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Chapter 13
"What are you doing here and where is your bike?" I asked Happy as I picked up my bags and he got up from his seat. "I'm really not in the mood to fight. I'm too tired and it was a long flight." I said as I started for the stairs.
"My bike is in the garage. Jess we really need to talk." He said as he walked over to me and took the bags from my hands.
"Happy I want to go shower and change. Can we do this later?" I said to him.
"Fine." He said to me as he walked pass me and started to go up the stairs. "But I ain't leaving until shit is settled."
"Where are you going?" I asked him as I stood at the bottom looking up at him.
"I'm taking your shit up to the room." He said to me with an attitude as he continued up the stairs.
I walked in the bedroom behind him and went to the dresser and grabbed my clothes to go shower. When I walked in the bathroom I locked the door behind me I knew it would piss him off but I didn't want him coming in on me. I showered and got dressed as I walked back in the room he was sitting on the bed with his back against the headboard smoking a cigarette and glaring at me. For the first time in a long time I felt uncomfortable standing in front of him. I thought he would have gone back down stairs. I was only wearing my navy blue Abercrombie tank and gray booty shorts with no bra on so I crossed my arms over my chest.
"Now that your shower and changed let's talk." He said to me as he died out his cigarette.
"What do you want?" I asked him.
"Why the fuck did you go to New York?" He growled. "I thought we decided you were going to wait."
"I changed my mind and wanted to go now." I snapped back at him. "I make my own choices now." I said as I stood in the front of the dresser.
"Look Jess I am sorry I should have never accused you of that shit with Koz." He said as he got off the bed and walked towards me. I tried to step back but I bumped into the dresser. He leaned forward and I turned my head away from him. He grabbed my chin and made me look at him. His eyes roamed over my face and stopped at the cuts. "Jess I'm sorry I shouldn't have hit you." Then he placed two soft kisses on the almost healed cuts that were on my cheek.
"Happy I can't do this." I said as I tried to push him back. "You said you would never hit me and you did and the things you said to me hurt just as much as the hit. How am I supposed to get over all that?"
He took a couple steps back from me and rubbed his hand across his face. "I know what I said to ya but I was pissed off." I open my mouth to say something but he stopped me. "I know there is no excuse that would ever be good enough for something like that so I ain't gonna try to come up with one. We gotta try and fix this between us."
"I need something to drink." I said as I started to walk out of the bedroom.
"Jess you can't fucking ignore this. We need to talk this shit out." He snapped as he followed me. When I reached the stairs he grabbed my arm and pinned me to the wall. "Talk to me damn it."
"I don't want to talk to you." I growled at him as I tried to push him back. "You need to let me work shit out in my fucking head first."
He stepped back and I continued down the stairs. I walked in the kitchen to find something to drink and not finding anything other than beer. I was standing in front of the refrigerator with the door open looking inside when Happy walked in the kitchen. I pulled a beer out popped it open and handed it to him. I turned to throw the cap away when I felt his hand grab my arm and pull me towards him.
"What the fuck happen to your arm?" he growled at me. I looked down at the back of my arm and saw a four finger shaped bruise topped off with small half-moon shape cuts from when my ma squeezed my arm and dug her nails in. "Who did this to you?"
"My ma and I got into a pretty heated argument." I said as I pulled my arm from him and turned to grab a beer for myself.
"Why the fuck did you stay there then?" he snapped.
"It happened after the guys showed up to bring me back to Charming." I said as I walked away from him to go into the living room.
"Why the fuck do you keep walking away from me when we're talking?" he snapped as he punched the wall next to him. Then he followed me into the living room.
"I don't want to talk about anything." I said as I sat down and tuck my legs under me. "And stop punching my damn walls!" he just glared at me.
"We are going to talk whither you like it or not. A'ight." He said as sat in the recliner.
"Fine you want to know why I went to New York?" I asked him and he just grunted. "I went there to get away from you." I could see the hurt in his eyes but I continued anyways. "I wanted to see if I can survive without you in my life. I wanted to see if my life could be better without you in it."
"If that's what you want then go back." he snapped at me. "Once Jimmy is dead your free to fucking go back."
