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Q/A (on email)- The reason why I decided to sign up to fan fiction and write this is because I had a dream. And I didn't want to forget it. And then once I got started, things changed and I worked around bits and bobs. Thanks for asking. :)) xx
BPOV
I woke up at noon, and went straight to the bathroom. I coughed and spluttered, holding the sides on the toilet, and I felt someone come up behind me, holding my hair back and rubbing soothing circles on my back. I sat on the bathroom floor and rested my cheek on the cold floor. I saw Jake looking at me, a worried expression on his face.
"Bells, I'm gonna take you to our Doc. Please brush your teeth and get dressed?" I nodded, and slowly got ready. Half an hour later, Alice came with us in the truck to sort this thing out. She also held the sick bowl in case Bella couldn't make it into the toilet in time. I drove, but it didn't seem fast enough. It never did, but this seemed as if it was worse. I kept on glancing at my pale girlfriend, and held the steering wheel tighter. We soon made it to the familiar long drive, and we drove up to the large mansion. I saw Edward's Volvo parked in the driveway, and I parked behind it. I helped Bella out and carried her inside.
"Carlisle?" I called out, and I saw Esme come from the kitchen. She looked shocked and rushed to me.
"What happened? Carlisle!" She shouted, and rested her hand on Bella's cheek, then her forehead. The Doc came from upstairs, followed by Edward. He looked at me as Carlisle assisted me to the sofa, to lay Bella down so he can examine her. Edward then laid his eyes on Alice, and his eyes went huge, and he beamed.
"Alice? ALICE!" I looked at Alice, who had the same amazed expression as Edward. Alice put the bowl down on the coffee table and jumped on Edward, him spinning her around.
"Why are you here? You're meant to be in England, or did I miss something?" He laughed, shocked. I was confused as anything. "Where's Bella?" He looked around and Alice stepped back. He then laid his eyes on Bella on the sofa. Then at me. Then at Bella again, as if the puzzle seemed to have fit. He stepped back, and Alice reached out for him, whispering something to him. His smile dropped off of his face, and he sat on the bottom step, a blank expression on his face. I looked at Carlisle who was shining a light in Bella's eyes.
"I'm tired, Jake." Bella groaned."I want to sleep."
"Jacob, has she been acting weird, or different?" Doc asked me. I thought back.
"Well...yesterday I was cooking Bella's favourite meal and she smelt something off. Then we started to eat, and she ran to the toilet sick..." Carlisle looked back at Bella.
"Bella?" Carlisle spoke to her. "Can you tell me when your last period was?" I heard a groan to the right, and Edward had his head in his hands, rocking back and forth. Alice looked panicked, standing up.
"Doc, what are you saying?" I asked him, and he looked up at me.
"Um...I don't know. I thought I was going to start it soon, but it never came." Bella rolled around, then froze, stiffening and reached for the sick bowl. I looked away, flinching.
"Doc...what is wrong with Bella?"
"Well...it depends on your situation. I will have to grab a test, but I think she may be pregnant." Bella looked at me. Her eyes were huge and then she started shaking with sobs. I ran forward and picked her up, and she cried on my shoulder, unable to utter a single word. I looked to Carlisle, who was speaking to Edward, who had agony written all over his his.
"Edward. What's going on with you? You know the Swan's?" Edward scoffed and I got annoyed. I let Alice comfort Bella and I stood up, and faced Edward.
"What the fuck is up with you? Did something happen like last year? Another broken heart? Because if not, I need your help. I need to help Bella." I pleaded with him. He stood still.
He spoke with no emotion, just a hard, cold voice." Is Bella your girlfriend?" I frowned.
"Why? She is." Edward shut his eyes and hung his head. "How do you know her?"
"She is..." He repeated. "Bella is the same Bella from last year. My Bella." I froze, and lost memories flooded into my mind, clashing with the obvious. Edward arrived home, sullen. Edward telling me about an amazing girl. Bella Swan. The image on the magazine of him and her. The familiar name, the familiar face. Edward's reaction to her. I hadn't realised I was on the floor by now, and Carlisle was pulling me up.
"W-w-what? Your Bella..." I mumbled. "But she's mine..." I felt a shove to my shoulder. I looked up and Edward had a stone hard face.
"get out." He whispered. "now." Carlisle jumped in front of Edward, who was about to take another step forward.
"Edward. I want YOU to leave. You need to cool off. I need to get Bella to the hospital to do a test and a prenatal scan."
