Disclaimer: I do not own the Sons of Anarchy or its characters but I do own my OC's.
Chapter Twenty Seven
I kept hearing an annoying beeping sound in my sleep, I couldn't get my thoughts straight I wasn't sure if I had a horrible nightmare or if it was reality. The last thing I think I remember was being shot and seeing my mother and brother kneeling over me. My eye lids felt too heavy to open so I tried to bring one of my hands to my face but it felt like something was weighting it down. When I finally open my eyes I saw that I was in a hospital room and I started to panic, I looked down to see why my hand wouldn't move and that's when I saw Juice sitting in a chair leaning forward with his head beside me holding my hand in his under his head.
I gave his hand a squeeze. "Juan Carlos." I said to him in a low raspy voice but he didn't move.
I didn't realize we weren't alone until Chibs spoke. "Juicy wake up." He said hitting Juice on the back as he got up and came closer to me. "Lass are ya ok, do ya need me ta get ya something."
"Jess you're awake." Juice practically screamed as he let my hand go to hit the nurse's call button but grabbed it again once he was done. That's when I saw his other arm in a sling.
I looked between the two tired faces but I didn't see Happy. "Where's Happy?" I asked as I coughed and felt excruciating pain in my stomach, I brought my free hand to my stomach where it hurt. "What happen, is my baby ok?" I asked as I started to panic again.
Just then Tara came running in to my bed side. "Jess your heart rate is spiking, I need you to calm down." She said in a worried tone.
"She asked about Happy then she coughed and started to panic." Juice said to her. "She wants to know what happen and how the baby is." He said looking straight at her.
As I looked between them all, I saw it in their faces something was wrong. "Tara please tell me my baby is ok." I said still panicking and holding my stomach. "Please Tara tell me what's going on?"
"Jess let me get Dr. Williams so he can check everything out and as soon as Happy is here we can all talk."
"No I need to know now."
"Jess there is no easy way to tell you this, I was hoping to do this when Happy was here." she said rubbing my arm. "You were shot in your lower abdomen and the bullet punctured the placenta, we did everything we could to save the baby but it wasn't….."
I cut her off before she could finish. "No don't say it; I don't want to hear it." I screamed at her and yanked my arm away from her and my hand out of Juices hand. "GET OUT! ALL OF YOU GET OUT!"
"Jess I don't want to leave you." Juice said as he tried to grab my hand but I yanked it away again and winced from the pain it caused when my body jostled from it.
"I SAID GET OUT ALL OF YOU NOW!" I screamed as tears started to roll down my face. "Please just leave." I said softly this time because my throat felt dry and it hurt.
"Guys let's give her some time alone." Tara said motioning to the door. "Jess just hit the call button if you need anything." She said softly to me as she followed Juice and Chibs out of the room.
When I was alone I completely fell apart holding my stomach, I couldn't hear the words come out of her mouth or have anyone say them out loud to me. I didn't want to believe it, I just wanted to cry and wish my baby was still here with me. The door to my room slowly creaked open and Phil stuck his head in.
"Tara asked me if I could bring you some fresh water." He said showing the cup and pitcher in his hands and I nodded my head to him. He walked over and put the pitcher on the tray and handed me the cup. "Doc if ya need me, I'll be outside the door."
"You don't have to stay here." I said as he turned away and I saw he had his top rocker and reaper. "I see you patched."
"Yeah I did and I want to stay so if ya need me I'll be out there." He said walking out.
"Phil can I ask you something?" he came back in and looked at me. "Who did this to me?"
"Let me go get Juice, he should be the one to answer that." He said but I stopped him.
"No I don't want to see any of them right now, you answer me."
"Doc it was Leslie Jacobs." I felt my heart drop when he said her name. "Hap took care of it though."
"Where is he…. No don't answer that it doesn't matter because he's not here with me where he should be."
"Doc he's should be here soon." Phil said and I could hear the hope in his voice.
"I don't want anyone in here I don't care who it is, call Jax and tell him I said to keep everyone away from me." I said turning my head to look out the window a few seconds later I heard the door close.