"I said I wanted to see not that I wanted to be there." I yelled back him. "I came back here because my life is here, my brother is here, and my friends are here, god damn you're here."
"Why should I matter if you went there to get away from me?" He asked me with anger in his voice.
"Because I still fucking love you." I screamed at him. "I just don't know how to get pass this. You hurt me and I can't forget that. Hell I don't even know if I can forgive you!"
"I should have never hit you I said I was sorry." He said to me as he got up and walked over to sit on the coffee table in front of me. "I was wrong to do that I couldn't control my anger." He leaned forward and held on to my thighs.
"It's not just the hit Happy." I said as I slowly pushed his hands off of me. He glared at me when I did that but he sat back and crossed his arms over his chest. "You called me a whore. That hurt more than this." I said as I point to my cheek.
"I didn't mean it. My mouth was running before I could even think about what I was saying."
"It doesn't matter because you had to have already had that fucking thought in your head before it even came out." I said to him as he stood up. "Your ass even threw Seattle in my face even though I told you I never did anything with anyone while I worked there." I snapped at him. The anger took total control of my mouth and I couldn't stop it. "If you're going to be blaming me for shit I might as well fucking do it then. Maybe I should go to the local gentlemen's club and screw everyone in there."
He leaned forward placing both his hands on either side of my head on the back of the couch with his face inches away from mine. My heart was beating fast but I was trying not to show him I was scared. "Don't ever make a threat like that again." Then he pushed himself off the couch and sat back in the recliner not saying anything else to me.
We sat there quietly watching TV for a few hours. I had mixed emotions about him being here. Part of me wanted to climb on top of him and jump his bones but the other part of me wanted to throw his ass out of the house and I wasn't too sure on which part to listen to. I had so much going on in my head I didn't know where to start when it came to figuring this shit out with him. I loved him but at the same time I felt hatred towards him because not only did he hit me but he didn't trust me. If he had trusted me he would have taken the pictures as they were which was two friends being there for each other. It wasn't the first time that Kozik and I were close like that we were practically best friends when I lived in Tacoma and Happy didn't have problems with it then. Something in my gut tells me that it wasn't just the pictures that had Happy thinking shit was going on but also a little devil sitting on his shoulder talking in his ear. I must have been in some kind of trance because at first I didn't hear Happy talking to me.
"Jess I asked ya question!" he snapped. I turned my head towards him. "Ya look cold do ya want a blanket?"
"Oh. I'm sorry I was stuck in my thoughts. I'll get it myself." I said as I started to get up. He got up and pushed me back down on the couch then went up the stairs. I watched him walk away and then I stretched out across the couch as he came back down. He walked over to me and laid the blanket across my body and sat back on the recliner.
"What were ya thinking about?" he asked as he sat back down. "Ya looked like you were in your thoughts pretty deep."
"Everything." I said as I turned to lay on my side to face the TV and he just nodded not saying anything else.
I must have doze off sometime after that because I was awaken by something cold being dragged down my arm when I turned my head to see what it was I saw a gun barrel pointed at me. With it being dark in the living room and out of instinct of self-preservation I jumped off the couch only to be pulled back down by my hair. I screamed loud and a hand covered my mouth.
"Now we don't want to wake the neighbors do we?" I heard Jimmy's voice say to me from behind "If I release your mouth do you promise not to scream again?"
I nodded my head yes but I was trying to scan the room in the dark with my eyes as they were starting to adjust wondering where Happy was I know he was here when I fell asleep he must have left. "What are you doing here?" I asked him as he released my mouth.
"Well you left New York so quick I had to wait around for the next flight out. That wasn't very nice of you to run like that but your cousin Sonja was nice enough to tell me that the Sons came and brought you back here." he said as he stepped around the couch to stand in front of me.
"Why would my cousin tell anything about me?" I asked him.
"Well I guess you're not her favorite person and she was all too willing to tell me everything I wanted to know about you." He replied to me.
"Why are you doing this Happy and I are no longer together he can give two shits on what happens to me?" I said as I sat back further on the couch trying to put distance between us. "If he did I wouldn't be here alone right now."
