Warning in advance! Liddle bit of negative thinking at the end of the chapter, including aggressive behaviour, reference to rape

then reference to sex in middle in a small paragraph.

I marked where the rape bit starts at the end, so you can skip over it if you want :')

Stephenie Meyer owns Twilight and I own the plot.

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BPOV

When I arrived to school on Monday, the first thing I saw was Raoul's car. The thing blinded me whenever I walked past, it was so shiny. I walked past, having not seen Raoul inside the car, and I walked with Alice to the benches, where we sat with our friends until the bell went. The bench was slightly wet from the rain last night, so I shared Alice's jacket to sit on with her.

"Bella, I hear you went to Raoul's Saturday." Angela looked at me sceptially. Why is everyone so pissed about this?

"Yeah, I did. It was lots of fun. I met his Dad, who is a huge fan of Phil's." I said, annoyed. I felt that the only thing holding me back anymore from dating Raoul was my friends. They will never accept him as one of them! It was so frustrating! Angela nodded, looking guilty. I stood my ground, looking at her, with my face blank.

She gave in "Look, I'm sorry I haven't been as forgiving as you about Raoul, but you just seem that you would just jump for the guy who almost took advantage of you incapability of thinking straight! You know that we all think this, even the guys. We just don't want you to get hurt, but i'm sure we are willing to try to be okay with this, if this is what you really want. We won't stop you." Ben was about to say something, but she covered his mouth and smiled at me.

I laughed. "That's all I really want really. I've gotten to know him better, and he has had a tough life before him. You remember how me and Alice were like after the holiday, well you accepted us as we changed, so pleas accept Raoul as he changes. Don't judge people from their past." They all nodded, and I grinned happily. Yay! Now all that needed to happen was for this date to go well.

"Okay then! Alice, I need your help. Raoul is taking me out tonight and I need your expertise to tranform me into a goddess." Alice grinned, and I knew I had gotten into her. I need to get a hint as to where Raoul was taking me tonight, otherwise I may get a bit too dressed up.

"As in, a date?" Alic must be happy I have properly gotten over Edward, and found someone else. I was glad she didn't feel my pain anymore.

In Biology, I had a paper conversation with Raoul.

Raoul

Yes?

What should I wear tonight?

Um...wear something nice. Not too glamorous, like at the party, but not too casual. Ask your sister. She'll know what I mean ;)

Alright then ;) can I get any hints to tonight?

erm...no :) But i will get a kiss at the end ;)

And you're so sure about that?

Yep

We'll see.

Raoul grinned and so did I. He grabbed my hand and throughout the lecture we didn't let go.

It was planned that Raoul picked me up at 8pm. I had Alice do her magic. She chose a pain white top with black shorts which had strap on them, like dungarees. Then she added a patterned black blazer jacket on top. She had me wear plain black tights to keep me warm and lace up heels.

"Okay...hair up or down?" I didn't even bother answering, but was glad when she left it down. Raoul said he liked my ringlets left loose. When Alice had done my makeup, we heard the bell go. Just in time.

I opened the door to see Raoul looking down. He looked up at me, and obviously checked me out, to which I blushed. He beamed and gave me a hug and a peck on the cheek.

"Mmm. You smell lovely" Raoul smiled. "And look beautiful." I blushed again.

Raoul called in the direction of upstairs. "Thanks Alice!" I turned and saw Alice poke her head out from the stairway, grinning like an idiot.

"No problemo!" She smirked and dashed off. I then smiled back at Raoul and looked at his lips. He caught on and then we were kissing. I was just getting into it when I saw a flash go off. We parted to see Alice run off, camera in hand. I sighed and pulled Raoul outside into the cold air. He led me to his car and was a gentleman again, opening the door for me first. I whispered a 'thank you' as I got in. As he drove, we talked about everything but where we were going, as I knew he wanted it to be a surprise.

"I did get a blindfold fr you to wear, to add the suspense to it. Raoul started, glancing at me "But I don't want to spoil Alice's work."

I laughed, shaking my head. "We don't want Alice to be disappointed, do we?"