I stood there looking out the window for a while silently crying to myself when the door open again. I didn't bother looking to see who came in. "I don't want anyone in here so just leave."
"Dr. Ortiz I can't leave until I check you over and make sure everything is fine." Dr. Williams said as he walked over to the bed and I turned to face him. "Let me check all your vitals."
"Can you bring my baby back?" I asked and he shook his head no. "Then everything is not fine!"
"Jessica you're young and we repair the damage you can still have kids. Don't let this baby's dea…"
"Don't fucking say another word to me!" I snapped at him and his eyes went wide. "Do what you came in here to do and then leave." I said to him looking back out the window.
I knew that by snapping on everyone it wasn't going to do me any good but I didn't care. The rest of my morning basically went the same; apparently my request to have no one here was being ignored. Gemma came to try and talk sense into me, as she put it, but I didn't want to hear her so after realizing I wasn't going to listen she left. Juice tried to come in again after Gemma left wanting to tell me something about our ma but I just flipped out on him until he left again. Phil managed to keep one person away from me and that was my ma, I was grateful for that because the last thing I was in the mood for was her shit talking about how I should have never came back here. I didn't need her telling me something I already knew and regretted. Had I just stood away from Charming and moved to Oakland things might have been different for me and I wouldn't be here mourning the loss of my baby. I was snapped out of my thoughts when I heard Happy's voice outside my door and I quickly shut my eyes.
"Hap she doesn't want anyone in there with her." Phil said to him like he had said to everyone that came here and very few listened and I knew Happy would be one not to.
"Get the fuck out of my way, I'm going in there so if ya don't want to make a trip down stairs get out of my fucking way." I heard Happy say to him and the door open and closed again. I felt his hand move the hair from my face and kiss my forehead, I couldn't keep the tear that slipped past my closed eye lid from falling and I felt him wipe it away with his thumb. "Jess open your eyes, I know you're awake."
"Please I just want to be left alone." I said in a low voice still holding my eyes closed.
"I ain't leaving so just open your fucking eyes." He snapped at me.
I snapped my eyes open and glared at him. "There my fucking eyes are open now get the hell out." I turned to look out the window again hoping he would leave.
"I told you I ain't fucking leaving." He said grabbing my chin and forcing me to look at him as he sat on the bed next to me.
"Why? You were able to leave me here last night." I snapped back at him. "When I opened my eyes it should have been you sitting here not my brother."
"I had to make sure something like this would never happen again." He said letting my chin go. "Jess I had to eliminate the problem."
"You don't have to worry about that because I will not make the same mistakes twice." I snapped at him. "So something like that won't happen again."
By this point my machines start to go crazy, Tara and a nurse came running in but both came to a halt when they saw Happy sitting there. "I'll take care of this." Tara said to the nurse and she left. "Jess you have to calm down your heart rate and blood pressure is starting to spike on us again."
"Tell him to leave." I snapped at her and turned back to Happy. "I want to be alone."
He just stood there glaring at me. "Jess you know he won't leave. You have been refusing to talk with anyone all day; maybe the two of you can work through this together." Tara said looking at me with pity in her eyes.
"Fine you want me to talk here it is." I said pushing myself up to sit straighter and wincing from the pain it caused, Happy and Tara both moved forward to help me but I stopped them. "Don't touch me. I had the perfect day yesterday, I talked with friends about my baby then I got to take a ride to see a beautiful sunset on the side of a cliff with the man I loved." I looked up at Happy and saw the hurt in his eyes but I continued anyways. "On our way home I thought I was going to spend a peaceful night in his arms but I guess that wasn't the case but that's never the case in this life." I said wiping away the tears that started to fall. "Instead I fine my mother standing there desperate to talk to me, when I finally give in to her I open the door to my home and get shot. The next thing I know is I wake up here hoping it was nightmare but I find out that it's not and my baby is DEAD." That was the first time I heard and said those words and they felt like a knife ripping me open.
"Jess you don't have to do this." Tara said as she went to rub my arm and I pulled away.
"You wanted me to talk; I'm talking so shut up and listen because this time it doesn't have to be bullied out of me." I said glaring at her. "The one person that should have been here for me when I found out that our baby was dead was nowhere around, he was too busy to be bothered with it." I snapped looking back over at Happy.