"See Jessie baby that's were your wrong because if he didn't care he would have never sent them bastards out there to get you!" he snapped as he waved the gun in my face. "I really thought all those pictures of and his friend was going to work on getting rid of him. I guess not but that's ok I'm here now. Now this is how we are going to do this first we are going to get to know each other a little better." He said as he leaned forward and ran his hand from my shoulder down to my waist I cringed when his hand grazed my breast. "Then you're going to give Happy a call so he can join our little party. Then I could finally get my revenge for my brother."
"Don't touch me!" I snapped at him as I knocked his hand away from me. "You're going to have to kill me before I let you do anything with me."
"Bitch you have no choice!" He said as his hand closed around my neck and he started to squeeze. I brought my hands up to pull on his arm because he was cutting off my air supply. "YOU BELONG TO ME NOW!" He screamed at me.
Then I heard a gunshot go off and Jimmy released my neck as he screamed. I dropped myself to the floor as Jimmy fell on the couch. As he started to get up he fired a shot towards the kitchen. I gasped for air when I didn't hear any sound come from the Kitchen I was hoping the shot missed. When he was on his feet again he pulled me to my feet by my arm using my body to cover his and wrapping an arm around my neck trying to hold himself up. I could feel the back of my shirt getting wet.
"I know you're in there come out now or I will fucking put a bullet in her head." He said as he pointed the barrel to my head. I felt the tears start to slide down my cheeks. "Tell whoever is here to come out or I will shoot your ass." He snarled into my ear.
"I don't know who is here. When I fell asleep I was alone." I lied to him.
"Don't fucking lie to me." he said as he squeezed his arm around my throat.
I went to bring my hands to his arm when I heard another gunshot this time from the side of us. I felt blood splatter across my face as I was dragged down to the floor when Jimmy slumped forward on me. The lights in the room went on and I squeezed my eyes shut.
"Lass ya a'ight." I heard Chibs say as the weight was pulled off me and I turned to face him and he pulled me in for a hug. "Were ya hit anywhere? Did he hurt you?" he said sounding very concern.
"No I wasn't hit. Is Jimmy dead?" I said in a shaky voice and he nodded yes to me. "Where's Happy?" I asked as I started to panic.
"Chibs ya need to come in the kitchen Hap was hit." I heard Juice scream from the kitchen.
I jumped off the floor when I heard that and ran towards the kitchen. Happy was sitting on the floor against the refrigerator with his knees up. I knelt down between his knees and saw the blood coming from his right shoulder. "Let me see how bad it is?" I said to him as I felt more tears slide down my cheek.
He reached up with his good arm and wiped the tears away. "I'm good. He didn't hurt ya did he? I tried to get a clean shot of him but he fucking shot back at me before I can get another round off." He said to me as I started to unzip his sweater to remove it. "Fuck that hurts!" he said as I moved his arm to pull the sweater down.
I looked up to asked Chibs something and that's when I noticed that Jax and Tig were standing there talking to Chibs and Juice. "Chibs can you get my bag out of the car please?" I asked him. "The keys are on the table by the door." I said as he nodded and walk away.
"Darlin' we need to get the body out of here so we're going to pull your car out and bring the van in the garage." Jax said to me as he walked closer to us. "We looked around outside it don't look like your neighbors heard anything. Hap are ya good?"
"Yeah. Who got the last shot off?" Happy asked Jax.
"I did brotha. Straight ta da temple." Chibs said as he came back in and handed me my bag. "He's not gonna bother ya anymore. I kept my promise ta ya." He said to me as he leaned down and with a gloved hand wiped at my forehead before he placed a kiss on it.
The guys walked out of the kitchen leaving Tig behind standing there staring at us with a grin on his face. I looked at Happy then up towards Tig again and his grin got wider. "Why are you smiling like that?" I questioned him.
"Um doll face ya look like a little cold there?" he said pointing at my chest.
"What the fuck Tig! Stop looking at her like that mutha fucker!" Happy snapped at him as his good arm came up to cover my breast. "Jess put my fucking sweater on!" he growled out. I grabbed the sweater I took off of him and slid it on quickly.