We continued driving for about half an hour, and I knew we had reached the boundaries of our town. He parked next to a lane, and he helped me out of the car and walk down the lane in my heels. How sweet. When we had walked for about five minutes, I saw the place. Raoul had made a night-time picnic, in the park. With candle light and a basket on a bench with table top, it looked so romantic. I looked at him and kissed him deeply. When we ran out f breath he whispered:

"I'm glad you like it."

He led me towards the picnic and we both sat down opposite each other.

"I have wine, orange juice, cranberry juice, water and blackcurrant and apple juice?"

"Wine, please" He poured us both two glasses of wine. I took a sip and sat it down on the table.

"Starters, we have...Melon!" I burst out laughing. How romantic. We ate that all up quickly. The melon had been cut into chunks, and we ate them with a fork. The main course was spaghetti bolognese, with grated cheese.

"I may not be the best cook, but I make a darn good spag bol!" he joked. I smiled at him, watching as he served our meal. Good job I brought mints. Keep my breath fresh for later. He wasn't wrong. The main course was brilliant. I'd have to watch him make spaghetti bolognese soon to grab the recipe. He could teach it me. We talked about nothing amazing. Random bits of our lives, our favourite what-nots and what's going on with us right now. I complimented the chef, of course, and he blushed. N'awh!

"okay, I'm not as good with the desert, so I bought this tonight from the supermarket nearby." He took out form the basket some fruit, and also some icecream. Ben and Jerry's YES! My favourite! It was cookie dough, too, in the larger tub. I beamed as he set it down, with two spoons, and he looked at me daringly.

"Wait, we are sharing, right? No challenge, mister!" I smirked and grabbed the lid, pulling the lid off. It had softened to just right- I took a spoon and savoured the taste. We both finished the tub- I'd have to go for another jog soon... and then Raoul cleared everything up. He walked me back to his car and took me home. In the car I offered him a extra strong mint and he grinned cheekily. We both knew what we were thinking about. he popped one in his mouth and I did the same. As he stopped in the driveway, I... made use of my fresh breath, you could say. We then exchanged goodbyes and I got out of the car and went inside the house, waving him off as he sped down my road. I sighed and shut the door. I took a shower and dried my hair, got into my PJ's with the terrible pick up line on them, and went to bed. Alice was already fast asleep.

Over the next month, me and Raoul had gotten even closer. He joined our 'group' and he made new friends. He seemed much more happy, and I was glad for him. We were labelled by everyone else as boyfriend and girlfriend, but he hadn't officially asked me out yet, even though he has taken me on countless dates and we have gotten to third base. He definitely seemed to have changed from his previous state.

"Hey, Bella can I talk to you for a second?" I nodded as he took my hand and smirked at me, leading me away from our group of friends. He stopped me, and held me in place. He shuffled on his feet, nervous.

"Well, you know how I've never had to officially ask this.. so I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do. If i'm honest I thought we didn't need to ask, from how far we've gone so far-"

"Raoul. Whats-"

"-Will you be my girlfriend?"

I stopped. Was he asking me out. I said the only word I knew right.

"Yes." He smiled and kissed me deeply, with a touch of tongue. Our lips moved together until the bell had gone, so we parted and rushed to our classes. At the door I smiled up at him and kissed him again before he had to run to his own class. I sat in my chair, content that everything was okay in my life.

After school, Raoul took me to his house again, and I chatted to Aro for a while. He asked me about how my family was, and I asked him how the stocks were. He asked how school was and I asked who was on the cricket game. Phil had taught me as a child how to play cricket, but I was much more interested in rounders and basketball. I wasn't much of the sporty type, but I could hit a ball with a stick and throw a ball threw a hoop and bounce a ball as I dodge people. Of course these sports are more complicated than that, but I didn't see it as that.

Aro had to leave at 6pm as he needed to run an errand that would take sometime, as he needed to go to the city. He told Raoul that he'll be back the next day and to look after himself. Raoul nodded, pulling me into his side. As Aro shut the door and we heard the car dive down the drive and past the gate, Raoul hugged me.

"So...movie and a bottle of my Dad's wine?" he mumbled into my skin, placing a kiss on my neck. I nodded, breathing him in. He smelled like toffee, as his shower gel had that scent. It was unique and nice. Raoul put a Dvd in and we both sat to watch it, sipping on our beverages. If you had looked at us on the sofa, we would have looked happy, me leaning my head on his shoulder, as he wrapped his arm around me, pulling me closer. We put our glasses on the coffee table and after the movie, we went to his bedroom. We cuddled and kissed, and we didn't stop. Raoul deepened the kiss and I let him. I pulled his shirt over his head and it fell to the floor. Raoul did likewise to me, my dress went to the floor. More removal of clothes occurred and then we were just movement under the covers.