"You have no fucking idea what was going through my head." He snapped at me as he stood up. "I was torn between being here with you and going to kill every person that could come after you to hurt you. When I came to my fucking senses I tried to get back here as quick as I could, I wanted to be here when you opened your eyes. I rode as fast as I could!"
"You want to know something ironic, you wanted nothing to do with this baby in the beginning but yet you and your club had everything to do with the ending of its life." I said in a calm unemotional voice.
"You bitch that was my kid too, FUCK YOU!" he snapped as he stormed out of the room slamming the door behind him.
"Jess, why would you say something like that to him?" Tara said to me with a shocked look on her face. "He is hurting just as much as you are."
"I found my out and I'm taking it." I said to her and her jaw dropped. She stood there for few more minutes until she realized I was not going to say anything else then she left.
I spent the next week in the hospital with very few visitors, at night when they thought I was sleeping Happy or Juice would come up and sit in the room and leave before the sun came up. When I had time to think alone I realized that it was wrong for me to say that to him and it hurt more knowing that I hurt him. I didn't complain about Phil or the prospects sitting outside my door because they kept my ma away from me. I was finally getting out today and Tara convinced me to let one of the guys take me home so Chibs was waiting in the hall while Tara helped me get dress. When I was dressed Tara stepped out to get a wheelchair and Chibs came in and stood quiet next to the wall staring out into the hall.
"I'm not going to bite your head off for talking to me." I said softly to him because we haven't spoken to each other since I kicked him and Juice out my room.
"I'm just here ta take ya home; I think ya said enough on how ya feel about all of us." He said in a voice that meant the conversation was over so I just sat there quiet.
"Jess I want you to relax for the first few days, don't do a lot of walking." Tara said walking back in the room pushing a wheelchair. "Lyla or I will come by and help you out and if you can stay down stairs for the first few days it would be better for you."
"Ok." I said to her as she helped me into the chair. "Tara I'm sorry for snapping so much at you while I was here."
"Don't worry about that, I know you were going through a lot." She said as she pushed the wheelchair out and down the hall. "Chibs, Lyla is going to be at the house in a couple of hours so can just make sure Jess has what she needs until then."
"Aye." He said not even turning to look at us.
When we came out I saw Gemma's SUV parked behind the tow truck and she climbed out when she spotted us walking out. "Chibs put her in my car, that damn tow truck is too bumpy for her right now." she said as she opened the passenger door.
Tara leaned down to my ear and whispered. "Sorry I didn't know she was going to be here."
"It's ok, I knew she would show her face soon enough I might as well just get this over with." I said to her in low voice and she gave me a small smile.
Chibs helped me into Gemma's SUV, to my surprise we didn't talk all the way to my house. I knew there was going to be repercussion for the things I said but I didn't think I was going to get the complete cold shoulder from everybody. I should have just called a cab to get home rather than go through this. When we pulled up to the house Chibs came over to help me out and Gemma walked up to the house with me because Chibs went ahead of us and pulled Happy's keys out of his pocket and went in first after a few moments he came back to the door and nodded so Gemma lead me in.
"Chibs help her get comfortable I'm going to go upstairs to get her a pillow and blanket." Gemma said walking away from us.
Just as I sat down the doorbell rang and I looked towards the door. "I got it just sit back." Chibs said to me as he walked away. "No ya ain't coming in, she just got home and don't need ya shit right now." I heard him say before the other person had a chance to speak.
"Just give me few moments then I'll leave." I heard my ma say. "I need to make sure she's ok, your goons wouldn't let me near her in the hospital. You can stay, I won't upset her."
Chibs looked back at me and I nodded my head yes. He stepped to the side and she walked in slowly. "Ya upset 'er I will throw ya out myself." He said as she walked past him.
"Jessica how are you feeling?" she asked as she came to hug me but I put my hands up to stop her.
"I'm ok, why haven't you gone back to New York?" I asked her.
"I need to tell you something before I can leave." She said sitting next to me.
