was time to move on. If I was going to have any chance in doing that I had to keep my distant from the clubhouse and Happy. The last being the hardest to do but with them leaving for Indian Hills I knew I would have time to think things through. I was not going to turn into a zombie like I had the last time we had split up.
When I walked down stairs and into the kitchen Juice and Chibs were both sitting at the table drinking coffee. "What time did you leave the room last night?" I asked Juice as I poured a cup of coffee for myself.
"I didn't leave last night I left this morning I just didn't want to wake you." He replied to me. "Do ya feel any better today?"
"Oh." I said as I sat down next to him. "I feel ok. Guys I want to go to the hospital and see Kozik." I said looking at both of them. "He is in there because of me."
"That's not true Jess ya can't be blaming yourself." Juice said to me.
"Juicy boy ya gotta get back ta da clubhouse but I can take 'er." Chibs said as Juice nodded his head. "Just let me know when ya ready ta go lass."
We left the house about twenty minutes later. I rode with Chibs to the hospital on his bike as Juice went back to the clubhouse. When we got to St. Thomas Chibs and I went up to Kozik's room when we walked in he was still out so we both took a seat and waited for him to wake up. Chibs and I ended up falling asleep while we waited because I woke up to Kozik talking to the nurse. I kept my eyes closed waiting for her to leave.
"How long have they been in here?" I heard him ask her.
"About an hour. They have been waiting for you to get up." She replied to him. "Would you like me to wake them up for you?" she asked him.
"No let them sleep." He replied. "They look tired."
"How can I sleep if ya keep talkin'?" I heard Chibs say to him with a little amusement in his voice. "Brotha how are ya feelin'?"
"Better." Kozik said to him. "Did ya know Hap came here last night?" Kozik asked and I was shocked to hear that.
"Nah brotha. What did he say ta ya?" Chibs asked sounding curious.
"That's the thing he never said a word to me. He just sat there quiet for two hours then got up and left." I heard him shifting around on the bed. "Shit that fucking hurts." I heard him groan out.
"That's what happens when your ribs are broke." I said to him as I sat up straight to show them I was a wake. "Did you find out if you're going to get out today?" I asked trying to change the subject about Happy as I turned to face Kozik.
"What the fuck happen to your fucking face?" he growled out after taking one look at me when I turned to face him.
"I don't want to talk about it." I said to him as I got up. "I'm going to see if I can find out if they are keeping you again or letting you out."
"Fuck that who fucking hit you Jessica?" he said as he winced from trying to sit up a little more. "Did Jimmy get to her again Chibs?"
I answered him before Chibs did. "It wasn't Jimmy." I said as I sat back down. "It was Happy."
"Are you fucking shitting me? Why did you fucking let him hit her?" he said as he turned to Chibs. "It's gonna fucking brake him when he finds out all that shit wasn't what he thought it was."
"We weren't in da room when it all went down brotha." Chibs said as he sat up straight sounding offended. "I love lass like my own daughter I would have neva let it get dat far."
"What the hell is your problem Kozy?" I said feeling the anger start to build inside of me. "Happy beat the shit out of you and you're worried about how he is going to feel?" I snapped at him.
"Jess I let him beat my ass. I didn't fight back I could have but I didn't. He wouldn't let me explain shit so I thought if he got all that shit out with me he would be a'ight with you." he yelled at me. "I gotta fix this."
"Koz there is nothing to fix. It's over with us." I yelled at him as I heard the door open. When I looked up I saw Jax and Happy walk in.
"What's with all the yelling?" Jax asked as they walked in. "Shit we heard you guys down the hall." He said as he looked at me then at Happy.
"I gotta go check on some things. Chibs I'll come back and get you when I'm done."
I got up and walked passed Jax and Happy as quickly as I could. When I stepped out into the hall I looked down at my hands and saw that they were shaking again I clasped them together to try and stop them. Then I heard someone come up behind me and put a hand on my shoulder and it startled me. "Jess we need to talk." Happy's raspy voice said from behind me before I could turn around.
I didn't turn around I just answered him. "I'm not ready to talk to you Happy." I walked away not once looking back. I had to stay strong. I still loved him I just needed to figure myself out first.
While I was at the hospital I decide to talk to Margret Murphy and take an emergency leave of absent. She started to say no to me but then she looked up and one look at my face and she was happy to give it to me. After I spoke with her I talked with Kozik's doctor and found out they were going to discharge him tonight. So I walked back to Kozik's room to let him know and also let Chibs know that I was ready to leave. When I walked in his room I saw that Jax and Happy were still there.
"Kozy they want to do a few more x-rays but you should be released in a couple of hours ok." I said as I tried to avoid looking at Happy.
"Thanks darlin' I'll have a prospect bring a cage to get him home." Jax said as he pulled out his pre-paid.
"Jess we all need to talk about this." Kozik said to me. "Happy and I got a chan…." I cut him off by putting my hand up and looked at him shaking my head no.
"Chibs I'm ready whenever you are." Then I walked out of the room. As the door shut Kozik called out my name but I didn't bother to go back in. I moved to the wall across from his door and leaned against it.
Chibs came out a few minutes later with Happy and Jax. "Come on lass lets go. We need ta stop at da clubhouse first." I just nodded my head at him and follow behind him with Jax and Happy following behind me.
