Chapter 19
Watching You Breaks Me
Joe leaned over the toilet in the bathroom, but nothing came up, he had broken out in a cold sweat when he saw Adam dirty dancing with Sauli, and grabbing at his crotch as they swayed to the music together as they kissed and sucked each others faces off in the middle of the dance floor. Brad had tried to get him to dance but he had declined and rushed off to here, he knew Tommy could come looking for him soon, and he would have to get into his dancing mood. He came out of the bathroom and came face to face with Tommy.
"Oh hey baby, you wanna dance?" Joe asked submissively.
"I like that tone," Tommy said taking his hand and kissing him. He led him to the dance floor and acted as a cock tease almost all night, he began to grind around him and kept his body close, dirty dancing was fun, they switched partners, and Tommy went to dance with Sutan and Brad danced with Joe. The music stopped and everyone went back to there seats, and did the toast, and had the cake that happened to be black frosted, and lime green in the middle. They had there first dance, and with every single action another bullet ripped through Joe's heart, this was truly killing him, he didn't want to be here, he didn't want to have anything to do with them. He wanted to go home and cry, but he managed to keep his tears in for the rest of the night, After the speech they decided to take the set list, by the third song, almost everyone in the room had gone up to sing or play for the new couple, even Lelia and Eber, the only last ones were, Tommy, Sophie, Lisa and Joe,
"You should come up here baby," Tommy said into the mic, play that new song we wrote…"
"Na, I'm fine here."
"Come on Joe," Adam said.
"We all want to hear it, you're obviously talented, come on just one song before the nights over…" Adam gave Joe his face.
"Come on… that look's not gonna work on me anymore." Tommy looked at him with the same kitty face.
"Not you to Tommy, fine…" Joe said coming up the steps. The music started and he began to sing.
I finally asked you to dance
On the last slow song
Beneath that moon that was really a disco ball
I can still feel my head on your shoulder
And hoping that song would never be over
I haven't seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself
Wondering where you are
For me you'll always be 18
And beautiful and dancin' away with my heart
I brushed your curls back so I could see your eyes
And the way you moved me was like you were reading my mind
I can still feel you lean into kiss me
I can't help but wonder if you ever miss me
I haven't seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself
Wondering where you are
For me you'll always be 18
And beautiful and dancin' away with my heart
You headed off to college
At the end of that summer and we lost touch
I guess I didn't realize even at that moment we lost so much
I haven't seen you in ages
Sometimes I find myself
Wondering where you are
For me you'll always be 18
And beautiful and dancin' away with my heart
Nah nah nah Nah nah nah Nah nah nah
Away with My Heart
Everyone cheered, and clapped, adam let out a whistle,
Getting back into the car Joe wanted to break down right there, but he knew he couldn't Tommy was still on cloud 9 from the party and didn't acknowledge his hurt state, and kept babbling on about Sauli and Adam. Finally Joe snapped and said "Tommy can you just shut up…"He snapped. Tommy fell silent, he wasn't expecting that, never the less he listened, and closed his mouth, the rest of the ride was held in a slightly awkward silence. They got to the hotel a little while later it's the one that everyone was staying at. Adam and Sauli decided to not go on a honeymoon just yet, they wanted to wait until Adam's new album dropped, so they would be staying in Europe for a few extra days, flying over to London, and then going back home. They were staying in the penthouse at the top while lucky Isaac and Sophie were staying almost directly underneath them and Monte and Lisa and the kids at the other end of their hallway,and both Tommy and Joe at the other end of floor. As soon as they got into the room Tommy began to praise Joe.
"You did it baby, you did it, do you made it through." No…no he didn't he tried and he failed, he didn't do anything, Joe went over to the bed and began to sob, Tommy's mood changed in a matter of seconds.
"What's wrong baby?"
"I'm sorry T-Tommy…I'm sorry I-I'm n-not enough…I'm sorry." He began to cry harder, his words were jumbled together, or saturated.
"What are you talking about."
"I-I'm not over him, I'm not…I tried, I really did, and I didn't want to ruin their wedding, so I-I was quiet."
"Shh, honey what's wrong?"
"I don't love you as much as I should I don't and you don't deserve that, I love you so much, but I can't love you as much as I love Adam, it would be too much to ask of you to stay any longer, so go…just leave… and don't come back for me I'm not worth your time…" Joe said tearfully.