"What the hell is this bitch doing here?" Gemma snapped when she came down the steps.
"What the hell am I doing here this is my daughter." ma snapped at her as she stood up. "Do you think just because you're fucking Neron you can replace me?"
My jaw dropped when she said that and Gemma just smirked at her. "Hey I said I didn't want da lass upset so ya better relax." Chibs snapped looking at the both of them.
"Wait a minute what the hell does Nero have to do with things?" I asked now feeling confused.
"Everything Jessica that's why I needed to talk with you." My ma said looking down at me.
"NO! This is not da time for this shit!" Chibs yelled at her. "It's time for ya ta leave."
"She has the right to know that he is her father." She yelled back at him but then suddenly everyone was quiet and looked at me. "No that wasn't supposed to come out like that, Jessica I was trying….."
I cut her off. "You're telling me that Neron Padilla is my father." She nodded her head yes. "And you knew this all this time. I asked you over and over again who he was and every time you would tell me you didn't know. Does Juan Carlos know this?"
"Jessica I had my reasons for not telling you." She said in a pleading voice. "He's just your father; your brother knows who his father is."
"You lying bitch." I screamed at her as I quickly got up and doubled over in pain. Her hands came out to help me just as Gemma came around to help also; I grabbed Gemma's hand and looked up at my ma. "Why after all these years you decide now I should know who he is?"
"I don't know how you two crossed paths and I wanted to be the one to tell you." She said in a soft voice.
"So if he didn't come here you would have never told me even though you knew?" she shook her head no. "And you wonder why I wouldn't stay with you in New York, if you told the truth once in your life things could have been different with us."
"You want the truth; this would not have happened if you would have stayed in New York." She said as she started to walk away. "That baby died because of the decisions you made in life that's why I kept you away from your father so you would have a chance to live."
"GET OUT OF MY HOUSE NOW! I screamed at her as I squeezed Gemma's hand because of the pain I was in from the scream.
"Jess breathe slowly." Gemma said as she rubbed my back.
"Get da fuck outta here now." Chibs snapped at her as the tears rolled down my face. "Ya have no idea how much I want ta silence dat gaping hole in your face right now." he said in a very scary tone pointing at her mouth.
She didn't say another word, she just quickly left and Chibs turned to face me and Gemma. "Baby girl don't listen to her." Gemma said in soft voice as she helped me lay down on the couch and Chibs walked away.
"Gemma she's right. This is my fault." I said as Chibs came back and handed me two pain pills and a glass of water. "You know what I'm just going to get some sleep."
"Jessica Ortiz this is not your fault, don't ever think that way. Do you want to talk about what she said about Nero?" I shook my head no. "Ok, Lyla will be here soon, if you need anything just call us." She said putting my pre-paid down on the table next to me. "We're going to send the prospect here to sit with you until she gets here."
"No I don't want any prospects here, don't send anyone here to sit with me." I said as I slowly sat up. "If any of them come here I will have them removed." I said in stern voice.
Chibs just shook his head at me and walked out the house. "Jessica Happy wants someone watching you." Gemma said standing at the end of the couch.
"I don't care what Happy wants, I don't want anyone with a cut here."
"That's not a smart move sweetheart." Gemma said to me as she walked out the door.
I got up slowly and walked to the door and locked it, when I turned back I looked around the room and noticed that the room had been repainted. I walked to the kitchen and saw there was a new door and the kitchen had also been repainted. I grabbed a bottle of water from the refrigerator and went to laid back down, I felt so drain that once my head hit the pillow I fell asleep. I don't know how long I was asleep for but I did notice that it was now dark and someone was pounding on the door. I slowly got up turned on a light and went to open the door; Lorca and Kozik were both standing there.
"What do you guys want?" I asked calmly.
"Jess we have been pounding on the door for twenty minutes, Lyla came to the clubhouse and told us you weren't answering the door or your phone." Kozik said as he looked over at Lorca. "Jess, can we come in?"
I moved back opening the door all the way for them to come in. I walked over to the couch and sat back down. "Sweetheart, why didn't you open the door for Lyla?" Lorca asked as he sat on the edge of the couch.
