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BPOV

Ugh Ugh UGH! I should not be feeling this- at all. When I looked at Edward's worried eyes, the eyes that I first saw back in Turkey, when I first fell for him. I dragged Jake out, forgetting about the guests at Emily's. Jake drove to his house, where I spent that time trying to convince him that I had no feelings for Edward.

"Honestly. I am happy...here...with you..."I stroked his face, and he pouted, shaking his head.

"No...are you sure you aren't making a mistake? I want you to be happy. I don't want you to regret, holding my feelings together, than for you to be with...your true love." He winced. I grabbed his face with both of my hands. I pleaded with him with my eyes.

"Jake...I want to stop living in the past. I...I want to be happy with you. Please don't let him come between us. Please..." I leaned forward for a kiss, sliding my tongue between his lips. He opened his mouth willingly and leaned back on the bed, and I straddled him. He groaned I pulled his shirt above his head, missing the contact. I dipped my head and laid kisses down his chest. He stretched as I got further down.

"Bella." A whisper left his parted lips. He hummed as I ran my hands over his torso. He then stiffened and sat up, shaking his head. I frowned.

"Jake, what's wrong?" I sat back, and he looked at me, his eyes soft.

"You still love him." He stated, and he gulped, his Adam's apple bobbing up and down. I sighed, looking down. "Tell me the truth, Bella. You owe me this. Tell me how you truly feel. You promised we'd tell each other everything. Good and bad." He lifted my chin, and tears filled up, spilling over, I jerked my head to the side, wiping my tears away with my hand.

"Don't make me do this." I pleaded.

"I need to know! I don't want to messed around with and I want answers now!" Jacob yelled, starting to get frustrated, and I winced. I pushed past him and I got up and ran outside, tears streaming down my face. I headed for the beach, and I heard Jacob calling after me. If I'm honest, I had no idea what I was do do. I sat on a rock and cried my heart out. I wasn't interrupted for a good hour, when I saw Kim and Jared walking along the beach. Kim noticed me and ran up to me, and enveloped me in a hug, which caused me more tears.

"Bella! Honey, what's wrong?" Kim said worried.

"I can't decide." I cried, sobbing on her shoulder. "It h-hurts."

Kim hushed me, and I felt Jared walk away. A few minutes later, I heard footsteps.

"Bella. You can't keep holding onto them both. You need to figure out who you want. First person that comes to your mind, who do you feel is best for you, what does your heart tell you?" I sighed.

"I lied to Edward. I still miss him, and I still love him, even now. But how do I know whether he has changed? He stopped talking to me, and we lost contact! And Jake has always been there, and I really like him..." I breathed a sigh of relief, having decided who I want. Who I need. What my heart desires. I let go of my grip on Kim and smiled at her. She didn't return it, only glared at something behind me. I turned around, and my heart broke in half. Edward and Jake were standing behind me, their faces torn. Two best friends, fighting over one girl. Jake had his head turned away from me, so I couldn't see his expression. Edward's eyes were soft like honey, but he then looked to Jacob, and winced in pain. I stood up, fumbling with myself, as I picked myself off the rock and ran towards Jake.

"Jake! Jacob!" I tried to see hi face, but he kept turning around, then I managed to grab his hand and pull it away from his face. I thought I had seen agony and pain before, but this was worse. Words could not explain how hurt he looked. Tears filled up and spilled over, as I cried.

"Jake. I'm sorry. I can't do this. It hurts too much. We can't be together." Jake squeezed his eyes shut, and tears fell. He reopened his eyes, and they seemed softer, and I melted. He let out a short laugh, then hiccuped.

"Knew it was gonna happen, anyhoo." He joked, to lighten the mood. I shook my head and leaned in for a kiss. He held onto me for as long as he could, and the lack of oxygen made him pull back. "Take care of yourself. You'll still have me in school, as a best friend." He raised his eyebrows, and I giggled. "And I'm not against friends with benefits in any way." I nodded, then hugged him.

"I'll keep that in mind." I ensured him, softening my tone.

"You better. If I'm upset I want to see that ass of yours in my bedroom with protection that same day." I could feel him grinning. I smirked, then glanced at Edward, who was looking away. "You...you have permission, from the ex, to date Edward. I can't be positive that it won't be awkward, but we'll get used to it."

JACOBPOV

I saw it coming. I was like a freak psychic. And I felt crap, like I wanted to find some rope and hang myself, but I don't think Bella would take that lightly if I joked about that. And that's all I can do. Joke about my love for her. Because I know deep down that Bella and Edward are perfect for each other, and I think I saw it as soon as I received that text off Edward- 'Her?' As if it were filled with curiosity, like he foresaw it to be his true love.

I let go of Bella then walked up to Edward, who looked at me apologetically.

"Save it for someone who cares, douche-bag." I grinned. It was my thing to say something like that. Edward grinned, and I gave him a manly hug. "If I'm honest with you, I am Bella's best friend. Break her heart, I'll fucking break your face. I'll start with that forehead, dude. It's huge. I'll shave that hair off too." Edward nodded, then saluted me as he strolled over to Bella. Ugh this will be tough. But I'm Jacob Black. I can live with it by drowning in self pity for a couple of months, before I fall for someone else. That too, was also, very...me.

BPOV

Edward walked over to me and we stood in silence for a moment.

"I'm sorry, Bella. For not calling back, or texting back, or emailing back. I couldn't bear to hang on when you were in England, and I thought I would never, ever see you again..." I put my finger to his lips as he scolded himself.