"Sorry brother I couldn't help it." Tig said with his creepy smile plastered across his face and not noticing Chibs standing behind him.
Happy growled and went to try and get up but I stopped him. "Hap no leave it alone." I said to him as I pushed on his chest.
"Tig back da hell off." Chibs said as he smacked a hand down hard on Tig's shoulder. "Hap might not be able ta take ya right now but I can." Tig grin at Chibs and walked away. "He always thinks wit da wrong head." He said smiling at us as he walked away and Happy growled.
I pulled out some scissors to cut off Happy's shirt. I put on some gloves and I worked as quickly as I could on Happy's shoulder as the rest of the guys finished what they were doing in the living room. The bullet was still in there so I had to remove it. As I was finishing the last stitch Juice came in the kitchen and crouched down next to us as I was bandaging it up.
"Jess are you sure you're a'ight?" he asked me and I nodded yes to him. "Happy are you good? We gotta go take care of this. Do ya want us to come back?"
"Nah brother, we're good call me when everything is completely turned to ashes." Happy said to him as he stood up pulling me up with him. "You good with me being here?" he asked Juice.
"Yeah! Take care of my sister." Juice said and Happy nodded at him then he looked at me. "Call me if ya need me and get all that blood of your face. Hap what about her clothes?"
"I'll get rid of them." Happy said to Juice and started to pull me towards the stairs. "Jess ya gotta change out of them clothes and shower."
Happy walked me to our room and as I removed his sweater and placed it on the chair he led me straight to the bathroom. I looked into the mirror and that's when everything that just happened kicked in. The blood was splatter across my face smeared in some spots and all over my clothes; the back of my shirt was soaked in Jimmy's blood while the front had Happy's blood on it. Happy's shot must have hit Jimmy somewhere in his torso I wasn't too sure because I didn't bother to look at the body. I looked up and through the mirror at Happy who was standing behind me waiting. By the look on his face he was waiting to see how I was going to react. I was trying to stay as calm as I could.
"I thought you left me." I said as I looked at him through the mirror. "When I didn't see you I got scared."
"Jess I didn't mean to scare you like that." He said as he turned me to face him. "I was sitting on the recliner watching ya sleep when I heard someone trying to get in the front door. I went to the Kitchen because I wanted him to come in so this time he wouldn't get away. While I was in there I called Tig. When I hung up the phone I had to walk back to the door way for the living room slow so he wouldn't hear me that's when I heard ya scream."
"I tried to run when I saw the gun but he pulled me back by my hair." I said as I felt a tear slide down my face.
He stepped forward and wiped the tear away with his thumb. "When I did reach the door way he was already standing in front of ya. I heard everything he said to ya." Happy said as he slid some strands of hair behind my ear. "I was about to take my shot when ya snapped at him." he said with a smile. "I was proud of ya for not taking his shit."
"I was scared out of mind but I was not going to let him touch me." I said as I looked down at my feet.
He placed two fingers under my chain and lifted my head. "It would have never gone that far. I told ya before no one touches what is mine." He said as he took a step back. "When I saw him start to choke ya I fired my shot but he went down too quick for me to get off a second one. As he came back up I was about to shoot again but he fired his gun first and it hit me. Then he grabbed ya and I no longer had clean shot but I never took my eyes off ya until I saw Jax and Juice come in the back."
"When that first shot went off I knew it was you but I didn't want him to know that." I said as I ran my fingers through my hair. "But when he fired back I was praying he missed."
"Well when I heard the next shot I thought he shot you." He said as he rubbed his hand over his bald head. "I was about to run out there but Jax pushed me against the fridge I was trying to fight him off but then I heard ya talk to Chibs. Let's get this shit off ya." He said changing the subject on me.
He reached out and tugged at the hem of my shirt and I nodded at him as I lifted my arms and he lifted off my shirt. When I brought my arms down I crossed them over my chest and he shook his head at me. "I ain't gonna touch ya if ya don't want me to." He said sounding angry. I pulled off the rest of my clothes and handed them to him as I stepped in the shower and he walked out of the bathroom. I scrubbed at my body with soap twice trying to make sure all of Jimmy's blood was off of me.