"I must have been in a deep sleep because I didn't hear it or my phone." I said as I tried to get comfortable.
"Do ya mind if we sit with you for a while?" Kozik asked as he rubbed the back of his neck.
"I told Gemma I didn't need a sitter." I said to him as calm as I could.
"That's not why we're here, I haven't seen ya in a while and I just wanted to visit and see how ya were doing?" Lorca said to me.
I knew he was lying but I didn't have the strength to fight with them. "Yeah that's fine, can one of you help out?"
"What did ya need sweetheart?" Lorca asked with a smile.
"I need to go upstairs, I want to wash up and change." They both looked at each other not sure what to say. "Guys all I'm asking is for someone to walk me up not change me." I said shaking my head as I stood up."
"Oh, I'll help ya." Kozik said walking up behind me. "Are ya in a lot of pain still?" Kozik asked as we made our way up.
"It comes and goes." I answered him but as I took the last step I felt a sharp pain and stopped. "Son of bitch."
"What? What's wrong?" Kozik asked nervously.
"Nothing it just hurts a little more than I thought it would." I said walking again and opening the bedroom door. "I'll be out in a few minutes." He nodded his head as I went in and shut the door.
I moved to the dresser to get some shorts out, I went to Happy's dresser to grab one of his tees but when I open the dresser drawer it was empty. I stepped back and looked around the room and that's when I noticed all his stuff was gone. I quickly grabbed my shorts and a tee from my dresser and went into the bathroom and saw all his stuff was gone in there too. I wasn't positive on how to feel about it but I should have seen this coming. When I finished up I opened the door and Kozik stood up straight.
"Feel better now?" he asked and I nodded my head and walked to the stairs. "Would it be easier if I carried you down?"
"That's alright I need to be able to do this on my own." I said as I slowly made my way back down but rather than go back to the couch I went to the kitchen pulled out a beer and opened it.
"Hey what the hell are you doing?" Kozik asked as he tried to take the beer away but I pulled it back. "You're on fucking pain meds ya shouldn't be drinking that." He snapped at me.
"Right now I don't care, I want a beer." I snapped back as I took a drink and Lorca came in to see what was going on as he held his phone to his ear. "If it makes you happy then I won't take the damn pills."
Lorca shook his head and walked back into the living room. "What the hell is with the sudden change in attitude?" Kozik snapped at me.
"You knew he moved out, Why didn't you tell me?" I asked him taking another drink.
"At least fucking sit down." He said pulling out a chair and pointing at it and I shook my head no and leaned back against the counter and held my hand against the incision. "Jess did you really think he was going to stay after what you said to him?"
"No I didn't but why wait for me to find out, why not just tell me?" I asked as I finished the bottle and grabbed another one.
"Don't drink another one." he said moving towards me but I held my hand up as I drank half the bottle. "Did you want me to walk in and say hey how are you doing oh by the way Happy moved out." He snapped at me as we both heard a bike pulling up to the house.
"You know what it doesn't matter, I should have not been surprised." I said looking down at the bottle as I brought it to my lips but then suddenly it was snatched from my hand.
"Why the fuck are you drinking?" Happy snapped as he stepped in front of me. "You just got out of the fucking hospital."
He moved in closer to me glaring down so I tried to push him back but he grabbed both my hands and pulled them down to my side and held them there. "Why are you here?" I asked him.
"Your fucking list of friends is starting to get smaller with the bullshit you're saying and doing." He snapped at me.
"Why does it even matter to you?" I snapped back at him. "I honestly don't care if any of them like me anymore."
"Hap we're going to take off." Lorca came in and said. "Sweetheart I really am sorry this happen to you. I wish things could have been different for ya." Happy nodded at them and they left.
"Maybe it would be better if I just left." I said looking into his eyes for the first time since he got here and seeing the hurt in them. "I think it would be easier for both of us if we didn't see each other."
"Is that what you want?" he asked as he released my hands and stepped back. "You want to run again is that the only thing you know how to fucking do?"
"It's not running if I'm telling you that I'm going to leave." I said as I looked down at my feet. "I need to get away from all this and put my life first."
