NCIS:

TONY, I WOULD LIKE YOU TO MEET...

DISCLAIMBER:

NCIS and characters do not belong to me.

SUMMARY:

A few days after Kate Todd's funeral, Tony dose something and now it's been a little over seven years. What happened in the past comes back to him...with a shock! What did Tony do and why would it come back to him now? Little TIVA, MCABBY and maybe a love interest for Leroy Jethro Gibbs

CHAPTER 4: A LETTER FOR, TONY...

A CAFE...TONY, JESSIE AND MS. HOLDEN...

"I was asked by Jessie's foster mother, Colleen to give this to you. She said that it was Keely's way to explain everything." Ms. Holden said as Tony took the envelope addressed to him.

Figuring it was safe to open it; he pulled out the letter and began to read.

Tony was furious that the women had kept his own daughter from him. If he had known he would have been there.

He looked at the letter and began to read:

Tony,

I know you do not remember me or probably even the night we spent together, since I was gone by the time you woke up.

We were both upset and drowning our sorrows that night.

I came over to you, because you looked like you could use someone to talk to. We talked and I guessed you had just lost someone special, you confirmed you had, never telling me her name.

It was clear though how special she was to you and I guessed you had never got a chance to tell her before she died.

We were talking and then you asked why we were talking about you. You asked what my story was.

So I told you two months before I had lost the only family I had left...my little brother. He had been killed by a drunk driver when he went out with his friends to celebrate his 18th birthday.

I told you about my brother being the only family I had left, that my mom and dad died in a plane crash five years.

How my dad had been an only child and so had my mom. My mom's parents and my dad's parents had died when I was a kid.

Since I had told you about my family I asked about yours...

You told me about your family. You said something about losing your mom when you were really young, the sort of relationship you had with your dad.

Then mentioned you had a sort of adopted family with your Co-Workers at NCIS. By this time you had already told me what NCIS stood for.

While we had been talking about our families and by the time we were done we had finished the last of our drinks. I was done drinking now and I guess you decided you had enough to drink as well.

We left the bar...

The next thing I remember is waking up the next morning in your bed; I left and never contacted you again.

It was a little over a month later I found out I was pregnant. I counted back and figured out it had been the night I had spent with you, because you were the only one I slept with at that time.

I was scared at first and didn't know what to do. I didn't think I could come up with the courage or a way to tell you, because I was sure you wouldn't remember that night.

I knew from the start I was going to keep the baby and raise him or her, because I didn't know the sex of the baby yet. I knew there would come a day that either I would finally get up the courage to tell you or our child would find a way into your life.

Well, I guess both things happened at the same time.

I found out just two months ago I had Breast Cancer, but it was already too far for any treatment to work and there was nothing the doctors could do.

When I found out I was pregnant, I told my friend Colleen about that night and told her what I remembered...not that I remembered that much.

The memories came to me later...over time. For some reason your name seemed to be the only possibility I could think of...maybe it was because your last name was different from any other one that I had heard...

I don't know.

Four years ago Colleen became a foster mother and when we found out about the cancer, she took Jessie in. I reminded her of what I had told her, when I found out about Jessie.

I gave her your name, so you could be found and in hopes that you would be found.

I am giving Colleen this letter so now you will know the truth, behind my decision, about that night and about Jessie.

I'm sorry for keeping Jessie from you and letting being scared as an excuse...

Though that is no real excuse...for not telling you sooner,

I should have told you so you could be there from the beginning to watch as our little girl grew up.

There are a bunch of home movies, a baby book and photo albums from the time Jessie was born and everything important that...because of me, you missed out on.

I know it will not be the same; it should help you to get to know her a little better though.

I can tell you one thing...you will probably get tired of watching Jessie's favorite movie.

The Little Mermaid

Now you have a chance to get to know her and you are the only family she has left.

I hope that you and your adopted family will be able to raise her into a very good person...that she will one day become.

Jessie has always asked about you and I have had no idea what to tell her. I have explained that she will be meeting you soon.

I have also told her about my dying. I hope you and your adopted NCIS family will be able to help her cope...to understand better.

I told her though I will not be able to be there for her, I will always be watching over her.

Now as the days go by I am getting weaker and more tired, I know I do not have much time left.

So now I would like to say again...

How sorry I am about denying you and Jessie your relationship from the beginning.

Take care of her and remind her that I will always love her.

Keely Ann Doyle

TONY'S P.O.V.

I reached the end of the letter and looked up at Ms. Holden.

"This does tell me a little bit and tells me that she was..." I stopped; because Jessie was sitting right there and I didn't want her to hear me anything says badly about her mother.

Jessie had just been through so much and I knew it was hard on her.

Losing her mother...

Living in foster care with a friend of her mother's...

Trying to get the idea she would never see her mother again...

And then

Meeting me...the father that she didn't know,

It was a lot for a five year old to take in, but she seemed to be handling it.

Soon lunch was finished and we headed back to Ms. Holden's office to get started on the paperwork.

I told her that I would have to find a place big enough for me and Jessie and set up a room for Jessie.

Through everything Jessie was silent and cried a little more.

I tried to comfort her, but I was a stranger and everything seemed to be happening so fast.

While I found a place and got everything Jessie would need...she would continue to live with Colleen in her foster home where she was comfortable.

I found that since Colleen had been there from the time that Jessie was born, Jessie thought of her like an aunt.

I knew the best thing was to let them stay in touch.

Finally everything was settled, Jessie was falling asleep. So I watched as Ms. Holden took her back to Colleen's house.

Then I headed home myself, to begin my search for a new place to live and get to work on getting everything Jessie would need.

I have a few hours still, before Ziva got off work and then I'll be able to go talk to her.