I woke up being spooned by Raoul. I looked at the clock. It was 5am, and we had college today. Raoul must have started to wake up with my movement as he stirred and kissed my bare shoulder.

"Raoul" I whispered.

"Yes?"

"We have college."

He groaned and pulled me closer. "Mmm...you smell lovely."

I sighed. "Come on." I moved off the bed and walked to his bathroom. "Can I take a shower?"

He nodded. "Can I come with you?" I laughed. "Please? We'll save water and energy?"

He is so cheesy. I let him follow and we had a second round in the shower, which was very interesting. I used his shower-gel, and I lathered myself in it. He had a mint shampoo, which contrasted oddly. I took a towel and went back to his room. I kept a few of my own clothes here, just in case I spilt something on my other clothes. I took my flower patterned tight skirt and a white strappy top. I tucked the top into my skirt and used Raoul's mini hairdryer and straighteners. Yes he had straighteners, and no I wasn't bothered by it. Why should I be? He came in then wrapped in just a towel and took some clean boxers out of a drawer and grabbed some trousers and checked shirt.

"Hey, weather said it's gonna be a tad cold today, wanna borrow a hoodie?" he asked, looking at me as he changed.

I nodded, and he handed me his dark Jack Willis hoody. I put in on, and left it open so it didn't look like I was wearing anything but the hoody, as it was a bit big on me. He drove us to school with the music blasting and us both screaming our heads off to the lyrics. I was on a buzz when we reached school, which didn't help Raoul as he had to contain me as his duty of a boyfriend. I giggled and ran to our seats.

"Raoul's my boyfriend, did you know?" I laughed crazily and clapped my hands, hyperactive. They all nodded. I giggled like crazy.

"Raoul, did you give her coffee?" Angela asked. He shook his head. What he doesn't know won't hurt him, but I was quite tired so I made some when he was upstairs. Hehe. It tasted gross though.

"Hey Bella, can I talk to you for a sec?" Alice asked.

"Well if you want to ask me out, Raoul's beaten you to it." I laughed and skipped into a spot.

"Where were you yesterday?" Alice asked, suspicious.

"I slept with Raoul."

Alice looked shocked. "What?" I nodded. "um...Okay? You can't just come out with that ane expect me to react normally. Come lets go get a coffee from the coffee shop" I nodded and sung Higher by the Saturdays as we went to the coffee shop just outside of college, as our college was based in the centre of town. Once Alice had got her coffee she sang along with me.

"I'm gonna lift-lift it higher!" We threw our hands up into the air, spinning around. A car almost hit us. I borrowed some of her coffee, sipping it eagerly. "So when I say listen...Nuh Nuh Nuh messin up the WORDS!" We forgot the rest of it and made up a bit. Alice giggled and shoved me towards the college. I let out a high pitched sigh that made us both put our hands to our ears laughing hysterically.

"OMG Bella I'm gonna ruin my makeup!" Alice screamed as we held onto each other for support. Our friends waved us over and we ran to them, jumping onto them.

"Where's Raoul?" I asked Ben. He shrugged.

"He got a call and went off into his car." I didn't worry much and carried on dancing with Alice. My hype died down a little by first lesson, then lessened further by biology. He wasn't there, so I sent him a text.

Where are you? B xxx

I waited the whole lesson but I received no reply.

Raoul? Whats wrong? xxx

I decided to ask Alice at the end of school.

"I don't know. Maybe you should go over there." I nodded. But it just so happened that I was swamped with homework, that it was late before I could go, and Mum wouldn't let be go so late.

"Not walking. Nope." she had said. I sighed, going to my room. I'll sneak out later. I told Alice where I was going.

"No. Don't go today. Go tomorrow. You're overreacting." I looked at her, but what she said next made me break. "I'll tell Mum if you left." I groaned, going back to bed. I knew it was for the best. But I sent him another text.

What's going on? What is wrong? tell me x

The next day was a school day, but I woke up early, leaving Alice a note:

Going to Raoul's house. You know where it is xx

ps. will be back for school don't worry.