When I was done I wrapped a towel around me and walked into the bedroom and saw that Happy wasn't in there. I put on one of Happy's shirts and a pair of panties when I was finished getting dress Happy walked back into the room. "You don't mind do you?" I asked him as I tugged on the shirt I had on.
"I don't mind. Get some sleep I'll be down stairs." He said as he started to walk away.
"Happy." I called out for him and he turned to look at me. "I don't want to be alone." I said as I laid back on the bed.
"You don't have to be." He said to me as he walked over and removed his boots. He still had no shirt on but he left his jeans on and he placed his gun on the nightstand then he laid on the bed next to me with my back to him.
"Why don't you trust me?" I asked him in a low voice.
"I never said I didn't trust ya!" he said in an angry voice. "Why the hell would ya think that?"
"Because if you trusted me all this shit with Kozik would have never happened!" I said as I started to feel the anger building inside of me. "What you did to him was wrong. He has always had respect for you. All these years I have been around you and him he has never once tried to come on to me! You knew we were friends. Hap he's the reason we got together in the first place."
Happy's hand came down on my shoulder and pulled me flat on my back and I saw him wince from the jostling he did to his shoulder. "Look I wasn't fucking thinking straight a'ight to much shit was going through my fucking head."
"Let's just go to bed." I said to him as I rolled back to my side.
When he rolled back on his back I scooted my body a little closer to him. He must have noticed because he slid his arm under my head and wrapped it around my body and pulled me flush with his body. I knew we weren't done talking about this but I still needed to have him near me that was the only way I was going to get any sleep tonight. I turned around to face him and closed my eyes. A few minutes later I felt the bed shift a little when Happy leaned down and placed a kiss on my lips and whispered "I love you" in my ear. I didn't say anything or open my eyes I just laid there like I was sleeping.
The next morning when I opened my eyes to the bright sunlight that was flooding the room I thought I heard someone call my name then I noticed Happy was still here lying on his back with one arm laying across his chest and the other still around me. I started to get up and he pulled me closer. Then we heard a creak come from the stairs all of sudden Happy sat up quickly and grunting in from the pain in his shoulder and pulling me towards him. He already had his gun pointed towards the door that's when Tig and Juice walked in the room and jumped when they saw the gun.
"What the fuck is your problem walking in here like that?" Happy snapped at them as he pulled the blanket over me after seeing Tig standing there.
"We called out for ya guys a few times." Juice said to Happy with his hands up because Happy still had the gun aimed at them. "Can ya put the gun away?"
Happy got off the bed and placed the gun in the back of his waist band. "Let's go down stairs while Jess gets dress." He said as he guided Tig out by the back of his neck and shut the door behind them.
I climbed out of the bed once the door was shut and got dressed. I wore a pair of skinny jean capris with a red cami and my juicy culture black sweater with my black and white pumas. I pinned the front of my hair back from my face. I walked down stairs and the guys were standing around the kitchen talking when I walked in they all got quiet. "Am I disturbing something?" I asked as I stopped walking.
"No." Juice said to me quickly. "How are you doing today?" Juice asked me as he walked closer to me.
"Good considering I had a gun pointed at my head last night." I said to him sarcastically. "What are you guys doing here?"
"I came here to see how you are doing. Chibs told me about the fight ya had with ma." He said as he rubbed his hand across his face. "What happened?"
"She got mad because I chose to come back to Charming instead of staying out there with her." I said as I walked around him to sit at the table. "They tried everything they could to get me to stay. They tried to blame you for my face." I said as I looked up at Happy and he just put his head down.
"What did ya tell 'em?" Juice asked as he pulled a chair to sit next to me.
"Nothing. I didn't want to talk about it. We fought the first day I was there too."
"Why did ya stay so long then doll face?" Tig asked as he sat across from us. "What was the fight about?"
"I was hoping to make things right for us." I said as I turned to face him. "Stahl went out there." Before I could say anymore Happy cut in.