"Shhh, honey no… no I was so selfish to do that to you I love you and I'm sorry…that was so unfair to do that to you…I will wait for you."
"No don't I'm not worth it!"
"Yes you are…you so are."
"No…no I'm not…"
"Why don't you think you are?"
"Because It's simple I'm not…"
"Than let me show you…you are," Tommy said looking deep into Joe's mocha tear swimming colored eyes.
Joe looked at him, he saw trust, and love. Kissing him deeply he trailed his fingeres up underneath his shirt, kissing him deeply and lovingly, pushing him down on the bed he fumbled with the belt, kissing his lips he pulled back releasing the belt buckle, and stripping Joe of his shirt, thougTommy looked at Joe and kissed him again, as he saw the male was uncomfortable.
"I'm so sorry Tommy."
"Shhh," He hushed the man by covering his lips over Joe's and unbuttoning his shirt pulling it off of him.
"Tommy…"
"Shhh, Don't speak, I can make this good for you…" Tommy said kissing him lovingly, taking Joe's pants off he slipped off his own as well, and his sports beater. Kissing down his neck he sucked on his sweet spot, a hickey forming he was beautiful and sexy sprawled out like this, his eyes glazed over. He was everything that Tommy could ever dream of and more. Tommy trailed kisses down his chest, reaching his boxer briefs, he was big, Adam had been a lucky man.
"Can I see you?" Tommy asked him. Joe nodded. taking the back of his head and grinding his front into Tommy's face a bit.
"Patients baby." Tommy said slipping his hands underneath the waistband pulling down the briefs, and kissing his pelvic creases, right on the legs, and kissing his shaft lightly he toyed with head. Joe moaned and threw his head back from the stimulation of the hole.
"OH FUCK!" Joe said as Tommy put his mouth overt it.
"Oh Shit! That's so good! Ahhhh! Oh Ahhhh! That's it Tommy! Oh yeah! That's it more! More! Shit! "Joe was writhing underneath him as he sucked harder.
"You taste amazing baby." Tommy said.
"I can't, I can't, I can't not much longer…" Joe begged.
"Then let go…cum…cum…I said cum!" Tommy demanded, and he did. Hard. Tommy jerked him off through aftershocks.
"I love you so much, do you believe me?"
"Not quite yet…" Joe said.
"Take me…" He whispered to Tommy.
"Fuck me, take me all of me…I love you…"
"Okay…are you sure?"
"Yes, but this has to be forever, I can't get hurt again."
"I would never…" Tommy kissed him again, and looked up at kissed him, a warm and loving kiss.
"I'm gonna prep you do you have any condoms on you?" Tommy asked.
"Second drawer." Joe told him. "Came prepared, just in case." He said breathlessly.
Tommy grabbed the lube and slicked his fingers up.
"How long has it been?" Tommy asked.
"Since anyones done me? I'd say year and a half…before I was deployed." Joe said to Tommy as he heard the cap close. Joe shivered as he felt his finger circle around the hole.
"Unclench sweetie, or this isn't gonna work." Tommy smiled as he felt Joe loosen himself up. He let his finger slide in gently, moving slowly.
"Are you ready for another?"
"Yeah… one more."
"That's it honey." Tommy said as Joe began to moan. Tommy scissored his opening with his two fingers. Joe pushed back onto them
"So good, fuck… harder, again, fuck!" Joe said to Tommy. Tommy complied, he got 4 fingers successfully into him, before whispering.
"Are you ready for me?"
"Yeah…" Joe said kissing him and smiling. Tommy. Tommy slowly moved into him, kissing him softly and spooning him, moving in and out of him, slowly and gently, heat radiating throughout the ordeal. Joe tugged on Tommy's hair whimpering softly, and kissing him hard. The lovemaking was fierce, and full of love and passion. Tommy flipped Joe back over and kissed him once more before nestling back down next to him, wrapping Joe's strong muscular arms around him and falling asleep. Joe looked at the man in his arms, he knew that this was the way he wanted it to be forever, but still, he felt as if something wasn't right. He just couldn't put his finger on it. He loved Tommy with all his heart and soul, but there was this dull ache, that still was there, he didn't know how, or when it would ever heal. Or even if it would.