The walk to the bikes felt like it took forever with the three of them. No one spoke a word the whole time I never look back at the two behind me. When we arrived at the bikes the guys all climbed on their bikes and I stepped up to Chibs and he held his arm out for me to hold as I climbed on behind him. As I settled on the bike I noticed Happy glaring at me. When we got to TM I climbed off quickly and walked to the picnic table and pulled out my cell to call Lyla and Happy stormed pass me into the clubhouse. I talked to Lyla for about fifteen minutes then hung up. Now I need to talk with my brother.
"Juice do you got a minute I need to ask you something?" I asked as I walked over to his tech corner.
"Yeah sis. What's up?" He said as he turned around to face me. "Is everything a'ight." He asked sounding concerned.
"I'm fine. I need a favor but I don't want you telling anyone." He nodded ok to me as I look around to see who was around us after not seeing anyone I asked him. "Can you find me two tickets to New York?"
"I thought you weren't going to go?" he said as his eyes went wide on me.
"That was then this is now. The sooner I fly out the better." I said as I pulled a chair up to sit next to him.
"I gotta leave for Indian Hills in the morning. I could do it when I get back."
"Do it now I want to leave tomorrow or the day after." I said as I pulled my hair out of the ponytail it was in.
"Why the rush? It's going to be too much money." He asked as he started to look for tickets.
"I don't care how much it's going to cost. I need them round trip but I want them open ended." I said as I handed him my bank card. "Make one for me and one for Lyla and don't worry we already talked with Opie he's good with it. His mom Mary is going to take the kids for them. I'll be back in a little few minutes I got to get something."
I had to go to Happy's room I need my bag that the prospect brought here yesterday. When I opened his door he was standing next to his bed packing a bag for Indian Hills my heart started to beat very fast. He turned back to look at me as I stepped in the room.
"I just need to grab my duffle." I said to him as I walked to the closet and pulled it out.
"You can stay in here while I'm gone." He said to me as I closed the closet door.
"I'm not staying here. I just need some stuff out of here." I said as I lifted the bag up.
"Where the fuck are ya stayin' then because there ain't goin' to be anyone around to stay at the house with ya?" He snapped as he dropped his shit on the bed.
"You don't have to worry about that. I gotta go." I said as I started to walk to the door.
"What the fuck! We need to fucking talk." He growled out.
"Not now Happy." I said as calm as I could and walked down the hall back to the main room. As I enter the main room I heard his door slam and winced. I knew I was pissing him off more but I wasn't ready to talk to him yet. "Juice did you find any? Lyla is on her way here to pick me up. I'm going to stay with her and Opie tonight."
"Yeah I got you guys leaving out of Oakland at two o'clock tomorrow it's a nonstop to JFK." He said as handed my bank card back with the papers he printed out. "Jess be careful out there and watch yourself a'ight." He said as he hugged me. "I don't care what time it is if you need anything call me. Don't let ma get to ya. Ok."
"Yes big brother I will be careful and I will watch myself and I will keep you on speed dial for anything that happens." I said to him sarcastically as I gave him a peck on his cheek and he just shook his head at me. "I won't let her get to me I promise."
"Ya don't have to leave we can work this shit out." He said as he grabbed my hand. "I know I said it would be better but I thought about it and I don't want to lose you."
"Juice I'm coming back. I just need somewhere to think without all the reminders of Happy." I said as I patted his cheek. "I won't run on you again I promise." I knew he was afraid that I would and that was my fault because that's how I handled things.
Lyla picked me up and we went to my place with Opie following behind us. I packed my clothes and locked up the house. When we got to Opie and Lyla's place Mary was just arriving to take the kids. After they left the three of us sat around and had a few beers while we talked. No one mentioned anything about what had happened the other day or Happy. Opie gave us the same but a little longer lecture about being safe in New York and also wanted us to call him when we landed and of course if we ran into any problems we were to immediately call him.
In the morning after the guys left for Indian Hills I called Tara and asked if her or Gemma could give us a ride to the airport. Gemma of course was the one that gave us the ride because she wanted to bitch at me about leaving when I should be here. Tara had already warned me about it. Lyla and I got dressed to go she was wearing a pair of black skinny jeans with a gray off the shoulder sweater and her gray knee high suede boots. I put on a pair of gray skinny jeans with a black long sleeve Henley shirt and a pair of black studded booties.
Gemma pulled in front of the house and beeped her horn for us. "Jessica Ortiz you better be coming back because if you make my ass fly out there I will kill you myself." She said as I opened the door to get in her SUV. "I am not in the mood for any Houdini tricks."
"I'm coming back Gemma. I just need to get away for a little bit that's it." I said as we started to drive away.
"Does your old man know you're going to New York?" she asked me with a smirk on her face. "Or is he going to find out when he comes home?"
"Can we not go there Gemma please? Happy has no say in what I do anymore."
"Yeah keep thinking that sweetheart. That tattooed bastard is going to flip when he gets back." She said smirking again. "Does Ope know your skipping town too? I don't want to have to explain two missing old ladies."
"Yes Ope knows I'm going with Jess to New York." Lyla said as she rolled her eyes.
"Well at least one of you is smart." She said as she glanced at me and I rolled my eyes at her.
I knew she was right about Happy but I was extremely happy when we finally got out of Gemma's car. She hugged us both and told us to be safe as we walked away. The wait in the airport wasn't too bad but I was being gawked at and I knew it was because of my bruised cheek and the cuts I tried to keep my sunglasses on as much as I could. When we finally landed at JFK I started to get nervous my abuela and a cousin were picking us up and abuela was going to defiantly question me about my face. We walked to baggage claim as we were standing there I heard my abuela call my name.