"What the fuck do ya mean Stahl went out there. She ain't even breathing anymore." Happy growled out.
"She was out there before all of you got locked up. She told them about Juice being a Son and about you." I said pointing at Happy. "They told them that they need to keep me away from you. My ma tried to question me about what you did that had the ATF saying you were a bad person to be around."
Happy stepped forward and placed both his hands down on the table. "What did ya tell her?" he asked in a low threating voice.
"I told her it was not my business to tell." He smiled and pushed himself back. "She also asked about some of the stuff that happened to Juice but I told her she had to ask him if she wanted to know."
"That's good doll face never tell anyone the business of Samcro. I'll be right back." Tig said as he got up and walked out the back door.
"What else did she say to ya?" Juice asked.
"She basically said I was making a mistake coming back her because the club was going to ruin my life and that I was nothing more than a biker whore." I said looking up at Happy and he just shook his head while running his hand down his face. "After that we said some things to each other and she kicked me out and said to never come back there again."
"Damn Jess I'm sorry that happened." Juice as he pulled me in for a hug. "I know you were trying to make things right with her but ya still got us."
"I know but I had to try." I said as I hugged him back. "Juice, you and this club is all the family I need."
As I got up from the chair Tig came back in. "Brothers we gotta go." He said as walked through the Kitchen to the front door.
"Jess we need to go to the clubhouse." Happy said as he walked towards me. "We got club business to take care of."
"Is this about what went down last night?" I asked him.
"No. We gotta vote on something." Happy said to me.
"Ok. I'm just going to hang out here then." I said as I walked pass him.
"No ya ain't." he said as grabbed my arm to stop me. I looked up at him. "I ain't leaving ya here alone and don't fight with me about it."
"Hap just because we shared the bed last night doesn't mean things are good with us. I'm staying here."
I don't give a fuck if shits good or not." He said with anger in his voice. "Ya ain't fucking stayin' here alone so get your shit and let's go. One more thing you're fucking ridin' with me." he snapped as he let my arm go and walked away from me.
I stood there pissed off when I noticed Juice was still standing there. "Jess just do what he says. We gotta go."
"This is Bullshit but you know what I don't get is one minute you don't want me with him and the next you're telling me to do what says." I snapped as I stormed pass him bumping my shoulder into his.
"It doesn't matter because you'll end up back with him anyways whither I like it or not so I give up." Juice said to me.
"You don't know that." I snapped at him. "What if this isn't what I want anymore?"
He smirked at me. "It'll happen, might not be today but you will be back with Hap." I was so pissed at him but no words would come to mind to say to him so I just flipped him off.
I grabbed my keys and wallet as Juice walked pass me and went out the door with a smug smile on his face. As I walked out the door I slammed it shut Happy glared at me when I did that and Tig had a smirk on his face. I climbed on the back of Happy's bike and adjusted myself so I wasn't close to him.
He got pissed and yanked me forward by my arms. "Don't fucking play games with me." he snapped as he wrapped my arms around his waist.
We pulled on to the lot and parked. As the four of us walked to the doors I could see the tension in everyone's faces. I wasn't too sure why they were having church but it couldn't be any good and the only thing I knew was this had nothing to do with me. I saw Chibs and bobby sitting at the bar when we walked in.
"Wait here with Chucky." Happy said as he guided me to the bar and Chucky came out of the Kitchen. "I shouldn't be too long." He then turned towards the chapel and walked away.
"How ya doing today lass?" Chibs asked as he walked up to me and gave me a hug.
"I'm doing ok." I said to him as I hugged him back. Bobby walked pass us and nodded his head at me and I smiled at him. "What's all this about everyone seems tense?" I asked Chibs as he pulled out of the hug.
"Nothin' ta worry ya pretty little head about lass." He said as he kissed my forehead and walked away.
I sat there quietly while Chucky went back into the kitchen to check on what he was cooking. I got bored quick so I got up to go play a game of pool. As I walked to the pool table all hell broke loose in the matter of seconds. All of sudden glass was flying everywhere and bullets were being sprayed all through the room. I tried to run back to the bar as fast as I could.