"Doc. I need to speak with you. In private." Carlisle nodded and Edward stepped back.
"Doc...Bella was raped before she left England. By her ex. I think he is the father." Carlisle nodded, having gotten into doctor mode. "I doubt Bella would want to keep the baby..." He nodded again.
"Well I have to test Bella for a confirmation that she is pregnant, and she can decided whether she wants to carry on the pregnancy." I nodded and went to Bella.
"Bells, we have to take you to the hospital to check whether you are pregnant." Bella nodded and lifted her arms as I picked her up and carried her out of the door. Edward was standing outside, and looked at Bella with an alert expression on his face. Carlisle opened his car door of his Mercedes and I put her inside, going around to the other side to go in. Alice sat at the front, and looked at Edward warily as we drove off. She gave me a look as we went to the hospital, and I mouthed to her.
"Explain EVERYTHING later." I mouthed. Alice nodded and turned back around.
BPOV
Raoul. I remember now. I blocked out most of my memories of that night, but now that there is a threat, I realise that Raoul never wore a condom as he...raped me. I wave of nausea hit me as we sped to the hospital, and I clung to Jake.
"Jake...I'm s-s-sorry." He looked shocked.
"Why are you sorry?" I shook my head, tears spilling down my face.
"For putting you through this. You are such a great boyfriend!" I squeezed him with as much effort as I could. We then arrived at the hospital.
JAKEPOV
While Bella was having blood tests run on her, I pulled Alice to the side.
"Bella and Edward?" I asked her urgently. "I know allot of it. Met on holiday, had fallen in love, had sex, split to usa and uk...But explain the rets. PLEASE." I held her shoulders, shaking a little. Alice looked afraid, and I let go of her.
"Bella and Edward had a special connection. They fell for each other quickly-" I winced, and looked away, shutting my eyes. "- after the holiday, Bella was devastated, and tried to keep in contact for as long as she could. Months later, we tried to move on, but...Edward has always had a piece of her heart. I'm sorry."
I leaned on the wall and slid down, hitting the ground. Alice followed suit as we waited for Bella.
"What does this mean? Will she break up with me? Will she be with Edward?" Alice leaned on my shoulder as I asked unanswered questions.
Soon later, a doctor came forward.
"Hello, are you with Bella Swan?" I stood and picked Alice up on her feet, nodding.
"Is she okay?" I pleaded for him to answer me. Forget the slow pauses- I want answers now!
"Bella is pregnant, and had been for 5 weeks." He paused. Stupid doctor. "But we want to keep her here overnight as under the circumstances of the rape, as well as she is showing abnormal signs that doesn't relate to the pregnancy. We think she may have an infection, which will threaten the pregnancy." I saw Alice nod, but I was frozen in place. the information hadn't absorbed in yet.
Alice pulled me into a room and I saw Bella sleeping. I grabbed a chair, swinging it so I could sit directly next to Bella. I stared at her, willing her to wake up. I grabbed her hand and stroked circles around it. I looked at Alice, who was on Bella's other side. Suddenly Carlisle popped his head into the room.
"How is she? I've asked for a favor, and I will be Bella's doctor." He started writing on a clipboard. "We had the results and she is definitely pregnant." I nodded. The slow pausing doctor told us that. "Once she wakes up, we will decide together whether it is safe or for her benefit to terminate, unless she wants to keep it." Speaking of the girlfriend, and the girlfriend shall awake. Bella's eyes fluttered open, and she squeezed my hand.
"Hi." She chewed on her lip.
"Hi. I'm Carlisle, your doctor. I live close to you." He smiled. "Do you remember anything?" She nodded.
"I'm pregnant with my rapist's child, aren't I?" Carlisle nodded, and Bella gulped.
"You are 5 weeks gone, so whoever you slept with...or...is most likely the father of your child." He continued. "It is your option on whether you want to terminate the pregnancy, as it is still legal."
Bella looked at her stomach, and stroked it lightly. I frowned. "I can't have this baby. It's not mine." She spoke. Carlisle nodded, and wrote on the clipboard.
"We can arrange for the termination." Bella then suddenly jerked and shouted out in pain. Her heart rate increases on the monitor, and Bella clutched her stomach. Carlisle rushed forward, and Alice stood back, to let him through. Bella's breathing was more laboured, more louder, as Carilse analysed her. Bella calmed down slightly, and then relaxed, gulping mouthfuls of air.
"Stomach pains is not good this far into the pregnancy. If you have developed an infection, this could cause high risk to the baby inside, also. there is a chance you could miscarriage."