"Shh...I felt the same way." I said in a small voice. He looked at me, his face a sign of calm and peacefulness, and love. He hesitantly pulled my chin to his, and the anticipation was ginormous as our lips touched for a second, electricity sparking like fireworks. Fuck this...I wrapped my arms around his neck and tugged at his hair as his tongue begged for entrance. I opened willingly, and I felt alive... When we came up for breath, I was bouncing happily, and he had his famous crooked grin planted on his face. He took my hand and pulled me to his car. I didn't recognise the route, but I vaguely remembered the house, as the time when I found out I was pregnant. I needed to explain to Edward about that shit. He pulled me to the door and out came Carlisle and Esme, and Edward had a proud look on his face as he introduced me to them. I knew Carlisle, and maybe Esme was there when I first came here. I smiled at them politely and shook their hands. Edward pulled me upstairs and I decided to get the big stuff out of the way.

"Edward...tell me what happened after the holiday?" Edward nodded.

"Well, you know I kept in contact for a while...well I went back to school. Vick pestered me allot- she was my ex.-"

"-That bitch? Ergh she is a twat." He nodded, smiling.

"Then I just studied hard, got into trouble a bit, drank a bit... slept...around..." I cringed.

"Who?"

"Nobody special...especially nobody I knew. I went out to Port Angeles and Seattle to get drunk, and I slept with about 4 people. I had a relationship with this one girl...who has left school now for NYU, but he taught me...a lot, in the sex department." He waggled his eyebrows and I blushed crimson.

"I broke up with her before she left. I felt that it was just for the sex, no strings attached really. No feelings." I nodded, and glanced down to our conjoined hands.

"You?" He squeezed my hand. I took a deep breath before I began.

"Um...well I spent a while just with Alice, kept our distance from everyone. Then we went to a party and I almost had sex with this guy. Sober, we got close and started to date. We had sex, and soon after he acted weird. He didn't come to school, and I found him drunk in his bedroom. The father of my baby...was him. He raped me, Edward." I saw him tense up, but I was quite used to it by now. Before he could respond, I added. "He killed himself that day." Edward didn't relax, and his grip on my hand tightened.

"Ow! Edward! Let go!" I shook my hand, and his hand immediately loosened enough to set me free. He looked deep in thought, so I continued without a pause to get everything out of my system. "You pretty much know the rest. Came here to live with Charlie, met Jake. Dated Jake. Sex with Jake. Found out I was prego, had miscarriage. Spilt with Jake. Yadda yadda." I then freaked and dashed downstairs to meet Carlisle and Esme again.

"Hi, Mrs and Mr Cullen! I waved and hung around, waiting for Edward to cool off." Esme was cooking, so I offered to help her. Pasta bake. Yum. Carlisle came in , newspaper in hand, then sat at the table, setting down the paper.

"Hello, Bella. Where's Edward got to?" I shrugged.

"I told him about the situation when I last came here." Carlisle nodded and started to read. I stirred the pot as Esme hummed along to the radio.

"When's Emmett back from filming?" I asked, looking around.

"Um...well he was due back two days ago, but I'm sure he went to Rosalie's or something-"

"-No. Rosalie and Jasper aren't due back until next week."

"Oh. Maybe I should give him a call-" we then heard a loud beeping from outside, and Esme drained the pasta as Carlisle got up to open the door. I followed him.

"Honey I'm HOME!" Emmett called as he strolled through the doors. He looked just like he had last year- still the cuddly bear I remember. He caught his eye on me and ran forward. I cringed as he picked me up and spun me around.

"BELLAA! YOU'RE BACK! Where's my pixie?"

"Em! Good to see you too! But I can't...breaathhee!" He put me down, smirking. I breathed a sigh of relief. "Alice is...at Emily's."

He nodded. "So you've met the lot, then? Have you started dating Eddie again? Where is he?"

I shrugged and told him about the rape, hopefully not killing his buzz.

"Well, I'll say. Dude. Bella. If you need anyone to talk to...talk to Rose. She...knows about that stuff." He whispered in my ear. I frowned and he nodded slyly. I he picked me up and threw me in his car and sped off, leaving Edward. I grinned as he drove, pushing the speed limits as he headed for La Push, then Emily's. He got out, and sang in a feminine voice.

"Emilie! Oooh EMILIEE! Boys!" Emily walked out, arms wide, as she accepted the bear hug off Em. She called over his shoulder.

"Bella. Explain another time, okay?" I nodded, smirking.

"Where's Alice?" Em asked Em. I grinned at that thought.

"Sam's dropped her home." Em then grinned at me and I walked back to the car. He was in before I was, and he sped off down the familiar road and carried me in the familiar house.

"ALIIICE!" Came the womanly voice. Alice jumped down the stairs and Emmett picked both of us up.

"Big Big news, Pix! Bel and Eddie are gonna get together! I hope the makeup sex is good Bells, just use a condom." Boy Em was hyper as Alice. Alice groaned.

"TMI Emmy!"

"I'm utterly humiliated like Emmett when he finds he has to drive a pink car on the way to the car painter person." I mumbled, as I watched Edward spray paint Emmett's Jeep. Emmett didn't get the hint, until I pulled his head in the door's direction, and he let us both go, almost treading on me as he ran to his car, screaming 'BABY! MY BABY!' Edward laughed and ran to me, picked me up, and took me away in his Volvo. And in his car, did we share our next kiss. It was sweet and romantic, and I wouldn't have it any other way.

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