(A/N- This next part until the end of the chapter contains negative stuff, and at the right end contains reference to rape. You are free to skip to the next chapter if you wish. I won't stop you ;) )

I then walked to Raoul's and pressed the button. Nobody answered. So I did what I thought best. I climbed over the gates. Raoul told me once that he had climbed it many time before when he was locked out or had secretly crept out of the house. I landed with a thud on my bum, which hurt, but I got up and ran to the front door. I peered through the windows, but could only see darkness. I knocked, but nobody came. It was a chilly morning, and I knew where his spare key was, so I walked to the side of the house and under a plant pot, was the key. I went back and opened the door. I heard a faint music coming from upstairs. I followed and it reached Raoul's room. The music was thumping now, and I was scared shit-less. I opened the door, and I saw the worse happen. Raoul was collapsed on his bed, dressed in what he wore yesterday, with a bottle of alcohol in his hand. I went over to his stereo player and turned the music off, causing him to wake up. He looked around, helpless.

"What the fuck? Bella? Why are you here? You need to leave." he got up of his bed, wobbling.

"What the FUCK is going on here? I sent you texts and have called you. You never picked up." I picked up his phone off his dresser and shoved it in his face.

"I...I had nothing to say."

"What are you talking about? How much have you had?" I eyed the empty bottles of alcohol on his bedside table and floor. I could smell the strong scent of smoke. "You've started to smoke again?"

"Did you know what I got called about?" He shut me up and continued talking. "My FATHER went to...bury my brother WITHOUT ME. My BROTHER who had just come from post- mortem as to why he DIED. But I knew why he had died. He had gotten sick...sick of having to live this miserable life where everyone is here to use somebody...and nobody know what true happiness really is. But my FATHER went WITHOUT ME. I CARE! I loved my brother as much as he did! But my father never cared about me. I killed his 'soul-mate' after all. He loved my brother more than me."

"W-w-what? Diego, your brother died?" Raoul nodded, swaying. "Why didn't you tell me? When was it? I could have helped you cope."

He laughed. "You know that... year I had skipped? He died around that time. I couldn't face school. I couldn't tell them that my brother had committed suicide. We told the police who had found him...in his car...that we knew nothing. But we knew EVERYTHING!" He was scaring me. I chucked his phone in his direction and he looked at me angry. He walked up to me, catching my outstretched arm forcefully.

"Anyway...baby...you look...so beautiful tonight..., I just want to fuck you...so much..." I jerked away from him, but he swung his other arm around me, dropping his drink. "Oh no you don't, Belllllaa." He dug his face into my neck, smelling me forcefully. I struggled to get away from him, but he was too strong. I should have kept his phone with me. He jerked his hips towards mine, and pushed me towards the wall. I started to cry, tears falling quietly.

"Please...don't..." I whimpered. He then forcefully pulled my legs up around his waist and ground his hard-on into me. I choked on my tears.

"Why not...Bella? Don't you love me? Don't you want me to be happy? Do you want some whisky, or vodka? Aro won't mind, as long as I'm fucking his idols daughter..." more tears started to fall. I looked at the clock. I should be in school by now. Shouldn't Alice worry? Will it be her that save the day, like the superhero in the movies? I shook my head.

"You don't know the meaning of love." I spat on him harshly. He growled and picked me up and threw me onto his bed. I tried to kick him but he caught my leg and slammed his hand in the centre of my leg, causing a disgusting crack to be heard. I screamed painfully as he forced my legs open as he removed his boxers.

"Please...Don't..." I whimpered once more.

Nobody saved the day today.

Eurgh. I feel crap writing about that at the end. I was deciding just whether I should play it safe and let someone save the day, but this is life. Rape exists and it is sick, and hopefully to anyone reading, it made you more against rape than before.

The plot is changing as I write, its just flowing as I type, but I know the final conclusion, so yeah :)

I was inspired by the character's and their Twilight characteristics- Diego had a brother, who died. And Raoul was meant to be very strong, vioilent and competitive, but not too smart, which I have added in as well. Fred also had the 'smell' ability in The Short Second Life Of Bree Tanner, and also he was very smart, so I added that too.

I hope you enjoyed this so far.

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