"So we're done that's what you're telling me right?" he asked rubbing his hand over his bald head. "I ain't got say in any of this."
"Happy you moved out, not just a few things you moved everything." I said looking back up at him. I felt a sharp pain and sucked in a deep breath and closed my eyes trying to breathe through the pain, I must have been standing too long.
"Why don't you sit the hell down." He snapped at me. "If ya weren't fucking drinking ya could've taken some damn pain meds."
"It'll pass and I'll be fine." I snapped back at him. He stepped forward and before I knew what was happening I was in the air being carried to the living room.
He set me on my feet in front of the couch, his eyes moved to my lips and back up to my eyes but before he could move closer I sat down and he growled. "Why the fuck are you pushing everyone away?" he said as calm as he could but I could hear the venom in it as he sat in front of me on the table.
"Why the hell shouldn't I, you said yourself my friends list is getting short. I need a break from all this bullshit!"
"Apparently you made up your mind, I'm the fuck out of here." he leaned forward putting his hands on the couch behind me; the look in his eyes scared me. "If you leave you better not come back this time." He said in a menacing voice.
"If that's how you want it, then I won't." I said trying to move back away from him but he grabbed my chin holding me in my place.
"Sweetheart this is how you want it. I guess your right seeing as it was me and my club that killed the baby, that's how you feel isn't." he said pushing himself off the couch while releasing my chin and left slamming the door behind him.
Of all things for me to say to him, I had to hurt him the most by blaming him for the baby's death I felt so horrible for doing that to him. I sat there feeling my heart break in two and ended up crying myself to sleep right there on the couch, the next morning I woke up to Tara waking me. "Jess wake up." She said and I slowly opened my eyes and saw her and Jax standing there looking at me. "You left your door unlocked all night."
I sat up and felt a cramp in my neck. "I forgot to lock up after Happy left." I said rubbing my neck.
"Darlin' ya gotta let me leave a prospect with ya, so shit like that won't happen." Jax said to me softly.
"That's ok I need to learn to get by on my own." I said as I went to stand up and felt my legs give out a little but Jax caught me.
"You can't be serious about leaving." He said as he steady me on my feet. "You told me you would not do that again."
"Jax things have changed, I love him and always will but I said things to him that I can't take back." I said moving out of his arms. "Maybe I wasn't meant to have my happy ending."
"Jess I know you blame Happy and the club for the baby's death and I don't blame you for feeling that way but leaving is not the answer." Jax said to me.
"I can't just blame Happy and the club it was my fault too." I said and he shook his head no. "Jax it was, if I would have handle Leslie sudden appearance here better than I did then things might have happened differently or if I would have just put my foot down with Lee I would have never had this trouble to start with."
"She was here for revenge how different could it have gone?" Tara cut in saying to me.
"I don't want to talk about this anymore." I said running my hands through my hair. "I know your probably here to yell at me for drinking last night." I said turning towards Tara.
"Yeah I am!" she snapped at me as she opened her bag up and pulled out some gauze. "What the hell were you thinking?"
"I wasn't thinking." I said laying back down and pulled my shirt up as she pulled my shorts down enough to change the gauze I had on. "I don't plan on doing that again so don't worry ok."
"Um ladies do ya want me to leave." Jax said pointing at what we were doing.
"Don't worry you're not getting a peep show." Tara said smiling at Jax. "I'm already almost done."
After we were done Tara talked with me for few more minutes than they left. After that the only visitors I got were Lyla and the kids, Jax was the only Son I saw all day. It's been a week since I got out the hospital and I had to go in today to have my stitches removed. I put on a beige Maxi floor length skirt and black tank top with a pair of flip flops. When I was done getting ready I walked out to my car and saw my brother leaning up against it.
This was the first time I have seen him in two weeks. "What are you doing here? I'm about to leave." I said pointing at the car.
"I know Tara told me you had to go in today to have your stitches removed." He said pushing off the car. "I thought I could drive you." I nodded my head to him and handed my keys over and he opened the passenger door for me.
"How is shoulder?" I asked as he got in the car.
"Good, how have you been?" he asked as he pulled out of the drive.