I stayed with Bella overnight. I begged to stay and was allowed, but Alice had to tell Chief Swan. I watched her sleep, content, and I felt my eyes start to shut also. About an hour later I woke up to Bella rolling around in bed, and I saw blood stain the white sheets. I jumped up and shook Bella awake.
"Bella! Bella! Doctor?" I ran around the corner to see Carlisle run forward.
"What's the emergency?" he asked calmly.
"Bella. Bleeding." Carlisle then dashed past be to Bella's room. She was groaning and clutching her stomach, and the blood had spread to the size of a basket ball. Doc tried to wake Bella up, and she gasped in bed, clutching her stomach with one hand as she sat up with her other hand.
"W-w-whats going on? Bella shouted wildly. She saw me and reached forward for me, and I sat back in the chair. Carlisle waited for the blood to stop, then helped Bella go to the toilet to clean up. A midwife or someone changed the bed sheets, and Bella sat back and rested her back on the pillows. Carlisle stood at her bedside.
"That...was you having a miscarriage. So no termination will be needed, but we will just do another scan to make sure you are not pregnant." Bella nodded, seeming relieved. She looked at me, reaching for my hand, and I handed my closest hand to her.
She looked into my eyes deeply. "I have no idea what I'd do without you. I love you so much." She leaned in for a kiss, and my lips lightly touched hers. I wasn't feeling it. She pulled back and looked at my oddly. "What's wrong?"
I took a glance at Carlisle, who was halfway out of the door. I looked pleadingly at him as he walked away. Should I tell her?
"Nothings wrong, babe. I love you too." I leaned in for another kiss and felt her persistent tongue again. I opened my mouth and her tongue brushed with mine. I almost forgot about the persisting image of Edwards agonised expression. Bella gripped the collar of my shirt and pulled me further forward, making me sit up and hold myself by my hands on either side of her body.
"Bella." I mumbled against her lips. I pulled back and I froze. Bella had tears in her eyes. "What's wrong?" I whispered urgently.
"Do you love me?" She whispered. I nodded. "Promise?"
"I promise Bella. I love you."
"Then what's wrong?"
I sighed. "I found something out today. And I'm worried it will affect our relationship." Bella shook her head.
"Whatever it is, nothing will change the fact that I love you." I shook my head.
"What about Edward Cullen?" She stiffened. "Edward lives in Forks. Goes to Forks High...He is my best friend. I never knew that it was the same Edward."
Bella leaned back and I cringed, sitting back in my chair. "Jake...Edward lives...h-h-here?" I nodded. "That's impossible. Nobody is that cruel to make me...choose." I cringed again. My heart strings tugged at the possibility of Bella choosing Edward. I looked away, and Bella reached out, wiping something wet from my cheek.
"Jake. I love you. I can't change that. But I love Edward still... I need some time. Please understand." I looked up, and she looked torn. She leaned forward, and touched my lips with hers. I leaned forward further, desperate, as the kiss became more urgent. I opened my mouth to her tongue and our tongues worked fiercely against each others. A moaned worked its way from deep within my throat, and Bella gave a little squeak. I would have laughed. I would have stopped kissing her. But I didn't know how long I had with her left, if Bella made the wrong decision. I hovered above her as I kissed her, pushing her further into he pillow. She rubbed her hand on my erection and I pushed my hips into her hand. I used my one hand to lean on the bed, whilst the other one when to her jaw, cupping her face as I lovingly kissed her. I then felt her start to shake, and I leaned back, ready for her to cry in my arms. She put one hand on her stomach.
"I-I-I was ready to terminate the pregnancy anyway. I didn't even give him a chance. Just because of his father..." She sobbed. "I'm sorry. I just feel grief for the poor baby that could have been something..." I rubbed her arm soothingly. "And then here I am debating whether I could have a better chance with Edward, when I have no idea what I really want! I can't choose him. I'm sorry, Edward. I love Jacob." Her breathing soon evened out, and I spent some time thinking. Am I what is best for Bella? Or should I let Edward have her? I think I wanted to keep her, but Edward claimed her first. But he lost his chance. What is a guy to do? Bella must be thinking that she should give me a chance, so I will take that, and be the best boyfriend Bella needs. Screw Edward.
Ok ok...I know what you are thinking...'Wait...isn't this a Bella and Edward story?' Well...read on and find out! I have intention to cause a little drama between E and J, as well as some extra stuff...read and review please!
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