Chapter 15
Therapy

"Hello Dr. Anderson…" Tommy smiled at him.

"Hi Thomas, it's been a while."

"Tommy, and yes it has, I recommended you to my boyfriend, you helped me so much through everything, and I don't know, but… you know." Tommy shrugged towards Joe.

Dr. Anderson nodded and stepped forward.

"And who are you?" He asked kindly.

"Joseph, Joe, Joe Adam." He grumbled.

"Well do you want to come in and talk? Or would you rather me just talk to Tommy first?"

"Tommy, you can go first." Joe said.

"Alright, stay put." Tommy said.

"So, why did you recommend me to Joe?"

"Well, he's been acting odd lately, like really odd, and I know he's had these episodes before, because I noticed it on the Glam Nation tour with Adam. He used to be his boyfriend, and they would have their fights like every couple, the only thing was he acted weird, different, like he'd go crazy sometimes, and I'd have to go in and calm him down, cause he'd go off on Adam easily. Now he does that to me. And sometimes Adam would come to me, and tell me things about Joe, like, some weeks he would get really depressed, or some weeks he'd be bouncing off the walls, or even sometimes, daily for a week, he'd be bouncing around one hour and then the next he'd be crying in a bunk, it was confusing. And I know that he would sometimes have panic attacks because that's what Adam told me he was most worried about when Joe went off to war. He knew they would be put in some sticky situations and he was worried that something would happen. And it did, he was trapped in a 'hostage camp' for over 6 months, and then he came back and, Adam had found someone new, because he had thought Joe had died at war in those 6 months when he didn't come back with the rest of the troop members. Not to mention he had been cheating on him a year prior to the war...not that he knew that.

"Yeah, can you tell me some things that happened after Joe found out about Adam?"

"Well the night he got back he called me in tears, I remember being shocked because I thought he was dead too. I went after him and I found him sobbing in an alleyway. After that he stayed with me, the only way I can describe it was manic, the first week he barely ate, and he cried so much he got sick, he was so messed up, and I tried my hardest to make him okay. Other weeks he would be all high and mighty, all 'I'm over him, he's not worth my time, and I'm going to move on.' I think I messed it up even more by kissing him, he ran off and I didn't see him for a few days, he came back all battered and bruised, he apparently had been living on the street. It was horrible, but finally I managed to get him back into a livable state. It was hard watching him struggle with the loss, I gave him all the love I could, and then we started sleeping together, the first time it happened he had been really upset about something Adam had said to him when he called asking if he could get the comforter that he had left on the bed at 'his' house, and him saying no because he had thrown it out after something and Sauli had done. And him crying over it. It was heartbreaking. He begged me to make Adam stop hurting, and then he asked me to make love to him, so he could remember a new experience, and not the last one he had had, or seen with Adam. So I agreed. He was pleased and happy, and he told me he loved me, the next morning he was a mess though, he didn't look at me or talk to me, he wouldn't even look at me!"

"Do you blame him?"

"Not really, I just wish he loved me…"

"Why don't you think he does, it sounds like he just really wants to get over Adam, but that doesn't mean he doesn't love you."

"Yeah, I know I'm just confused."

"It sounds like he is to, so in that case, I think the best thing for you to do, is offer support for now, and don't push him into anything you think, or know he isn't ready for… I also think it would be wise for you to stay here and not go overseas in the next week; he's going to need someone to tie him down."

"Well you see I kind of have too…I'm the best man for their wedding, and I swore to Adam I'd be there…"

"Hmm, this could be a problem."

"Does he have family nearby?"

"No, they disowned him after he came out."

"I see…well if you must go to the wedding, and then find someone for him to stay with while you're gone who he can trust, and you can trust."

"But he doesn't have any friends, besides me."

"Wow, you are tough, I guess your going to have to take him with you then."

"What?"

"Well I would defiantly not want him to be left alone in the state he's in, but I don't think it's wise for him to be at the wedding, I guess you'll just have to choose, go and take him, or not go at all, and displease this Adam character."

"But what about him attending the wedding?"

"Who knows maybe it'll put things in perspective for him…after all you mentioned once along the line he was invited…kind of."

"Yeah, I guess so…yeah."

"Well I guess that you have a decision to make, call me if you can't make it to these sessions, it'll be alright, we can reschedule and I'll see you next week." Tommy nodded, and shook Dr. Anderson's hand, walking out the door he found Joe sitting in his lonely spot in the corner, only this time there was a little girl with him. It was an adorable sight; it looked as if he was coloring a picture with her. Tommy walked over to them, Joe looked up.
"Oh hey honey." Joe smiled looking up.
"Trinity, this is Tommy, he's out of his session so I'm going to have to leave…" Joe said smiling at the little girl.
"Okay… Thank you for coloring with me."
"It was fun… maybe I'll get to meet your daddies next time."
"I hope so!" She said.
"You ready to go baby?" Joe asked Tommy."
He nodded and took Joe's hand helping him stand up.
"Bye Joe!" Trinity giggled as he turned to walk out.
Joe smiled and waved over his shoulder before linking hands with his boyfriend.