"I've been getting by." I said as I looked out the window.
The rest of the ride was quiet; he walked me all the way in and sat with me until Dr. Williams came in. Dr. Williams removed the stitches and looked things over and told me I was healing pretty well but I still needed to relax because it was going to be a long recovery. Juice had gone down to wait by the car so I took that as my chance to go talk with Margret to see if she heard from any of the hospitals that I applied at. I had called her a couple of days ago and she was helping me look around, she was surprised that I was leaving but was happy for me and told me that if I ever chose to come back she would have no problem hiring me again. When I was done I went back out to the car and saw Juice standing there with Chibs.
"You ready?" Juice asked as Chibs nodded at him and he got on his bike and left.
"Yeah, if you want I can drop you off at the lot because I noticed you didn't drive yourself to the house." I said to him as we got in and left.
"Nah its ok, someone will pick me up later I want to spend some time with you." He said to me.
"You haven't been around for two weeks, why now?" I had to ask him.
"Jess are you really going to leave again? Where would you go?"
"Juan Carlos I have to leave but it's going to be different this time." I said running my hands over my face. "I'm not going to disappear on you, I will tell you where I'm going and you are more than welcome to come see me whenever you want but I won't come back here."
He stood quiet until we pulled into my driveway and he turned off the car. "Just talk to him I'm sure you two can work this out." He said in pleading voice.
"Juan Carlos it's done, when I was at the hospital before I came back down I spoke with Margret and she found a hospital for me to go to."
"Where?" he said sounding surprised.
"Los Angeles, Cedars Sinai has an opening and they are willing to give me a shot."
"Fuck Jess that's like six hours away." He said shaking his head.
"It was there or Tampa General in Florida. I thought I could at least stay somewhat close." I said grabbing the keys from the ignition and getting out of the car.
We both walked quietly and slowly to the front door, he had his hands shoved in his pocket. Then we heard a bike pull up we both turned to the street and saw Neron climb off and walk towards us. Juan Carlos stepped in front of me and glared at him. "What do you want?" he asked sounding upset I reached forward and grabbed his hand that was now hanging at his side and he squeezed mine once he felt it.
"I just want to speak with Jessica, I gave it time after Angela left to come here but I don't want to wait anymore." He said as he stopped right in front of us. "Just give us a few minutes alone to talk."
"Hell no I ain't leaving her side if she wants to talk with ya that's up to her but I ain't going anywhere!" he snapped as he looked back at me over his shoulder. "Jess what do you want to do?"
"Let's just get this over with but I need to sit down." I said to them as I turned to the door but all of sudden both of their hands reached for mine, Juice glared at Nero and he raised his hands in defense as Juice looked back at me.
"Let me go in first, I couldn't live with myself if that shit happen to you again." He said taking the keys away and standing directly in front of me as he opened the door.
After seeing everything was clear he let me in. We went inside I got a beer for the both of them and grabbed a bottle of water for myself. Juice sat next to me on the couch and Nero sat on the recliner, he told us how he met our ma and that they were living together until I was one and Juice was two but she didn't want us growing up in the biker lifestyle so he left and never looked back again. I though the whole thing was ironic considering were life lead us anyways.
"The first day I met you, you reminded me of my mother and that's why I looked at you the way I did." Nero said to me. "When you gave me your full name at the hospital the next morning I put it all together and that's when I called Angela and asked her about you."
"What I don't understand is why was it so easy for you to walk away?" I asked him.
"It wasn't easy, I called but your mom wouldn't let me have any contact with you."
Juice and I were a little stunned. "I need some time to absorb all this." I said standing up. "I just want to spend some time with my brother."
"I understand all I ask is that you give me a chance." He said standing up and walked to the door. "Juice I know this shit is lot for you too and I ain't here to step on anyone's toes." They just nodded at each other and he left.
Juice and I spent the rest of the day laying around my living room like we use to do in New York. When it got dark I was laying on the couch and he was on the floor watching TV. "Hey you know I'm fine staying here alone if you want to live I understand." I said looking down at him.
"When do you plan on leaving?" he asked ignoring what I said to him.
"I'm supposed to be there in two weeks, I'll be on lite duty because of my injuries but they said it was better that way so I could adjust to things there." I said laying back to look up at the ceiling. "I just need to find a place to stay out there."
"I really wish you wouldn't leave, why can't you try and get in at the hospital in Stockton where it's closer?"
"Juan Carlos I'll stay in touch this time." I said looking over at him. "I promise."
"Would you stay if Happy asked you?" he asked looking up at me.
"I don't know. Let's finish watching the movie." I said trying to end the conversation.
"Do you want to talk about what Nero said?"
"No I don't, I understand she asked him to leave but he could have manned up and stood for me anyways. I do have a question for you though, Ma said you know who your father is, was she telling me the truth."
"Jess I don't want to talk about that." He said turning away from me, I didn't want to push him so I left it alone for now.
We ended the conversation with that and soon later I fell asleep on the couch and he fell asleep on the floor. The next two weeks went by pretty quick with only one Son coming to my house and that was my brother. Tara and Lyla came by almost every day just to hang out and I was happy that my ties with them weren't severed when I pulled away from the club. I had found a small one bedroom apartment a few streets away from the hospital and planned on leaving here in a few days. I was out doing some errands when I ran into Gemma, I tried to dodge her but she spotted me and quickly made her way over.
"What's this shit I'm hearing about you moving away?" she said to me with an attitude.
"What does it matter it's not like anyone cares what I do?" I said looking away from her.
"Is that what you think, you have no idea what this has done to quite a few of them guys." She said grabbing my arm so I would look at her. I glared at her and she let me go but had a smirk on her face. "Jessica, Happy has been completely reckless and Juice is so worried that you're making a mistake."
"I told Juice that he is always welcome to come see me, it's just a six hour ride away." I said running my hand through my hair. "I have no control over Happy so I don't know what you want me to do about him being reckless; Jax is his president let him take care of Happy."
"Damn they are right your ass is just as stubborn as I am." She said smirking at me. "Come by my house in an hour."
"For what?" I was quick to ask her.
"If you're going all the way to fucking LA then I want to make sure you have protection and Juice told me that you had him take all the guns out of the house." I shook my head no but she continued. "I know how you feel about guns right now but at least do it so your brother would feel better."
"Fine, I'll be there in an hour but I can't stay long I got a lot of shit to get done." She nodded her head and walked away.
I had feeling she was up to no good but I knew there was no arguing with her because she'd fight until she got her way. An hour later I got to her house and everything seemed normal, I didn't see any bikes but the black van was parked there. I sat there a few minutes debating if I should go in, I sucked in a deep breath and walked to the door and rang the bell.
"Hello Jessica, she's in the dining room." Neeta said opening the door all the way so I could enter. "Go right in."
I walked into the dining room and saw Happy standing there with Gemma; I quickly turned to walk out right when Chibs was coming in so I stopped again. "Damn it Gemma!" I said turning back to her and saw Happy glaring at her. "What are you trying to do?"
"I gotta go." Happy said as he started to walk towards me. "I got shit to do."
"BOTH OF YOU NEED TO STOP AND FUCKING LISTEN!" she yelled causing him to stop moving. "You're really going to just let her leave?" she asked looking at him.
"That's what she fucking does." He said looking over at me. "I ain't stopping her she wants out she fucking got it."
"Why the hell are you two talking like I'm not fucking standing here?" I snapped at them. "Gemma I came because you wanted to give me a gun for protection but if you have some kind of intervention going, I 'm leaving then."
"Why don't you ask him where his bike is?" Gemma said looking over at Happy who was now glaring at her again. "Tell her Killer what happen to your bike."
"I fucking wrecked it." he said staring at her.
"Oh my god what happen?" I said sounding very concerned. "When did this happen are you ok?"
"Don't worry about me, don't you got some packing or some shit to do?" he said to me with an attitude.
"You know what you're right." I said running my fingers through my hair. "Gemma I gotta go it was nice seeing you, I hope to see you one more time before I leave if I don't thank you for everything you did for me and despite the way I have been towards everyone lately I really do love all of you." Before anyone could respond I turned and quickly walked out the door.